Author's note: sorry this chapter is so late today I had an orthodontist appointment and it took way longer than expected and then I had to go to my mom's studio and we didn't get done there till like an hour ago. Don't know when the next chapter will be I am really busy this tomorrow and Saturday and don't know if I can get to a computer there's only a few chapters left like any where from 3 to like 7 and If you read my story review and thanks to breathe-in3 and Allyk00 for reviewing!!!!
Disclaimer: if I owned Degrassi would I be writing a disclaimer????????
ELLIE POVMy life was falling apart Jesse hated me, my mom was drinking again and my dad well… he might as well be dead it all started yesterday when we got the phone call.
The house phone rang 3 times before anyone answered it" I got it" Marco yelled from the kitchen and I laughed to myself he had been waiting for Dylan to call him for 2 days and has been telling everyone to use their cell phones if they needed to get in touch with someone.
I was sitting cross-legged on my bed the only sound was that of my soft breathing and my fingers hitting the keyboard off my computer. I was working on a front-page article for The Core that was if Jesse even accepted the piece. I shook the thought from my busy mind and heard Marco calling my name telling me to get downstairs. I ran down the stairs and into the living room Marco held the phone out for me
" It's your mom" He said sympathetically my heart jumped into my throat my mom only called me if something went wrong seriously wrong
" Hel- hello" I said into the phone.
" Ellie they said they said he…he there was a bombing and they… they haven't found him yet that he… he is probably gone" My mom cried and I felt the tears that had been threatening to fall go down my cheeks in thick streams
" Mom mom I am coming over." I said into the phone. I grabbed my jacket and ran out the door leaving the phone behind me thoughts raced through my head as I approached that oh so familiar door. I opened the door slightly and saw my mom leaning over the kitchen table sobs raking her body and a half empty vodka bottle still in hand.
I ran over to her trying to pry the bottle from her hands but she fought back as hard as her body could handle yelling
"No Ellie I need this I do just one drink just one Ellie I need this. Please." She pleaded with me I yelled back angrily
" No because one drink will turn into two and two to four and I need thinks to mom like a sober mother." I once again tried to yank the bottle out of her hands but she grabbed it away and took another drink.
" Your father might as be dead Eleanor I need this more than you can understand." She replied angrily taking another long sip of the clear liquid before resting her head back down on the table. I slammed my hands on the table and stormed towards the door if she wants to drink herself to death I was going to let her.
" Then I'm done mom we're done I 'm not cleaning after you anymore I'm not mom you can drink yourself to death I don't care." After I said it I noticed those words sounded cruel but it was the truth and if anything she should know the truth. It's not like she will remember them anyways she was already dead to me when she was drinking she was like a zombie.
I slammed the front door and leaned against it heavily tears streamed down my face tears of anger and tears of pain not physical pain no emotional pain, pain that couldn't be controlled. I walked the rest of the way home, my home me Marco and Paige's house the place where people love me no the place that I just left that was that was nothing to me just like her just like my mother.
I opened the heavy front door of the apartment and walked in slowly Marco and Paige were sitting on the couch a open pizza box in front of the of them. Their heads turned to me
" Sorry we started with out you Ellie Marco got hungry and begged me to open the piz- OW!!!" Paige yelled as Marco elbowed her in the ribs
" El are you look upset." No Marco I wasn't ok my dad is probably dead or dieing in some foreign country my mom was drinking again and Jesse hates me I wanted to say but instead I just settled with a no
" Well how about you sit down and tell us what happened" Marco said nicely and Paige just stared at me blankly.
" I think I am just going to go upstairs" I said my voice quivering a little
" Come on El Just tell us wh-"
" No." I screamed and ran up the steps. I closed my door and leaned against it before slowly sliding down the door and locking it my head fell in to my knees, which I had pulled tightly to my chest.
I heard footsteps outside the my door and then a quiet know
" El come on just talk to me." It was Marco and he sounded worried
" Leave me alone Marco." I whispered just loud enough for him to here me
" Ellie." He said and I felt the doorknob above my head twist and turn
" I SAID GO!!!" I yelled and I heard Marco move away from my door and descend the stairs. That night I stayed in that position and cried myself to sleep.
My well pieced together life was slowly cracking and falling to pieces right in front of my eyes and I could see it in everyone's eyes when they looked at me Marco and Paige still have no idea what happened that night and they were not going to find out or not at least until there was nothing left of my old self and I was just a shell of who I used to be rotting away slowly.
