My Past and My Future Collide
Chapter 18: Insecurities about Us
Mitchie walked into the cabin about an hour after her and Trevor had made up. They went on a walk just talking together. She was a little confused that he forgave her so fast. She was kissing another guy and yet he said it was fine after he found out Aaron kind of forced it but she was still in shock they were already back together but happy none the less.
Caitlyn was in the cabin alone and Mitchie was feeling bad that Caitlyn was all by herself.
"Hey Caitlyn, where are the girls" She asked
"Lola is with Baron and well Peggy is with Sander" She stated
"Oh okay, sorry I was with Trevor" Mitchie said
"It's alright I know you want to spend time with your boyfriend" Caitlyn said
"Yeah, well at least we are still together" Mitchie said
"What are you talking about" Caitlyn asked
"This morning was pretty bad" She said
"Oh My God, I heard Aaron kissed a girl with a boyfriend, what an ass" Caitlyn said
Mitchie's face turned pale "Yeah I was there, it was me Cait" She said quietly and Caitlyn eyes went un-normally wide.
"What" She exclaimed
"Yeah he was comforting me because I was upset, his duties as a camper is to make sure campers are okay anyways he kissed me and Trevor saw" Mitchie said
"I want to kill him!" She said mad
"Calm down Caitlyn I fixed it that's what I was doing" Mitchie concluded
"So Trevor understood" She asked
"No, he kind of broke up with me and just left after he said he couldn't trust me. I fell asleep for an hour on the beach then I was face-to-face with Aaron on my way here, the ass himself. We argued and Trevor heard then he came here waiting for me then we made up and yeah" Mitchie concluded
"He forgive you" She asked a little confused
"Yeah, he said it wasn't my fault and that he knows I care for him and that Aaron tried to force it" Mitchie said "I was surprised he forgave me after something so big" She said leaning against her headboard
"Yeah but this is kind of like something earlier this summer" Caitlyn said
"What?" Mitchie asked confused
"Trevor can forgive you for kissing another guy, yet you can't forgive Shane for something as small as a little white lie" Caitlyn said which was true
"Caitlyn, this is totally different, this doesn't relate to Shane" Mitchie said although she felt how he probably did earlier but she wasn't going to mention that to Caitlyn
"It isn't, he lied so what you kissed a guy and Trevor forgives you can't you forgive Shane" Caitlyn asked
"Caitlyn drop it" Mitchie almost snapped
"Okay sorry" Caitlyn said knowing she got to Mitchie but dropped it
That night they both went to bed before the other girls returning. Caitlyn was trying to figure out why Mitchie wouldn't forgive Shane and Mitchie was finally thinking that maybe being with Trevor wasn't the best. She was starting to get insecure about if it was the right thing. Before she fell asleep she pushed it out of her head telling her being with Trevor was the right thing but was it?
It was now the following Sunday and Shane had been up for an hour and was in his room playing video games. The last week had been okay. He had spent time with Jenny but not a lot. It was awkward after he called their night a date. They haven't really done much. In the last week he spent about 2 hours with her. His conscious was bothering him to no end he really needed to figure this stuff out, but he didn't know you to go to about it. As if on cue Nate's ring came blasting from his phone. Shane paused the game, and then lay on this bed answering the phone.
"Hey Nate" Shane said into the phone
"Hey bud, Jason is here to" Nate said
"Hey" Shane heard Jason's voice say
"Hi" Shane said "How are you boys"
"Good, missing recording music with our brother. We aren't doing it without Shane. Connect Three is a bond and we stand by each other" Nate spoke
"Thanks" Shane said "I really needed this, and I got one song down" He said
"That's great man" Nate said "Ready for Camp rock" He asked forgetting about Mitchie for a second then mentally kicked himself for asking that
"I don't know man, if I am going" Shane said
"What's going on dude, you were so excited originally" Nate said
"Before everything was said and done" Shane said and Nate sighed
"Oh okay" Nate said
"A lot as actually happened and nothing is really going right" Shane said and Nate got curious
Nate walked into his room and lay on his bed in the Connect 3 household. "We can talk if you want Jason is playing video games, I am in my room now" Nate offered and Shane sighed
"Well do you remember Jenny" Shane asked
"Jenny Garth? Definitely you had a crush on her for 2 years" Nate said
"Yeah well we have being hanging out a lot lately" he said almost stressing the A LOT.
