A/N: So a chapter or two a guest asked me to explain how the male pregnancy was possible in this AU, I do want to point out I wasn't ignoring their question. I was doing a little research on it. In this AU some males have been born with a uterus that is connected to a male vagina which is located just outside the anus. Found a really good diagram too but it of course won't let me post it lol. please let me know if you need any more explanation

Comments always welcome :)

A/N 2: I have allowed myself only two moments for angst in this story. This is one lol. Enjoy :) (Also this chapter is unbeta'd)

Sonograms and Secrets

Magnus twisted his rings around his fingers and breathed a sigh of relief when Alec walked through the front door of the clinic.

"Sorry, I know I'm late," Alec apologized and quickly walked over. "Simon was having issue's with some paperwork and he somehow roped me into it. I didn't miss anything yet did I?"

"No, I told the nurse I wanted to wait for you," Magnus answered.

"Nerves?" Alec asked.

Magnus blushed embarrassed. "Yeah...I just, don't want there to be anything wrong."

Alec reached over and squeezed his hand.

"Dr. Carstair's is ready for you," the nurse told him.

"Right, let's do this before I get even more hormonal," Magnus said as he stood up.

Alec chuckled and they followed the nurse to the exam room.

"I'm sensing a disturbance in the force," Jem said as they walked into the room.

"Star Wars reference," Alec told Magnus.

"Ah, yes," Magnus nodded.

Jem chuckled. "I take it the donor has become the boyfriend then? You two do make a very nice couple. Reminds me of me and my husband."

"Is he a doctor too? Or a trophy husband?" Magnus asked as he sat down.

"He is a couple's therapist," Jem answered. "Gel's going to be a bit cold," he warned as Magnus rolled up his shirt.

Magnus wrinkled his nose a little at the feeling.

"You guys must have interesting arguments then," Alec said.

"He knows better than to use those tactics on me," Jem replied. "I've got better restraint than he does."

"Ugh, don't even mention sex to me. I haven't felt this bloated since puberty," he shuddered at the thought. "Or that time I had way too many cannoli's and got sick."

Jem chuckled. "Don't worry. It'll pass."

"Can you say the same about all this morning sickness and nausea?" Magnus asked.

"Is it getting worse?" Jem asked. "Looks like this one's playing hide and seek with us." He watched the screen.

"Just extending into the night, serious mood killer," Magnus said.

"Not for me, been meaning to catch up on some reading," Alec joked.

"Not funny," Magnus replied. He bit his lip. "Are they a really good hider or are you just a bad seeker?"

"It's okay," Alec stroked Magnus's hand with his thumb. "Deep breath, just relax. He knows what he's doing."

"I happen to be the best hide and go seeker there is," Jem told him. He turned the screen so they could see and typed in a few keys. A strong steady beating filling the small space. "Strong and healthy."

Magnus let out the breath he hadn't realized he'd been holding. "It's official.." he said.

"What is?" Alec asked. He looked away from the screen and at Magnus.

"I need to start buying waterproof mascara," Magnus answered.

Jem handed him a box of tissues. "I'll just print out a couple pictures for you."

"You mind if we get a CD of the heartbeat?" Alec asked.

"Of course not," Jem answered.

Magnus wiped his eyes and cleaned the gel off of his stomach and fixed his shirt before sitting up. Jem shut the door behind him as he left.

"You okay?" Alec asked.

"Yeah...hormone's," Magnus answered. He reached for his back and took out his compact.

"I printed off a couple in case you were the show offy type," Jem said as he walked back into the room. "And one CD of the baby's heartbeat. I can write you a prescription for something to help with the nausea and morning sickness."

"No thanks, I'd like to take as little prescription anything as possible," Magnus admitted.

"Understandable," Jem nodded. "Bland carbs can help, spicy food if it doesn't upset your stomach and one of the nurses found eating watermelon helped."

"My stomach can handle spicy food," Magnus chuckled.

"Mine can not," Alec grimaced.

"I will see you two at our next appointment," Jem smiled.


"Did I tell you, you look amazing today," Alec asked as he hugged Magnus from behind.

"Yes," Magnus answered. "But I don't mind you telling me again~." He turned to face Alec and wrapped his arms around him as he kissed Alec. "I thought you had to stay late at the precinct."

"Simon can finish up with out me," Alec answered. He picked Magus up and started walking to the bedroom.

"You realize Ragnor and Raphael will be back soon right?" Magnus asked.

"High school all over again," Alec answered.

Magnus bit his lip and Alec frowned.

"What?" Alec asked. "Did I say something wrong?"

"No…" Magnus answered. "My hormones must still be all over the place because of earlier."

"Everything's okay, you heard Jem," Alec assured him. He sat down and kept Magnus in his lap.

"I know," Magnus nodded and played with a ring.

"That's your 'i have something to say and you're not going to like it face'," Alec said. He dropped his arms as Magnus stood up.

"You generally never do," Magnus replied. He swallowed. "You know...I was never fully honest with you," Magnus said.

"You're never fully honest with anyone," Alec pointed out.

"Not to you," Magnus replied. "I always made sure to be honest, or, as honest as could…"

"You can tell me," Alec said. "You always can."

"It was never me about not wanting to have kids with you. I love the idea of having a baby with you Alec. That's why I asked you now…" Magnus told him.

"Then why did you always say no when I brought it up?" Alec asked.

"Because...I was scared...I was afraid something bad would happen, like I'd lose the baby like…before…" Magnus answered.

"Before? What do you mean?" Alec asked, frowning.

