Chapter 10 is here!! Yay!! But I have some bad news – im going on a dumb vacation for 2 dumb weeks. And I have no dumb internet or computer for those two dumb weeks so I can not update, write new stories or comment on any of your fabulous stories for two whole weeks. I am kind of going to die, a lot. I also have no new Adam videos or news for 2 weeks, and that is sorta like crack to me, so im gonna have some sort of panic attack and die. So maybe I will never update again. And don't be sad if I don't leave epic comments for like a long time, because im on a dumb vacation. Okay, I'm done complaining. So it should be wrapping up soon, but I keep saying that and it doesn't!! Haha, but here we go- RATE AND REVIEW!! Blah blah, you know the drill! I love you all a lot and your comments are amazing!! So keep them coming! Time to shut up and let you read!!
After what seemed like hours of sobbing, Kris slowly made his way back to bunk. He flopped onto his bunk, on the bottom, underneath Adam's. It felt too lonely though. Kris sighed, and climbed up the ladder to Adam's bunk. He wasn't quite sure of what he was doing; he just knew he needed to smell Adam, to breathe him in. Kris curled up against Adam's pillow and pressed his face deep into the fabric; breathing in every scent. It smelled like Adam's shampoo, mixed with hair spray and the faintest lingering smell of hair dye. Kris pressed his face deeper into the pillow, imagining it was Adam. Suddenly he heard loud footsteps, a muffled shout, someone cursing and a loud clunk. Then Allison landed on the floor below him, sprawled on her stomach.
"That was graceful," Kris chuckled as Allison stood up and dusted herself off.
"Okay this bus is the most disorganized bus I have ever seen!" Allison grumbled. Kris just chucked as Allison mumbled complaints under her breathe. Finally, Allison stood straight and looked at Kris.
"You know you screwed up, right?" Allison looked Kris straight in the eye. Kris felt tears forming in his eyes.
"I know," He whispered, not looking at Allison, "I screwed up so bad. I don't know what to do," Allison sighed and began to climb on to the top bunk.
"Ow," Allison muttered, stubbing her toe on the way up, "Okay, I'm up." Allie put her hand over Kris' shoulders, and Kris leaned his head on her shoulder.
"So, are you gonna tell me what happened? Why you acted like such a dill hole?" Allie asked patiently. Kris glared at Allie, but she just shrugged. He knew she was right anyway.
"I don't know," Kris murmured, leaning closer into Allison, "I thought I could leave Katy, I thought I could, but when I was looking her in the face I just froze. Katy has been in my life for so long, it was like I couldn't hurt her. It wasn't in me. I wasn't in love with her like Adam, but I still loved her in a way. And she was part of me, a big part of me. I just couldn't hurt her…" Kris' voice broke off and he felt a tear slide down his cheek onto Allison's shoulder.
"And," Kris continued, "It was easier to pick her. She felt safer. I was taking a risk with Adam, not with her."
"I get it, I really do," Allie soothed, "But…what are you going to do about Adam? We still have over a month left and you're not gonna leave it like this are you?" Kris felt his heart drop, Allie was right.
"I want to fix it, I really do. I just…I don't know what to say. I have nothing to say. He has no reason to forgive me. I promised I had chosen him, and then I went back on my word. I broke him. And my only excuse is that I picked my wife who I am not in love with over him." Kris felt more tears sliding down his cheek and he laid his head in Allie's lap. Allison stroked his hair and whispered,
"Kris no one is perfect. Adam knows that, he has made mistakes too. Just tell him the truth." Kris sat up. Allison was right. He just needed to give it all his effort. If he couldn't succeed he might as well die trying.
"Where is he?" Kris asked. He realized he had no idea where Adam went.
"Um he is on the girls' bus," Allison mumbled, "But you are gonna have to get through Lil and Megan," Kris groaned,
"Oh god, did you tell them?" A flush slowly appeared on Allison's cheek,
"Well I had to get Adam out of the dressing room!" Allison defended, "And he refused to come in here since you were in here so I had to bring him there! Lil and Megan saw his crying his eyes out, so I had to tell them. Most people heard anyway. I'm sorry Krissy, but that is gonna be all over the news tomorrow." Kris groaned again and buried his face in his hands.
"I suck at life," Kris muttered into his hands. Allison yanked his hands away from his face,
"No, you only suck at dealing with life, not at life in general." Allie corrected, "Now go and talk to Adam. I will text Megan and tell her to let you by." Kris sighed and climbed onto the floor of the bus.
