Jason was not ready for this talk.

"Let's go over to the TAC office. I think it will be better explained there." Jason told his kids.

"No dad I want to know right now!" Tonya spat.

"I promise Tonya, your father will explain everything just please get in the car and let's head over there." Marissa pleaded.

Tonya rolled her eyes and stormed off to the car.

"This is going to be harder than I thought." Jason told his wife as the went out the door. The ride to TAC was quiet. Jason was trying to figure out how to tell the kids, Marissa was scared for their reaction, T.J. really didn't know what was going on and Tonya was still holding the letter from Agent Gibbs. She kept reading over it wondering what it meant. Bull's team met the family up in the office.

"T.J., Tonya, please sit down, there's something we need to tell you." Jason started.

"Oh God you and mom are getting a divorce. I knew it would come down to this. Sorry dad but I'm going with mom, she's got better fashion sense." Tonya smarted off. Marissa couldn't help but smile at Jason.

"It's only because I help her with her wardrobe." Chunk popped in.

"Dad I will take you, that way I can still be close to Uncle Benny and he can help me with Law School." T.J. said fist bumping Benny.

"Guys we have gotten way off track. Your mom and I are not getting a divorce." Jason tried to continue.

"Good that's a relief I thought I was out of a job." Cable said spinning in her chair.

Jason gave her a look and tried again to speak.

"What its true!" Cable shrugged.

"We haven't been necessarily truthful with you guys."

"What do you mean dad?" T.J. said leaning forward in his chair.

"I know this is going to be hard on you two. It has been hard coming to this day for your mom and I for a long time. We are not your parents." Jason said trying to keep from crying.

"Your what? How can you say that?" Tonya spat "You mean to tell me after all this time we have grew up thinking you were our parents only to find out you have lied to us for the past 18 years?"

"Actually it's only been 16." Cable popped in.

"Cable….not helping." Jason said getting irritated.

"Sorry…" Cable said.

"So if you're not our parents, then who is?" T.J. asked devastated by the news.

"Special Agents Tony DiNozzo and Deanna Carter DiNozzo."

"Special Agents? Which service were they with?" Tonya questioned.

"NCIS" Marissa reluctantly said.

"Our mom and dad were crime scene investigators? That explains so much!" Tonya exclaimed.

"So what happened to our parents?" T.J. questioned.

There it was the big question Jason had been dreading. "Your dad was killed by a madman inside the home. The same lunatic killed your mom in the NCIS office and she died in my arms. At the time I was engaged to your mother. That's how I got custody of you guys. It was your mothers last request that if anything happened to her that I raise you as my own. Both of you were orphans. I decided you needed a better life, away from the drama in D.C. so I brought you here to New York City."

"I can't believe you kept this from us for so long. How could you 'dad' or should I just call you 'Bull' like everyone else. I can't believe you anymore." Tonya said.

"Thank you for watching out for us all these years. You're the best parents I could have ever asked for." T.J. told Jason and Marissa giving them both a hug.

"I need some fresh air." Tonya said. She got up and went outside starting to run. How could this be? Her real parents were killed and no one bothered to mention them or even say their names throughout her life? She could hear footsteps behind her and she turned around. Jason was trying his hardest to keep up with his adopted daughter.

"Tonya please wait." Jason yelled out.

She came to a complete stop. When she turned around Jason could see the tears streaming down her face. "How could you keep this from us?"

"I was trying to protect you." Jason said trying to comfort her.

"I don't need protecting." Tonya spat. She began to run again. "I'll meet you at home" She than turned around to face Jason "Oh I'm sorry I'll meet you at your place…because it's not my home."

Jason stood dead in his tracks. He wanted to follow his daughter but knew she was in pain. He could feel the tears running down his face. He prayed that Tonya would come around to the idea and forgive him for doing as Deanna had asked him to do.

Tonya just wanted to know who she was. She went to her bedroom and googled her biological parents. There she found both Tony and Deanna's obituary's and pictures of them. It was almost creepy to her how much she looked like her mother and how T.J. looked like their father. She just wanted to meet her parents. 'what better way to meet them than to join them' she thought. She went into Jason and Marissa bedroom and found the heart medication that Jason was put on after his heart attack. She poured several into her hand. She didn't want to die, but the pain of not knowing who she was and not fitting in with her 'family' was more than she could really handle. She put the handful of pills in her mouth and downed them with water. She went back into her room. She got back on her computer and found a picture on a newspaper website of when her parents got married. It looked like they got married by a lake. They looked so happy and full of life. Why would they leave her and her twin brother? And why leave them with Jason Bull? As Tonya looked at the picture she began to fall into a dark hole. She struggled for each breathe and could feel herself slipping away. 'Jason and Marissa won't care. It's not like I'm their daughter anyway.' As she struggled to stay awake she wrote a note.

