Forgive; Chapter One

Forgive; Chapter One

(Renesmee's Point of View)

I sat there in my room silently, waiting for the yelling downstairs to stop. It was my Uncle Emmett and Jasper, and Aunt Rosalie, arguing with my father about me. Me? I'm Renesmee Carlie Cullen, and my father is Edward Cullen. I ran my fingers through my bronze curly hair, wishing I could run downstairs and scream at them all to stop fighting. Fighting? Yes, they were fighting about a subject no one had any control over. At least that's what we thought. My father, Edward, thought differently. The subject was how when I was born, my mother, Isabella Marie Swan/Cullen died. I sighed, wondering what everyone was doing over at Jacob's house. Today was his birthday, and all the 'wolf girls,' who were Emily, Leah, Kim, Claire, Rachel, and now new little Kendall, were all throwing him a surprise party. I helped planned it, but I never got enough courage to ask my father or anyone about going. They didn't like me hanging out with what, 6 or 7 wolfs? They thought it was quote, dangerous, unquote. I didn't though. I loved hanging out with all of them. La Push was like my second home, and everyone there was my second family. All the guys were just like my big scary over-protective brothers who would beat up the boys at school who were mean. Being with everyone there is like my second life because I'm always happy when I'm there, and everyone on the reservation loves me. And well, you see, my other life story is a bit…complicated.

The weirdest part is probably the fact that my family are…vampires. I am a half-human half-vampire, because my mother was human and my father was a vampire. So, before I was born, my mother had just been married to my father when she became pregnant with me. It was a total shock to everyone, and my father thought that they should've killed me, while I was still inside my mother's stomach. Although my mother refused, my father persuaded Jacob Black, my best friend, and well, I guess you could say boyfriend, who is a werewolf, to talk my mother into killing me. Funny, my mother wouldn't listen to her or husband, nor her best friend who was madly in love with her at the time. So, I forget how long it was before I was about to be born, and everyone was ready. My father, ready to change my mother, and everything else set. When I was born, it literally killed my mother, and the vampire venom or whatever didn't spread fast enough and she was killed. Instantly. My father, who was in love with my mother, very over-protective, and would probably die for her, well, if he could die, was a mess. He wouldn't hold me. He wouldn't talk to me. Or anyone, and sat in his room all day. Jacob would've taken it a bit harder than he had if I wasn't there. So, Jacob imprinted on me, and surprisingly my father didn't care, but, he really didn't care about anything back then when I was just born. So, skipping 10 years now, and now I am 10 years old, but have the body of a 16 year old. Don't ask me why, just some thing that makes me even more of a freak. So now, it's been 10 years, and my father hates me. He does, really, never once has he told me he loved me, or anything, and I just feel so…guilty. He thinks it's my fault that my mother is dead, and he has no one now. Emmett Cullen, my uncle is more like a father along with Jasper Hale, than my real father is. I just, don't know what to do anymore. I hate seeing my father like this, wishing I could see how he was back when he was happy, and I wasn't there to ruin everything. And he's right. It's my entire fault.

(Edward's Point of View ;)

I stood against the counter, as my sister, Rosalie Hale screamed and lectured at me about something to do with my daughter, Renesmee Cullen. Probably something like how I was a horrible father and needed to start, maybe talking to my daughter more. But, I just couldn't. Every time I lookedat Renesmee, I just…saw my Bella. My Bella who was dead now. Because my daughter killed her as she was born. Renesmee is just a daily reminder to me about Bella, and her being dead. Her chocolate brown eyes, just, reminded me so much of how Bella used to look. I was snapped out of my thoughts as my older brother Emmett shouted something at me and I looked over at him. This was the first thing he's said since Rosalie came in and started yelling at me.

"Edward, listen," he growled. "You don't know how much pain Ness feels all the time. When you ignore her, don't talk, or even look at her. She's just as much of a daughter to me, maybe even more than you, and I care about her. It's been 10 years Edward. And it's not her fault," Emmett snapped at me. I glared at him.

"I talk to her," I retorted.

"Yeah, when you want her to do something. It's just like, 'Go to bed,' or 'Do this and that.' But never once, have you said anything, sincere to her," Emmett snorted. I rolled my eyes.

"Don't you roll your eyes at us Edward Cullen?" Alice Cullen, my little pixie sister snapped at me. Funny, I didn't see her walk in.

"I shouldn't be taking orders from a tiny annoying little person," I snapped back at her. She looked at me like I'd just slapped her. I'd never once, in over 10 or 11 years, probably said anything that mean to her.

"That's your problem Edward!" Jasper started to yell. "Ever since…" he trailed off, not daring to say /her/ name out loud, "You haven't been nice to anyone. You don't talk to us, well Alice some of the time, and you just yelled at her and called her a quote annoying little person, unquote. You've just changed Edward. You think this would make you realize that you should just…ugh…" Jasper couldn't finish his sentence, but I could tell what he meant. Normally, Jasper wouldn't just go off like that, but I could tell I set him off.

"Yes. I have changed. Deal with it," I told them harshly.

