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Chapter 30

After the moving was decided upon, Alice had a vision. "We have two days until the wolves attack, at least that's as far as I can see until my vision blurs."

"Alright, I'll go withdraw everyone from school and speak with the hospital." Carlisle moved to leave. A thought hit me.

"Well wait, there's no way Charlie is going to withdraw me."

"Don't worry Bella, I'll take care of it. Meanwhile, the go ahead and start packing anything you might want to keep." Carlisle left. I was relieved at how easy and accepting everyone was. Though I'm sure me being a vampire is what I can credit that to.

With that taken care of, we all went to our respective rooms. Of course there was hardly any packing to do as Alice refused to take anything that we could replace with something better. Grabbing a box, I began to help Edward pile his massive cd collection. The room is filled with an awkward silence. Edward and I haven't really had a chance to talk things out completely. I know it needed to be done but I was still dreading it so much.

Bending down to place a stack of cds in the box, our hands made contact and I quickly pulled back. "Sorry."

"What's going on Bella? Ever since we've been alone, you're acting all distant." Edward asked walking over to me.

"Just lost in thought I guess. It seems that all I've brought to this family is trouble. Maybe Rosalie was right, maybe I am a threat to this family. And you certainly deserve more than I can offer." I replied honestly. Not wanting to see his reaction, I go over to sit on the bed. Picking at my nails nervously, I feel Edward tilting my head forward.

"Bella, I'm the one who isn't deserving. None of this is your fault. You can talk to me about anything love, even if you think I won't like it." He smiled and pulled me closer.

"Gee, thanks for giving me permission to talk freely."

"No problem love. I don't know about you but putting away all those cds made me lonely. Wanna help me with that?" Edward didn't give me the chance to respond before he flips me over further on the bed. Pulling him closer I start to kiss him.

"Well we can't have wittle Wedward all lonely." I tease him, and laugh. Pushing himself up, Edward rips his shirt off and comes back to my waiting lips. It becomes more intense and I feel his hands creeping up my shirt. With careless abandon he rips it away from my body and quickly does away with my bra.

His kisses trail down my neck with his tongue darting in and out along the way. When he reaches my breast, my body automatically arches. His arms unwrap themselves from my back and travel to my shorts buckle. Popping them open, I help him out and wiggle out of them. Edward turns me so my back is against his chest and he's attacking my neck with his mouth and squeezing my breasts with one of his hands.

Edward's free hand dips below my underwear and a loud moan escapes my throat. My head falls back and I'm getting lost in the moment. My eyes are closed and unexpectedly, an image or flashback of the four vampires at the warehouse hits me like a ton of bricks.

Breaking out of Edward's hold, I sit up on the far side of the bed trying to calm myself down. A hand comes to a stop on my shoulder and I flinch. Looking over I see that it was Edward sitting next to me, looking at me sympathetically. I can't believe this happened, I'm so embarrassed.

"Oh Edward, I'm so sorry. I don't know why I reacted that way. Its just, what happened popped in my mind and it just seemed so real. I thought I was over that."

'Bella, what happened wasn't just some scratch or something. It was major and it's going to take some time. And I with everything that has happened you haven't had a chance to really heal like you need to. Only 4 months have passed since and I should have known better than to push something like this." Edward wrapped a comforter around me and pulled me to his chest and laid down.

"You're right, it's just…I feel useless. I mean, the only thing I could have given you that would have been special was taken away from me. And then I leave you, and cheat on you. Now I can't even be with you as much as I do want to."

"If I have to wait an eternity until you're comfortable then I will Bella. Although I would prefer not to."

"I love you so much Edward, I think I would go insane were it not for you by my side. " I tell him.

"As I love you." Edward ran his hand through my hair. A small thing that I knew Edward liked that I could give him came to me. Smiling, I concentrate until a thump is present.

"I was beginning to miss that beautiful rhythm."

"I know you like my human side better." I smile wrapping his arms tighter around me while stifling a yawn.

"That's where you're wrong, I love you just the way you are. Now sleep love, we have a long day ahead of us."

"Right, I forgot you liked watching me sleep also. Goodnight my stalker." I chuckled before drifting off.

((AN: woo. Hard chapter to write. So tell me…the almost-but-not-quite sex scene didn't cross the line between a T rating and an M rating did it? I don't think it was graphic, but idk. So there was a little B/E session…small hint: it's gonna spark a bit of a problem later on in the story.

I wrote this through a headache just for all of you. Okay…now…uh…review please? Your reviews are like aspirin…actually I use Tylenol….so really your reviews are like Tylenol! Lol))