Gone to be with my real family…

Before she could write anymore her heart stopped. The note and pen she was holding dropped from her hand.


"I hope that Tonya will forgive me. I was just doing as her mother asked." Jason said the tears flowing down his cheeks as he drove his family back home.

"She will come around. Just give her time." Marissa said brushing his arm with her hand.

"It's Tonya after all dad. She gets mad and then she gets over it." T.J. said from the back of the car.

As they walked into the house Marissa went to Tonya's bedroom door and knocked.

"Tonya sweetie" Marissa called out. When she didn't get an answer she opened the door. When she seen her daughter laid out on the bed she first thought she was sleeping. She walked over to Tonya and tried gently to wake her up. When Tonya didn't respond she shook her. Still no response. She found the note that Tonya had wrote and knew right than that Tonya had done something, but what would she do?She put her fingers up to Tonya's neck and found no pulse.

"Jason! Get in here quick! It's Tonya!" Marissa yelled.

Jason came running into Tonya's bedroom to find Marissa standing over their daughter.

"Jason I can't get a pulse." Marissa cried.

"Go call 911. I'll stay with her." Jason said. He found no pulse and she wasn't breathing. He picked his daughter up and laid her out on the floor. He began CPR. After ten compressions he checked her pulse again with still no response.

"Come on Tonya, please don't do this to me." Jason begged. He tried to force air into her, hoping to give her some of his life. He began chest compressions again. "Come on, stay with me."

As Marissa waited for the ambulance to arrive she found an open bottle of pills in Jason and her bathroom. She picked it up to find out it was Jason's heart medication. "Please Tonya please tell me you didn't take this!" Marissa cried holding the bottle. She went rushing into the bedroom where her husband desperately worked to revive their daughter.

"I think I know what happened." Marissa said with tears flowing down her face. Jason looked up from their daughter to see Marissa holding a bottle of pills. He took it to find it was his heart medication.

"Oh no…" Jason said looking at his daughter.

"I found them open in our bathroom." Marissa stated.

"I wonder how many she took." Jason cried looking up into his wife's distraught face.

T.J. let the paramedics into their house. Jason was still desperately trying to do compressions. A paramedic pulled him away from Tonya. "I lost their mother I can't lose her too. I got to save her!"

It broke Marissa's heart into. In all the years she knew Jason Bull, she had never seen him like this. The paramedics worked to try and get something, anything on Tonya, but the heart monitor was showing a flat line.

"Do you want to go ahead and call it?" One of the paramedics asked.

"No she's too young. Let's continue compressions on the way to the hospital." The other paramedic answered.

The third paramedic was asking Marissa questions about Tonya such as her age and what medications she was on and her history. All Jason could do was stand and watch his lifeless daughter. He prayed they weren't too late. He couldn't lose her. He didn't want to inform the NCIS team they lost another DiNozzo. He desperately wanted to take her and show her the NCIS office and let her get acquainted with the people of her mother's past, and of his past. Now would he ever have the chance? Jason agreed to ride in the ambulance with Tonya while Marissa and T.J. followed behind in Jason's car. Jason sat distraught in the back of the ambulance holding on to his daughter's lifeless hand. She was becoming cold and she had lost all her color. They had not been able to get a heartbeat since the paramedics had gotten to her. He prayed 'please let her live please she has such a bright future ahead of her.'

T.J.'s heart ached on the way to the hospital. Tonya was the only person left out of their actually 'family' he had. He felt like he was dying with his twin sister. How could she of down something like this?

"I should have picked up on the signs. I should have followed her out of the office. It's all my fault." T.J. cried. He put his head in his hands as Marissa drove.

"It is not your fault T.J. none of us knew she was going to do this." Marissa said trying to comfort her son.

Jason had a glimmer of hope when they were able to get a heartbeat, but it was shattered when she flatlined a few moments later. He felt like his world was crashing down on him. He lost his fiancée, his unborn baby, now his daughter.

"Please hang on Tonya…please." Jason begged.

Will Tonya survive? How will this change the Bull family? New chapter up soon! Please review.