"No Edward, we're not going to deal with it. For one, we're not going to put up with this shit your giving us and your own daughter and secondly, do you know how much I wanted a daughter?" Rosalie asked me. I nodded slightly and looked over towards Emmett, knowing his expression would soften, and it did. "Well, you never thought you would have a daughter, and now you do. You do, and you don't even realize how lucky you are. I would give anything, to have kids, but I can't. You have Nessie, and you don't even pay any freaking attention to her! You ignore her and acts like she's just another pathetic person in your oh-so-tragic life. But really Edward, your life isn't sad and tragic. Sure, Bella is dead, and we all love her and miss her a lot, but you have Nessie. Something we all couldn't have. A daughter and your just letting it slip right by you." Rosalie finished her speech, and I could tell if she could cry, she would be crying right now. I rolled my eyes once again at Emmett who, hugged Rosalie, and I walked right out of the room.

They've told me those things many times, except for the part about Rosalie and her and everything. Honestly, I didn't really care. Rosalie was right, about one part, I did just let things slip right by me, but not thing…thing Rosalie was talking about. In one ear and out the other. Probably just because I spend most of my time thinking about Bella, wondering what we would be doing if she were here, thinking of memories, mostly about our wedding and how happy I was those days. But we all knew those days were long gone.

(Jacob's Point of View ;)

I ran through the forest, being phased of course, and thinking about Nessie of course. I stopped as I reached my house, phasing back quickly and finding the jeans that were sitting in a bag on the side of my house. As I phased, from wolf to human, my mind couldn't stop thinking about Nessie and how much pain she felt all the time. But these few months ahead, would be the worst. This was the ten year anniversary of the time everyone found out that Bella was pregnant. And soon after, would be Nessie's tenth birthday, and the ten year mark of Bella's death. I don't know she was going to live through these next few months, but I knew I'd be there for her. Because I loved her. I did imprint on her after all, but I loved her with all my heart. I could literally rip Edward Cullen to shreds for the pain he was causing Nessie. He thought it was her fault for Bella's death, and it wasn't. It was his fault for…well…having the child I guess. Not having it, but before that. Like I told them, he could've lost control and killed Bella, but he didn't thankfully, and now has a daughter, whom everyone thinks he hates. Which really upsets me?

I looked in the driveway and noticed Sam and Emily's car in the driveway. Along with Paul's, Jared's, The Clearwater's, Embry's, and Quil's car in the driveway. I groaned. What on earth could everyone be doing now. I walked inside my house, and saw Sam, Paul, Jared, Quil, Embry, Seth, Leah, Emily, Claire, Kim, Rachel, and Sam and Emily's new daughter, Kendall, who was 2 and a half all sitting around my living room. My father, who was an old geezer sat there in his wheelchair too, with Sue Clearwater.

"Um…hi?" I asked, wondering why they were all there.

"SUWPWISE!!" I heard Kendall yell, grinning as she sat on Sam's shoulders. I laughed at her lightly, still wondering why the hell little Kendall just shouted surprise and everyone was sitting in my living room. Quil, obviously noticing the look on my face, laughed too.

"Uh…Jake…do you remember what today is?" He asked me curiously and I looked around. Oh wow. Today, August 7, was my birthday. I shook my head and laughed.

"Wow. I forgot my own birthday," I chuckled and looked around. "So, you guys threw me a surprise party?" I asked.

"Yuppers!" Claire exclaimed and Quil laughed. Those two were now at the time where Quil was still in the big brother mode, almost to the point of loving each other…normally. I smiled, but noticed someone was missing and my smile slowly faded.

"Where's…Ness?" I asked them, wondering if something was wrong. I saw Emily sigh, Kim look over at Jared, and Claire look at the ground.

"She can't come," Sam replied, probably for the girls.

"Sorry Jake," Emily started. "She was too, afraid to ask her family, and well, more so Edward to see if she could come…but, she gave me this note she wrote to you, and told me to give it to you," Emily told me. I half-smiled at Emily and nodded.

"Thanks," I said as I was passed the note. I opened it carefully, wondering what she wanted to tell me. I unfolded it and started to read.

Jake,

Happy Birthday! I bet you didn't even remember. Haha. Sorry I couldn't make it to your surprise party. I'm well, kind of too afraid to ask anyone at the house if I could come. I would've asked Carlisle or Esme, but they're away for the week, up in Denali…visiting. I really wish I could've asked, but everyone is already stressed enough back at the house…because well, you know. It's August, and everyone is just…depressed. Hope you have fun at the party. Really wish I could be there with you right now.

Love, Nessie.

I sighed, after reading the note once or twice through. I looked up, to see all eyes on me, but my thoughts were still thinking about Nessie.

"Well, uh…Jake, do you want to…open your presents?" Kim asked me.

"Sure, I guess," I shrugged.

"Oh, and well, there would have been a cake, but trusting Quil, Embry, and Claire to make it wasn't the best idea," Seth laughed.

"Hey!" Embry protested. "We tried, it's not our fault it landed on the floor when we were carrying it," he told Seth.

"No, it's Claire's." Quil laughed, joking around.

"Well you two are the one who told me to carry it anyway," she retorted, and laughed too. I shook my head, laughing along with all the others, and looked up, and forcing a smile out, and yet again, I was still thinking about my Nessie.

A; N/ Hey guys! Thanks so much for all the totally awesome reviews and PM's I received! I was so happy when I saw everything! So, this chapter was really just a beginning one, like filler, but trust me. It'll get better.

I'm not so sure if I'll have another update tomorrow, for I am going to see the musical Wicked, for the second time and will be gone most of the day. Although with me being a total night owl, or vampire, I'll try to write some early tomorrow morning, and late tomorrow night, and will try my best to get something up…sometime tomorrow. But I can't promise anything.

Have a good weekend!

Xoxo Codancerstar17.