AN: So, I've only got two more weeks of work! After that I should be back to post as usual. Enjoy 3
Alec woke to the sound of rain rattling against the windows, a small groan escaped his lips as he turned around, not wanting to face the day, not wanting to go outside. However, he knew that he'd have to go outside eventually, he couldn't skip work. As he thought about this, he noticed something warm next to him, that he brushed against soft skin as he turned around. Confused he slowly opened one eye, he wasn't awake enough to remember last night, but it all came back to him as soon as he saw Magnus sleeping peacefully next to him. He looked even more beautiful than usual, all the make up wiped off his face, his hair in a mess and lips slightly parted. Alec smiled at the sight until he remember yesterday.
He still felt ashamed of what had happened, how he'd invited Magnus over to spend the night, thinking that he was ready to take the next step. It was just that, when he started it, it quickly turned from feeling wonderful to feeling wrong, something Magnus noticed immediately.
Alec was scared, he hadn't opened up in too long and it wasn't really the sex itself that he was nervous about, Alec had plenty of experience on that point. It was the fact that he really liked Magnus, that he brought out feelings in Alec he didn't even know he had, that this felt so terrifyingly good. Alec hadn't had a relationship since things ended with Dave, all he'd done was one night stands and booty calls. Alec didn't want to get hurt again, he didn't want to be let down or to let anyone else down, so he'd kept every relationship casual, kept it physical. With Magnus it's different, it's serious, there's real feelings involved and it scares him. It wasn't that Alec didn't like it, that he didn't love the feelings he got when he was with Magnus, but it's new and scary and he's scared that it will only lead to heartbreak. However, the fact that Magnus had been so understanding, that he hadn't gotten angry or asked questions, that he'd stayed the night regardless. That it seemed like Magnus didn't follow Alec here just to have sex, that he actually wanted to spend time with him, that the sex part wasn't important. It all gave Alec hope, hope that maybe, just maybe it wouldn't end in heartbreak. The hope was small, but for the first time it was there.
Alec laid there, watching Magnus sleep, his face peaceful and Alec couldn't help but smile. Magnus sleeping was a sight Alec hoped to see many more times, but right now he was tiered so he moved closer to Magnus, putting one arm around him. Even though Alec tried to be careful, he heard the most adorable noise coming from Magnus and for a few seconds on of his catlike eyes looked up at him foggy from sleep, but still, a smile on his face.
"Morning" Magnus mumbled as he moved closer to Alec, burying his face in Alec's chest, putting his arm around him, brushing his fingers against Alec's back.
"Morning" Alec whispered back, tilting his head down to press a kiss on Magnus' head, then burying his nose in Magnus' sleep ruffled hair, breathing him in. Alec pulled him closer, their legs becoming one tangled mess. For all Alec cared he could spend the rest of his life like this, half asleep in each others arms, rain rattling against the windows.
Alec smiled as he closed his eyes and slowly slipped back to sleep.
The next time Alec awoke was to the sound of his phone buzzing. Magnus was still pressed to his chest and he started to move away. Alec didn't want him to, but he had to turn off the alarm so he reached out to pick up his phone.
"I haven't slept this good in forever" Magnus whispered in his ear after he'd put the phone down and rolled over on his back.
"Yeah, me neither" Alec smiled, turning his head to look at Magnus. "If I could I'd sleep more though"
"Right, you need to get to work soon?" Magnus asked, placing a hand on Alec's chest, playing with his chest hair.
"Yeah, I start in an hour" Alec answered, sighing. It wasn't like he'd normally jump with joy over going to work, but today it was the last thing he wanted. He'd never not wanted to go to work this much before.
"Well, then we can eat breakfast before" Magnus smiled and moved closer. "Or we could spend some more time here, in bed, just chilling." Alec melted when Magnus moved to lay on Alec's chest, Alec moving his arm to let Magnus come closer. Magnus hand still playing with Alec's chest hair, placing soft kisses along his collarbone.
"Mhhhm, I like the sound of that" Alec answered and started running a hand along Magnus' side, his skin soft against Alec's fingers. And Alec felt like Magnus wasn't close enough so he pressed him closer and somehow Alec managed to pull Magnus on top of him, his legs on both sides of Alec, his hands pressing down the mattress beside Alec's head. Magnus looked down with a smile on his face, and he looked so beautiful, so perfect and Alec couldn't breath, Alec didn't know what to do and he lost the ability to think when Magnus' cupped Alec's face with his hands and he couldn't look at Magnus, he was so beautiful it hurt, so he closed his eyes and when he felt Magnus' lips against his, it felt like fireworks, like the world exploded, like everything that had been broken was whole again, that everything wrong in the world turned right. Then Magnus pulled away, Alec chasing after his lips without luck. Slowly his capability to think came back and he opened his eyes, he was met with a smiling Magnus, but he was far away, too far away. Magnus were still sitting on his lap but he sat up straight, hands resting on Alec's chest. Alec noticed that Magnus' smile was a little smaller, a hint of worry in his eyes.
"What's wrong?" Alec breathed, realizing that he'd forgotten to breath.
"I just. We needed to stop before I got too carried away. Before I wouldn't be able to stop." He said, still smiling a little.
"Yeah." Alec sighed, reaching out for Magnus' hands, intwining their fingers. "I'm sorry"
"Don't. Don't be sorry" Magnus said as he squeezed his hands, smiling bigger. "I'm just scared"
"Yeah, me too" Alec said gaining his ability to breath.
"I'm scared that, if we rush into this that I might lose you" Magnus said and Alec could feel how nervous he was, every muscle in his body tense, the smile wiped away from his face.
