My Past and My Future Collide

Chapter 23: Reading In Between the Pages

It was 6:30 Monday morning and Shane was finally giving up on sleeping. He hadn't had one minute of sleep and there was no point to keep trying. He propped himself up and rubbed his eyes. He was glad he saw Mitchie take the book back to her cabin. He was surprised that she looked back maybe there was still something, maybe? He peeled himself off his bed and stuttered in to the bathroom turning on the shower.

He stepped into the semi-warm shower washing his body off, maybe waking him up a little form the no sleep he got. He stepped out wrapping a towel around his toned hips and walked into the main cabin area and jumped seeing Jason sitting on his bed

"Holy Shit Jason you scared me half to death" Shane said

"Sorry" Jason said all happy "How are you?"

"Fine" Shane said looking for clothes "You"

"Good, I'm going to make a bird house" He said all giddy

"You are un-normally bouncy" Shane said looking at him weird

"Nothing, excited for my birdhouse I got instruction from Fly Magazine, it is amazing" He said exaggerating

"Okay why are you in my cabin at 645 am?" Shane asks yawning

"I don't know" He says shrugging "You look like Shit though" Jason stated

"Thanks" Shane said sarcastically "Can you leave and go make your birdhouse so I can get changed" Shane asked

"Okay" Jason said bouncing up and down skipping out of the cabin as Shane rolled his eyes

Shane walked into the bathroom to change. He pulled on a pair of black skinny jeans and a navy blue t-shirt not quite hugging his body. He sighed running the towel over his hair then looking in the mirror. His eyes and had dark circles in a light shade of blue outlining them. Just looking at him you would know he had little or no sleep. He sighed walking into the cabin. His stomach growled at him since he had been eating little and decided he would go to the kitchen. He slipped on his Gucci aviators hiding his eyes and heading towards the kitchen from his cabin.

Meanwhile Mitchie had no luck going to sleep either. She had been up all night after she came into the cabin. She had changed and curled up in bed but nothing worked. She sighed laying there the book still beside. She was so tempted to read it. She needed too; there was a reason he made it but why? She needed to know.

She looked at all her friends slipping then at the clock reading 6:30. She climbed out of bed in sweat pants and a t-shirt which she slept in. She sighed running a hair brush through her hair tying it up. She then takes the book back into her hands and walks out of the cabin being really quiet. The answer to why he made it had to be in the book. She walked over to the big shady tree where she laid yesterday reliving a horrible memory but maybe it could help her realize why Shane was desperate for her to have it.

She sighed well sitting down against the tree. She knew Shane and her visited this tree so many times. Maybe it would help her understand everything. She could only hope. The sun was rising so she sat there and opened the first page. She shut her eyes tight then opened them again looking at the book. The first few pictures were of their first summer at camp together, well their only camp together.

They pictures brought back memories and she couldn't help but to smile. She forgot her had taken pictures on his phone card that's probably how he got them. There was one of them after he sang to her on the deck and he was holding his guitar. There were other ones. Some were on the beach, when they were in a canoe and the last one as she could see was of them under the shady tree, his arm around her, her shoulder against his, that one night they almost kissed.

She flipped to the next page and there was scrap paper on the paged with lyrics to Gotta Find you, This is me, and the combined version. She read them over her fingers running along the paper. She sighed remembering the moment they shared on that stage one she thought was the beginning of something. Then he ruined it. She shook her head and again flipped the page.

The next page had text messaged typed up and printed off on the pages. She read them remembering times when she sent them. Some were when she was happy, sometimes sad, sometimes mad, over-all most were happy but she couldn't be happy all the time like now.

There was one conversation typed up and printed off that was about three sheets of paper that she enjoyed. It was middle November. It was special because they both sort of admitted they had feelings. Discretely but it happened. Mitchie remembered she blushed during that conversation. Even though she was miles away the heat couldn't stop form seeping in through her cheeks. She didn't know how someone could have that certain affect on her. Shane however did, he was a lasting impression. Was it a good one though? She started reading the two page text conversation they had months before.

Hey Mitch, you there

Hey Shane, when do I not have my phone with me?

