Chapitre deux
There was only one thing I could think of through-out this whole experience: Drowning. Sucked. Ass.
My body felt like it was being crushed by the weight of the water. It was actually quite depressing. If I hit my had, shouldn't I have passed out? Shouldn't I be unawaringly sinking to my doom? Shouldn't I not feel like I'm about to puke my gust out?
My brain felt like it was being fried by chlorine, my arms and legs felt like they'd fallen off, my stomach felt like it was on fire, and my chest felt like it was throbbing. I couldn't make sense of it. But it hurt. More than anything I'd ever been through before. It hurt, knowing that someone could get a kick out of pushing me into a pool. No matter the reason. It hurt, knowing that my friends hadn't jumped in to save me. It hurt, knowing that someone would have to explain to Charlie why I wouldn't be coming home tonight.
It would break his and Renee's hearts. It broke my heart knowing that this would hurt my parents. They shouldn't have to go through something like this. I was so irresponsible sometimes. Always making sure the little man was heard. I didn't think about the consiquences of my actions, I just did the first thing that came to mind. I had no one to blame for this but myself.
I just hoped this would all be over soon. Maybe if I was lucky it would end now. I could just... float into nothing. That sounded like an okay death. It was horrible to know that I was dying slowly, but in a way, it could have been worse.
Now, I felt cold. My body went numb. I hardly noticed the warmth holding me by the arms. It felt relaxing though. Like I didn't have to worry much longer. Maybe I didn't, maybe I did. It felt nice. I would hold onto that, no matter what happened to me now. Everything would be fine. I had nothing to worry about. I could just go on with what was happening in my own little sinking bubble.
At that moment, the pain of everything shot back into my body, and I tried my hardest to breathe, but no air came in, or out of my lungs. I instantly regretted thinking that I could easily float away into nothing. The warmth that was grasping my arms turned into a painful clutch. Whatever had me, was holding on for dear life. It was almost unbearable, I wanted to scream it was so painful, but all I could do was remain in the state I was already in.
I wished I could be at home, with my dad, watching ESPN no matter how much I hated bogus sports shows. I wished I had taken figure skating, soccer, or acting lessons! Especially acting, for Renee! I could be at home in Arizona right now, flaunting my talent in peoples faces, auditioning for the school play, getting the lead, anything! For all I cared, I could be giving some random person's granny a sponge bath! What was I thinking, trying to reason with myself? I didn't want to die! No! I had to fight back!
After several minutes of internal dialogue arguing with myself, it was interrupted when a thrill of electricity ran through me, and I was once again parlayzed. I tried focussing on my surroundings more, and I felt oddly... dry. And I could hear voices. But that wasn't what scared the living daylight out of me. As hard as I may, I couldn't get my mind off the damn shock that ran through me. It wouldn't stop.
Then it dawned on me. The feeling began at my lips.
HOLY SHIT.
I learned about performing CPR in an emergency, but I'd only ever given it to a plastic dummy, and I never imagined it could feel this... unbelievably amazing! I also hadn't imagined it could be taken up a notch when I gained some of my senses. The lips against mine were so strong, almost agressive but soft at the same time, and seemed to caress mine.
I found myself trying to kiss the person... and they didn't pull away.
To my dismay, I had to turn my head, so that I could hack my guts out, and take the deepest breath I'd ever needed in my life. My throat burned, and I found myself clutching it. It hurt so much! Why did it have to burn so much?
"Bella? Are you alright, Bella? ...Look at me, Bella!" I turned my head to the right, opening my eyes.
Angela, Jessica, Ben and Mike were staring at me with wide eyes. The girl from the desk was smiling brightly at me. The strawberry blonde and her posse were off to the right looking guilty. Of course the crowd was there, some people tearing up at the sight of me, some glaring at the boy that pushed me, others also looking at me in shock. The bronze haired boy that was also at the desk earlier was the closest to me, staring intently at me with a confused expression. What really caught my eye, was the little girl. She was at my feet, looking at me with the sadest expression. She looked like she would break down any minute.
I ignored Angela and Jessica's questions that they'd been trying to get my attention with, sat up, and said the first thing the first thing that came to mind.
"What's wrong?" I asked the little girl. Although it came out in a croaking whisper, she heard me.
She immediately started crying. Apologizing for everything that happened. Telling me if I had died, it would have been all her fault. I wondered how a child that looked no older than eight years old, could be so aware of death, and have such a wide vocabulary, but stopped when I noticed something. She reminded me of myself.
I leaned forward, pulled her onto my lap, and wrapped her in my arms, stroking her damp hair, rubbing away the goose bumps on her arms.
"Don't ever feel bad," I said, wiping the tears off of her face with my thumbs, "it wasn't your fault at all. I don't want you to feel sorry! I don't regret any of it!" I shook my head. She wouldn't meet my gaze. "Look at me... we're both okay. That's what matters most right now... We're both fine." I kept whispering.
Before I could stop myself, I pulled her closer, kissed the top of her head, and sobbed with her.
*****
Hello, everyone :)
Thanks to those of you who are giving my story a chance. I'm sure it seems kind of weird right now, but it will get better... I hope. That depends on how much you do or don't like my story.
I'd really like to thank ElleryAllison-C, I really appreciate your kind words and your opinions!! I hope you stick around longer to see what happens later ;) and thank you to those that alerted my story!
Just to clear things up, Tanya is the strawberry blonde on the life guard chair. Rosalie will be introduced soon, I just don't know when. Alice is the girl from the front desk, and no Edward is not the boy that pushed Bella into the water. I thought about making it him, but I couldn't think of where the story would go from there if it was him. I don't know who it is. Maybe someone from the pack? ... Hmm. That may be an opening for Jacob? Maybe... Maybe not.
Stay tuned for chapter three.
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