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Chapter 8
It was the next morning. Gaara got up before Neji did and went to get a shower. He couldn't stop thinking of what Kimimaro wanted him to do. Kill Itachi. Why would he do that, Itachi is protecting him. He didn't want to do that. He already put him in a coma why kill him for real. Gaara left the water run down his body. It really upset him. No wonder why he wanted to hurt some people.
Neji woke up from the shower running. He looked aside of him and Gaara wasn't there. At least he knew where he was this time. Neji lay on the bed and then got up to dress. He walked to his living room and went to see if Haku came or not. When he didn't see him there, Neji fell on the sofa and sighed.
Gaara came out of the bathroom. "I thought he would wake up after me." He got dressed and walked out to see his boyfriend laying on the sofa with his eyes close. Gaara walked over to him and kissed Neji. "I knew you wouldn't stay asleep this morning." Gaara sat as he sat down.
"Don't push your luck, Gaara. I'm still a little upset yet about you going off like yesterday and the night before." Neji sat up and looked at him.
"I know, but I not going to do it today. I mean I learn my lesson. Kimimaro came after me last night. He told me to kill Itachi. I have three months to tell him my answer. But I can't do it. I'll just tell Itachi go into hiding again. It's all because Orochimaru still has love for him and Kimimaro wants him." Gaara sighed. "I hate this."
"Don't worry, Gaara. Everything will be fine. Itachi can take care of himself . You know that Kimimaro is nothing as strong as Itachi." Neji pulled Gaara between his legs. "You know that we'll right aside of you Gaara. We aren't doing to suffer. Kimimaro is just trying to make you suffer. But I'll always be right here Gaara." Neji smiled.
Gaara moved a little to lay better. "I know but I don't want you guys to get hurt. I'll never for give myself for it." Gaara looked down.
"I'm strong, Gaara. I'll watch over myself. Kimimaro hurt me before but only because I got mad about what he said about you. But I would let that happen again. He will never come in between us ever again. I'll stopped the asshole." Neji fist tighten.
Gaara felt his lover's fist tighten and looked up at him. "Neji? I know but I am strong too. You know that. I want to take a walk. You may come with or stay, but I know to go for a walk." Gaara walked out the door and Neji grabbed his arm.
"I'm coming with. I know you like going by yourself but please let me come with. I need to see where Haku is anyway because he didn't come in last night." Neji looked around.
"He is probably right Sasuke and Naruto. You know he been hanging over there a lot lately. I think he like it there." Gaara walked to the end of the dorm and turned to Neji. "So can we go somewhere? I mean like to get away from this place. I really need to." Gaara smiled at him.
"I guess. Want to go to the mall? We won't tell the others. It will be only me you and that's it. Since Haku likes to hang over there. We won't take him with either." Neji started walking out to the car.
"Finally, now we can talk without everyone else bugging us about things." Gaara followed Neji out to the car.
They both get in and drove to the nearest mall. Neji looked at Gaara. "You know you should lie or tell Kimimaro that you'll never kill Itachi. I want to see him come after us with Itachi on our self. You know he's afraid of Itachi. That why he wants him out of the way."
"I know but he told me he was going to pull you guys into this. I don't you and the others to get hurt. I would forgive myself." Gaara looked down.
"I understand. I know how it is Gaara. Never having thing go your way, people going after the ones you love and care about. It's the world Gaara. You can't change it." Neji pulled into the parking lot.
"I know, but what should I do? I can't kill Itachi. I can't tell him to hid out and then come back. It's hard. I want to protect everyone." Gaara looked down and at feet. Wishing that everything would go away.
"It's okay Gaara. Let go shop and walk around then when we get something to eat. We can talk about this." Neji looked at Gaara and he nodded.
They both got out of the car and walked into the mall. They walked around and looked in different stores. Gaara walked into hot topic and Neji waited outside. He then pulled Gaara to the movies. They went to see Halloween 2007 and after the movie when to get something to eat. Gaara find a table for them to sit at. He waited for Neji to bring the food. He smiled as he saw his lover walking with toward him.
Neji sat the food on the table. "Next time I'm making you get the food for us."
"You know I'll forget something Neji." Gaara smiled.
"I wonder why I put up with you so much? You a pain." Neji smirked.
