Bella POV:

I was sure of it, I was in hell. this was my punishment for tricking Bellamy for leaving my family... Victoria had succeeded I had killed a father, a police office, and his little girl... I was a monster.

I wanted to die, I wanted to turn back time... I'd give anything to undo everything I've done.

Victoria was sauntering around gloating over me.

"You won, he'll never want me now please just let me go."

"I really have broken you haven't I?" she asked with a sick grin. My eyes filled with venom that would never fall, but suddenly she tensed.

"Someone's here." She growled angrily as if it was my fault. She grabbed me by my neck and dragged me outside,

it was the Cullens, I shouldn't have given in, if I had just held on a little longer those people didn't have to die, if it was possible I hated myself even more now.

"Let her go, she isn't responsible for James, I killed him." Jasper said stronger, he looked so fierce and powerful I didn't know how Victoria wasn't shaking in fear.

"It's you Bella, your a shield its stopping her from feeling Jasper, you need to get away from her." Alice shouted to me I tried to wiggle free, and I was surprised when I managed it, I must be strong from feeding... ugh that thought made me feel sick.

"You're too late, I've already ruined your perfect Bella."

"It's never too late to change, we'll help her learn control, she'll be fine." Carlisle told her and I desperately wanted him to be right.

"You on the other hand, will soon be in hell." A fight broke out but the odds were greatly stacked against her, still she had a uncanny act for getting out of everyone's grip, it looked like she was about to get away until Edward appears out of nowhere and viciously ripped her head clean off her shoulders.

"Edward." I breathed not truly believing what I was seeing.

"Bella, I am so sorry." He looked sincere but I didn't know if I could believe him and even if I could I would never be worthy of him now.

I stepped back as he tried to move closer to me, he looked so broken as I did.

The others started a fire and disposed permanently of Victoria.

"I smell another vampire, was she working with anyone else?" Jasper interrupted our starring.

"Uhh, yeah... Riley I think is his name."

"We'll have to find him."

"Wait, if I'm a shield how did you guys find me?"

"Your sister." Alice replied, my stone heart dropped at the mention off her.

"My sister?"

"Yeah, she called us, asked us to rescue you."

"She did?" Did she still love me, I didn't deserve it, i...

"Bella, she's waiting in a hotel not too far away, she wants to see you."

"No, thats not a good idea, I shouldn't, what if i..."

"You won't hurt her, we'll be there to make sure, she wants to say goodbye."

"Okay, yeah, I owe her that much." Edward was still staring heartbrokenly at me but I had to put that aside, I needed to think of something to say to my sister, something that would express my sorrow and regret, and my... my love.

Bellamy POV:

I was waiting in the hotel room the Cullen's had gotten me.

"It'll be alright," I looked over to Embry, I asked him to come with me, I was slowly learning how to let him in and get used to leaning on someone.

We saw headlights though the window,

"Is that them?" Embry looked outside and nodded.

"Just breathe, I'm right here." I smiled at him.

"Thank you."

...knock knock...

I took a deep breath and opened the door... there she was, my vampire sister, I wanted to cry, she didn't even look like her anymore, she actually kinda looked like Esme, her hair was redder and fuller, she was taller and somehow paler. I think she could see the grief in my eyes and I saw the regret in hers, I invited her in and Embry reminded me he'd be right on the other side of the door.

"You and Embry huh?" She awkwardly broke the silence, I giggled thinking maybe there was still some part of my sister left in there.

"Yeah, its early but yeah."

"I'm happy for you."

"Thanks."

"Are you and Edward..."

"I don't know, it's all so complicated. Look I want to apologize, I was only thinking of my own pain and I wasn't... I didn't. You were a great big sister, and you deserved a better little sister, I'm sorry... for everything."

"was there anything I could have done that would have-"

"No, no! I am the most hard headed person, you're not responsible for any of this please if nothing else please know that, this was all me. Can I ask you to do something tho?"

"What?"

"Don't ever take your life for granted and... please take care of Charlie." I nod in agreement.

She starts moving towards the door.

"Wait!" She turns around to me again, "I love you sis."

"I love you too sis." She replies and finally exits cueing me to burst into tears. Dammit Embry was right all that hate and anger was a dam blocking my grief and now its flowing so strong I feel like it might drown me.

I feel strong warm arms wrap around me and I know I'm not alone, Embry won't let this sink me and I grip on tightly to him trying to stay afloat.