I'm too shy
to tell you
how I feel
so I'll hide behind
timid smiles and
soft hellos
I'm afraid
if I ask you
"What do you
think of me?"
you will reply
with...
"I don't"
by m.k
Adhara thought the next best action to take on the start of the new week was avoid sitting at the Gryffindor table. Sirius always sat within three feet of Fabian and Gidieon (even though he hates him) so that would make it hard for her to avoid him.
It felt like a long weekend to the thirteen year old girl. Never in her short thirteen years has she ever fancied someone. But it should of have came to shock to her. Of course she fancies Fabian bloody Prewiit. The way she's been acting ever since she met him on the train her first year, she has been a giddy, giggling, and blushing mess. She was only like that around Fabian.
And already Adhara hates having a crush. Esspecially one who clearly flirts with her but does with a preitter girl. It didn't help that he is a blood-traitor and in the one house her family loathes.
She really wished to have an older sister to talka bout these things with. Her mother is out of the question. Father is, of course. Why speak to this to her brothers? She has a few friends in her own house but she's not close enough with them to spill everything. Severus would not care about this. And Lily…okay, maybe she'll speak to her about this but she also wants a male's opinion.
So she only has one other option left when asking form the male perspective.
Teddy.
Teddy Tonks furrowed his eyebrows at the unfamiliar black owl that swopped through his kitchen. The owl was spoiled and demanded attention. It interrupted his breakfast and made itself at home on the kitchen table.
"Who could this be from?" he asked Andromedea who also stared at the owl skeptically.
He opned the letter and automatically a girn spread across his face.
Adhara.
He hasn't spoken to her since June when she left for summer break. She cried when he told her the plan of eloping with her cousin. He made sure he had her promise to write her and he though that she broke it since he has not gotten a letter in five months. But here it is. And she was asking him for love advice of all things.
Dear Teddy,
I apologize for not writing you sooner. I hope you are doing well. I have became a reserve Seeker this year! I made a few friends in my house!
Are you doing well? Is Andromeda?
My mother rants endlessly about how she tainted the Black Family's reputation.
I have a few questions to ask you. It's a bit embarrassing. Please don't laugh!
I have come to fancy a boy. I should not like him but it just happened before I realized! I though he liked me but then I see him all the time flirting with other girls. Has he been leading me on all this time or do you think he could like me more than them?
I've been wracking my brain with this for the past weekend.
Please send this with your owl since this is Sirius' owl and I do not need him reading my mail about a boy I fancy!
Thank you.
From Adhara Cassiopeia Black
From the Ancient and Noble House of Black
Sirius handwriting his horrid. Remus couldn't believe he even asked him to write notes for him. James barely pays attention enough to even write notes and when he does there is barely anything on the parchment to study for. Peter's notes was the same as James'. He could ask for Lily's but she is now ignoring him because of a prank he did with his mates towards the Slytherins. That left him one option (that seemed very appealing).
Adhara.
Remus found her in a secluded spot in the library with her nose in a book about the Dark Arts creatures. He cleared his throat to get her attention.
She jumped at the sudden sound. When she realized who it was, she gave him a small smile.
"Hello, Remus," she greeted him.
It took a moment for him to greet her back. He still hasn't come up with a solution for the 'Unrequited Love' chapter of his life with his best mates's twin sister. Now that he knows for sure that he fancies the girl, it made him more aware of how he acts around her.
It didn't help when she looked so cute. Not as cute as she was last week when she didn't change her appearance. Her hair is straightened and glossy (he likes her hair naturally curly). Some of her freckles was faded revealing more of her fare skin. Lips redder and shinier (he overheard Lily talking about lip gloss).
Remus was not stupid. He knew what this sudden change of her looks was about.
Fabian.
"Can I copy your notes from History of Magic…and,um, Potions?" he asked her. "I know we don't have classes together but you write amazing notes." He recalled the time he asked for her Charms notes and was astounded and how detailed and neat it was.
"Sure," she shrugged. She looked through her black leather bag then pulled out the needed notes. Remus decided that it would be best for him to write the notes while he was already in the libray and in the company of Adhara.
