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Brittany's POV:
"No, his lungs are getting back to normal. His breathing is...normal." Doctor Lopez said and I felt somehow confused.
"You just saved this childs life."
I see Santana with James in her arms and I feel myself break inside. Seeing her with James in her arms makes me think of how would it be if it were hers and mines instead. But I've grown to love my son, under the circumstances. I look at her and our eyes meet; no one speaks, and the only noise is the babies monitors. Suddenly Doctor Lopez clears his throat and checks once again the monitor.
"Well...um...Santana should stay since she's cradling the baby and keeping him stable." he says and I still don't speak. Neither does she, as we both are looking at each others eyes.
"A-ny-ways...um...yeah we should get out of the room. It's too crowded." he says and Sam pats my shoulder smiling. Everyone goes out and its only Santana, I and baby James in the room. I look down and put my hands on the front pockets of my jeans.
"Thank you..." I tell her and then clear my throat cause it came out in a whisper.
"Whatever you did, I really appreciate it and I owe you one." I tell her and she sighs. We fall into yet another silence. Moments pass and she still has him in her arms.
"If you're tired I could take him...I mean, it's ok...you don't have to be here anyways. You should be out with friends, or on dates..." I tell her and then when I'm about to take James out of her arms she looks up at me.
"Is that what you want?" she asks and I feel shocked because for once she asks me calm.
"I want you to be happy. I want you to be the Santana I once knew. I don't want to hold you back..." I start but she cuts me off.
"Maybe my happiness isn't were you wish it could be. Because if you knew everything about the 'old' Santana is that she was stubborn." she says and I nod because of course her happiness isn't were I wish it would be, cause it'll be with me.
"I know Santana, that's why I'm doing this...letting you be happy.." I tell her and touch her hands and she sighs. She gives James to me and looking down leaves. I look down at James and can't help but smile. Because even my son likes, who I'll always know is the love of my life. I cradle him and like an idiot start talking to him.
"You know, your real mom would've loved you. She made a lot of mistakes, she hurt a lot of people but I feel like you're not going to do that. And soon I'll be 18 and I won't be afraid to lose you." I tell him and kiss him in his head.
"I won't let anyone separate us, we're family after all. And thanks for letting Santana cradle you, I bet you felt loved. Like I felt before I hurt her, but you know what buddy? I'm letting her be happy cause that's what a good person does, even if you like her...Let her go." I tell him and observe how his chest increases and decreases.
Santana's POV:
I can't believe what just happened, I can't believe the baby is now stable and that it's thanks to me. As I find myself deep in thought, I don't realise someone in back of me, until the person clears his throat. I turn around and see him giving me a sympathetic smile. He looks at me in the eyes, looking for something that I'm not sure of and then nods smiling.
"Wow...after everything...you still love her." he says and I shake my head.
"No...I don't... I can't.." I whisper the last words and look down cursing at myself for showing weakness.
" can. I know Brittany has made A LOT of mistakes, but if I know my friend...best friend...is that she would never do this purposely." he says and I let out a sigh.
"I know that but...I'm trying to make amends with her. I'm not even angry anymore, I mean...even after I was a bitch to her, she beat up Puck. And I could see her hurting at what she saw." I tell him and he nods.
"She was devastated. She wanted to make things right...wants to make things right." he says and sits next to me.
"I know, wants me to be 'happy', be the 'Santana' she once knew...and I feel like an idiot." I tell him and he looks confused.
"Isn't that what you wanted? Brittany to leave you alone." he asks and without looking at him shake my head.
"No...at first I did but when I really heard her say it out loud. It felt..." I trail off because of my voice, but he puts his arm around me and hugs me.
"Shh...You don't have to say anything." he tells me and I shake my head.
"Yes I do." I tell him and then I hear footsteps. When I look up I see Brittany standing, and for the first time in weeks I know what she's feeling, and her eyes express hurt.
"Ummm...I'm sorry I interrupted you guys, but Quinn and Rachel are ...I'm staying so I gave them my car keys." she mumbles and I feel confused and happy at the same time, because this means she feels something for me still.
"So...you don't have to drive anyone home." she finally says and turns around and walks back into the room James is in.
"See..." I hear Sam say and when I look at him he's smirking.
"What?" I ask, even though I know what he's talking about, and he shakes his head.
"She was hurt...Which means...she felt the same way you did when she told you to 'be happy'." he says smiling and I roll my eyes.
"Right...but I just wish I could tell her that I can't be happy. Not without her." I tell him and he sighs and stands up. I looked at him confused and he shrugs.
