My Past and My Future Collide
Chapter 20: The Four Letter Word L-O-V-E
It was Saturday night around 8:30 when the headlights of a cab sent an eerie glow over the Camp Rock main office. The cab stopped at the far too familiar circle. The shaking figure handing the cab the pretty hefty cab fare then stepped out a duffle bag slung over his shoulder and guitar case in his hand. He watched the cab disappear into the darkness. He took in the familiar sent of Camp rock and smile slightly. This was it, his one shot to get what he wanted. With that Shane started towards his uncle's cabin. His uncle just didn't know to expect him.
Shane decided to come almost a week ago. He flew to Los Angeles to stay there for a few days getting a couple of things ready with Nate and Jason who were coming tomorrow night but Shane felt a need to be there tonight, Mitchie's birthday. Nate tried to talk Shane out of it but Shane wouldn't take no for an answer. They've been working on the present for almost a week and Shane wanted to start as soon as possible. Nate gave in and now Shane is a few feet away from his uncle's cabin.
He strode up to Brown's cabin and knocked on the door. A few short seconds later Brown drew the door open and was a little surprised to see Shane.
"Shane" Brown said
"Sorry for not calling do you mind if I came early" He asked
"Sure come in" Brown said as Shane walked in and he closed the door
"Thanks, I decided I should come for final jam and stuff Nate and Jason are coming up tomorrow night" he said
"Shane. Stop I think we both know why you are here" Brown said and Shane sighed
"Fine" Shane said defeated "I'm here to fight for what I want" He said and Brown smiled
"Her birthday right" Brown said
"Yeah" Shane said
"Well good luck" Brown said "You can stay here or the cabin you did last year" Brown asked
"Here is fine" Shane said then there was knock on the door and Shane was a little awkward when brown opened the door revealing Connie Torres, Mitchie's mom.
"Hey Connie what can I help you with?" Brown asked as she walked in
"I was just double checking the menu for next week" She smiled then noticed Shane "Oh Hi Shane" She said smiling
"Hi Connie" He said then starting unpacking removing a gift out of his bag first that was wrapped and Connie smiled at Brown who nodded back
"Well let's look it over shall we?" Brown asked as him and Connie walked over to a table Shane still unpacking
Shane then took some clothes and walked into the bathroom Connie definitely curious. "Brown is he here for why I think he is here?" She asks
"Yeah that's her present I'm guessing" He stated and Connie smiled
"I hope it works" She smiled
"Maybe" Brown said but the menu looks great
"Okay thank you" She said
"I have to run to the office for a few minutes, I have this request for final jam, I'll be right back" he said then left and Connie just sat there smiling at the thought that Shane wanted to see her daughter.
Shane came out showered and in a pair of black jeans and a white shirt. He smiled at Connie as he noticed she was still there.
"How are you Shane" She asked smiling
"I'm okay" He replied with a weak smile
"I'm glad to hear that" she smiled "So you came early" she asked
"Yeah" He said feeling a little awkward
"It's okay Shane, you don't have to tell me why" She said smiling
"Is it really that obvious" He asked sitting down at the table
"The present gave it away" She said and he nodded
"If you think I'll ruin her summer I can leave" He said hoping that wasn't the case
"No Shane its fine I'm sure she will be happy to see you" She said hoping she was right and he smiled having some hope now
"Okay, well I'm going to go find her bye Connie" He said lifting the wrapped box and walking out of the cabin smiling. She was really hoping she didn't give him false hope. She was sure she would find out somehow.
She confidently walked out of the cabin skipping down the steps happily. He could not wait to see Mitchie. Just the thought of seeing her made him shiver. He walked his usually sexy swagger toward her cabin he found out she was sharing and walked up to the door taking a really deep breath. He slowly taps on the door but doesn't hear anything. He knocks again waiting then decided no one was there. He stepped off the porch carrying the present walking kind of aimlessly till her heard a couple of screams and about 5 girls running over.
