ANNENCY-

Jonathan stood outside in the cold, his face illuminated by all of the flashing lights of the Police and EMT workers, it seemed like they were moving in slow motion, the past few hours had seemed like a dream.

Or A Nightmare, Jonathan hadn't quite figured out which just yet.

As soon as the gun had gone off and the scream hadet out, he wasn't sure by whom, Jenny or Jennifer or even himself but he knew couldn't move, it was as if his feet were encased in cement and for a moment he understood what Jennifer had gone through when he'd had his accident and she assumed he was dead.

Like His Heart was shattered and the ground was rumbling underneath him.

Jonathan watched as the EMT workers loaded up the body into the ambulance and he wasn't sure what to do, if he should insist on going with them to accompany her or he should find his own way to the Hospital? His head hurt and he could feel a tightness in his chest.

Jonathan knew that the explosion had changed the person he'd once been but he had to wonder, if it was a good change because he learned that he loved Jennifer more than he ever thought he could, there were nights when he would dream about her face but not understanding who she was and sometimes he would get so frustrated.

But when he saw her in that Hotel Lobby, it was like everything had fallen into place and he was with the person he was supposed to be with, even if he had no clue who she was, there was something about her that intrigued him.

And even now, he wanted to learn more about the year when she thought he was dead, How Jennifer coped with his passing and the unplanned birth of their daughter, someone he hadn't even met yet and he was desperate to, this little amazing little person he and Jennifer had created. He'd missed an entire year of her little life, he'd never get the chance to hear her first word, see her first step

And Max, poor Max who grieved for him probably just as much as Jennifer did but had stepped up in the same way he'd done for Jonathan, He became the Father that Zara needed in that moment.

He had never imagined in his life, he would ever have children, it was just never something he thought of, In his mind if Jennifer had wanted a baby, she would have said so but he supposed that he could have brought up the subject and they would have discussed it but they enjoyed their life together, being able to hop on a plane to Italy for Dinner or making love in the middle of the night, sometimes he would make excuses at the Office just to come home at Lunch, make love for an hour and then go back to the office to finish out the day.

He remembered their wedding day or so what everyone thought was their wedding day, Just a few days before he could see she was beginning to crack. There was so much to do in such a short time, with the move from New York to California and party planners phoning all hours of the night. Their wedding had indeed been called the "Wedding of the Decade: The Self-Made Millionaire and the Journalist" Every outlet wanted an exclusive and they didn't care how they got it, Max often had to fight his way to the front door or sneak Jennifer by hiding her in the station wagon. It was getting to be too much and when the coordinator called to say that another 50 guests had RSVP'd and they needed another cater to accommodate everyone and people were worried about food allergies , Jennifer finally lost it.

"Jonathan, This isn't a wedding, this is a nightmare!" Jennifer said after answering the phone,"We have over 5,000 guests coming from all over the world including our Friends and Family! The church is too small and the sound system is out of date so that means the Minister's microphone might sound like he's under water! My dress isn't done yet, the beading is all off and let's not even mention the fact your suit has been sent back twice.. Why are we doing this?"

Jonathan took her hand, "Because we love each other, don't we?"

"Yes of course but when I imagined our wedding, I didn't think it would rival Princess Di's," She said leaning back in their bed in New York holding the wedding book, Jonathan had been staying with her on the weekends while their house in California was being set up, Right after they'd left London, he'd taken her to the Condo He and Max shared but they found that it was hard for them to feel comfortable making love in such a small place where it seemed like the entire building complex and Max hear them.

Max was already in California, setting up for their arrival just a few days before their wedding, this big McMansion except Jennifer had wanted a small country house but Jonathan convinced that because they were so well known, a bigger house with extra security would be beneficial.

Jonathan threw his book aside down and faced her, taking the wedding book out of her hand and throwing it on the floor, "So what if we forgo the whole big wedding?"

