Caught Up
Chapter 35
Head underwater
And they tell me
To breathe easy for a while
The breathing gets harder, even I know that.
I'm unusually hard to hold onto.
"We're not fighting anymore. But we aren't really talking either."
"I want to do this at her pace. I've made my feelings clear."
"But then minutes later i feel like i'm doing too much."
We're together as parents. I don't know what Brooke wants or expects in our marriage going forward. And honestly even though i want to know i'm afraid to ask." Lucas admitted.
"That's understandable but the only way forward together is to lay everything out in the open and with help outside of the relationship."
"The two of you can figure this out and end up better then you were in the past." Haley advised.
"I could of used you're insight months ago. I wasn't trying to listen to anyone back then. I hate all the time i wasted. The moments i can't get back." Lucas confessed.
"I get that. There is no use in beating yourself up over what was done or said. You weren't yourself. Give yourself some grace and understanding." Haley added in.
...
Days Later
With Bridget at grandma Karen's. Brooke and Lucas found themselves seated beside each other in an office. Seated in front of a marriage counselour.
"According to you're folder. Marriage issues are what bring you here. I would like to go on a deep dive of what exactly that means for the both of you." She explained.
"I started drinking because issues that caused my career to take a downward turn. My life. My marriage. Imploded. I went to rehab. I'm clean but now this is the where the real hard work starts."
"Yes i got sober for me. But a big part of that was also because i didn't want to lose my family. I am nothing without them." Lucas proclaimed.
"You can speak whenever you're ready Mrs. Scott."
"Loving you is the easiest action i've ever done. Being in love with you. Its like the rest of the world fades away. He was my first love. But i don't know if i can ever trust my heart or him again."
"I had divorce papers drawn up. I didn't sign them but they are there. My mom advised that i sign them while he was away."
"But i couldn't sign them yet. Not unless i knew there was no saving us." Brooke admitted.