"Shane, it's you! You are here" One shrieked and he grimaced
"Yeah hi girls" He said flashing a smile and he heard them gasp
"Can we get our picture taken with you and sign stuff for us" Another one said smiling
"I can give you something better, as any of you seen Mitchie Torres" He asked
"Yeah but I don't understand" Another one said
"Where did you see her" He asked
"By the beach" Another one said
"Celebrating her birthday" The last one said noticing the present
"Thanks" He smiles then kissed all of them on the cheek quickly then took off towards the beach. They wouldn't be bothering him again, or maybe they would oh well they were probably all squealing about feeling his lips now only if him and Mitchie could connect lips.
He got closer to the beach and saw the dim glow of a camp fire in the distance. It was quite chilly so a fire was a good idea. He walked along the beach line for a few minutes hearing people's voiced clearer. He couldn't really tell what was going on but he didn't care he was getting closer.
He saw a familiar tree and rand his fingers along the bark smiling remembering it. It was the big shady tree he and Mitchie spent time under last summer. He felt hurt a little as he figured that's where she went when she was upset. He really needed to apologize more if they made progress. He heard a familiar laugh and stepped around the tree stopping first standing the darkness.
There she was the beauty he had been dreaming of the last week. The one he was fighting for. He smiles seeing her smiling standing around the fire with her friends. They were all dancing and hanging out he could come join give her a present right? He was about to step out of the shadows when he saw most of the friends were drifting off towards the camp and cabins. He sighed this might be more awkward than expected.
He saw as everyone left that only Mitchie stayed and a blonde haired boy and recognized the profile. The one she had been hugging. They were just friend right? He so badly wanted it to be the truth. He then noticed they were holding hands standing really close and he wasn't prepared for any that was about to come.
"Happy birthday Mitch" The guy said hugging her unlike a friend
"Thanks T" he said giggling hugging back
He missed her giggle. The girly little giggle she would let out when he complimented her or teased her he missed it and it was like music to his ears. He smiled wanting hear it more but his breath was caught in his throat when he turned back towards them. He felt a sharp pain cut him deep.
There she was, the girl he was so in love with kissing the guy she was hugging in the picture that sent him to the hospital. He had to breathe. Not only did he get the girl but he got to feel the lips Shane wanted to feel so badly the lips of his love. He couldn't hand it. He looked at the present in his shaking hands. He sighed seeing the kiss intensify as her arms wrap around his neck and her tighten around her waist getting closer. He sighed looking up at the starts and the green leafs above him. He sighs and turns around walking back towards the cabin.
Caitlyn just got back from Mitchie's camp fire and just curled up in her pajamas after a shower. She was about to text Nate then go to bed when she heard a soft knock on her door. Since Lola, Peggy and Mitchie were out she slowly got out of her bed and opened the door almost in shock.
She wanted to drop her mouth but didn't. Shane was standing there his hair a little out of sorts and his eyes poisoned with pink circled and a little puffy. She noticed he had a few tears he was holding back and noticed a package.
"Hi Shane" She said with a weak smile
"Hi Caitlyn, could you give this to Mitchie" He asked
"Sure, she is at the beach if…"She started
"No, please can you give it to her" he said sounding disturbed then sighing trying to hold back the now stinging tears
"Sure" She said smiling taking the present
"Caitlyn?" he asked
"Yeah Shane" She replied
"Is she happy?" he asked
"For the most part" Caitlyn answered
"Okay" he said and was about to leave
"Shane, are you?" She asked
"Not really, just give that to her" He said hanging his head and walked off the porch
Caitlyn was so sad for Shane. They did belong together no matter what anyone else thought it was to be. She sighs as well as feeling bad for him as she saw his figure start disappearing, only the faint glow of his white shirt showing and then he disappeared into the darkness of camp.
