A/N: Okay, here we are with Chapter Numero Quatro. Im going to try really heard to make my chapters longer, but its gonna take me a lot longer to post so pleeeease don't shoot me. Im working a lot more and my mother is being a bitch and locking the wireless, ergo I can only use it when she deems it okay. Stupid hag from hell. Well as the end of the summer draws to a close, im going to be available to write less and less. I leave for college on August 26th woo! Okay im sure no one cares about my ramblings and you all just want to get to the story so I will shut up now kaythanx.
Disclaimer: im about to be a poor college freshmen, yeah I soooo own KH. HA! Im trying to scrap together the money to buy a DS on ebay so I can play 358/2 days. Anyone else as excited as I am?!?
Chapter 4
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Roxas sighed and leaned back against his headboard, closing his laptop in defeat.
Ring, Ring, Ring, Ring, Ring...
"Hey, its Axel. You know what do you, got it memorized?"
Ring, Ring, Ring, Ring, Ring...
"Hey, its Axel. You know what do you, got it memorized?"
Ring, Ring, Ring, Ring, Ring...
"Hey, its Axel. You know what do you, got it memorized?"
Ring, Ring, Ring, Ring, Ring...
"Hey, its Axel. You know what do you, got it-"
Roxas growled angrily and chucked his phone against the wall, smiling with grim satisfaction when the back popped off and the battery fell out, effectively cutting off the voice mail message. He stared at his phone, willing the battery to fly back in and it to go off, Axel on the other line. The stupid redhead was mad at him and he had to idea why. Actually, that was a lie, he knew exactly why Axel was mad, but that didn't mean he was going to admit it. So he had sex with his boyfriend, it wasn't like it was a crime against nature. He had every right.
Roxas sighed and closed his eyes. His arguments sounded pathetic even in his own head. Why did things have to be so complicated? Why couldn't he have just met Axel and skipped Zexion altogether, avoiding this situation entirely. No, that wasn't what he wanted. He loved Zexion, or at least he thought he did. If what he felt for Zexion was love, then what did he call what he felt for Axel? Lust? No, this was beyond lust. It was something more, something much more. There was a soft knock at the blondes door and he opened his eyes.
***
Exhale the stress so you don't come unglued
Somewhere there is a happy affair, a ghost of a good mood.
***
"What do you want Sora?" The brunette opened the door and shut it softly behind him.
"I wanted to talk to you. You look like you need it." Sora sat on the edge of his brothers bed and crossed his legs in front of him, leaning back against the wall.
"Im fine Sora, nothings wrong. You can go."
"Fine. F-I-N-E. Fucked up, Insecure, Neurotic, and Emotional. Now Roxy, that's a pretty hefty definition of nothing don't you think?"
Roxas sighed and ruffled a hand through his blonde locks. There was no use arguing with his brother, Sora could always tell when something was up, even when he was actually trying to hide it. Roxas reached a hand down to scratch his stomach and sit up a little straighter. His brother got comfortable.
"It all started about two months ago. I had detention and the only teacher available was the librarian. So I went. Axel does his in-school suspensions there because Mrs. Yuna is his aunt. So that day when I was there was the first day I met Axel.
Something was drawing me to him, it was like nothing I had ever felt before. It was almost like my soul was reaching out of my chest to reach for his. As much as I 'love' Zexion, I've never felt anything like this for him. I've never felt anything like this period, except around Axel.
My insides felt like they had all moved into my throat and were suffocating me. The library could have caught on fire and I never would have noticed. I couldn't blink, couldn't move, couldn't breathe. I just stared. It was like the only thing in the world that mattered was that one moment, the climax of me life. It was like my entire life had been leading up to that moment and after it, nothing would be the same.
I couldn't think or concentrate. The entire world had shifted and I felt like I was falling off the edge. Gravity didn't have an effect on my anymore and the only thing holding me here was my hand clutching the table edge.
Then my heart started to beat again, but it felt different. Instead of a rhythmic Zex-i-on, Zex-i-on, Zex-i-on, it was marching to Ax-el, Ax-el, Ax-el. It was a stronger, more steady beat. A sustained beat. If felt like my heart was going to Ax-el right out of my chest. It's the most amazing thing I've ever felt in my life. I think he's my soul mate."
Sora paused for a long time, talking in the whole story before commenting.
"You know Rox, you should really breathe between monologues."
Roxas half-smiled and hit his brother with a pillow. Sora laughed and tickled his brother. Roxas laughed uncontrollably until a bellow floated up from downstairs.
"GO TO SLEEP BOYS NOW!"
The siblings quieted, Roxas snuggling against his older brothers chest. Sora wrapped his arms protectively around Roxas and cuddled him just like when they were little. The two were content to lay there in the dark for a while before any more words passed between them.
"Rox, you gotta go what your heart is telling you. Take a break from both of them and think things through."
"I don't have to worry about taking time away from Axel." Roxas muttered sourly.