"Fuck you, Neji. You should be glad I didn't' run off with Itachi and stay with him." Gaara smiled when he saw Neji's face. "You know I was joking, right?" Gaara looked at him.
"Yeah I know. I just couldn't believe you said that to me." Neji handed Gaara his food. "You know I lover you Gaara."
"I love you too."
They ate their food and then went to the car driving back to the college. They got back around 4 and when to their room. They open the door to see that Haku still wasn't back. "I wonder where he is?" Neji looked around.
"He's in my room." Itachi walked go to them. "Kimimaro and them came after him again but don't worry. He's okay. I protected him. So don't worry. Haku's safe." Itachi walked off and went back in his room.
Gaara and Neji looked at each other and walked in. "I can't believe this. Why of all time do they go after him?" Gaara was pissed.
"Cool it Gaara. I know how you feel but don't worry. Haku is okay. Now let sit and watch TV then we'll take a walk." Neji pulled Gaara to the sofa and they sat down and watched the movies they brought before leaving home.
Gaara woke up, the movie was still playing. He looked over to see Neji still asleep. "Hey Neji, wake up. It's nine." Gaara smiled as his lover's eyes open lowly.
"Shit. I can't believe I fell asleep during the movie." Neji rubbed his eyes and got up. "We should go to Sasuke's room and see if Haku is there."
Gaara got up. "I'll stay here. I'm still tired." Gaara walked to the bed. He lay down and pulled the covers over him head.
"Fine, but don't let anyone in the room. Not even Haku if I'm not back. You know the treats that Kimimaro and his friends will play. They aren't nice people, Gaara." Neji grabbed his keys to the room and started walking to the door and opening it.
"I know, Neji. I just want to sleep. I been having trouble sleeping but I'll be okay though." Gaara closed his eyes and the fast was asleep.
Neji smiled as he walked out of the room and locked the door behind him. He walked to Sasuke's room and knocked. Naruto was the one to answer.
"Hey Neji, I see that Gaara isn't with you this time." Naruto opening the door showing that Haku, Itachi and Sasuke was in the room.
"Yeah, he wanted to sleep. He said that he haven't been able to sleep that well." Neji sat down on the sofa, worrying about Gaara.
"You know you should watch him, Neji. You know how he can get. If he shows one sign of anger or rage. You have to let us know or Temari or Kankurou. You know he'll snap on any of us. Temari said the last time he didn't get sleep. It happen to be him." Itachi sat across the room from Neji.
"I know what Shukaku can do. But I won't let him take over my Gaara. If I have to, I'll fight him one on one." Neji's fist was tight. He hated that people remind him of Shukaku. He hated him. He took the nice, sweet, and cute Gaara away.
"Neji! I tried to fight him and look what happen. I was pushed off the roof and lived, but I suffer so much after the. Gaara is nice and we can still help him, but once Shukaku locks Gaara away. There's no way we can fight him." Itachi looked up to see Neji's eyes filling with rage.
"What do you mean, Itachi?! That Shukaku is going to end up taken Gaara away again?!" Neji was mad now.
"Calm down, Neji. Nothing going to happen to Gaara, he'll be okay." Naruto walked over to his friend. "We are all here but if Shukaku does take over. We'll help you fight." Naruto smiled.
"I know. I should stop worrying. Gaara is strong and I know he can fight him. Gaara won't let him take over. I wonder if that what his dreams or nightmares are about lately." Neji sighed and closed his eyes. "Can we just talk about things; I want to know what's going on lately."
"Well first off. Kimimaro and them are planning to come after all of us." said Sasuke.
"Well they found out one of Gaara's weaknesses." Haku looked down.
"Which one?" Neji looked at Haku with worry eyes.
"They too much blood makes him come. They are planning to use that to get rid of Itachi."
"What? I knew they wanted me gone. He brain washed Orochimaru. I can't believe I loved that guy. I'm only doing this because Kabuto wants him." Itachi sat back. "I want them to try to get to us when I'm here." Itachi got up and walked out of the room and went back to his.
"I knew they would try to do this to Gaara. They can never let a good kid like him go. You know something. I'm going after them." Neji got up and walked toward the door.
Naruto ran in front of him. "Neji! You can't! You know that you'll be in the same shoes as Haku was! They are watching for you to come after them! You'll just fall into a trip they set up!" Naruto looked him in the eyes and Neji went back and sat down.