Caitlyn shut the door lying the present on Mitchie's bed then she was pacing a little. She didn't know what to do all she knew was Shane was really upset and well Mitchie and Trevor were the only ones left on the beach this was not good. She had to let Mitchie open the present. Shane needed to give her whatever it was and Caitlyn promised him. She flopped on her bed. This was agonizing why couldn't Mitchie be back to the cabin already?
Shane got back to his uncle's cabin noticing it was empty. He felt stupid and heartbroken as well. She really as moved on. The present would only cause him heartbreak and the short hours of sleep he had gotten over the last days preparing it. He slide onto the bed that was is in the dark covering himself with blanket trying to hide his tear stained eyes but his sobs were far too much to control right now. He started shaking and needed to breathe before he fell unconscious. He furiously pressed along his cell phone buttons as a text message and pressed send still shaking.
HELP!
He held onto his phone for dear life. His eyes felt tired and he knew if someone wasn't there fast he was going to end up in the hospital again and he didn't need that. He was still shaking when he heard the cabin door fly open and the lights flick on and footprints running to his bed.
"Shane" The voice of his uncle came
Shane slowly removed the blanket with his shaky hands barely able to hide a sob that comes out. Shane shakes his head and Brown sits up
"Come on Shane just breathe, everything will be okay" He said encouraging his nephew to breathe
Finally the sobs subsided and Shane was breathing normally once again. He sat up in his bed whipping his eyes as his uncle's heart went out to him.
"Didn't go very well?" he uncles asked
"No" Shane said "Horrible"
"Give her time" Brown said but Shane shook his head
"No, she's moved on" Shane said "It doesn't matter anymore"
"I thought you were fighting" He asks suspiciously
"Yeah, but she is happy if I make her sad by trying I don't want to" He asked
"Everyone can seem happy Shane" Brown said "Remember that"
"I guess" Shane states "I'm going for a walk I will be back okay? If I need you I will txt you" Shane said as brown nodded. Shane grabbed a black hooded sweater slipping it over his torso then walking out of the cabin the hood covering his eyed and enough of his blood shot eyes.
"Be careful" he heard his uncle call
Shane needed to figure a few more things out. This was not going to be easy maybe not successful but what did he have left to lose. He lost everything as of now he needed one thing to look forward to but that would be the hardest to get back, Mitchie.
It was around 10:00 when Mitchie walked into her cabin to see Caitlyn looking anxious and then noticed the present on her bed. She walked forward.
"Mitchie" Caitlyn said
"Hey, do you know you this is from?" She said pointing to the present
"Yes, don't be mad you have to open it" She said
"Okay, why would I be mad?" Mitchie asked curiously
"Just open it" Caitlyn said and Mitchie looked at her curiously then shrugged it off
Mitchie said on her bed and noticed the letter. She slowly opened it and pulled it out not really knowing what to expect, but she definitely did not expect thins in her wildest dreams.
Mitchie,
I know you won't want to read this but I beg you too. Please just read this and open the present. I know I lied and I am again terribly sorry for that and I know it's not good enough. I've been doing a lot of thinking and what I did was wrong. I got away from music and just worked on myself and realized I can't give up on our friendship if we can ever be one. I know you moved on I got enough information from the pictures thanks. I don't think you sent them but they hurt and reason for the hospital visit everyone heard about. Anyway I'm sorry I hurt you and caused everything but I can't give up yet. It might be a wasted effort but I had to try. I had no good reason to not tell you. When I said things were better left unsaid and you said you agreed I was wrong. This can't be unsaid. I know you probably didn't read the messages but… I love you… I have for a long time but I couldn't tell you. Please just open the present then I will leave you alone.