"It was a couple weeks after graduation, when you went to Europe with your family...I um, I didn't know I was pregnant. I didn't have any sort of symptoms, nausea or anything and I...I woke up one morning, and...there was just so much blood. I called Cat and she took me to the hospital and it turns out I was a month and a half along, and, I lost our baby…" Magnus finished quietly. "It was all my fault, and I didn't want it to happen again, so I just, I told myself I didn't want kids. That I just wanted my business and nothing else and for awhile it worked...I never wanted us to break up, I just didn't want to disappoint you."

Alec was quiet for awhile. "Why didn't you call me?" He finally asked.

"Alec...That's not something you tell over the phone," Magnus answered. "What was I supposed to say? Hope you're enjoying your vacation, by the way I didn't realize I was carrying our baby and lost it, don't forget to take pictures of the sightseeing?"

"Our baby," Alec repeated. "That was our baby, I had a right to know. I thought I had done something to piss you off because you weren't taking my call."

"I'm sorry okay?" You're right, I should have told you, I'm the asshole for keeping it to myself because I didn't want to hurt you," Magnus replied.

"You do not get to play that card right now," Alec said. "I had a right to know. That was my baby too, I deserved to mourn, and you, you shouldn't've have gone through that by yourself."

"I managed," Magnus said. He crossed his arms over his chest.

"That's not the point," Alec replied. "You shouldn't have to manage. We were in a relationship-"

"That always took one step forward and two giant steps back," Magnus interrupted. "You had just come out to your parents...Did you want to add that onto your plate?"

"That's not your decision to make," Alec answered. He stood up and headed for the front door.

"Alec...Where are you going?" Magnus asked, he stood in the bedroom doorway with his arms crossed.

"I need some air," Alec answered. He grabbed his coat and his keys. "I'll be back." He took out his phone as he left.

Jace was waiting for him when he got to park. He offered Alec the cigarette he'd been smoking.

"I shouldn't," Alec declined. "Not a good idea to be reeking of smoke when I go back."

Jace shrugged. "So it's true. Heard Izzy talking about it with Clary, didn't really believe it."

"What can I say?" Alec asked. "I gave him my sperm and now we're having a baby."

"Congratulations," Jace nodded. "What's the problem?"

Alec kicked a rock as they walked. "Found out why he didn't want to have kids when we were together." He took a deep breath already feeling the hot sting of tears. "Had a miscarriage when we were in Europe after graduation."

"Oh...Shit," Jace nodded and pulled Alec into a one armed hug.

"He...He never said anything, and I said so many things, I was such an asshole towards the end of our relationship...Why didn't he tell me?" Alec asked.

"What would you have done?" Jace asked. "If he had told you. If he had called?"

"I would've come back," Alec answered. "We could've talked...Grieved." He pulled away and wiped his eyes.

"You probably would've tried to have a baby again too wouldn't you?" Jace asked.

"Well...Yeah...I guess," Alec nodded.

"And you would have gotten married," Jace continued. "Tied down at 19, and a kid, makes it harder to study for police exams, probably would've taken you longer to make detective. Magnus wouldn't have his business. You'd probably be stuck as a desk jockey. You'd grow to resent each other but would stay together for the kid, might even wind up with another one."

"Is this supposed to make me feel better?" Alec asked.

"You didn't call me to make you feel better," Jace answered. "You called me because you wanted to hear what you can't tell yourself."

"And what's that?" Alec asked.

"Yes, Magnus should have told you about the miscarriage. It was your baby, just as much as his, but, had he told you, things would have gone a lot differently. You probably wouldn't be where you are, he wouldn't be where he is. And, he never would've asked you to father his baby and you guys wouldn't have gotten a second chance," Jace told him

"So you're saying, Magnus not telling me he had a miscarriage, having to go through that relatively alone was a good thing?" Alec asked.

"Fuck no, Magnus needs therapy. Both of you need therapy. You internalize way to much," Jace answered. "I'm just saying, while you have a reason to be upset, things would have turned out a lot differently had he told you. Don't focus so much on the past. Focus on now, on the new baby."

"You are really wasted with the Fire Department," Alec sighed.

"Why right bad guys when you can fight fires?" Jace asked. "Feel better?"

"A little," Alec nodded. "Definitely going to look into therapy."

"Good choice...You still do that too huh?" Jace chuckled.

"Do what?" Alec asked.

"Dude, you've been playing with that box in your pocket since I got here," Jace answered. "I think he's got enough rings don't you?"

"Your talents are so wasted," Alec sighed. "Old habits die hard." He ran his fingers over the soft velvet of the box. "Thanks Jace."

"Any time Officer," Jace tipped his hat.

Alec watched him go before heading to back to the apartment. The living room lamp was still one when he made it back. He quietly hung up his coat and went to the bedroom. He set the small box on Magnus's side of the bed and stripped to his boxers before getting in beside him.

"I'm sorry…" Magnus whispered.

"I'm sorry too," Alec said. He wrapped his arms around Magnus. "I didn't mean to just walk out."

"You were right though, I shouldn't have just kept this to myself," Magnus replied. "You had a right to know."

Alec kissed his forehead. "Well...I know now, and sure it's not the ideal way to find out, I'm glad you told me, and instead of focusing on that and the past, we're going to focus on now and the new baby and how nothing is going to happen and if anything should happen I'm not going anywhere."

"What if it happens again?" Magnus asked softly.

"Then we will go through it together," Alec answered. "I'm not going anywhere Magnus. I want this to work between us, baby or no baby. Alright?"

"You mean that?" Magnus asked.

"Of course I do," Alec answered. "We're in this together. No matter what."