A/N: Glad you guys are enjoying this story so far! Also, I wrote "The Letters of How things Came to Be" is up and almost done, check it out if you haven't!
A couple of days has past since Dean kissed Roman. And both don't know how to honestly feel about it. Dean, who is feeling much better and can finally get up and move around a bit, hasn't seen Roman much. He is starting to wonder if he regretted what he did. Roman would still come in and check on his cut and make sure there is enough food cooked for the day, but he wouldn't really say anything to Dean.
Today was no different. Dean woke up to Roman finishing up breakfast that he just put beside Dean. He made bacon, biscuits, and gravy. And of course his apple blossom tea that has helped him feel better.
Dean sat up and looked at Roman, who was cleaning the cooking dishes in a metal tub of hot water and rising it in another smaller tub before laying it out to dry. Dean sighs as he stretched a bit before grabbing the breakfast plate. "Looks and smells good Roman, thank you." He said softly as Roman looked over and nodded before finishing up the rest of the chore.
Dean looks down and eats a couple of bites before setting it down. All of a sudden, he wasn't hungry any more. He then just laid back down and faced away from Roman.
Roman then turned around and sees Dean laying back down after looking at the rarely eaten food. He sighs as he stops what he is doing and walks over to where he is. He bends down and speaks.
"You are going to eat?" he asked as he watches Dean move a bit.
"Not hungry" was all he said.
"You gotta eat Dean, you need the proteins and the strength," he coaxed gently.
"Not hungry", he said again in a more stern tone that left no room for argument. "Go do what you gotta do".
Roman sighs as he sits down beside Dean. "Dean….please look at me…." He asked in a soft but scared voice. He wants to explain why he shut him out after that kiss. "Please?"
Dean slowly rolls back over on his back and looks at Roman, who looks so confused at the moment. Like he isn't sure what to say or do.
"Please sit up, and eat, please?"
"Why, give me one good reason why I should listen to you right now after ignoring me for the last couple of days?" he asked in annoyance.
Roman sighs as he runs his fingers through his hair before taking a deep breath before proceeding. "I owe you an explaination, but please eat while I talk to you?"
"Fine," he said as he grabbed the plate and slowly started taking small bites again. But he doesn't take his eyes off of Roman the whole time.
Roman breathes out slowly and starts.
"When you first kissed me, it was the first time I've been kissed in a long time. I forgot what that felt like and I was scared."
Dean continues to chew his food as he continues to listen to Roman.
"I knew you just woke up from being out for over a week and didn't want to take advantage of that. You kissing me through me for a loop. The touch through me for a loop. As I told you, no companion for 10 years and I forgot how that felt. I shut you out because I didn't know how to handle it. I am sorry for ignoring you. I just didn't know how else to react. I should have handled it better, but I just didn't want to hurt you."
"What makes you think you would hurt me?" he asked after swallowing the food down. "It was a kiss, not the jaws of life."
Roman chuckled a bit, "I know, I just miss the human touch and you kissing me was a new thing for me. It was like rediscovering the human touch all over again. Did I like the kiss? Yes I did, but it just scared me because I haven't been able to feel that in so long. I'm sorry for mishandling it, it honestly had nothing to do with you, just should have been more upfront about it."
Dean smiles a small smile which put Roman at ease. "Thank you for talking to me and thank you for breakfast by the way, it's pretty good."
"Quite welcome." He said shyly, "I thought that maybe since you are feeling a bit better, if you like to get out and get some fresh air and maybe stretch your body some?" I know of a place you would love if you are up to it."
After Dean takes the last bite and hands the empty plate to Roman, he smiles big, "Sure, I need to get up and moving again. I am getting pretty stiff at the moment."
"Good, let me put this away and then I'll help you up and we will head out, sounds good?"
"Sounds great", he said as he watched Roman get up and put the dishes in the tub to wash.
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"Damn, Roman, this is beautiful!" Dean gasped as he and Roman stood in front of a waterfall. "Never seen anything so clear!" Dean walked over to a rock close to the waterpool and sat down. He ran his hand through the clean water and felt the temp was just right.
"I found this place about a day after I got here. Couldn't believe how clear and clean it really was. It has some kind of natural filtering in it so this is where I get my water to cook and clean with." He said as he sat beside Dean with the sun shining down on them both. It was a nice day, not too hot even with the sun shining out. But the brightness definitely showed Dean just how tanned he really was. The man did boat and fished as he could tell.
"So no swimming in there then?" he asked sadly.
Roman laughs a bit as he takes his hand and touches Dean's as the wade in the water a bit.
"No, but there is a hot springs right next to it that you can soak and wade in. The waterfall goes into two different areas as you can see. One goes here, and the other goes into the hot springs that is just on the other side of the fall. Wanna check it out?"
"Sure, I would like too!"
"Good, let's go!"
Roman gets up and gently pulls Dean up beside him as he still wobbly from not walking for almost two weeks. He gently takes him over by the hot springs and has Dean put his foot in it.
"oh my damn, this feels so good Roman. Mind if I sit in this for a moment?"
Roman nods happily as he helps Dean inside the little pond for Dean to soak in. "I was gonna suggest that anyways so that you can get cleaned up properly and at the same time, you can get your muscles loosen up more. This way, it's a win-win on both counts. It also makes bubbles as well."
"Awesome, really, this is beautifully breathtaking Roman. Thank you for bringing me here." He said as he looks out and sees the ocean with the birds flying high around where he is at. He wasn't lying. The scenery was unlike anything he has ever seen. No wonder Roman doesn't want to leave here, it's like a whole new world right here in front of him.
"No problem, I am glad you are enjoying it. Wanted to show you what I see every day I am here and to why I don't want to leave. It's like my own little private world here that nobody really gets to see."