Love
Shane Gray
P.S I miss you
"UGHHHHHHH" Mitchie practically screamed making Caitlyn fall of her bed
"What's wrong" Caitlyn asked
"It's from Shane, is he here" Mitchie asked almost afraid and Caitlyn nodded
"Why did he do this?" Mitchie screamed
"I don't know what's wrong" Caitlyn asked
"He told me he loves me" She says almost in a hysterical voice
"So that's great" Caitlyn said smiling but stopped when Mitchie glared
"He said he wanted to be friends, how can I be friends with him if he will always want more than that?" She said matter-of-factly
"I don't know but he would settle for friends, why is that so bad?" Caitlyn asks
"Because I'm with Trevor" Mitchie said
"That has nothing to do with it" Caitlyn spoke
"It does because I still like Shane" Mitchie says frantically
"Then you have to choose" Caitlyn said
"I have when he lied to me" Mitchie stated "I mean he can't just come here and tell me he loves me and expects me to feel the same way, he lost that when he lied" Mitchie almost shouts
"He didn't lie, honestly Mitchie he just didn't tell you, he didn't say he would be here, you assumed and he just didn't tell you different" Caitlyn said
"Still, it doesn't fix anything. Do you know how much that hurt me?" She stated as a question
"I have an idea" Caitlyn said "You knew he was coming back" Caitlyn stated
"Not saying this. He said he said it before but never has he" Mitchie said
"He has" Caitlyn said
"How would you know?" Mitchie asked
"I read the messages you told me to delete after" Caitlyn said
"Well I still like him but I'm with Trevor… he is not changing that" Mitchie said
"Were your feelings true?" Caitlyn asked
"Yes" Mitchie almost screamed
"Look Shane cares for you a lot he fell in love with you and that can't just change. You have to accept that he was just letting you know how he felt. There is no harm in that, if we know him he is not going to make you suffer or have pain because of him" Caitlyn said
"He did once" Mitchie stated
"I think he saw you on the bitch Mitchie he knows you moved on, but just open the present" Caitlyn said
"I'm not going back to him" She said strong
"Okay but I said I would make sure you opened it" Caitlyn said
"Fine" Mitchie said "But it isn't changing anything"
Mitchie opened the present and it was a book type thing. She opened it seeing it was a book of memories. There was pictures of them last summer and songs they had wrote and such. She sighed flipping pictures seeing a whole bunch of text messages they had send each other over the year.
She came to tears. All the memories made her upset that they lost everything they had. It was honestly horrible but she wouldn't let this affect her too much. She was with Trevor and she was staying with him. She really liked him. She likes Shane but not enough to forgive him and him telling her he loves her that crosses the line in so many ways. If he cared he could've came earlier since he went to New Jersey. He chose not to it is his fault. She shut the book and tossed it to the floor.
"He can't tell me he loves me for the first time and expect to believe him" Mitchie said
"Read the text messages" Caitlyn said
"You deleted them" Mitchie said
"After I sent them to my phone" She said tossing it to Mitchie
Mitchie opened the phone and started reading them. She was almost sad at them but she wouldn't let them affect her that much. She couldn't not after everything she did too stay with Trevor she worked too hard for it and right now Shane wasn't worth it. Not even worth her tears. Then why was she crying? The texts were as follows.
Mitchie I'm sorry. I still feel the same how can I not when it's feeling about you. You know you're beautiful in all ways and that's what I love about you and I've told you countless times. I know I was wrong and I was a coward because the last thing I wanted to do was hurt you…
I know it was still wrong. This way you are with your friends and lots of other people to surround you and comfort you since I can't be. I know you wouldn't be hurting if it wasn't for me. It kills me that you're hurting but I am too. I'm hurting form hurting you because you are important to me, never forget that.
I know you are mad and will not forgive me easily or ever. I guess I deserve it. I was mad at you last time not letting you explain. You shouldn't let me. I couldn't text you and tell you because that would hurt me just too much because I'm way past liking you Mitchie….
I don't like you Mitchie. I'm in love with you. I know I will not be forgiven I don't expect to be. I hope one day I will be deserving of someone as great as you. Maybe one day I will be able to explain everything but I know that won't come for a while. Have fun at camp… You belong there with your friends and with people who won't hurt you.