Sora raised an inquisitive eyebrow and Roxas poured out the whole story, or what he knew of it, of what had happened today. Sora cuddled him more and sighed.
"Give them time."
***
Cheer up and dry your damp eyes and tell me when it rains
And I'll blend up that rainbow above you and shoot it through your veins
Cuz your heart has a lack of color and we should've known
That we'd grow up sooner or later cuz we wasted all our free time alone.
***
Roxas ran his fingers across the carefully concealed hickey on his neck. He couldn't believe that he hadn't noticed the small dark bruise that adorned his throat. It had to be from Axel, Zexion didn't do hickey's. Luckily, he had caught it just before he left the house this morning and covered it.
Walking down the hall, the blonde stopped in front of his locker and dialed the combination. Pausing when he heard footsteps behind him, he smiled when a set of warm arms wrapped around his waist. Tilting his head back, he saw Zexion smiling down at him, wounds looking worse then they had yesterday.
Zexion leaned his head down and pressed a kiss to his boyfriends neck, nuzzling softly. Pausing, Zexion licked his lips and made a face. It tasted awful. Bringing a finger to his lips, he wiped them across, his fingers coming away the shade of Roxas' skin, a light tan. Zexion stood to his full height and looked down at the blonde, confusion written all over his face.
"Rox, why are you wearing foundation?"
All the color drained out of the blonde's face at the simple question. Zexion reached down and wiped at the area where the foundation rested. After a few swipes of his fingers, he revealed the offending bruise with its well-defined teeth marks.
"Roxas. What the hell is that?"
Roxas said nothing, shocked into speechlessness. Zexion's face was a mask of pure disgust as he walked away. Roxas looked to his left, Axel walking past in the other direction with almost the exact same expression as Zexion. Roxas' heart felt like it was splitting in two.
***
Time together is just never quite enough
When you and I are alone, I've never felt so at home
What will it take to make or break this hint of love?
We need time, only time
When we're apart whatever are you thinking of?
If this is what I call home, why does it feel so alone?
So tell me darling, do you wish we'd fall in love?
All the time, all the time.
***
Demyx sat under a large oak tree, strumming the guitar in his lap absentmindedly. He let his thoughts wander, his fingers following a familiar pattern without much concentration. Not much was on the teens mind at the moment. He closed his eyes and let the melodious notes fall like soft rain all around him, reveling in their warmth. He sat in peace for several minutes before a rampaging teen stormed towards him with rage-colored eyes. The other didn't seem to see Demyx sitting in his place and promptly tripped over him. Demyx squawked in surprise, moving his guitar to the side to make room for the shorter teen to fall squarely in his lap. Both looked at each other in shock for several seconds. Demyx was the first to recover.
"I'm Demyx. Nice to meet you."
The other teen blushed and sat up.
"I'm Zexion. Sorry about that, I guess I wasn't watching where I was going."
"Its alright. You didn't hurt Knunzio so its all good."
Zexion looked around curiously.
"Knunzio?"
"My guitar." he pointed to the blue acoustic guitar leaning casually against the tree next to them.
"Oh."
***
Something about you is so addicting.
We're falling together.
***
Zexion leaned his back against the tree next to Demyx and stared up at the sky between the leaves. His thoughts raced through his head, a jumble and tumble in his brain. He wasn't sure what to think or what to do about it.
"You look troubled." his counterpart commented.
"I have a lot on my mind."
Demyx looked at the other thoughtfully and looked up at the clouds as well.
"If you wanna talk I'll listen. I'm a good listener. But you don't have to if you don't want to."
Demyx leaned his head back against the tree and waited. Zexion sighed heavily and continued looking up, not really seeing what was above him, but just letting his thoughts wander, hoping they would somehow wander together into some kind of logical order.
"I think my boyfriends cheating on me."
Demyx took a second to take the enormity of that statment in before replying.
"Why do you think that?"
"He had a hickey. I don't give hickeys. Never have."
"Ah."
Both sat in silence for a long series of moments before Demyx felt it okay to say more.
"That sucks."
Zexion nodded.
"Yeah. Sucks a lot."
Both looked over at each other for a long time. Zexion just now noticing just how blue Demyx's eyes really were.
***
If we could just be immobile for some time,
And finally figure out the way we feel.
About the missing puzzle pieces and cloudy question marks
It still looks a bit surreal.
***
A/N: so here we come to the end of another chapter. It took MUCH longer then I thought it would to write but I maintain that stories write themselves, I just have to be ready for when it's ready to be written. I love you all and thanks for reading. Oh, and please don't anticipate another update for AT LEAST a week because im at a friends till Friday, hitting the mall on Saturday, and working Sunday, but I will write when I can. Please review, it makes my heart happy.
Peace, Love, and Rock N' Roll,
PS: song lyrics here are as follows....
Rainbow Veins by Owl City
Rainbow Veins by Owl City
The Saltwater Room by Owl City
Here We Go Again by Demi Lovato
I'll Meet You There by Owl City