When you're showering

HAHA… you know what I meant

Well you never know its 7:59 you could be in the shower

I am not … I answered

I guess, so how are you?

Fine pop-star you?

ROCKSTAR and good talking to you

Well glad to help. What are you up too?

Packing, leaving next week for a 3 week tour then home for Christmas

Cool, I hope you have fun

Oh I will don't you worry

I never worry

You so do

Nope

Yes you do but you being cute as you are, shouldn't

Cute?

You heard me

No I read your text, it wasn't voice recorded (sticks tongue out)

HAHA funny Mitchie, you crack me up

NO STOP! Mr. Hot stuff you're so full of it

Hot Stuff?

No that's not what I meant

Whatever Mitchie

You called me cute

So Maybe I did

Okay so Maybe I called you hot but in a total baby way

So Babies are hot I thought they were cute

Are you calling me a baby?

I don't know am I?

SHANE! Stop you are so not calling me a baby

A cute one though

I so hate you

You love me

Maybe yes. Maybe no

Maybe yes (smiles)

STOP SHANE!

No thanks cutie

So I'm a cutie?

Nope

Yes you said so

So maybe I did

So you admit it

Maybe Yes!

You think I'm cute! SHANE GRAY THINKS IM CUTE!!!

Shout it to the world

I will

MITCHIE TORRES THINKS IM HOT!!!

Don't shout it to the world

Too Late (bits lips)

Shut up Shane

Never said anything

True, so where are you going on tour

Places, I don't know really, not close enough anyway chow Bella

Ugh, stop calling me that

No thank you

Fine, Bye Shane the 'Hottie'

Bye Cutie X

Bye Shane goodnight XO

Night Mitchie XOX

NIGHT XOXO

Goodnight Bella XX

(Rolls eyes) Stop! Turning Phone off now

Night Bells X

She laughs a little remembering it very vividly in her mind. She definitely blushed that night when he called her cute then started joking around. That was some pretty intense flirting without not even being close to each other. She really did think he was hot and well she was telling him she liked him but so secretly she giggled remembering that. She wished he felt the same and apparently he did.

She sighed looking at them and yeah even though she laughed and remembered her blushing tears were brought to her eyes. Why was she crying so much lately? Right she was so confused. She was dizzy with confusion. She kept flipping through the book taking in every page tears coming to her eyes. She read it to front and back and the last page, she found her answer. It was between all the pages but it was almost spelled out on this page.

Wow this brought more tears to her eyes. There was the picture of them at the end of performing this is me. It was a profile shot. They were both smiling there hand intertwined. There smiles could've lit up the sky. It was the night they almost kissed but the night they found each other. The night was almost magical and wow this picture brought everything back. On the top of the pages was written… I remember you… the picture was then on it and below it said… I Miss you… Then right below that it said… I…

"Love you" She said as she read it

That was the reason for everything. How could she just realize it even though he shouted it to her face? She now knew but wait that's not the way she was thinking. The answer for all of this, she loved Shane. All of this heartache everything was because she loved (with a D) Shane. Wait let me rephrase that she loves (with an S) Shane.

"I love you" She said again to the picture tears flowing down her face "I Love Shane Gray" She says to herself closing the book and just letting herself cry to know one. After everything she loves Shane. Finally admitting it but was everything already said and done. Was this one thing that on her part would be better left unsaid?

After Shane left his cabin he soon arrived to the kitchen. He Walked through the doors and lifted up his glasses when he saw Connie sitting at the table organizing menus as others are getting the stuff ready to put outside. He sat down beside her.

"Hey Shane" She said looking up

"Hi" He said kind of sleepy

"Did you get enough sleep" Connie asked "You looked exhausted"

"I go the grand total of none" He clarified

"Oh that's too bad well let's get you some breakfast" she said

"Okay thank you but I can get it" He said standing up

"Sit" She ordered and he did so "You can't pass out form being tired I'll be right back" She said walking to the other side getting a plate for him. She really was sweet no wonder Mitchie had a big heart. He smiles at her name in his head. Until a big plate of food was placed in front of him and he was sold on that.

