A/N: yeah, last chapter wasn't edited. I suck. .It. I'm in a bad mood so here's chapter 5, wrought with angst to reflect my wretched mood. Screw everyone.
Chapter Fucking 5
Axel stared at the computer screen.
AIM Status: Invisible.
Axel stared at his buddy window and ran a hand agrivatedly through his hair.
Rox_ass13 is online
He was so confused. What should he do? Should he confront Roxas about what had happened or just talk to him and pretend nothing had ever happened? Axel rubbed his chin, stubble scraping his hand. Shave first, think later. Axel got up and hit play on his stereo before padding into the bathroom. He left the door open and filled the sink with water.
***
I've never told a lie,
and that makes me a liar,
I've never made a bet,
but we gamble with desire,
I've never lit a match,
with intent to start a fire,
but recently the flames,
are getting out of control.
***
Axel tilted his head to the side, scraping the blade carefully along his jaw. The white foam fell into the sink, swirling in circles and slowly dissolving. Axel splashed water on his face and buried his face in a soft hand towel. Wiping the remainder of the shaving cream from his face, he looked up into the mirror at his reflection. There were dark bags under his slightly bloodshot eyes. He looked exhausted and it wasn't a very pretty sight.
***
Call me a name,
Kill me with words,
Forget about me,
It's what I deserve,
***
"I just...I don't know what to do anymore." Zexion rested his head in Demyx's lap as the other teen ran his fingers soothingly through the head of hair in his lap.
"I think you should do what your heart tells you to do Zex. Follow your heart."
Zexion sighed.
"I don't want to loose him. He's the best thing that has ever happened to me and I love him from the bottom of my heart."
"Maybe you're not meant to be."
"We have to be. There isn't anyone else better for me. We're a perfect fit. We're each other's soul mates."
Demyx continued playing with Zexion's hair and stayed silent. Both just stared off into space before Demyx broke the silence.
"I believe that everyone is put on this earth to find their soul mate. Everyone has one. Some find theirs, some think they find theirs, and some don't want to. Its different for everyone. Sometimes, you have to go through several relationships, both good and bad, in order to be able to recognize your soul mate when they come along. It's a process. Not always an enjoyable one, but one that we all have to go through none the less in order to find our other half. Sometimes you have to just sit back and let things happen as they need to. Let fate take over."
"Demyx, you really should breathe between monologues."
Demyx smiled. Zexion smiled back, their eyes meeting for a moment. Just then, it seemed their hearts beat together, a simultaneous beat, and the world around them stilled. Their faces leaned closer, an seemingly unbreakable moment. Their lips were only millimeters apart. They looked into each others eyes, finding a perfect moment that couldn't be matched. Closer and closer, they could feel each others breath caressing their lips. A twig snapped behind them and both looked up into the shocked face of Roxas. The blonde's eyes were the size of saucers as he backed away slowly. Zexion searched for his voice.
"Roxas...its not what it looks like..."
"That's what they all say and it's always, always, what it looks like."
"Rox..."
Roxas slowly shook his head before turning and bolting away.
***
I know that this hurts you,
It hurts me, too.
I wish there was something I could do
To make this easier for you.
***
"Roxas! Wait! Let me explain!"
The blonde ran. His lungs struggled to pull in air and his arms pumped faster and faster. Up ahead he saw a helmeted figure getting ready to climb on a sleek-looking motorcycle. Roxas ran towards him, almost out of breath.
"A-axel!!!" the helmeted figure turn his head just as he was about to start the bike. Stopping, he shifted forward on the machine to make more room for the panting blonde.
"Hold on." Roxas wrapped his arms tightly around the leather jacked clad teen and buried his face in Axel's back. Axel started the bike and roared out of the parking lot, leaving Zexion to cough in a cloud of exhaust fumes.
Roxas gasped, not ready to feel the wind rushing past him. His first motorcycle ride. He clutched Axel tighter and squeezed his eyes shut, afraid of being captive to the ground rushing quickly beneath him. After a while, he opened his eyes into slits, watching the trees whip past at an alarming rate. They were on a deserted stretch of pavement, cruising along going 75. When they started to slow, Roxas opened his eyes fully and peered around. They seemed to have come to a dead end, which happened to be situated on the edge of a huge stretch of green grass.
Axel kicked out the kick-stand and waited for Roxas to detatch and clamor off. When the blondes feet finally hit the solid ground, he started matching in angry circles. Axel just sat there, his helmet still on, waiting for Roxas to speak first.
"Why would he do that to me?! He was...he was..."
"Doing exactly what you're doing to him?"
Roxas' head jerked up in shock at the words that had just spilled from his lovers mouth. Axel pulled off his helmet and shook out his spikes, letting them bounce back to their normal volume. He stared Roxas down with a look that revealed no emotion. Axel's face screamed passive aggressive as the redhead fought to retain the shaky control he had on his emotions.
"You have no room to be mad at him. None at all. You know I was against you cheating on him from the start and the only reason I went along with it was because 1 I love you and 2 you promised me you would break it off with him ASAP. No more, im done. Don't you dare feel sorry for yourself or expect anyone else to either. What you have been doing is horrible and you know what, im glad Zexion is doing it back. It's what you deserve. I'm not claiming I'm not a guilty party, but at least I'm man enough to admit it. You're about a mile away from your house, walk home."
"This isnt a game!" Roxas cried, indignant.
"That's where you're wrong Roxas. Love is a game. It has rules, and when you break them, your out of the game. You play to win and the prize is you get someone else's heart. Everyone is just a pawn in the huge game of love and life. You have to play wether you like it or not so get used to it. Learnt the rules Rox, before you get kicked out."
Axel put his helmet back on and climbed on his bike. He left with a roar of the engine, leaving Roxas on the side of the road to stare at him in shock.
***
A word's is just a word
'Til you mean what you say
And Love isn't love
'Til you give it away.
***
A/N: short chapter...my bad. I figured you guys would rather have a short chapter posted now, since it's already been forever, then a longer chapter posted who knows when. Well sadly its gonna be a bit before I can post again, I leave for college in 8 days so everything is kinda hectic. I love you all and I promise that chapter 6 will be nice and long. Uhm...I love you all and I shall see you when im all settled in. Until then,
Forever yours my loves,
Rika-Chan
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