"I understand. It just scares me to see what will happen to Gaara later on."
"I know, Neji. We all know."
Well the group keeps talking, Gaara is in one of his dreams.
(Gaara's dream)
"Where am I? It's so dark. I can't see anything." Gaara wonder in the darkness of his dream.
'You should let me out, Gaara. I would be able to help you better if I wasn't lock up in your mind'.
"Who's there?! That better not be you, Shukaku." Gaara yelled in the darkness.
Yellow eyes opening slowly in the darkness. 'So you do know who I am. You know, Gaara. I would be able to help you get rid of those guys. We could kill Kimimaro and his friends. They would never bug you again.' Shukaku laughed.
"No! I won't let you take over! I know what happens! I don't want the other to be hurt! I will NEVER let you take over again!" Gaara screamed.
'Yes you will. When you want me, you'll be crying to for help. I know you. Just like when your father hit you in the head. You called out to me, Gaara. I help you that night. I saved you from losing your life boy.'
"SHUT UP! I DON'T CARE!" Gaara screamed.
'Yes you do. You want my help. You want them gone. You want to safe that boyfriend of yours. You want your friends to be safe. I know what you want.'
Gaara fell to his knees. "No, I don't want to hurt anyone. I can do this myself. I don't need your fucking help!"
'One day you'll want my help Gaara and the day you call me for help. I want take your body and lock you inside until they are dead.'
Shukaku closed his eyes and once again it was nothing but darkness once again. That when Gaara felt someone shaking him. He open his eyes and looked at Neji. "Was I having a nightmare?"
"Yes, you were. It was about him wasn't it?" He saw Gaara nodded. "I thought so. You only kick when you're having a nightmare with him in it."
"He wants to take over again, Neji. I said no and he keeps saying I need him." Gaara sat up and rubbed his eyes.
"Don't worry. I'm here plus everyone else that will protect you from him." Neji kissed Gaara.
"I love you, Neji."
"I love you too, Gaara."
Them both lay down and closed their eyes. That fast they were both asleep. They knew that the next day was going to be hell if they didn't.
Neji was the one to wake up since that was a knock on the door. He got out of bed and slowly made his way to the door. When he opened the door he looked up to you Kimimaro.
"What do you want?" Neji held the door that Kimimaro couldn't see inside the room.
"I want to talk to Gaara." Kimimaro crossed his arms.
"I won't let you touch or talk to him. He doesn't have to do what you say. If you want Itachi hurt or killed. Then do it yourself. I won't let Gaara get in this. He has enough problems." Neji rage was building up as he looked at Kimimaro.
"I just want to have a talk with him. I won't make him kill Itachi but if you keep this up. I might just use you to make Gaara kill Itachi." Kimimaro smiled.
"Fine, then can I talk to you without bring Gaara into his. Let me get dress and we'll take a walk." Neji closed the door and then got dressed. He kissed Gaara and walked out of the room. Leaving Gaara by himself.
Gaara on the other hand was having his nightmare about him again.
(Dream or Nightmare)
"Why am I in the darkness again?" Gaara looked around and saw a bright light. He walked toward the light and came to a room that looked like a cell to hold something in. "Is anyone here?!" Gaara called out. He was starting to shake.
"You don't belong to this family, Gaara. You should have died with your mother, demon!"
Gaara turned around to see his father behind him. "Father?"
"You took her away Gaara! You took my true kids away! How dear you, brat!" Gaara's father hit in him full blow in the stomach.
Gaara fell to the floor and held his stomach. "Father, why are you doing this? I been a good. Please let me go. I want to see Neji." Gaara got on his feet and ran the other way.
Gaara's father ran after him. "Get your ass back here, Gaara! I want to beat it!"
Gaara kept running. "Please leave me be." He ran and ran until he tripped over his feet and fell.
"Poor kid it's seemed that you're going to be raped and beat here."
Gaara tried to run but his body wouldn't let him get up. His father was on top of him sooner then he realized His father pulled his pant off and raped him until he couldn't move or speak. Gaara's father got up after raping his son. "I know it hurts, but you were a good fuck Gaara and as long as you live I'll fuck you in these dreams." His father laughed and walked into the darkness.
Gaara laid there for hours and hours in darkness. He closed his eyes as soon as pain shot through his body.
