My Past and My Future Collide

Chapter 27: Shane

Shane lazily sat up as his body floated back into consciousness as he woke up. He laid his head against the head board still tired. He felt like he was hung over although he wasn't. He had a head torturing headache and wanted the world to just stop for a while. Time stand still well he figured out what to do know. He was singing the song but after that what would happen?

He didn't know if we would go back to singing. This song he had written which still wasn't totally finished which made his head even more was so powerful to him he almost brought tears to his own eyes once. It was getting everything out maybe the most powerful song he had ever thought of alone. He was the only one who had seen the current almost finished project. It was his song with all the meaning to him. This was his song and no-one was to hear it or see it until that faithful final night to let it all out.

He knew he was a good song-writer when he could be and had something to write about. Love was one thing he would always be able to write about, happy or sad. He had two summers full other both happy and sad love experiences it was enough to last him a life time. Although he still had a long life ahead of him.

Maybe he was meant to do something along the line of music. He could really let everything out through songs. It was his outlet but sometimes it didn't always work. For the most part it had helped him, well this song anyway. Yeah he still tears up at the thought of it but he is realizing he can't always have a strong front and he now understands that.

He knew he had to go back to New Jersey to get more of his belonging but would he go back to LA. He never really understood why he left New Jersey. When he was back there he fell in love with it all over again. It was so familiar and comforting and not fast paced. It was normal life and the day turned at a normal pace unlike the rush life of Hollywood.

He knew Nate and Jason would support him no matter what, that's what 'brothers' where there for, true real life friends. Shane wanted them to go along with the album but of course it was not the same. He loved that his friend where there for him and he knew if he was to go back to music they would be right along with him. He smiled maybe this was meant to be. He would know soon enough. Maybe the impression of caring about other people would just stick and he could do it.

He finally snapped out of his thought of what would happen and stood up. He took some Advil to get rid of his headache as he had some work to do. He grabbed his phone making a quick phone call then grabbed his book going out to the back porch looking onto the lake sitting down looking at the words he had written down. This was definitely the song he had to sing. He sat there for about an hour figuring out some words and some more of a tune still stuck on a last verse or so. He sighed tapping his pencil along with the tune quietly singing the tone when he sighed setting his book down and closing his eyes. His summer kept floating around in his eyes everything becoming finally clear. He understood a lot of things now. Why he might have done what he did but he couldn't take it back and it might have been for the wrong reasons but he didn't quite know that then. Everything was laid out in his head. Reasons became to clear and what he was trying to say where the reasons weren't always the right ones. He sighed letting his summer once again take him over.

First was his horrible fight with Mitchie which he wished never happened because that started the whole thing and it was bad. He could know fully admit he was a coward to tell her. He didn't want her to hurt but he was mostly scared that she would hate him. He was naïve and should've known that wouldn't have happened but he didn't know it would be this bad. That was what brought them apart and everything else just kept getting pulled apart little-by-little.

Next he found out she could easily move on and well he didn't want that. He wanted her to wait so they could be together because he was in love with her even if she didn't know it he was and he really didn't want her to move on. Yet she wasn't letting him stop her and that was hard. The day he song that picture everything went spinning out of control. He just lost all hope. He got out of the contract knowing he just wasn't ready to make another album. He left and went to New Jersey where this got more out of control.

First he was gladly taken in by his parents who love him very dearly. The second day he was there everything about the Gotta Find You thing came back and Shane actually went unconscious breaking down about it ending up in the hospital. That was bad and everyone was worried but he got over it slowly. Sometimes he still panics but really it didn't matter he just had to make contact with someone.

The other thing was he saw his friend Jenny who was grown up and totally gorgeous now. They were easily attracted to each other but were very close and they both confided in each other confidently. However Jenny liked Shane and in the long run that could just not possible to have a happy ending.

They got beyond close in the time they spent together. They cuddle friendly, if it can be innocently friendly. They went on 'dates' although they weren't technically dated until Shane accidentally called one of them that. It was a mistake although he did want it to be a date. Anyway they got pretty close sleeping beside each other, cuddling a lot and just spending time together all the time.

He was finally happy to have a friend to just be with. He started having feelings for her. Maybe not as strong as the ones for Mitchie but he did have some strong feelings. He ended up telling her that he did have feelings for one other girl but she just kept hanging around and he didn't stop her now thinking he should have.

They ended up kissing and that ended up being bad. See Shane thought he definitely liked Jenny but he now realizes it was for the wrong reasons. Mitchie was getting over him with this other guy so Shane could get over Mitchie right. Well Jenny was there and willing to be with Shane so maybe this was a chance. However he was wrong.

He realized he was telling Jenny he wasn't using her because at first he didn't think he was but reality was he actually was using her and it didn't work. He ended up thinking about Mitchie when they were making up and he got up and left and came back to where he currently is, Camp Rock. He hurt Jenny in the process and he knew he had been selfish and it was really wrong and he would never get forgiveness for that. Not for that it was horrible and now he understands why she was upset. He was too he felt bad and didn't understand how he could've been so stupid to not realize what he was doing was wrong at the first place.