"I hope I am included in this, meaning, I hope I get to see more cause this is is unreal."
Roman bends down and places a kiss on his forehead. Dean closes his eyes for a moment to relish in the touch.
"I would love to show you more when you are up to it. I don't want to overdo it with you right not. This hot springs is just the start of what I can show you here. But at the same time, I am not sure how long you are here for. I know you got people looking for you right now, it's only a matter of time before you are found. I don't want you to get to attached to this place if you do choose to leave." His voice was a little sad as he told Dean this. As selfish as he is, he doesn't want to keep Dean here if he doesn't want to be. "I am sure you got someone waiting for you anyways, I am sure they miss you a lot."
"Hey…." Dean said as he pulls Roman into the water with him and has him sit by his side facing the ocean with him. "Listen to me, okay?"
Roman looks over and nods.
"Don't be afraid of me leaving here. Who knows what is in store for me. Yes, I do have someone waiting for me," He noticed Roman tensing up but Dean grabs his hands and entwines with his. "But, it's nothing serious with him anyways. We occasionally fucked each other because it was familiar but it was never anything to serious between us."
Roman looks at Dean in confusion as Dean chuckles a bit.
"Yeah, Baron was my best friend in the world. I had an advertisement for a roommate a year ago and he answered it one day. We hit it off pretty much right away. We never dated, but we would get each other off when it was needed. He is a pretty good guy."
"So why wasn't anything ever serious between you two if you don't mind me asking?"
"Well, because Baron is bi and he has is sight set on a girl that he met about 3 months ago at a bar he was at one night. They hit it off really good, but he didn't want to rush into anything for once. He is a bad ass biker dude that doesn't take shit from no one, which is why we clicked so well. But we never did anything in public to each other, what we did, we did behind close doors. They last I knew before I left, he was gonna spend the week with her at her apartment to see where it went. That was the last I knew."
"So…you don't have anybody you are serious with?" Roman asked in astoniment. "You are a very attractive guy who I was for sure was taken." He blushed as he said that.
Dean squeezed his hand a bit making Roman return the favor. "Nah, I've had a few one night stands here and there, but nobody that caught my attention. I'm pretty picky actually on who I date or fuck."
"Really? What is your type?"
"Well, gotta be smart, enduring, have a sense of humor, have to be a bit sarcastic too. Someone to keep making me laugh, even if I am an asshole at times. Gotta have the whole package."
Roman swallows hard, he is so nervous right now and Dean knows it. "Anyone captured your attention yet?" he whispers.
Dean looks over and sees the blushing. It was too cute to see right now. "Maybe…." He says as he leans over and gently places a soft kiss to Roman's before leaning back up. "Just might be." He winks, leaving Roman a bit flush.
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"So," Roman clears his throat, "What happened to your parents?"
Dean's face went to happy to sad in a matter of moments, making Roman feel bad. "Umm, you don't need to answer that question. Sorry if I was out of line."
"No, it's okay…" he said somberly. "Just hard to talk about at times."
"It's okay Dean, you don't have to talk about it." He reassured as he looks back out to the ocean, the sun was starting to set. "We need to get out before you shrivile into a prune anyways." He says as he starts to get up. But Dean stops him and pulls him back down.
"Not ready to leave just yet. Been nice here so far." He says as he stays put. "My parents were the best parents a kid could ask for. They always made sure I got the best of everything. I was their only child so whatever I needed, I got." He said as he kept hold of Roman's hand. "After graduation time, my parents were heading home from setting me up for college. They were about 20 miles from home when a guy that drank too much hit them head on, killing them both on impact. He walked away with a fucking scratch on the arm and a broken ankle."
"I am so sorry Dean…"
"The man was only gonna be charged with manslaughter, but since this wasn't his first DUI, they charged him with second degree murder and was sentence to 20 to life in prison. My parents were my world. They were my everything. I damn near died myself because they weren't here anymore."
About this time, Dean started to cry, which made Roman wrap his arm around Dean and lean him in to neck. He softly kiss the top of his head as the gently stroked his hair.
"I later found out that they left me a sum of about $3 million dollars which is still in my back. I have never spent a dime of it cause I wanted to still have something of my parents, you know? I know it sounds so dumb….
"No it doesn't," he said as he pulls him closer to him and holds him. "They were you parents, they wanted what was best for you and wanted to make sure you were taken care of even if they weren't around. I am so sorry a stupid son of bitch took them away from you."
Dean sniffed more as Roman continues to hold him as he cries it out. It's been a long time since he cried for his parents. But he is happy that Roman doesn't judge him for it. "Thank you Roman….means a lot."
"Happy to help, good to get that out at times. Just remember that your parents are always watching you, even if you don't think they are. I am sure they are the reason you are still here." He smiles as he lets Dean up and looks at him in those blue eyes. "I am thankful that I got to rescue you as I feel that maybe your parents led me to you."
You don't know how right you are Roman, Dean thinks as he smiles at Roman.
"Come on, let's get out and get some food. It's almost dinner time and we skipped lunch. You gonna be okay to walk?"
"Yeah, I am, I am hungry so let's get going, and thank you…"
"Anytime Dean…anytime…." He says as he gets out and helps Dean out.
Maybe being out here won't be so bad, but I am scared though. I don't want Roman to be alone, so should I just stay here with him? And I am attracted to him so I want to see where this goes, should I give him a chance? Help me out here Mom….. Dean silently prays as he walks with Roman side by side back to Roman's hut. He just hopes he gets his answer…..
A/N: okay….so what do you think Dean should do? Stay or find a way to leave? He seems like he wants something with Roman but is scared, but should he try? (if so, there maybe some smut there ; ) ) let me know!
