Hey, here is another chapter. Thanks for the reviews but I was a little upset because I only got 4. Now when I can see that 70 people viewed the chapter but only 4 commented, that just doesn't make me a happy writer. So please if you read it, review it. I love getting them. But alas that will not stop me from posting more chapters because I can't just stop a story just because. So that's about it, but please review. Really. I mean it...Enjoy the chapter
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CHAPTER 3 - Easier To Run - Linkin Park
"I don't believe that." Brass said.
'Neither do I.' Sara thought.
Sara didn't look either of them in the eye. "Let's just get back to the lab." Sara said as she started walking toward the SUV.
Nick and Brass looked at each other.
"I'll let you know if we find anything." Nick said.
"Let me know if you find out what's up with Sara. I'll give Grissom a call too." Brass said as he started walking towards his car.
Nick sighed and went over to the SUV.
Sara was sitting in the passenger seat. Greg sat silently in the back.
Nick cautiously looked over at Sara. She looked just looked out the window and didn't say anything.
"Sara-" Nick began.
"Just drop it okay." Sara said pulling out her iPod.
"Okay." Nick said, not wanting to, but not wanting to upset Sara anymore.
Sara put her sunglasses back on and closed her eyes. She put her iPod on Nine Inch Nails, listing to it as the cars drove past them.
She looked at her watch, 10:40am.
She felt bad for her outburst, but she couldn't help it. She could not stand one more minute of listening to what that woman had to say.
She had made it. She didn't end up in jail; she was the one who put them in jail. Now she really wished she was out in the desert with Catherine and Grissom, anywhere but here.
Sara wanted so badly to just tell Nick and Greg about her past, but it was far to complicated to do that. She hated keeping secrets from them, but she didn't want them to feel sorry for her either. All she wanted was for them to know about it, she didn't want to be babied because of it. She had lived with her past long enough; she could take care of herself.
When Abby was here, Sara had told Grissom she was going to tell the team about her past. But every time she said she'd do it, she'd back out at the last minute. Sara could tell Grissom was getting frustrated with her. She could see how he would.
But no matter what she did Grissom would be there to comfort her. That's what she loved about him, no matter what she did, he'd be mad for a while but then he would be fine, giving her his hand to hold.
On the way back to the lab that was all Sara thought about. She decided when this case was over, she'd tell them. Everything.
She would talk to Grissom tonight and tell him everything that happened that day. She knew he would agree with whatever she decided to do, but she always asked liked to tell him first.
As Nick pulled into the lab Sara turned off her iPod. "I'm sorry Nick; it's just that she was really starting to get on my nerves."
Nick smiled at her. "I understand she was getting on mine too."
Sara smiled at him.
"You might want give an explanation to Brass, he was worried about you too." Nick said as her turned off the engine.
"I will." Sara said getting out.
"I'll get the evidence." Greg said.
"I'll help you." Nick said.
Sara had to smile at that. She knew Greg just wanted to find out what happened.
"Meet you in there."
As Sara headed into the lab her cell phone started to ring. 'Grissom.'
"Hey" She answered.
"Hey, are you at the lab yet?" He asked.
"Yeah just got here what's up?" Sara said.
"Could you come to my office?"
Sara hated it when he answered her question with another question. "Sure. See you in a few."
"Okay." Grissom said hanging up.
Sara headed towards Grissom's office. She knocked on the door.
"Come in." Grissom said.
Sara opened the door. Grissom sat behind his desk. Sara closed the door behind her.
Grissom just looked at her.
"So I'm guessing you heard what happened?"
He nodded his head.
"Come here Sara." Grissom said standing up.
Sara did what he said.
They stood there staring at each other for a moment.
"I'm so sorry Sara." Grissom said softly. "I never should have put you on that case."
Sara closed her eyes. "Don't you dare take me off this case now." She said softly, her voice quivering.
"It's just that lady. She-" Sara said.
She could feel the tears coming.
"Shhh." Grissom said, putting a finger on her lips.
A tear rolled down her cheek. He brought his hand up and wiped it away.
Grissom pulled Sara close to him. She cried into his shoulder. Grissom just held her tighter. Neither of them wanting to let go.
Once the tears had stopped, Grissom took Sara by the hand and led her to the couch.
"He's 10 years old Griss." Sara said. "10 years old. His mother was killed in a car accident, his dad is just gone. And this woman, thinking every foster kid is just garbage waiting to be taken out. She reminded me off things I spent years trying to forget. Just the way she talked, what she said. I've heard it so many times before. She brought back memories I wish I didn't have. You know it's easy to just forget. You tell yourself to believe that everything is fine, just so you can do it all over again the next day. You think you're the only one. You get your mind set that their is no one out there who under stands you for you. You pretend that you belong there. If I could go back and just open my eyes to what was really happening. I want to let it go and never look back, but I can't. I want to retrace every wrong move that I made and just..."
"Sara..." Grissom said.
Sara moved closer to Grissom and rested her head on his shoulder.
"Gil."
"Your being to hard on yourself. You need to relax and just breathe." He said.
Sara smiled even though he couldn't see it.
"I don't hear you breathing." Griss said after a few moments of silence.
Sara looked up at him and laughed.
"Thanks."
"Anytime." He said kissing her forehead.
