AN: I know it's been forever since I updated, I'm sorry. But I work a lot and afterwards I hang out with other people living here so I just don't find the time to write. When I go home in the end of August I'll be back to posting once a week. Until then I'll post whenever I have a new chapter.

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Magnus POV

For a while Magnus just sat there with his face buried in Alec's chest, letting his tears run down his cheeks. It wasn't only because it was hard talking about his past, he also cried because Alec had been so nice about it, so loving. What Magnus had shared didn't change Alec's view on him, it didn't make Alec hate him. So the tears wasn't only sad ones but also tears of relief, he'd been so sure that this would scare Alec away but it hadn't and he was grateful. So incredibly grateful.

"Thank you" Magnus whispered against Alec's chest.

"For what?" Alec asked in a whisper, holding Magnus closer, still kissing his head.

"For listening and not leaving me" he explained as he clenched his fists and held his breath.

"Why would I leave? You've done nothing wrong" Alec said as he gently lifted Magnus' head so that their eyes met "I'm so, so glad that you felt comfortable with sharing all of this" Magnus could see the sincerity in Alec's eyes and Magnus nodded in response. "I want you to know that you're the first person in a very long time that I'm serious about, that I'm not only interested in having sex, that this, what we have is so much more"

"Yeah, me too." Magnus said "this is something I've been avoiding until I met you. I'm not going to lie, when I first saw you it was purely physical, but then when we talked it shifted. Not only that you didn't seem to care or know that I'm famous, there was something else about you, something unique, something I didn't even know I was missing"

Alec smiled at him before leaning down and kissing him, the kiss was so gentle, so warm and full of love. It was a kiss that said everything they couldn't say. As their lips separated Magnus moved down to bury his face in Alec's neck. Allowing himself to completely melt into the other man, allowing himself for the first time in far too long to actually relax.

"Magnus?" he heard Alec whisper and he looked up, breathing a small "mmhm" as a answer.

"I can't really say I know what it's like to live without parents, to be on your own like that" Alec paused, and swallowed hard. Magnus could feel him tense, Alec was about to share something that he didn't like talking about. Magnus understod that instantly so he moved up, putting all his focus on Alec, giving him a small encouraging smile, wrapping his arms tighter around him. "My parents aren't dead" he continued "but my mother is like a zombie, it's impossible to get her attention or to even have a normal conversation with her" it was hard for Magnus to hear this, to see the pain in Alec's eyes. He really liked Alec and he never wanted to see him sad or hurt, even though he'd known for a long time that Alec had something dark and painful that he didn't want to talk about, just as Magnus did, he didn't want it to be true. Alec deserved so much more, he was so kind.

"I'm so, so, sorry to hear that Alexander" Magnus said as he stroked his cheek, feeling Alec leaning into the touch as he closed his eyes.

"And my father, well, he threw me out a while ago and unless I marry a girl and have kids with her, I'm as good as dead to him" Alec sighed "so I kind of know what it's like to be alone in a sense. Though I have my sister and Jace. Without them I'd been dead or something by now"

"I understand, I have friends that saved me too" Magnus said before pulling Alec down, letting him rest against his shoulder. They didn't need to say anything else, they spoke without words, saying everything they needed through their actions. Magnus didn't know for how long they sat there, holding each-other, comforting one and other without words, but the sun had started to go down.

"We should probably go" Magnus whispered against Alec's hair, placing small kisses there as he spoke.

"I don't want to say goodbye yet" Alec looked up at him, with his hazel eyes piercing through him. When Alec looked at him like that he would do anything he asked, there was no turning down Alec's sad puppy face.

"We don't have to, we can just leave this place. It's getting dark and cold" Magnus said and bent down to kiss Alec, who met him halfway, kissing him back. "Do you maybe want to spend the night at my place?" Alec whispered against Magnus' lips and he felt his heartbeat increasing. Of course he'd want to spend the night with Alec, there wasn't anything he'd rather do. The more time he spent with Alec the more he liked him, he could feel himself falling for Alec.

"I'd love to do that" he whispered back, still so close that his lips brushed against Alec when he spoke, sending shivers down his spine. Magnus kissed Alec quick before standing up, pulling Alec with him. The both of them quickly gathered their things and put them in the two bags, when they had gotten everything Magnus felt Alec's hand touching his, the feeling of Alec's fingers brushing over his hand felt like electric shocks. It felt amazing, it wasn't bad at all, but Magnus wanted more so he grabbed Alec hand, pulling him closer. Still not letting go of Alec's hand but now more pleased with the space between them Magnus started walking towards the car. Together they walked the path, shoulder to shoulder, hand in hand, in silence towards the car. Magnus couldn't remember the last time he felt this good, this safe, but he was almost certain that it was before the death of his stepfather.