He did have feelings for Jenny, he knew that, but they weren't for love or anything like what happened. It was too be friends Mitchie was the one to fight for and even though it was now an almost lost battle he knew he was wrong. He would probably not be forgiven but he had to apologize when he went back.

He came back to camp rock after spending a few days in LA getting Mitchie birthday present wrong. He loved her and he was hoping that this was going to help her realize that. He saw her and this guy Trevor he now knows as his name kissing on the beach. He was hurt and it was bad. He was really upset that she moved on and he was hanging on to her, but he had to it's what his heart wanted, it begged for her even though he tried to deny it but he was done hiding it.

Shane wanted her to have the present. After she saw it she could burn it for all he cared she just had to see it. After having enough of the beach and being hurt she made his way towards her cabin where he found Caitlyn who was surprised to see him there. She had agreed to get Mitchie the present and he left. Then it happened.

Shane broke down once again. Brown had to calm him down but did. Brown finally got him to breath slowly and calm down which he eventually did thankfully. He was just so overwhelmed with hurt he didn't know what to do really. He went for a walk and ran into someone he really shouldn't have, Trevor. He is now Mitchie's ex-boyfriend. Anyway that ended with a punch and Shane being pulled off of Trevor who had a black eye.

The next day Shane was confronted with Mitchie at his doorstep which turned out to be a screaming match and he heard 5 horrible words he never thought he would come out of her mouth. She didn't like the present. She was almost mad he confessed his love for her and he soon thought it was better left unsaid. She had screamed "I HATE YOU SHANE GRAY" and that was like receiving a knife in the heart.

It ended badly and camp was tense and he just sort of stayed away. He talked to Connie a bit who really did want him and Mitchie together but Mitchie was going to do what she wanted that was hard but Shane liked the Mitchie was being her own person but that just made it harder on Shane now loving her more.

Eventually they talked and well they decided they would try to be friends because they both desperately wanted that and badly to. They had decided to explain their summers and try to be friends although that ended up not working. She had forgiving him and well thanking him for the present but that was it.

They met one morning to maybe start but she said it wouldn't work. She knew he wouldn't forgive her. She did some stuff she probably shouldn't have but he had too yet she didn't know what it was. He agreed that she wouldn't forgive him. He admitted he loved her in a text which she might have or might have not read then made out with Jenny and did all that and there was no way that was about to work.

So they agreed and said good-bye. They would see each other again maybe only at final jam but that was better at anything. They just might not be able to talk maybe it would have to be over. They didn't want it to be but maybe it did. They both broke down once they said good-bye which was a few hours ago which brought him to this spot right now.

He had some tears spill down his face remembering his summer figuring out why everything had happened the way it happened and now it was the final few days to decide this. He was just her past, right he could not collide and survive in her future. He didn't see how could. The future can be surprising but as of now the answer was no and almost set in stone.

He sighed remembering the book beside him and picked it up once more. He sighed remembering the one night before she left for camp rock where he should have been. Everything was calm and peaceful even though he was hurting. He looks at the paper realizing it starting then.

"Everything is calm before the storm" He says reading his lyrics "Before the Storm" he repeats once again.

He sighs continuing to write. He was losing time getting this song ready. This is what he was going to focus on he needed to and had to. It was his final chance to get everything out. It wouldn't bring her back but to know he was letting his feelings show. He sighed continuing to work on. He worked on it for a few hours missing dinner not being hungry.

That night he laid his head onto the pillow exhausted from his day. Yeah it wasn't much but there was a lot happening. He almost finished his song it kept getting closer, it would be done soon. He just had to finish a verse and the music and he was done. He lost Mitchie well was sure he did. He talked with Nate which always helped and relived the most horrible summer he could imagine.

Finally the day was over. Day-by-day is what he will be doing the next few days until the end of camp this coming Sunday. The summer went by fast and it was coming to close which was almost heartbreaking. Life moves on though and shit happens but then again it was life and it will go on. He fell asleep not knowing what the next days was coming but one thing was for sure the future is surprising and after all tomorrow was a whole day, who knew what could happen? He definitely didn't but he figured he was sure to find out. Day-by-day, hour-by-hour, minute-by-minute, second-by-second, one life at a time he would find out. Everything could change but would it. Songs do wonderful things, but would the outcome be a wonderful thing?

A/N: There you go. Three more chapters to go everyone it really is getting sad and I hope you can all tell it is coming to a close the last two chapters are winding it down. The summers were laid out hope that cleared some stuff up if you had been wondering. It may seem like along chapter because there is no dialog and sorry about that. It just this is what I had planned for this one. Sorry it took a couple of days but it was long to write. Anyway please read and review three chapters will end this story hope you all enjoy the end of it. It will maybe be done by this weekend but maybe early next week I will do my best. Thank you to all my reviews they are all wonderful and appreciated. Please review your thoughts on this one and read the end. Sorry for errors. Keep Reading!

~Kim