"Lily, wake up won't you?"

Mary's voice pulled her up from a dream in which she had been on a glorious honeymoon in Europe with James with nothing to worry about and no one to bother them. No Lord Voldemort, no marauders, no death eaters... She felt the familiar pang of guilt that she experienced whenever she thought of Severus but it faded much more quickly this time. He had shown long ago where his loyalties lay and what he thought of mudbloods like her.

She sat up in bed, pulling her long red hair over one shoulder. She was about to become a Potter. The thought made her nervous but she pushed aside the feeling that she had eaten one to many chocolate frogs and grinned at Mary who was hovering uncertainly in the doorway. As their eyes met, her friend flung herself across the room and threw her arms around Lily's neck. When she pulled away tears filled her blue eyes and she began chattering in a flustered way.

"Are you excited? Are you nervous? I can't believe that you're marrying James Potter."

Lily was experiencing that same sense of disbelief but she was hardly about to acknowledge it. If someone had told her only three years ago that she would end up in love with James Potter, marrying him she would have laughed herself silly. She had hated him for so long, he had been a conceited little toe rag.

"Were leaving in two hours Lily, get your things together and come down for breakfast!"

Her mother's voice sent a wave of nostalgia crashing over her but she jumped up with a big smile on her face, listening to Mary's incessant chattering as she pulled on a pair of sweatpants and a tank top and followed her friend downstairs into the kitchen. She was starving.

Her mother hugged her as she entered and her father stood up to kiss her on the forhead but it wasn't quite the reception that she had expected. The atmosphere in the room was extremely tense in the room as she pulled away from her father and she looked around to see her older sister leaning against the counter in a sun dress with her hair pilled on top of her head.

Lily had once heard Remus say that a man in the park had looked like a muggle. She had never really understood what someone could mean when they said this, as no two wizards appeared the same and Lily herself couldn't pick a wizard out of a crowd of muggles if her life depended on it but at that moment she realized just what he had meant. She had never in her entire life seen anyone who looked more like a muggle than her sister did at that moment.

She smiled at the older girl who nodded in reply with a look on her face that at one time Lily had never been subjected too as the spoiled little sister but that she was now overly familiar with.

"Hows Vernon?" she asked politely as her mother put plates of fruit and waffles down on the table in front of her and Mary. Lily noticed that the look that Petunia was giving Mary was far worse even than that that she gave her sister. Mary however didn't seem to notice as she dug a spoon into a bowl of raspberries.

"Fine."

"And the new house?"

"Lovely, thank you."

Her sister's tone was clipped and annoyed and Lily wondered what she was doing here at all. She doubted very much that her sister had changed her mind about coming to the wedding, after all it would be swarming with freaks and monsters. Petunia had been horrified when she had overheard Lily talking about Remus and when one of the marauders visits had coincided with her own she had ended up storming from the house when he had merely said hello. But that had been so long ago.

"Petunia just dropped in for a few minutes. Vernon had a meeting in town so she decided to come by for a visit."

Her father confirmed what she had been thinking.

"I'm sorry to have interrupted the wedding preparations, I forgot that it was today" Petunia said stiffly and Lily knew that if she had remembered she would certainly not have dropped in for a visit.

"Oh, your not interrupting anything. All the preparations are taking place at the Potter's and we aren't leaving for hours."

Lily noticed that her mother's voice was much louder than usual and Petunia looked as if she sincerely wished that they were leaving much sooner so that she could get out of there. Lily found that she was not hungry anymore but she forced down some fruit so as not to give her mother reason to fuss and hastened from the room with Mary on her heels.

"Of all the days that that evil cow of a sister of yours could come by-"

"Mary!"

"I'm sorry Lily, I know how bad you feel about it all, but she's ruining your wedding day."

Lily sighed, she knew that her friend was right. The feeling of elation that she had been feeling before she had seen Petunia was gone, like popping a balloon with a pin. And it certainly wasn't her fault that her sister hated everything about her so much. She closed her bedroom door rather harder than might have normally and willed the anger and annoyance to evaporate. She was getting married. She brought up James' face in her mind's eye and did her best not to think about her sister.

Remembering the dream that she had been having that morning she began to sort through the things that she would need to bring to the Potter's for the wedding, clothes that she had brought from the flat she shared with James and Remus and gifts that she had received from family members who had been told that the wedding was to be a small affair with only parents and a few friends. Indeed, Lily didn't want to even think about how many people would be there which was why most of her muggle family couldn't come, it would be nearly impossible to hide any magic when there would be wizards all over the place getting drunk and letting down their guard, not to mention the magical factors that made up every wizard wedding. There would be dozens of Potter relatives and all their friends from around the world and James and Lily's friends from school. It brought the frogs back into her stomach when she thought about how many people would be staring at her as she walked down the aisle.

She was more than ready to get going twenty minutes later, already packed and dressed. Her wedding gown topped the pile of things that she would be taking to the Potter's and she couldn't help but run her hands over it over and over in a nervous way until Mary dragged her away and sat her down in her old bedroom but she was not in the mood to talk and they sat looking down at the muggle suburb outside her bedroom window.

"Wait here for minute" Lily told her friend as Petunia came into view, walked down the porch steps and out to the front sidewalk. Vernon was obviously on his way to get her and Lily knew that she might only have minutes.

She raced down the stairs, past her father in the kitchen where he sat drinking coffee, past her mother in the front landing, holding her own dress in a long clothing bag and out the door, coming to a stop out of breath a few feet from her sister who stared at her in horror.

"Please come to the wedding Petunia." Her voice sounded whiny and childish even to her but she hardly cared. "My wedding" she added unnecessarily.

Petunia pursed her lips and shook her head, turning her head away, looking down the street for her husbands car. Lily reached out and grabbed her arm.

"When we were little we dreamed about our weddings. Do you remember?"

Another shake of her sister's blond head.

"We were going to be each other's wedding planner's and maids of honor."

She sounded pathetic and Petunia threw her a look that confirmed it.

"We were children, things change." Obviously. A dark car turned the corner and Lily could just make out her brother in law's beafy face.

"Some things don't change, you're still my sister tunie." She used the childhood nickname as a last resort but the horror on Petunia's face only grew with the mention of it.

"Ha. Ever since you met that horrible boy... your a freak Lily, it's too late now. It's done, your not the same... your not my sister anymore."

Petunia yanked her arm out of her sister's hand and glared at her. The car pulled up to the curb and Petunia reached for the handle. Lily offered Vernon a small smile but he just stared back at her, stony faced. She watched as the car pulled away. She didn't have a sister anymore.

"Are you okay, what did she say?" Mary asked a minute later as she sat back down next to the window. Lily smiled.

"I'm fine" she said. "I'm getting married today."

I WILL SAY IT AGAIN AND AGAIN UNTIL IT HAPPENS, REVIEW PEOPLE, IT'S NOT DIFFICULT, I AM SO CLOSE TO BEGGING.