As they got into the car and drove away, Alec moved closer, snuggling up against Magnus, it wasn't long before he could hear small snores coming from Alec. It made Magnus smile and he drove slower, wanting the moment to last longer. Wanting to really get the time to enjoy this, to savor how Alec had fallen asleep against his shoulder, how Alec's small adorable little snores sounded. Magnus smiled to himself the entire way back and didn't even think about the paparazzis, he was sick of them, sick of always having to hide from them. Magnus even waited for awhile after parking to wake Alec, he took his time to really take the sight in, so that he'd never forget this moment. Eventually he had to wake Alec, even though he really didn't want to.

"Alexander" he whispered as he stroke his hair, pushing it back from his eyes "Alexander darling" he continued and this time he saw those hazel eyes, sleepily looking up at him. Magnus couldn't help himself but to put two fingers under Alec's chin, guiding his head up, giving him a peck on the lips.

"I could get used to waking up like this" Alec smiled, voice raspy with sleep.

"In my car? That's going to get very cold" Magnus teased and he couldn't help but laugh as he saw Alec blinking fast, sitting up and running a hand through his hair.

"Oh" Alec said, a confused look on his face, as he looked around "I thought we where in my bed"

"Not yet, darling" Magnus smiled "let's not waste anymore time though, let's go to your bed"

Alec nodded and slid out of the car and Magnus followed his lead. This time they didn't walk as close as they'd had in the forrest, both of them still didn't want too much attention from media or Magnus' fans. Magnus followed Alec up the stairs in silence. Alec put the key in the door, but he didn't unlock it, he just stood there.

"What's wrong?" Magnus asked, he was getting really concerned about Alec, he was so still and so silent.

"Uhm… It's just .. " Alec paused and Magnus put a hand on his shoulder, telling him that whatever it is, it's okay. He heard Alec take a deep breath before he continued "my apartment is small and yeah, it's nothing near your loft"

Magnus smiled, was that what he was nervous about? Sweet Alexander. "Hey, Alexander, I don't care, you should see how I lived before I got my money. I get it, you can't afford a fancy place, with your dad kicking you out and everything. I wouldn't judge you for it, but I can go home if you want me to"

Alec spun around, with a face full of horror, violently shaking his head. "No, no, don't, no, Magnus I don't want you to leave"

Magnus smiled and wrapped his arms around Alec's waist "I won't leave you then" he turned his head up to meet Alec's lips, Alec was slightly taller than Magnus but not by much. It wasn't like when Simon stood beside Alec, Magnus didn't look small next to Alec.

"Let's go inside" Alec murmured against his lips before turning around to unlock the door.

Alec was right, it wasn't big, but it was clean. Magnus didn't see why Alec had been nervous, he had nothing to be ashamed of. Magnus closed the door behind him, and they just stood there looking at each-other, it was kind of awkward, but mostly there was tension, sexual tension. Magnus didn't know if Alec had invited him here because he wanted to take the next step nor did he know if he had agreed because of that reason. However, before Magnus had the chance to think more about it Alec had taken two long steps towards him and was now pressing his lips against Magnus'. It took a second before Magnus answered the kiss, but when he did it was with all he got, he pressed his body closer to Alec's, who stumbled back and on to the bed. They rolled around in the bed, making out, touching each other, exploring one and other. That was until Alec pulled away, panting, eyes still closed. Magnus let him have his space even though he wanted nothing else but to close the space between them.

"I'm sorry" Alec breathed, moving away from Magnus even more.

"For what?" Magnus asked as he rolled over on his back, catching his breath, collecting himself and also giving Alec the space he asked for.

"I just .. I, um, it feels too soon, you know?" Alec stuttered and Magnus turned his head to look at him. He was lying on his back, hiding his eyes with his hands, Magnus could see the red on his cheeks even though he tried to cover that too. "Could we maybe just cuddle and sleep?" he continued when Magnus didn't answer him, though he only forgot to answer because he was admiring Alec's cheekbones and jawline, he got lost in thoughts. He reached out for Alec's hands, gently but firm, and his heart sank when he met those beautiful hazel eyes and he saw tears building up in them.

"Hey" he whispered, stroking Alec's cheeks with his thumbs "it's okay. Let's just cuddle until we fall asleep, okay?"

Alec nodded, but the tears were growing. "Alexander, don't be upset, please" Magnus whispered, not even certain that Alec could hear him.

"It's just .. I'm sorry .. For starting something I couldn't finish"

"No, don't. Stop that right now. You've done nothing wrong. We won't do anything that anyone of us dosen't want to. We've got time, we're taking it slow, it's okay to stop. I want you to stop whenever you feel uncomfortable or when you feel like it's moving too fast and I hope you feel the same, that I can tell you too." Magnus looked straight into Alec's eyes when he spoke, making sure that Alec understood that he meant every single word he said. It seemed like Alec did, his nodding was slower. Alec turned around to lay on his side and kissed Magnus on his cheek. He then proceeded to remove his pants and t-shirt, Magnus decided to follow his lead before got under the blanket. He held the blanket up, inviting Alec in, trying to not focus too much on his perfect abs or the rest of his amazing body. Alec settled on Magnus' chest and it didn't take long before they both fell asleep, arms wrapped around each other.