Sooo I wanted to upload the second chapter two days ago, but it didn't work -.-

Anyway here it is :)

Aerin Morth, fortunesque and : Thanks for the reviews :)


He was standing there again, his mind wandering around the fact that they had kissed a few meters away from where he stood. He couldn't do anything but smile at the thought.

Just a few hours had passed since it happened but it felt like days for him.

He just wanted to do it again.

He argued with himself if he should just go to her quarters or if he should waste his time standing there like an idiot. He glanced back to the lockers and could almost feel Shepards lips on his. Then he knew his answer.


She sat on her desk thinking about Saren, Ilos, the Reapers, the Council and finnaly Kaidan.

She heard the doors of her quarters slid open and exactly knew who it was without looking.

"Ehm .. Commander ... do you have a moment? I wanted to talk to you.. ehm.. privately.. " She turned in his direction to see his nervous expression.

"Sure. Whats wrong?" He moved a few steps further his hands behind his back.

"What happened there by the lockers .. I .. I just wanted to .. " He felt his neck get hot. "Yeahh.. I just wanted to say you .. ehm.. well.. you are very important to me too.. I can't remember when I last felt such feelings.. well .. I think I've never felt like this before.. I just wanted you to know."

She stood up from her chair and stopped a few inches away from Kaidan. She placed her hands on both sides of his head and lay her forehead on his. Kaidan wrapped his arms around her waist to hug her and she lay her head on his shoulder nuzzling his neck. They just stayed there for a few minutes until Shepard lifted her head and looked into his eyes.

"Let's just quit whit this whole save the world thing ok? We travel to earth .. get a nice house .. and watch the Reapers kicking the Council's ass ok?" , Kaidan mumbled . "If it was just that easy." , she sighed. She accidentally began to let her fingers run his chest up an down. His muscles felt good through the shirt and she wondered how they would feel without the shirt. He watched her and when she looked up to him he exactly knew what would happen tonight.

It didn't bother him the slightest.

She lay her arms around his neck and began to kiss him. It was a wonderful feeling and she even pressed herself nearer to him. He lifted her up and she swung her legs around his waist without breaking the kiss. He quickly went to her bead throwing himself on it. He was on top of her and began to kiss her throat. He felt her hands under his shirt as she tried to pull it off. He lifted himself up and took it off with one fluent movement. As he was shirtless she pulled him back to her and began to kiss him again letting her fingers run up and down his chest. When she began to open his belt he stopped to kiss her. She felt his hesitation and looked in his eyes. "Are you sure about this?" he simply asked. Her mouth on his again was answer enough for him.


When she woke up the memories came back to her and she felt the arm that was wrapped around her and the bare chest she was lying on. She felt tottaly relieved and didn't regret anything. Sure, it was her lieutenant that lay next to her without any clothes on his body, but it didn't bother her. At the moment she was just happy.

She lifted herself up and leaned on her elbow to watch him sleep. She leaned over and kissed his chest up to his neck. She was sure he was asleep and when she reached his ear she mumbled quietly "Lieutenant Alenko.. I think you made me fall in love with you."

She slowly stood up and was heading to the bathroom when she saw the clothes that were lying all over the floor. She collected hers and threw them in the laundry basket and lay Kaidans on the edge of the bed.

When she stepped into the shower and the warm water ran over her skin it felt like heaven. After a few minutes she heard foosteps heading in the direction of the bathroom. She heard a sleepy "Mornin' " and replied a happy "Good morning." She could see that he was standing at the sink only in his boxers brushing his teeth. She turned off the water and wrapped a towel around herself. She saw that he was no longer brushing his teeth but he was leaning on the sink and looking in it. She stepped closer wrapping her arms around him from behind and resting her head against his back. "Everything ok?" she asked him sheepishly.

He was still staring in the sink when he began to talk "I can't imagine that I just slept with my commanding officer." She slowly began to kiss his back "I don't regret anything." she whispered "Neither do I" he replied "but I just can't imagine." Without thinking about it she began to let her fingers ran up und down his chest again. Smiling he turned around and wrapped his arms around her waist.

"Are you trying to seduce me again?" She was still stroking his chest as she replied "Ehhm no, not now.. I .. ehm.. I just like it." She grinned and blushed.

"Ahh ok .. good thing to know." He smiled and gave her a quick kiss. "Can I take a short shower?" he asked and she just nodded. "I'm going to get changed meanwhile.. by the way.. I think you have to wear your old clothes .. I have nothing in your size.. " He already turned on the shower "Yeah sure .. I'm going to get new clothes later."

After they both were finished they lay on the bed. Kaidan was shirtless and had an arm wrapped around her and she was lying on his chest again stroking his belly. "You really like it huh?" He joked and stroked her hair. They lay there what felt like years but their little world was interrupted by a too familiar voice "Bridge to Commander Shepard. We are 10 minutes out from the Mu-Relay."

Shepard rolled her eyes and hid her face in his chest. "I don't want to go." she mumbled against his skin. "I offered you to quit but you didn't want to." Kaidan chuckled and Shepard had to smile again. They both stood up, Kaidan putting on a shirt, and stopped a few meters away from the door, embracing for the last time before the big battle.

"See you on the bridge lieutenant." She wanted to leave but he caught her wrist and pulled her back. "Wait a moment. Theres one thing.. I heard what you said before you got out of bed... " She looked at him in irritation and realized what he ment. "Oh" was all she could say. "I just wanted you to know.. well.. that I think I feel the same.. I think I love you.. well I just don't think.. I know it.. I love you Shepard." She was tottaly baffled and looked down at her feet. Kaidan took her chin and lifted her head up so that she had to look into his eyes. His questioning glare was horrible for her so she just let the words fall out of her mouth "I love you too." He smiled and then he kissed her.

After the kiss he lay his forehead on hers breathing in her scent. "You know I have to go." "Yeah and I have to get new clothes." She chuckled but turned serious again "Maybe this is our last moment together." Her voice broke away as she said the last word. "Yeah.. I know..and thats why I'm gonna fully enjoy it." He kissed her again but it wasn't the same kiss as before, that kiss had a bitter taste of a good bye and it hurted both of them. After the kiss she just turned around and hurried through the door. Fighting back the tears she made her way to the bridge.

Yeaaah I know it's very mushy.. but I just don't like the scene when Kaidan wakes up and Shepard is standing there already... I mean "Joker's wating for you on the bridge. I swear, though, if anything happens to you..." what the hell is wrong with this guy sometimes? o.O Anyway.. I still love him :)