I doubt you are reading any of these. I had to type them, spill my feelings to someone even if it was a screen. I miss you, always have. Tears free falling down my face and I don't care. You are worth it Mitchie. Until my eyes are dry you are worth it and even if I still had no tears you are still worth tears. I never said bye this way but good night Mitchie. I love you ~Shane
The last one shook her up a bit. What is with him using the stupid four letter word that makes everything crazy? He loves her, she likes him but as far as she knows she likes Trevor more or trying to make herself like him more because Shane hurt her. She sighed this was too much. She turned over to see Caitlyn asleep. This was a good birthday except for this. Why was LOVE such a horrible word. She thought it would be magic. Wrong.
She put Caitlyn's phone on the table and curled up in her bed trying to sleep with no luck. She had to confront Shane tomorrow she might not want to but she had to, it was the only way to get this over with. She was Trevor, she wanted to be but would her feelings lead her to Shane. She sighs as tears come to her eyes. She missed him too but her broken heart can't be fixed twice. Once was okay but he broke it again this summer she would not let that happen again. After a few hours and tears stained cheeks she finally fell into the unconsciousness we call sleeping. Tomorrow would be a different day, this summer just got more interesting.
Shane was still walking in the hot summer air. Finally his eyes stopped stinging and felt his face clearer so he took his hood off. There weren't many campers out so he decided it would be safe enough. He was still upset but he had just over a week. It might not make a difference but he wanted to try and judge final jam of course. He was walking towards the main cabins back from the beach when he accidently ran into someone
"Sorry" Shane said looking up
"It's fine" A male voice came
"Yeah, sorry" he says
"Wait you're Shane Gray" The guy said with a slight smile
"Yeah nice to meet you" Shane said stinking his hand out
"Trevor" he spoke shaking hands
"First year here?" Shane asked
"Yeah, but it's pretty amazing" Trevor spoke
"It is" Shane said
"Yeah seems you had a good year last year" Trevor spoke
"How do you know?" Shane asked kind of freaked out
"Oh my girlfriend is Mitchie" He said smiling and Shane wanted to throw up
"Oh" Shane spoke
"Yeah, it's awesome she is really amazing" He smiles
"She is" Shane agreed trying to keep cool
"Her lips are seriously amazing did you get to kiss her" Trevor asked and that was the last line
Shane swung his arm back and punched Trevor as hard as he could in the face as he tumbled to the ground.
"What the fuck" Trevor shouted "You're still a fucking jerk"
Shane lunged forward to attack Trevor. He was so jealous and pissed. How dare he talk about Mitchie like that? So maybe her lips were amazing but Shane should be able to know not Trevor. Jealous tore up to him. He was right there when to arms pulled him back with a jerk.
"Get off of me" Shane says
"No, campers don't fight" A booming voice said
"Thanks Aaron" Trevor said standing up and walking off as Aaron nodded
"What's your problem" Aaron said letting go of Shane and he turned around "Oh Shane"
"Hi Aaron" he said harshly
"Why did you punch Trevor" Aaron asked
"Like this camp doesn't know?" Shane said aggravated
"True but you can't just punch him" Aaron said
"Well I did bye" Shane said walking away jealous. He had a right to punch Trevor. Well he didn't but he didn't care. He walked into the darkness and towards his uncle's cabin.
"I can't wait to kiss her again" Aaron said smiling evilly walking away the other direction. This would be sweet.
A/N: Anyways I am SO VERY SORRY, plans changed so yeah that's why I am only updating now, sorry again. Mitchie has a secret her heart as been broken twice. How exactly will she tell someone, but who? Shane well that is just sad but wait until she confronts him that will be fun and AARON it sounds like he has a plan and I don't know if I like him thinking that way. I cannot wait to write next chapter. Let me know what you think or what you think might happen. Please Read and Review. Keep reading. Thanks to all the reviews I have over 100:) thanks so much. Sorry for errors. Next one will be up soon!
~Kim