"Oh, cool" Nate said "Wait as friends right?" Nate questioned
"Sort of" Shane replied
"Sort of" Nate repeated
"Well we both like each other and want more, yet we are very close and comfortable friends" He said
"What do you mean by comfortable" Nate said
"We cuddle and such" Shane replied
"That's all" Nate asked
"We kissed a couple of times" He asked
"Wait, you kissed, that's not friends Shane you haven't gone on dates or anything right?" Shane asked
"Not technically but a week ago I accidently called a night we hung out a date and now it has been awkward, and I did want it to be a date" Shane said
"You did, so you really like her" Nate asked
"Yeah, but I think it's wrong" Shane said
"Why" Nate questioned then clued in "Mitchie" He said
"Yeah" Shane agreed "I'm confused" He states
"Look Shane. We know you aren't over Mitchie" Nate said
"She is over me Nate" Shane replied
"You haven't been to Camp Rock you don't know that for sure" Nate said and Shane Sighed knowing Nate was right
"I guess" Shane said quietly
"Look. I know you like Jenny and Mitchie but take it slow. You can't lead her one even though your feeling are true, don't do anything rash take it slow" Nate said
"The only thing we did was kiss" Shane said
"Take it slower, for all of you I think it would be better if you staid friend but you seemed to cross that very thing line" Nate said
"I haven't yet" Shane concluded "We are going to be friends no matter what"
"Shane, if you go choose Mitchie, I don't know how Jenny will stay friends but be careful, and take is slower then slow" Nate said and right then Shane knew Nate was right
"I guess" Shane said
"Well dude I have to go, me and Jason are going out with our parents for lunch bye dude" Nate said
"Bye" Shane said
"Call if you need me" Nate said again
"Yeah bye" Shane said hanging up sighing. He knew Nate was right to a certain point why did Shane have to be so confused something needed to happen but what? He still had no idea about what to do. Go to camp rock and reconnect with Mitchie, or keep his connection with Jenny, he needed to figure out which one was right. His phone beeped signaling he had a text and opened it up smiling.
Hey Shane, do you want to hang out? Jen
Sure, what do you want to do?
Well I want to talk can we meet by the pond in about 20 minutes?
Sure, see you then bye Jen XO
Bye Shane XOX
Shane got up changing into a pair of American eagle sweat pants and a long sleeve t-shirt since it was a little chilly out today. It was cloudy and to rain later at least it wasn't raining now. He turned off his video games went downstairs slipped on his shoes grabbing a tuque and then heading out to the park. He used a tuque to try and not make himself noticeable that much so he slipped it on and walked to the all so familiar pond.
He got to the pond and sat on the bench waiting for Jenny to show up. He sat down his hands tucked into his shirt as the wind was getting a little cooler. Rain was definitely on its way, it was only coming in time, soon though.
After Jenny had text Shane she got dressed into a pair of Hollister sweat pants, a t-shirt then a zip-up hooded sweater. She slipped her phone into the pocket of her sweater then started towards the park. It was fairly close to her house closer then it was to Shane but she wanted to be there on time. She really needed to talk to her it was important.
She got to the park to see Shane waiting then walked to the bench down and sat down beside him. He looked gorgeous but she wanted to stop thinking about that right now. They gave each other a very quick hug.
"Hey Jen" Shane greeted smiling
"Hi Shane" She replied
"So what do you want to talk about" he asked
"Last weekend" she replied and he tensed up a little
"Sure what about it" he stated
"Saturday night" She stated and now he definitely knew where this was going
"Oh" he said quietly
"I wanted to know why you called it a date. Did you want it to be one?" she asked softly
"Well" he started
"You can tell me Shane" She said
He instantly thought about what Nate said. Take it slow. He was not over Mitchie and he was starting with Jenny and she couldn't give her false hope then tear it down. He did want it to be a date but again he didn't so this wasn't like he was telling the truth but the lie as well.
"No Jenny" he said "I didn't mean it. I don't know why I said it I'm sorry if I confused you but it was just friends" He said feeling good and bad about the whole thing
"Okay good" She says putting on a fake smile.
She was slightly hurt but she didn't want to let Shane see her weakness. She smiled fake so he wouldn't know. She really liked him and she knew not everything would turn out how she wanted it but when he had called it a date she got some hope he hoping it was. She was actually crushed. She liked him so much it was real to her but was he playing her?
