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Kj
CHAPTER 17 - I Hate Everything About You - Three Days Grace
After watching TV for a little while longer Sara finally decided to actually get out of her pajamas.
After getting herself ready for the day she decided to go to the lab to see if Grissom wanted to go get some lunch with her.
She put Hank outside and went to the door. When she opened the door and walked out she almost stepped on something.
When she looked down at her feet there was a small stuffed animal. Sara picked it up. It was a little bear with a heart in its hands.
She smiled. She thought for sure it was Grissom. She tucked it under her arm and locked the door behind her.
She shivered as she got in to her suv. It looked like it was going to rain. As Sara drove to the lab she thought about the little teddy bear sitting on the dash board.
Sara thought it was a little odd. Grissom had never done something like that. Usually he would get her a butterfly or something.
She pulled into the parking lot just as the rain started to fall. She smiled. She loved the rain. Even though it never really liked her.
Sara went into the lab and headed straight for Grissom's office knowing that's where he would be.
She knocked on the door but didn't wait for an answer. Grissom looked over the rim of his glasses as she opened the door.
He smiled when he saw it was her.
"You are supposed to be in bed resting." He said taking off his glasses and setting them on the desk.
"Well I came here to see if you wanted to take a break and get some lunch together." Sara said. "And we need to talk about the wedding more."
Grissom smiled. "I could use a break and food is a plus."
"I think Greg is right." Sara said.
"About what?"
"About you becoming a romantic."
"What do you mean?" Grissom asked, puzzled.
"The teddy bear." Sara said smiling.
Grissom's face stayed the same. No smile appeared like Sara thought it would.
"Sara what are you talking about?"
Sara's smile slowly faded. "When I left to come here, I opened the door and found a little teddy bear on the ground. I thought it was from you."
Grissom didn't like the sound of it. "Where is it?"
"Grissom relax. It's probably nothing. Some little kid must have dropped it."
Sara said. "Just let it go. I'm sure it's fine. Now let's go get some lunch. I'm starving."
Grissom smiled a little. "Okay let's go."
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Abby's journal
Life still sucks, but what's new. Everything is the same. I don't know what I feel anymore.
I love my family so much but at time's I can't stand to be around them. How can you love a person as much as you hate them? I want to tell them how I feel but I'm afraid I'll hurt them. Even though they are hurting me.
They don't even see what their doing to me. Dad is a lot better, but h still does some really stupid stuff. Mom is worse. So is Liz. They complain about everything. I get so tired of it.
They don't fight as much anymore but nothing is really better. I cried myself to sleep last night. Just because I get so sick of everything. It's the same thing over and over.
I wish I could just leave. Get away from everything. Mom won't shut up. Liz complains. Dad is oblivious. And I'm invisible.
I don't even have anything new to write about because everything is the same. I don't get how they can't see what's happening to our family.
I'm not looking forward to out vacation this summer. Last year it sucked. I've never actually been happy when it came time to come home. I couldn't wait till it was over. The whole 8 hour drive I probably spent listening to music.
I'm not looking forward to my birthday either. My sweet 16 and I don't really care. I mean I do care about it but I'm not looking forward to it at all.
All the little things they say and do hurt so much but I won't tell them because I don't want to be like them. I don't know what to do anymore.
I don't know how many time's a day I just feel like screaming 'shut up' at them. I punched the wall yesterday and didn't even feel anything. I don't want to be like this! I want things to be like they used to be.
I want my family back. I hate myself for telling them I'm fine but I don't know what else to say. You make my life suck? Sometimes I hate you? I just...I just don't know how I feel.
Last night I was talking to my friend on the computer and she told me if she could she'd have me come and stay with her for the summer. I swear if I could I would do it in a heart beat.
If it wasn't for my friends I don't know what I would do. Unlike my family they listen to me.
Without them I would self destruct. They make me laugh and smile even if I'm having a really bad day.
I tell them things I would never even think of telling my family.
If I had two wishes, that could be anything I wanted, one would be have my family go back to the way they used to be.
And two, to meet all my friends. That would be it. I would be happy. Then my life would be perfect.
Abby - April 8th, 2008