(end of dream or nightmare)
Gaara sat up screaming in a quiet room. He looked around and saw he was the only person in the room. "Neji?"
He got out of bed and looked around. He looked at Neji thing and saw his shoes were missing. Gaara knew something for up but he didn't know what it was though. He walked around more and found a small knife on the end table. He picked up the knife. "I'm sorry Neji. I can't take it anymore. I need to end my life and quick. I'm so sorry."
Gaara had tears coming from his eyes as he took knife across his wrist and cut deep looking away from the blood. He left the cut bleed for a little while and then cut the other one as deep as the other. He dropped to his knee and left go of the knife. "Neji, I need help. What aren't you here, with me?" He began to cry again.
Gaara looked around and found a belt lying on the floor. Gaara picked the belt up and found away to put it around his neck. He then saw a bar on the wall and stood on the little end table and tied the belt around the bar. "I'm sorry everyone. I can't take it anymore. My life is messing up mine and your. I'm so sorry for all the pain I cause."
Gaara's legs started to shake and he cried harder. He wanted it over with and he wanted Neji to be happy without him to worry about. Gaara left the table about to break he knew it wasn't strong to hold him. He stood there and waited for the table to break under him and hanging him. His wrist were still bleeding and the table was about to break. He heard the cracking wood as the table gave out from under him. Gaara closed his eyes and left it get tighter and tighter around his neck as no air could leave and come. Gaara left his life slipping away as tears ran down his face.
He left the he didn't have a body but then he left someone pick him up and get the belt off around his neck. "You're a dumb kid, Gaara. You could have ended your life if I wasn't here."
Gaara looked at Itachi. "I'm sorry." He couldn't move his body. It was still weak from the loss of air.
"What were you trying to do? You know that isn't a way to get away from your life. Others will end up paying." Itachi carry Gaara to his bed and lays him there. He then lay with him.
"I had a nightmare again. My father came after and hurt me real bad. He told me that all these things will keep happen until I'm not alive anymore." Gaara cried softly.
"its okay, Gaara. I know you get hurt by pain but you need to stop this." Itachi looked at Gaara's wrist and grabbed bandages and wrapped both Gaara's wrist. "You know this is a bad habit Gaara. You should stop now before Neji see it."
Gaara looked away from Itachi for saying Neji's name. "He's wasn't here. I woke up from a nightmare and he wasn't here to tell me it was okay and that it was a nightmare again."
"I'm sure the Neji has a reason why he wasn't here. I'll stay here with you until Neji gets back and here take your pill and I think you'll be okay to fall asleep. I'll wait for Neji to come back." Itachi patted Gaara's head.
"Thank you, Itachi." Gaara could the pill and closed his eyes. He fell asleep with no problem. Itachi watched over him the whole night and seat in a chair in the room.
Neji was just coming back from his walk with Kimimaro. He unlocked the door and walked into see Itachi in his bedroom. "What are you doing here, Itachi? Is everything okay?" Neji looked worry.
"Right now yeah, but he was looking for you and you weren't here. Gaara almost killed himself because of a dream he has and you weren't here to stop him. If I would have not heard him scream. He would have died, Neji!" Itachi got up and pulled Neji out of the room. "I can't believe you! What was more important then him?!" Itachi was yelling now.
"I'm sorry, Itachi but I needed to talk to Kimimaro. He wanted Gaara to kill you and Gaara didn't want to. So I tried my best to talk him in on using someone else and to not bring Gaara into his mess because he was still a little scared and that. So I needed to talk to him. I didn't want Gaara to hurt anymore." Neji looked down. "And thank you for stopping him. I'm so sorry that I couldn't be here for him."
"Neji. I'm not the person that you should be saying that to. I think when Gaara wakes up. You should tell him your self. He is the one upset the most. I am just pissed." Itachi walked out of the room and back to his.
Neji slowly walked into the room and as Gaara sleeping. He looked around and didn't see anything moved. He got ready for bed and slipped into bed with Gaara and put his arm around him. "I'm sorry Gaara. I didn't mean to live you alone. I'm so sorry." Neji kissed him and then laid his head on Gaara's back. He closed his eyes and that fast he was asleep. He knew he had to talk to Gaara the next day and has to fix everything and tell Gaara why he wasn't that. He just hopes it didn't lead into one of their fights.
End of chapter
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