She felt so strongly for him and he kept saying his feelings were real and she believed him but right now as he told her he didn't mean it and that he didn't want a date with her or it to be one she now doubted that his feelings were real at all. She felt awkward about what she was going to ask. She knew he had feelings for this other girl but she needed to know.
"Shane, are you just playing me?" She asked and his face twisted in emotion
His face was the picture of shock and sadness. How could she ask him that? He told her they were real she wouldn't doubt that would she? Well she was now. She looked at him for an answer as thunder rolled through out the sky tensing the situation more than it already was. He was definitely insecure about his feelings towards the two beauties he was involved with, but why did he know he was doing something wrong? His insecurities were bubbling up, when would they finally over flow and let him show them?
It was late Sunday afternoon at Camp Rock as Caitlyn was getting a little worried about Mitchie. She seemed really clingy to Trevor lately ever since the day after Caitlyn confronted her about not forgiving Shane well Trevor can forgive her for something much bigger. Caitlyn thought she might be insecure as she would be with him all the time unless they were in different classes or when it was bed time and it was a little weird. Caitlyn was worried she got out her phone and texted the one person she could talk about this with, her boyfriend, Nate.
Hey Nate, how are you?
Hey Cait, I'm okay missing you how about yourself?
I'm worried babe. I miss you too.
Worried about what?
Mitchie
Caitlyn stated that and this caught Nate's attention and curiosity
What about Mitchie?
Well, she is dating this dude Trevor. Don't tell Shane. This other guy kissed her and well Trevor found out it was his fault and forgave her but I kind of made her insecure and think about Shane.
How?
Well Trevor could forgive her for such a big thing but I mentioned that she couldn't forgive Shane for the little lie he did
How do you know she in insecure
She hasn't left Trevor's side since that unless they had separate classes or they had to sleep, that's it
I'm sure she will be fine
No Nate I don't think she will. Not until Shane is here. I think she still liked him and now regrets getting into a relationship. She might also be upset for not being able to forgive him after everything was now said and done. It's bad
How is it bad? I mean I thought she was becoming happy?
She was until this Aaron thing. After Shane wouldn't contact her and definitely I saw the insecurities and feeling surface this Thursday
What happened Thursday?
Well I was showering. I was coming out of the bathroom when I heard her talking to herself
Okay?
I looked out because we were the only two there. I saw she was holding something then she looked at running her fingers along it and says I miss you. When I went out she smiled at me but it was fake and I saw unshed tears in her eyes. Later I saw the picture lay down and Shane was on it. She misses him and I think they both need each other
I was talking to Shane today
And?
Well he is interested in this old friend and Mitchie as well
Oh
Yeah, anyways he says some of this feels wrong but so write he doesn't know what to do and of course I couldn't tell him
Yeah I understand. I wish they would see they need each other
Shane doesn't even know if he is going with us to Camp Rock
He doesn't?
No I hope he does
They need each other Nate I'm worried she needs him to come
He needs to because he is not over her. If they don't get together they at least need to get closer between them and everything last year
Yeah I have to go for dinner
Okay I will see you in a week and I cannot wait to give you this big hug I'm reserving for you. Hopefully Shane will come
Same here babe, love you, hopefully
Love you too Cait XOX Nate
Goodnight Nate XOX~CAIT
Caitlyn put away her phone sighing she was truly worried about Mitchie. She knew she needed to see Shane even if it hurt it's what needed to be done and hopefully he would or Nate or Jason would try to convince him to. She sighed slipping her phone in her pocket then leaving the cabin heading towards the mess hall for dinner. They will be there in a week but it needed to come faster.
A/N: There one chapter closer to Shane coming back maybe. I had some complaints there was no Nate and Jason. Jason isn't had in this story as Nate so there you go lots of Nate. Next chapter will be a little exciting trust me I can't wait. Well for Shane and Jenny's part. I wanted to show how they both had insecurities about what they are doing. I wanted to show Caitlyn and Nate's worries as they feel they should be together. Please keep reviewing and reading. It is a story about Mitchie and Shane. Don't give up on me yet. I do everything for a reason it's coming pleas keep reading. Enjoy and sorry for any errors. REVIEW
~Kim
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