Author's Note: 5th chapter I am planning on getting this done before the 8 of September because that's when all my sports and stuff starts. But I still don't how long it's going to be and if you read my story please REVIEW!!!!! Thanks to Breathe-in3 for reviewing I might not update tomorrow cause I am going away for the day so I might have tomorrow's chapter up today. I don't really like this chapter but i have to post it remember to REVIEW!!!!!
Disclaimer: If I owned Degrassi Ellie would still be on the show and Sean and Ellie would still be together!!!!!
ELLIE POV
I walked into The Core early that afternoon different scenes of how the day could roll out playing in my mind but most of them ended with Jesse and I splitting. He was sitting alone working on a front-page piece for the next issue when I approached him we were alone the only ones in the room everyone else was in class so it was a perfect time to tell him.
" Hey Frosh" he said without looking up from his piece " What's up?"
" I need to talk to you about something" Jesse nodded
" Talk away" I took a deep breath and continued he was going to be so mad when I told him.
" Um so yesterday well more like this morning I was sleeping and um I saw someone go through my window so I turned on the light and-"
" Is this going somewhere? Your kind of scaring me Frosh." He said interrupting my mad babbling speech.
" I kissed Sean." I said hanging my head not wanting to see his reaction. We sat in silence for about a minute I raised my head and saw him take a deep breath before running his hand through his hair.
" You you kissed your ex … um wow Ellie um" He trailed off and stood up walking over to the assignment board before speaking again.
" Just tell me tell me it didn't mean anything tell me it meant nothing that it was just a kiss that you fell into the moment or something I don't know tell me you thought nothing of it." He turned around and looked at me. I sighed
" Jesse it I… I would be lying if I said that and I can't lie to you right now." I snapped the rubber band around my wrist an action that I haven't done in a while the familiar pain swept up and down my arm and I relaxed.
"I can't do this Frosh I can't you still have feelings for your high school romance how could you do this to me we're done Ellie have a great life." He turned around and stormed out of the core my eyes filled with tears and as I sat there and watched him leave the room. I shouldn't have told him how could I have been so stupid I tried to blink back the tears that threatened to fall as I too left the room. I always ruin everything.
I brushed past the cold metal coat hanger it touching sligtly the cold metal felt good against my skin the picture of a razor popped into my head but i closed my eyes and thought about Sean. Once again i started snapping the rubberband around my wrist bulding bruises were it hit my flesh i felt like a 16 year old again all alone in the world except for the sharp metal edge of a razor i was going crazy and i already missed Jesse. I knew i had hurt him but i loved Sean now all i had to do was get SEan back.
JESSE POV
" I kissed Sean." Her words kept echoing in my head she kissed her ex. I thought we were going great so great almost perfect and then she kisses her ex. I couldn't believe it i didn't want to believe it and then i asked her to tell me that it meant nothing and she couldn't. "
" Just tell me tell me it didn't mean anything tell me it meant nothing that it was just a kiss that you fell into the moment or something i don't know tell me you thought nothing of it" I asked her or more like pleaded with her i wanted us to be together for ever.
"Jesse it I...I would be lying if I said that and I can't lie to you right now." She said and I was devastated I couldn't even deal with this right now. I knew I had no choice but to end it right then an there.