He sat across from her. Remus tried not to look so obvious at his staring. She didn't pay much mind to him.
Remus finally focused onto her notes and realized…
It was a letter.
He didn't mean to pry (okay, he did) but his eyes scanned as quick as he can over the letter before she realized he was snooping through her letter.
Dear Addie,
So the only way for you to write me a letter is for advice?
I'm hurt.
We are doing well. A small flat but we're happy. I'm glad that I'm officially your cousin-in-law! We're family!
So about this boy…
Is it one of the Prewitt twins? I recall you kept staring over at him during meals. If he's flirting with you AND other girls, he's a waste of time to think about. He's a prat. I think you should show him you're not a girl to lead on like that.
Please write more often.
I am glad you made more friends.
Love,
Teddy Tonks
From the New and UnNoble House of Tonks
"You gave me your letter on accident," he said after four seconds. Remus would of laughed at her reaction (bugged out eyes and mout open) if it wouldn't have been obvioushe read through her letter.
"How much have you read," she asked as she snatched the letter from him. Her cheeks reddened. Her grey eyes looking at him as if she can see through him.
Remus decided that it was impossible to lie to her with her giving him this puppy eye look.
"Just…okay, forgive me, I read it all but to be honest it is a short letter," Remus said. "I read the whole thing."
His eyes widened when he realized she was laughing at him.
"You look…like a kid being punished," she giggled. Remus relaxed when he witnessed her smile (the first real one since that Saturday). It faded after a few seconds. "…do you think he would like me more than Claire Foster?"
Is she really asking me this? He thought to himself. He was ready to shout that she was better to be with compared to anyone else. Remus started out with a better approach.
"Maybe, since Claire is in the same house as him so he can get to know her better," he said. "Do you talk a lot with him? To get to know him and vice versa?"
She bit her bottom lip before answering. "Blimey, I'm so daft," she ran her fingers through her hair as she groaned. "All he does is make jokes and I laugh like a bubble-head. It's not like we talk a lot. I preen every time I gain an inkling of attention from him."
It's not like he's going to defend Fabian.
"Ugh, maybe it's for the best," she said more to herself. "I'm thirteen…it's not like I'm in love with him. It is just a stupid crush and can get me in so much trouble. He's a blood-traitor and a Gryffindor. I can not be romantically involved with—
-Adhara," he cuts her off. Her rambling was adorable but she was going towards a downward slope. He didn't want her to think that she can't be with a Gryffindor. Remus liked to think that sometime in the future he would have a chance with her. "Breathe," he reaches forward and covered her hand with his. Adhara didn't seem to mind since she was still worried over a crush.
"B-but, I shouldn't even try. It's too much of a risk," she mumbled. "I don't even see how Andromeda could just leave her family over…" she trailed off. Remus couldn't not understand how it led to this topic.
"Calm down, Adhara," he said softly to her. After a few seconds he said, "Sometimes love is worth it. Worth it enough to leave everything behind for that person. We're too young to understand. You're only thirteen. It's just a small crush." He knew that this was more of a selfish gain for himself to change her mind on this.
Remus smirked when Adhara crossed her arms and pouted. "You sound like what a father would…"
"Compliment?"
"I guess you're an old soul," she winked at him playfully. But then she frowned again. "My parents were betrothed at fifteen. That leaves me two years of freedom," she groaned.
Remus smirked at her dramatics. He was accustomed to it because of James and Remus.
"Hopefully you will not be betrothed to your cousin," he teased her.
Adhara's eyes widened at the jab. The only one to know that was Teddy. It's common knowledge among the Pureblood families but not heavily advertised. Her mother is related to her father. They are first cousins to make things more strange.
"Sirius told us," he explaiened to her. "Good thing you turned out to be cute instead of deformed."
Remus instantly regretted the words that came out of his mouth until he saw a small amount of pink dust her cheeks (not as much with Fabian but progress).
Orion was shocked to see his only daughter's new appearance. Walburga liked the change. Adhara's hair was straight and all in one place. Freckles was barely noticeable. Lips shinier than usual.