"Bye Allie!" He called and walked to the door. Kris looked out the window and saw Matt, Danny, Michael, Anoop, Scott and Todd coming around the back of the bus. Kris quickly skidded out the door to avoid meeting them and getting Danny's disapproving stare and everyone else's questioning looks. Kris sprinted to the front of the bus and hid behind the bumper (AN – okay I know there is a bumper in the back, but isn't there one in the front too? Or is that called something else? Or am I imaging it all together? I don't really get cars!)
Kris looked ahead and saw the back of the girls' bus. Suddenly butterflies erupted in Kris' stomach. What was Adam going to do? Kris took a deep breathe and walked over to the girls' bus door. Just as he was about to open the door, it swung open and hit him in the nose.
"Ow!" Kris exclaimed, rubbing his nose.
"Sorry," Megan muttered, clearly not sorry, "Okay that got out all my anger on you. Now go ahead and talk to Adam. But if you do anything to hurt any part of that man, I will go back there and snap your little neck. Understand?" Kris stared straight at Megan, seeing no humor in her eyes.
"Oh...Okay," Kris stuttered, and slowly crept past Megan, who didn't take her eyes off Kris. Kris sighed and walked to the back where the bunks where. He looked around and heard a quiet sniff from somewhere in front of him. Kris crept forward and saw Adam huddled in the corner of one of the bunks. Kris felt his heart snap for the millionth time tonight.
"Adam?" Kris called quietly.
"Go the fuck away Kris," Adam muttered, pressing his face into the mattress.
"Adam," Kris' voice broke, "Adam…I'm so fuckin sorry. I…I freaked okay? I had to pick between you and Katy and…"
"And you picked Katy," Adam finished, his voice cold
"Adam you suck at listening, you always interrupt," Kris muttered, and Adam let out a small chuckle, "Anyway, with Katy I always felt safe. I could always predict her moves, I knew her in and out, and I knew her better than I knew myself. I knew where my life would end up, I knew what she would say, and I knew everything. Then you came along and it went black. I didn't know where I was going or how I was going to end up. But I liked it. Then when Katy surprised me, I had to pick. It was warm, comfortable and predictable but not fun or exiting. Or unpredictable, scary and risky but fun and exciting. I know that I wanted to pick you. I wanted to have fun and to really be in love. To get out of a predictable relationship. But I'm a wimp Adam. I never go on roller coasters at amusement parks, I never got a tattoo and I was too much a wimp to try something new in my life. Something I need and want. Don't get me wrong, I do love Katy, but when I said I was choosing her I wasn't really choosing her I was just choosing to keep things the same and boring." Adam was quiet for a few minutes. Then he sat up and looked at Kris. Kris nearly swore under his breath. When Kris cried, his face got puffy and blotchy. Adam looked amazing. He had small tears pouring down his cheeks, leaving light tracks that shined due to the angle the moon was at. It looked like an angel had run his hand on down Adam's cheek. Kris shook his head and tried not to focus on how amazing Adam looked.
"So Kris, do you want to be with me or not?" Adam asked calmly, "You're talking about being scared and all, but do you want to take the risk with me or not? It sounds like you want things to stay the same."
"No!" Kris quickly exclaimed, "I just did that when I was forced to choose." Kris took Adam hands in his own, "But Adam, I want to be with you." More tears fell down Adam's face and Kris could feel himself tearing up also.
"Are you sure," Adam whispered, cupping Kris' face in his hands.
"Yes," Kris whispered back. Then before Kris could utter another word, Adam pressed his lips against his. Kris immediately kissed him back with all his strength. This wasn't just to kiss though, this was for Kris to prove he wanted to be with Adam. Adam slowly drew back, but kept Kris' face in his hands.
"So you really do love me?" Adam murmured, lightly stroking Kris' jaw bone with his thumb.
"So much," Kris whispered back. Adam smiled contently and placed a quick but passionate kiss on Kris' lips again. Adam then lay back on the bed and pulled Kris with him. Kris curled up against Adam's side, with his head on his chest, where he wanted to stay for ever.
(AN- It's not quite over yet, but there won't be any more drama. It will probably just be and epilogue [or is that prologue- whichever one goes at the end]. I hope you enjoyed it!)
Oh and just a random note, did you guys see Adam and Kris (and David Cook) on Good Morning America? If you did, am I the only one who though Adam not only looked
INCREDIBLE but had the best performance he has EVER given?? Okay, well let me know in your amazing REVIEWS!!
