Seems like the last chapter split ya'll….some were Team Dean and others were Team Roman. What I was looking for actually. And to the guest that left me a very nice long review, thank you, I love reading your thoughts and thanks for taking the time to read it. Hope ya'll enjoy this next chapter!

Two days went by. Roman was keeping his word to Dean. He spent the last two days working on the broken radio from Dean's boat just like he said. The only time Roman took a break was to fix something to eat and to sleep. Other than that, his days and evenings were spent putting back the box that would help Dean leave the island to go back home.

Home.

Roman would be lying if he wasn't thinking of home. He has for the past 10 years but then he would look at what he had in front of him and home was right there….surrounded by beauty.

He also spent the past two days ignoring Dean. No matter or how Dean tries to talk to him, to reason with him, he just would ignore him. Maybe he was being selfish, or even an asshole to him. But in his mind, he wanted him. But, deep down, he can't force a man to stay and keep him company if he didn't want to be here. He honestly can't blame Dean for wanting to go back to civilization again. Did he want to leave with me? Yes. But can he leave with him? No.

Why? Because this is home to me and this is where my heart belongs now.

Roman's mind as been in a battle within himself that he could just simply go back home to where he came from, but, his heart says to stay here since this is what he has been use to for years. And besides, he can't do that to the animals that have come to be his family.

Dean is the first human contact he's had since he was shipwrecked here. He's the first human to have kissed in so long. The first one to seriously have captured his heart while he was caring for him. Can he truly let him go?

He may not have much of a choice. He can't keep him here no matter how much he wants him here. He understands that Dean's life has changed. But he can't see that he can be happy here?

Is he really that petty and selfish? Yes, I am.

Ignoring Dean may not have been the way to go for the last couple of days, but he doesn't know how else to handle this. He feels like his heart is breaking into a million pieces. But yet, I don't love him….yet…

He knows he is hurting him, but he feels that if they don't talk, it won't hurt as bad when Dean does leave. He can go back to his life before he changed it. He can resume doing whatever he wants to do without having to deal with another person.

So…why is this so hard and why does this hurt so much?

And why did is have to be a young man who looks like James Dean reincarnated? Fuck…I hate this…I hate this feeling, he says to himself. He knows that as much as he likes Dean, he knows that this is the only way to happen.

Even if he never sees Dean again, at least, for a little while, he has a little bit of happiness.

Sighing, he wipes the sweat from his face before he puts the final touches on the radio. It was a painstaking process, but he wanted to get Dean home as fast as he can so that he can get back to his life before Dean crashed into it.

He has to. He has to let him go and to let him get back to his life. And possibly find happiness and love that would be waiting for him.

After putting on the last metal side to the radio, he gets up, picks it up and carries it to the area of where he found Dean. He even left a note on it for Dean,

Radio works

You can now call for help so they can find you.

I wish you nothing but the best in life.

He fights back the tears that were threatening to fall and looks out to the ocean. It was a peaceful day and slightly warm. He knows that this is the final day for Dean and he just hopes that all goes well for him.

He wipes his face off and then turns to head to the waterfall. He just wants to avoid Dean and him leaving. He kept his promise, now it's up to Dean to finish it.

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Dean doesn't know what else to do. Roman and him haven't talked in two days. TWO DAYS. Ever since the special place Roman took him too and confessed that he wants to go back home, Roman has completely ignored him. Yeah, they ate together still, but sleeping in the same area was not. Dean slept in Roman's bed as Roman slept outside on the porch. Other than that, Roman wasn't around. He was too busy fixing the radio so that Dean could call for help to bring him home.

Home.

He thinks that Roman is being unreasonable. He couldn't seriously think that he wanted Dean to stay here. In this beautiful place with no other human interaction except him. I mean, he can't blame Roman for feeling the way he does, but he just wishes that Roman would see his side of it. This isn't something he thinks would have ever happened in his lifetime. To find a special island that no one would live on…well…except Roman himself.

He could have asked if he wanted to go with him to go home. Home to his parents that have been waiting for him all these years. Home to where he could easily have things at his fingertips.

Home.

But at the same time, he realizes that this has been Roman's home for so long that this is pretty much all he knows. He goes back and it would be like getting out of prision after serving 10 years and then going back into a population that has bloomed during his absence. He thinks of Shankshaw Redemption..the old man that finally gets out of prison serving most of his life behind bars, he gets out and realizes that he can't make it into the real world because it changed so much. That would be how he would think Roman would feel.

He couldn't do that to him. He can't take him away from a place that has been his home for so long.

But then again, Roman can't ask him to do the same thing. Go from a busy life to just a simple life. It's not fair for him to be pissed off that he wants to go home.

But he can't fault Roman either for being pissed off because he hasn't had anybody to enjoy his company in a long time.

He was torn. Torn because a part of him don't want to leave him, but the other part of him does want to leave and get back to doing what he loves…his job and his friends.

He knows that Baron, Shane, Becky, Charlotte, Sasha and even Finn and Bayley are trying to find him to bring him home. They are all his friends that he made from his job. He can't just leave them.

But he can't just leave Roman either.

He was fucked. He knew it too.

All he can do is just hope that whatever he does, it's the right choice for him.

He gets up from a spot he was sitting at after watching Roman from afar. He sees Roman leave and sees the radio sitting on a big rock facing the water. He also sees that Roman put some kind of note on it before he heads to the other direction.

This was harder than he thought.

He sighs as he gets up and dust himself off and heads to where Roman was moments before. He stops in front of the radio and sees the note that Roman left….