"Here you go Shane" Connie said placing it in front of him with a glad of orange juice and she sat down working on menu's again

"Thank you it all looks delicious" He said taking a big bite

"Looks like you could use it" She said smiling watching him smile and eat it. She loved when people smiled. He was now just if her daughter would.

Shane ate his food at a quick pace it was so good, and he ate every last bite. The plate had hash browns, sausage, bacon, eggs and toast. It was amazing; he ate all of it, and drank his whole glass of juice. He was feeling energized but was still tired.

"Connie that was great, thank you so much it helped" He said smiling

"Anytime" She said "Shane?" She asked

"Yeah" He said

"Have you see Mitchie" She asked quietly

"Yeah" he said back really quietly almost in pain not smiling anymore

"Did you talk with her?" She asked and he nodded slightly

"And" She said hopeful

Shane sighed and just shrugged his shoulders with an innocent face. He honestly made no progress and really nothing else to say or think about it. He gave her an apologetic look then left the kitchen feeling bad.

After Shane left Connie continued working on her menu when soon she looked up to see her daughter sit beside her and sighing heavily. Connie smiles a little at her daughter who lets a weak one up for a minute

"Hi sweetie" Connie said

"Hi Mom" Mitchie replied

"You alright" Connie asked

"Maybe to a point" Mitchie replied "Not much sleep"

"I see, well are things okay with you and Trevor?" Connie asked and Mitchie said loudly

"That's over mom" Mitchie said

"I'm sorry sweetie" She said

"I am too. Shane is back" She said a little upset

"I heard" Connie said

"It's hard and not too good" Mitchie said

"Why?" Connie asked

"It's like the past is haunting the know the future and I don't know what if it all comes back" Mitchie asks

"Then it all comes back sweetie" She said "Do you like him"

Mitchie nods "I'm starting to again"

"Well maybe you should talk to him" Mitchie said

"We have well sort of, we ended up yelling but yeah" Mitchie said

"Well did anything come of that" Connie asked

Again Mitchie shrugged with a look as if she was saying no. Connie Sighed exasperated and rolled her eyes.

"I got that same response from Shane 5 minutes ago I need something" Connie said and it was this time for Mitchie to sound exasperated within a gasp

"Mom, you talked to him about this" She asked

"No I fed him and just asked if he talked to you" She said innocently

"Mom" She whined "Why"

"Because you two like each other it's obvious" Her mom said sounding like a teenage girl

"It's complicated" Mitchie said

"Then try Mitchie. If it fails it fails but you won't know what could have been" Connie said

"Mom I'm just not ready" Mitchie stated

"To forgive him" Connie asked

"And to be something" She stated

"Just try talking to him again; you both have stuff to say even if it ends up being over closure" Her mom said "The only way you will get over this"

"Yeah" Mitchie said

"The only way is closure" Connie said

"Thanks mom" Mitchie said hugging her mom then leaving that kitchen

Connie sighed. She didn't want Mitchie and Shane to be over. She really wanted them together since the fun they had last year. She has seen Mitchie's heartbreak and she had forgotten it all last year for almost a year until when he didn't show up. One mistake, but it was still meant to be, they were happy together, would they realize they needed each other, Connie really hope's so.

Mitchie sighed. The only way to get over it was closure. Honestly now she didn't want closure or it to be over. She now knows that she still loves Shane so there is no way she wants it over. However, she would let it happen. Maybe she should try talking to him again. Maybe it was the right thing to do. She smiled looking at the book and heading towards her cabin. Tonight she would look for Shane maybe they could try to talk maybe?

A/N: OH MY GOD SHE ADMITED IT! SHE LOVES SHANE GRAY HOW MANY OF YOU ARE EXCITED?!?! I KNOW I AM. LOL. Anyway I know this is a lot about them but it needs to be. Jason was a little quirky he will be in more with Naitlyn too. Just wanted this to be about Shane and Mitchie or Smitchie:) They still have a lot of things to fix. The text conversation I thought was cute. Let me know what you think please it would mean a lot. Thanks to all reviewers. Please keep reviewing. Enjoy, and sorry for errors. Keep reading!

~Kim