Alec smiled, letting go of one of Magnus' hands, stroking his cheek. "That's not going to happen"
Magnus smiled back at Alec, leaned down for a soft kiss and rolled off him, pushing at Alec to lay on his side, so that his back was facing Magnus. He carefully put an arm between Alec's neck and the bed, then his other arm around him, his hand resting on Alec's chest, a small kiss on his shoulder. There they laid, talking about everything and nothing until they had to go up so Alec could get ready for work.
While Alec reluctantly crawled out of bed, walking with lazy steps towards the bathroom, Magnus stayed in bed, the cover only reaching up to his hip showing up his perfectly shaped abs. It made Alec's motivation to leave bed even less and it wasn't even that strong to begin with. As Alec reached the bathroom door he turned around, soaking the image of Magnus half asleep in his bed, he hoped to see the image again but just in chase, just if for some reason, this was the first and only time he'd get to see this, he wanted to remember it. He smiled at Magnus who gave a sleepy smile back, before he stretched out his body and the cover slipping down Magnus' hips and Alec looked away before it revealed too much, before he wouldn't be able to tear away his gaze.
When Alec entered the bathroom and had closed the door, he took a moment to himself, to gather his thoughts and feelings, smiling to himself. It was hard to believe that this was happening, that Alec was starting something serious, after everything that had happened, after promising himself not to, he was scared but it felt right. He leaned against the door, resting his head on it, still smiling, still trying to compose himself. It was hard keeping focus, to keep getting ready for work, when he knew that Magnus laid spread out in his bed with almost no clothes and soft, soft, oh so soft lips.
With one long step Alec moved to the sink, splashing his face with water, he couldn't think about Magnus' lips now, he needed to get ready. This morning, or well, midday, it took Alec twice as long to get ready, his mind constantly slipping, thinking about the man in his bed and how easy it would be to just call in sick and crawl under the cover, back to the warm skin belonging to Magnus. When Alec finally got out of the bathroom, teeth and hair brushed with clean clothes on, Magnus sat on the side of the bed, fully dressed which both disappointed Alec and washed him with relief. If Magnus would still be under the covers, half asleep Alec wasn't sure he'd be able to resist the urge to lay down next to him. However, Alec wasn't sure he wanted to resist, that he wanted to leave and go to work.
"You ready?" Magnus smiled, still without any make up, but his hair now perfectly styled. Alec didn't understand how he'd done that, his hair was still a mess and he'd used a brush.
"Yeah" he smiled back, walking up to the bed, taking Magnus' hands in his and pulled him up so he was standing in front of Alec. He moved his face closer, giving Magnus a soft kiss and Alec could feel Magnus' smiling as they kissed. Alec took a step back, both still smiling as Alec gestured for the door, Magnus walking out first.
As the two men slowly descended the stairs they laughed, making little jokes, walking as close as possible, Alec nearly falling down the stairs multiple times which only caused them to laugh more. Without thinking about it Magnus walked with Alec to his job, Alec walked out of habit and they got lost in their own world. It was a fifteen minute walk from Alec's apartment and every single second was spent laughing, caught in a bubble, where just the two of them existed. A bubble who burst as they stopped outside the staff entrance, both their faces falling, the laughter dying out.
"I can't believe you just walked me to work" Alec laughed, but it wasn't like before, this time it was a laugh filled with nervousness. "Do you find your way back to your car?"
"Alexander" Magnus put a hand on his shoulder taking a step closer. "Relax, it's fine, I will find my way back. Believe it or not but I actually know these neighborhoods quite well." Magnus smiled and Alec was confused, he didn't know what to say so he just stood there, hoping that Magnus would have something to say before it got awkward. "I used to live here, couch surfing really, so not as much lived as crashed in apartments."
"Oh, I didn't know" Alec blurted out, on his way of starting a apology, on of his ramblings, but stopped when Magnus smiled at him and placed a hand on his cheek. Alec forgot what he was thinking about, what he was going to say, everything that existed in his head was Magnus' hand against his skin. The warmth radiating from it spreading calmness through Alec, making him relax and slightly lean into it.
"It's okay, you can't know everything and I can't either" Magnus smiled and leaned in for a quick but soft kiss, so quick that Alec didn't have the chance to react and respond, it was more like Magnus brushed his lips against Alec's and he wanted more, needed more. "You have to go to work now, I'll see you soon." Magnus whispered, his face still close to Alec's, his hand slowly moving down, away from Alec's cheek.
"See you soon" Alec smiled back and watched as Magnus turned around and started walking back to Alec's apartment, or well, to Magnus' car.
As Alec stepped through the staff door he was smiling, which was a huge mistake. As soon as the door closed behind him he heard his sister and Simon whistling. He turned around to face them, trying to look normal but probably failing miserably.
"Oh my, why could my brother be so happy today?" Izzy smiled as she rose from her chair and started walking towards Alec. "Could it be that someones date yesterday didn't end that night but right now, before work?" She wiggled her eyebrows before wrapping her arms around him, resting her cheek on Alec's chest. Sometimes it was hard to believe that they were siblings due to the huge height difference between them.
"It might be so, but it's not like you think. Nothing happened" Alec smiled back at his sister, wrapping his arms around her. She might be the most annoying person in the world sometimes but he still loved her and he knew that she only wanted him to be happy.
"Define nothing" Simon teased, still sitting in a chair, sipping on a cup of coffee.
"We just slept, not like we had sex, we actually slept in the same bed, like in sleeping" Alec said, causing Simon to look at him with a confused face and Izzy looking up with a similar face.
"Okay, Alec, that was very confusing" Izzy smiled and pulled away, breaking the hug but still standing fairly close. "Were you trying to tell us that you spent the night with Magnus, but nothing fun happened, you guys were just sleeping?" Alec nodded in response and walked closer to the changing room, laughing at Izzy fake pout as she shook her head in disappointment.