Radio works

You can now call for help so they can find you.

I wish you nothing but the best in life.

For some reason, the note hit his heart. It just seemed final. And he didn't like that. He needs Roman to understand him. He hates that he won't even acknowledge his existent right now. He doesn't know what else to do. Maybe it was for the best. Maybe this is what needs to happen. To let him go. To let him be. To make him non existence to him.

But how can he do that when he somehow made his way into his heart? Can he truly forget him once he is home? Can he truly get on with his life and Roman be a distant memory? Can he really do that?

"Fuck it…he is gonna hear what I have to say before I leave whether he likes it or not!" Dean says as he walks in the direction that Roman went.

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Roman is in the kitchen of his treehouse making lunch. He decided to get back into using food from the island, so he got four fish he caught, along with a few bay leaves and lavender mixed in to make a nice broth with a few apples for a side snack. He also got some tea leaves to make some homemade tea.

As much as he will miss the actual food he's had the last month, his body needs to get use to the this kind of food again. Whatever is left is what Dean needs to take back so he doesn't starve.

As angry as he is at Dean, he doesn't want him hurt in any way.

He gets ready to sit at the table when he hears Dean come up the trunk wall. His breath hitched a bit before Dean could notice it and sits down, not facing him when he walks in.

"We need to talk Roman, now," Dean wasn't in the mood. Two day of this has got to stop. He doesn't want to leave like this. "I can't handle the silence anymore. You need to talk to me!" he snapped, forcing Roman to stop eating and look up at him. His eyes weren't soft like before, it was angry and hurt, which doesn't make this situation any better.

"Roman, you need to understand-"

"The radio is fixed, go do what you need to do and go home. I've done my part, now you need to do yours," he calmly said as he took another bite.

"So because I want to go home, you are pissed off at me? Seriously? I tell you that I don't belong here and you get mad to where you don't talk to me for two days?" he says in annoyance but he continues. "I have been trying to get you to understand my point of view and you just threw back in my face how I feel. You gonna be that upset because I actually have people searching and waiting for me to come home and yours isn't?" He regretted saying that as soon as he said it. It was such a low blow considering that Roman DID have family waiting for him to return and now most likely think he is dead.

Roman looks up at him and stares at him. Dean could see the hurt more now since he said those words.

"Roman, I'm sorry…I'm so sorry-" Dean tried to say as Roman put up his hand to stop him from speaking further.

"Save it, you said what you wanted to say, now leave. Find the channel you need and call for someone to finally pick you up. I've packed your stuff so you don't have to and I even put a few extra meds for you so that you can get better from the water sickness."

Roman gets up and heads to where he puts his dishes in the sink. He suddenly lost his appetite and needed to get out of there. His heart hurt more than he was willing to admit. He confess to Dean about his family and Dean totally demolished that. To say his family gave up searching for him. And maybe they did, but it didn't mean that it didn't hurt to hear him say that.

Dean walks up behind him, shakingly putting his hand on Roman's shoulder, and Roman flinched. He FUCKING flinched at Dean's touch. "Don't…" he said as Dean reluctely pulls back. He didn't mean to say it, just was tired of the silent treatment.

"Roman, please, please hear me out. I can't take this anymore. Please let me explain…." Roman could hear Dean begging him to talk, to work this out. Not to end on bad terms. He closes his eyes and breathes in and out slowly. He turns around and steps back away from Dean, which he noticed hurt him a bit. But he needed to stay calm and stotic about it.

"Talk…" he demanded. "Say what you need to say and then please leave. You have family waiting for you and you don't belong here. I am not going to force you to stay, not my thing. But I don't want to keep you here any longer than you have to be. The radio works as I promised, and now you need to call the Coast Guard and send for someone to come and get you."

"Roman…" he pleads.

"And I do wish you nothing but happiness with Corbin or whomever you let into your heart. You deserve it. You deserve to be happy with your life and how you live it. I don't want to ever be the reason you aren't happy , and right now, you aren't. As you said, you have friends and job waiting for you. You have money waiting for you . You have all the technology you need waiting for you. You aren't the first guy that broke my heart, but you are damn sure the last one to break it. I just hope that whomever you end up with, makes you happy. Makes your heart whole. Makes you forget me. That is what I want for you. Am I being selfish? Yes. Am I being petty? Yes. Am I being stupid? Yes. I am all those things you think about when you see me. So I am gonna save you the trouble and tell you to forget me. Forget that I ever existed to you."

Dean was floored with what Roman just said to him. He wants him to forget that he doesn't exist to him. How can he do that when his own heart won't let him? How can he go without telling him how he feels about him?

Dean sniffs as he began to speak up. Who knew this was how Roman really felt? Someone broke his heart before?

"I guess there is nothing else to say since you said pretty much how you felt about me." He whispered as he crosses his arms.

"You don't know how I feel about you…." He said as he stand there in front of Dean, as Dean trembles a bit. He is hurting, but damn it, he wants him….all of him.

"Then show me how you really feel then….prove it to me…..show me why I shouldn't leave…." he said as he slowly walked up to Roman and places his hand on one side of Roman's face as he closes his eyes to the touch.

"Don't Dean…. For once in my selfish life, I am trying to do the right thing here…." He breathing picks up as Dean brings his forehead to his as Roman places his hands on Dean's hips.

"Show me Roman…." He mumbles as he places his lips on Roman's.

A/N: Yes, I made Roman into an asshole of some sort. You will see why in the next chapter. A secret will be revealed about Roman that will make you understand why he is like this. Stay tuned! Let me know what you think!