A/N: I'm sorry for my absence lately, it's just a lot has happened. It was easy getting through these first couple of chapters because I had my muse, my inspiration to keep me going. But my Santana has decided she no longer wishes to see me, and has thus broken off all contact with me. I'm going to try and make it through this story, for you guys who like it, and for those who understand what I had once went through.

It'll be hard, without her there to encourage me and comfort me when the memories became too much for me to handle, but I'm going to try.

Disclaimer- Don't own Glee, don't own anything.

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Rachel's POV

Ok, calm yourself Rachel, calm down. You're just experiencing some type of hero worship or something right? It's not like you actually have a crush on Santana…..RIGHT?!

Well damn….I have a crush on Santana.

Santana's POV

No. You know what…no! I'm not doing this to myself again. It's not going to be like it was with Brittany where I fell in love with her and denied it. I have a crush on Rachel Berry. I know, it sounds insane, but she's honestly so beautiful and sweet.

How could anyone not have a crush on her?

I remember when I first met Rachel, back in 6th grade.

FLASHBACK
"Hey! Fagspawn!"

I looked up from my lunch to see Noah Puckerman standing over a short brunette girl.

"Noah, stop it! Your mom's going to be mad when I tell her what you're calling me!"

"Well she's not gonna find out is she dipshit?"

"Noah please…." The girl said, and I could tell she was close to tears.

"I've told you not to call me that!" Puckerman hisses in her face.

"Hey! Leave her alone asswipe!" I heard someone yell, well I thought I did, until they both turned and stared at me. Oh what the heck, no one messes with someone so tiny on my watch.

"What do you want Lopez?"

"I want you to leave her alone Suckerman, or am I gonna have to make you?"

"Whatever Lopez, you can't protect the freak forever." He said as he walked away.

I stared after him, glaring, attempting to set his stupid mohawk on fire.

"Thank you," A small voice said. I looked over and smiled.

"It's alright, I'm Santana, I'm sorry about Puck he's just a jerk."

"I'm Rachel, you have a beautiful name."

END FLASHBACK

I could feel a blush coming to my cheeks thinking about that day. That girl is something else.

I don't care what people at school are going to think, screw them if they can't accept that I like Berry. I'm gonna be an amazing girlfriend, holding her hand in the halls, walking her to class. Well, that's provided she actually likes me back…..

TIME SKIP(A/N: I would have written this part out, but it's basically just a bunch of one of us going to the others house and watching tv while doing homework.)

It's been about two months now and I still haven't found the courage to tell Rach how I feel. We've gotten closer and I could easily see myself with this girl for a long time. I've decided that I'm going to tell her…today.

"Hey Rach, do you want me to walk you to your classes today?"

"I'm alright San, I won't need my knight in shining armor to walk me to my classes." She giggles as she gets her books out of her locker.

"Knight in shining armor?" I ask, smirking when I catch her blush.

"Yes, Santana, you're honestly the only person who's got my back at this school. Also, you saved me from having to deal with my parents this morning, so you're my knight in shining armor….or would you rather I say badass savior in a cheerleading uniform?"

I chuckle, "Call me whatever you want Rach, both work for me. Besides, it's pretty badass being called a Knight anyway."

"Whatever I want….Sanny-poo?"

"…..No, no, absolutely not. I will not allow you to call me something so disgustingly cutesy."

"But Sanny-"

"No, Rach…," I sigh, looking around for people in the seemingly empty hallway, "please no cutesy nicknames…at least in public okay?"

"Santana, are you embarrassed to be seen with me?" She asks, her expression turning into one of hurt.

"NO! Gosh Rachel of course not. I've just got my badass reputation to uphold and I can't have people hearing those god awful adorable nicknames."

She grins at me and for a moment I'm confused, then I realize what it is I just said…damn it.

"You think it's adorable? Aww Sanny!" She squeals as she wraps her arms around my neck.

"Of course," I take another look, "Rachie Bear, anything concerning you is adorable."

Oh lord what am I doing…

"San…."

I can't help but feel the immense loss of warmth as she pulls away from me. She takes a small step back and brings her eyes to meet mine, which I'm sure are filled with the adoration I feel when I'm around her.

"You…you think I'm adorable?"

I hate the fact that I can hear the insecurity in her voice, and it makes me sick knowing I was one of the people who caused it. I know that I can't change the past, but I can be better in the future, for Rachel.

"I do, you're also incredibly beautiful, and you've got the biggest heart. It's one of the reasons I li- I admire you so much."

"Santana, where you about to say you liked me?"

Well shit…..

"Yes."

Double shit…Santana you idiot!

"I like you too…"

See you idiot she doesn't- wait what?!

I look at her, in the eyes because they're so damn expressive, and brown, and beautiful, and deep, and- ok moving on. I can see the sincerity and adoration in her gaze.

She likes me….holy shit….she LIKES me!

I know without a doubt I've got the biggest smile on my face, one that's mirrored on hers. I know that I want to go about this the right way, so I take a step closer to her, wrap my arms around her waist, and bring her body as close to mine as I can.

No kissing, no roaming hands, just two bodies connecting in the most innocent yet passion filled embrace that I've ever felt.

Rachel Berry was hugging me, and I have never felt happier.

A/N: Again sorry for the super super super long wait, but I'm trying to do this and to be honest it's hard. It's been tough just getting through THIS chapter, but I'm going to try and make it through this whole story.

Thanks to all those who have liked, followed, reviewed, or just took the time to read this. Love you guys! Until next time!