"Your wish is my command." he says and I felt even more confused.
"What?" I ask and he chuckles and walks backwards.
"She needs to get home sometime." he says and walks out. When he's out of sight my eyes widen in realization.
Brittany's POV:
Seeing Sam and Santana sitting in the hallway next to each other killed me. Even more than when she was with Puck, and I don't know why. I sit as I wait for doctor Lopez to come in and tell me how's James health status for now so I can leave a little calm; Placing both my hands in my eyes as I close them to take at least 2 minutes of sleep. Suddenly I hear the door to the room open and see doctor Lopez with the nurse, they start to check the monitors and I see him smile. 'Is that a good sign?' I ask myself, and when I see his dimples I know it's good news.
"Well, Brittany I have good news and bad news." he says and I felt like an idiot thinking everything was well.
"What's the bad news?" I ask and he looking now serious sighs. I hear the door open and it's Santana.
"Well, the bad news is he has to stay for at least a month here." he says and my eyes go wide.
"So that means that..."I trail off and he nods.
"You can take him home after a month." he tells me and I hugged him tightly. Even though what happened with Santana and me, he pulled through and never broke his promise.
"Thank much..." I tell him smiling and he nods slowly.
"I'm not the only one you should thank..." he tells me and looks at Santana who is now walking out. I look at him and he looks at the nurse in turn telling her to leave us. The nurse nods and quickly walks out of the room.
"Brittany..." he starts but I cut him off.
"Look I know that I've ruined your daughters life...and that I'm probably the world's biggest idiot. And I'm being stupid now because..." I get cut off this time by him.
"Because you love her, as much as she loves you." I look at him shocked at what he just said.
"I do...there's no mistake in that...but I want her to be happy and herself. All I brought her is headaches, heart breaks and almost heart attacks. I know I can't bring happiness to her anymore..." I tell him and then I hear the door open. A very pissed off Santana is standing there, and I frown.
"Yeah you can't..." she says and my heart breaks into a million pieces.
"Because the person that can bring me happiness, is the same one preventing herself from doing so and hurting me instead!" she says and I shake my head.
"Santana..." I hear her dad call her and she averts her gaze from me to him.
"What?!" she screams.
"Keep your voice down." I tell her and then she does something unexpected.
*Slap*
I look at her and touch my cheek which stings.
"Both of you in my office, NOW." I hear her dad say and I still stand there in shock.
"Super Shit." I mumble and then Santana's dad calls me and we walked to his office with him in the middle. He then opens the door and both Santana and I step into his office. Suddenly the door locks and we both run to open it.
"It's locked..." she says and then knocks on the door hard.
"Dad open the door!" she screams but he doesn't open the door.
"You two need to stop fighting and just make amends. If you guys want happiness and love each other you can resolve this." he says from the other side and Santana chuckles while she whispers to me.
"Just great... " she says and sits down in one of the chairs.
"You know, he's right." I tell her and she looks at me.
"We need to stop fighting." I tell her and she scoffs.
"Right. He is right about that." she says in a sarcastic tone that I know oh so well.
"Can you stop being mad at me? I don't even know why you're pissed, or slap me in this case. I'm doing this to make you ha-..." I get cut off by her screaming.
"Could you stop saying that you're doing this to make me happy!" she screams and I get angry.
"I am doing this to make you happy! Isn't that what you wanted since the start of this year?! I've tried Santana...Since I saw you the first day this semester I tried to talk to you. To make things right between us, to get you back...but you didn't want it...and now that I'm setting you free you are angry at me." I tell her and feel less weight in my chest but she chuckles in return making me mad.
"What the hell is wrong with you?! You're a stubborn brat, who doesn't even know what she wants!" I scream back , and she goes for another slap but I stop her hand. We both look into each others eyes and...
IT'S UP TO YOU GUYS WHAT HAPPENS NEXT:
A) DOCTOR LOPEZ OPENS THE DOOR AND SANTANA LEAVES.
OR,
B)THEY KISS, TALK AND BUILD THEIR RELATIONSHIP.
I'LL LET YOU GUYS DECIDE. NOT MY BEST CHAPTER BUT I'M NOT SURE IF THERE ARE READERS IN THIS STORY STILL, BUT I JUST WANT THEM TO BE HAPPY TOGETHER. ANYWAYS, MERRY CHRISTMAS, I HOPE YOU'RE SPENDING THIS DAY WITH ALL YOUR FAMILY, FRIENDS, ETC.
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