"Jonathan, we've spent so much money and time! we can't cancel and besides don't you want to marry me?" Her heart broke just a little bit and she wondered why they'd gone through the charade of building a house and a life together if all he wanted to do was play house, she wondered if they had rushed into their engagement, that had only known each other for a few days.

"Of course, I do but I don't want you to do anything you don't want to, you should have the wedding of your dreams," He took her hands

"The Wedding of my dreams," She said quietly "Would be just us in front of a Minister..well Us and Max.. "

"Then Let's do it, Let's get dressed right now, We've got the plane gassed up, we can fly to Las Vegas, get married and be back before anyone even notices we're gone,"

Jennifer had to admit, it was a good plan, "What about the one we've been planning? What about that, What about Max?"

"We can still do that, this one will be just for us, what do you say?" Jonathan searched her face, "Besides Max is in California acting like the mother of the bride"

Jennifer laughed at that, "How fast can you pack" She said throwing herself forward and throwing her arms around his neck and kissing him.

They quickly packed and boarded Hart 1 where Jennifer nervously looked out the window.

"Are you positive you want to do this?" He asked taking her hand and wondered if he wasn't pushing her to do something she wasn't ready for.

She smiled back at him, "Absolutely"

"Sir," a voice interrupted his thoughts, "Sir, you need to be checked out," Jonathan shook his head.

"I'm fine, really"

A voice behind him spoke up quickly, "He'll be checked out.. thoroughly," She stepped out of the ambulance, the entire street was covered with Police, Ambulances and Firetrucks. The Dark neighborhood had suddenly come to life.

"Darling, I'm fine, Really" He said facing her, Jennifer's face and clothing were caked in dirt and dried blood, her hair had taken on a life of it's own and was in all different directions and her eyes were watery but she still had a determined look on her face.

"Jonathan," Jennifer mocked, "You will get into that ambulance and do what that EMT says or I swear, on our daughter I will never make love to you again,"

After a pause, Jonathan nodded, "Let's go!"

Jennifer shook her head as she watched Jonathan climb into the ambulance, as soon as she knew he was distracted, she went behind the house where no one could see or hear her and cried.

When Jennifer and Jenny had fallen back, they had wrestled for a second before the gun went off and for a moment, Jennifer couldn't breathe, nothing hurt but she could feel as if her heart were trying to climb out of her chest and for a moment, she wondered if this was what death felt like.

And she wondered if this was what Jonathan had felt like after the explosion. All sound left her body and she couldn't hear anything, except her heart thumping extra hard and she was sure she was surrounded by darkness because she couldn't see anything, Jennifer realized she couldn't see anything because she was squeezing her eyes so tightly and when she opened them, she was staring into brown eyes staring back her.

Except those eyes were lifeless.

Jennifer heard screaming and it never occurred to her that it might be coming out of her mouth until she heard Jonathan calling for her, "Jennifer!, Jennifer!"

At that exact moment, Suddenly the entire room was filled with Police officers, EMT workers and the Fire department. She wasn't sure how they got there so quickly, but at moment.

She didn't even care.

And when they pulled Jenny's body off from Jennifer, somehow Jenny hands became entangled in Jennifer's Hair and ripped out strands of Jennifer's hair.

It wasn't until Jonathan was in her eye line and calling for her that she finally snapped out of her spell and allowed herself to be examine by the EMT workers.

"Sir!" an EMT worker shouted over the noise, between the Ambulances, Fire Department and Police, it was almost like being at a rock concert, "Do you know what day it is?"

"It's still Wednesday!" Jonathan shouted back

"Can you tell me what time it is," the EMT checked his head and eyes for dilation.

"I'm not wearing a watch but I'm guessing ..around 11:30," Jonathan's eyes searched for Jennifer but she was nowhere to be found.

"Okay, you are a bit banged up but otherwise seem okay.." The EMT worker finished his examination.

Jonathan nodded and hopped down from the ambulance, "JENNIFER!" he yelled but he was doubtful she could hear him.

But Jennifer did hear him.. she wasn't sure she was ready to answer.