Orion is no fool. He had a hint of what this could be about.
"Mother," she nods to Walburga. A smile, wide and radiant, was now directing to her father. "Father."
"Adhara," he said with warmth. He combed her hair with his fingers. To be honest, he rather like it curly. He would lightly joke how his hand was stuck and forever be in her custody. He glanced behind his daughter to see his youngest son making his way over with Severus in tow.
"Father," Regulus called out to him. Walburga frowned at the pale boy who's with her son. She could possibly see the obvious worn-down robes that the second-year wore but at least Orion could hide his recognition of it unlike his wife. "This is my friend, Severus Snape."
Walburga frowned when she found out his last name. Orion knew of the new older friend his son has made. Regulus wrote to him about making a new friend (through Adhara, much to his pleasement) in his house. He made sure to note that he's a half-blood but loathes the muggle side of him. So Orion decided to approve of the friend of Regulus. As long as he stays only a friend to Adhara. And judging by his looks, he would not be deemed attractive enough for his lovely daughter. But that thought was crushed when Adhara gave the sullen boy a bright smile and quick hug (Severus looked like he was about to die when he noticed the look Walburga gave him).
"Severus!" Adhara practically squeals his name. "Will you write to me over break?"
Severus frowns. He hesitates to answer. "…I do not have an owl."
"Well, we'll write to you then," Regulus said before Walburga can insult how little amount of money his friend has that he couldn't even afford to buy an owl.
"And you better reply back," Adhara try to say with a glare. If he was not being scrutinized by the highest status of Purebloods he would of rolled his eyes at her and scoffed. So he let Adhara hug him again before she ran over to Thomas Higgs.
"You told on her," Sirius roared at his brother. His eyes blazing while he snarled.
"Someone had to keep an eye on her since you would let her strut around and ruin her reputation towards suitors," Walburga said.
Adhara just sat there at the dining table. Head down as she eyed her plate. She didn't know what to feel at this moment. She felt betrayed. That was the first emotion to run through her. She knows that Sirius was feeling that way too but he was voicing, unlike his sister.
"Adhara," her father called out to her. She looked up at him with her familiar puppy eyes that passed down from him (certainly not her mother). Adhara was the only one out of his three children to make him weak with just a single teary-eyed look.
"Don't baby her, Orion," Walburga scolds her husband. Her mother's eyes now on her with anger in them. "If I hear about you with those mudbloods and blood traitors and half-bloods, you're going to Durmstrang instead."
"Durmstrang, why not B—
-don't even mention that school full of half-breeds," Walburga shudders as if the thought of her child being there with the Veelas sent chills through her. "At least Durmstrang does not accept mudbloods. So, Adhara, are we clear?"
Adhara could sense her brother's burning stare. She resisted looking at him. The disappointed look of her father made her want to cry for his forgiveness of going against his wishes.
"Yes, mother," she mumbles.
She could hear her brother scoff before stomping up the stair to his room.
Remus knew something was up when he saw Sirius leave Adhara without saying a word. He would usually offer (more like, beg) for his sister to sit with him in the compartment on the train.
"What happened?" he asked as soon as their whole group was there.
Sirius sighed. "I know she hates breaking the rules but…"
"Your parents scolded her?" Remus guessed.
"Yeah. Reg is keeping an eye on her and reporting back to them," Sirius explained. "So she can only keep the company of purebloods and half-bloods who are for their bloody purist cause."
"She's…she's," Remus didn't know what to say. He was going to say she's not a Gryffindor but phrasing it that way make it seem like he was calling her a coward. So he decided on, "She doesn't want to disappoint her parents, Sirius."
"So she forgets her morals and—
-they did threaten to send her away," he cuts Sirius off.
Sirius instantly deflated at the mention of Adhara being sent away. And Durmstrang of all places. Dark wizards graduate from their and could possibly turn his sister into a monster. And her being all alone there…
"Please tell me that you have not been ignoring her the whole holiday break, Sirius," Remus asked. He knew of that happened that would of broke Adhara's heart.
Sirius' guilty look was enough of an answer.
