Blaine's Pov
We would walking in the parking lot holding hands. I loved Kurt, I really did. I felt so guilty though. I was at a party and there was this guy and I was bored so I went with him to someone's bathroom. Kurt was in New York and I was so horny. I made one of the biggest mistakes in my life just because I hadn't have sex with Kurt in a while. I first I didn't feel guilty, but than as the weeks pass by, I the guilt eventually got to me, specially when I was singing Teenage Dream to Kurt.
Everything was great until Kurt asked me something. "That was moving and I guess, I'm wondering why that was why." I knew Kurt knew me better than anyone and he knew when something was wrong with me. I looked at Kurt and my heart dropped. I couldn't tell Kurt the truth it would break his heart. "Well... you know, I really missed you.", I told Kurt lying. "I miss you too and I'm really glad you're here, but you been so emotional and weirdly sad." When said that I froze for a monent, I really couldn't hide anything from Kurt, he knew me too well.
"Please stop pretending there's nothing wrong." Kurt looked at me and we both stopped walking. Kurt looked at me, his eyes full of saddness and pain. I just looked at him, my eyes would like mirrors reflecting Kurt's eyes. I couldn't hide it anymore, I had to tell Kurt. "I was with someone.", I said my voice breaking. I looked at Kurt and it felt as if someone had ripped my heart out my chest and stepped all over it. "It was Sebastian wasn't it.", Kurt said getting a little mad. "No, it... wasn't Sebastian, but it doesn't matter." "It didn't mean anything, It was just a hook up."
"Who was it.", Kurt said getting angier. "It doesn't matter who I was with." "All that matters is was that I was loney, I needed you and you wouldn't there.", I said getting a little angry myself. I really shouldn't be mad at Kurt, but I couldn't control my emotions. In that moment I knew that I lost Kurt. Kurt was the one person I cared about, I couldn't live without Kurt. Kurt started yelling at me to the point where his usaully very pale face was turning bright red. "But I didn't action on it, because I knew what it meant, unlike you."
That was the last thing I heard before Kurt walked away. That was a year ago. Me and Kurt hadn't talked since then. Me and Kurt would both in NYADA, both whenever Kurt saw me he would just walk right past like I was invisible. It was always awkward when me and Kurt would panthers. Neither of us even looked at the other. Mrs. July was picking five students to sing at the Winter Showcase. Of course me and Kurt would both chosen along with Rachel, Brody, and Adam. I stung my heart everytime I heard Kurt's or Adam's name.
The truth was, that I still loved Kurt. Even in a year's time, I still wasn't over him, but Kurt was definely over me. I watched as Kurt skipped across the room with the biggest smile on his face over to Adam. He gave him a big hug and then their lips met in a kiss. Kurt was like a drug to me. Once you take a drug for a while you eventually become addicted. I was addicted to Kurt. Soon time passed by and it was time for the showcase. Kurt went first singing Defying Gravity. Kurt's voice was beautiful.
I got painful memories as I remembered when me and Kurt would hand out in his room when his parents wouldn't home. Kurt would take his Ipod out, which was always filled with Broadway songs and put it on stuffle. There was this one time when Defying Gravity came on, and Kurt started singing along. I got up off the bed and I grabbed his hand. We both took turns singing parts of the song, when we danced like nobody was watching. It was just me and Kurt being two goofballs in love and that was all that mattered.
Soon Rachel, Brody, and even Adam finished, which left me last. I got up, knowing excatey which song I was going to sing. I took a deep breath and started singing. "Did I disappoint you or let you down." "Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown.", I knew the anwsers to all those questions. As I looked Kurt, I knew that I had let him down and I akways felt guilty about that. "Cause I saw the end before we'd began." As I sang the line, painful memories of Kurt walking away from me clouded my mind.
"It may be over but it wouldn't stop there"
"I am here for you if you'd only care." As I sang I thought about those two lines. It was over, but I still cared deeply about Kurt, since me and Kurt had broke up I hadn't dated anyone else. Kurt didn't care about me anymore he had moved on with Adam. Sometimes I wish Kurt could see how much I cared about him. "You touched my heart, you touch my soul." "You changed my life and all my goals." "And love is blind and that I knew when." "My heart was blinded by you."
"I kissed your lips and held your hand." "Shared your dreams and shared your bed." "I know you well, I know your smell." As I sang, memories of me and Kurt flooded into my mind. Me and Kurt's first kiss, me and Kurt holding hands across the table at the Lima Bean, me and Kurt in the auditorium, and most importanly me and Kurt's first time. I remember that day like it was yesterday. Me and Kurt would just laying in his bed, our bodies against each other and our hands intertwined at our sides. I remember the smiles we both had as we both stared into each other's eyes.
"Goodbye my lover." "Goodbye my friend." "You have been the one." "You have been the one for me." "Goodbye my lover" "Goodbye my friend." "You have been the one." "You have been the one for me." "I'm so hallow, baby, I'm so hallow." "I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hallow." "I'm so hallow, baby, I'm so hallow." "I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hallow." I finished the song with tears in the eyes. Everyone clapped and I quickly ran to my seat, as I looked at Kurt one more time.
Kurt looked so happy with Adam, and this made me realize that I had to let go of Kurt. Kurt had been the one a year ago, but now it was time for me to let go. I wanted Kurt to be happy and he was happy with Adam. Soon we would dismissed from the room and I looked at Kurt and Adam one more time. Kurt was laughing at something that Adam had said. "Goodbye my lover.", I said as I left the room passing by Kurt and Adam.
