I knew I would never have the courage to tell him that. Today I went up to him to try and talk to him but all that came out was, "Um-da uh h-h- da". Man I'm so stupid. What the heck is wrong with me? Do I live for nothing but to embarrass myself? Why do I even bother to try? So many questions but all of them no one can answer. I swear if I don't stop embarrassing myself I will literally die! I don't mean to do any of it, it just happens. Like I said before we'll just see where life takes us. Oh well! I can do nothing more. So that's what I have to say about that!! Why cant I just act like a normal girl?
