GoT fanfic: White as Snow (Part III)
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Day 4 Prompt: ANGST
Four Part Short Story Fanfic
Ratings: Mature (Part III)
Summary: A modern Cinderella Story of a child whose world is turned upside down after the death of a parent. This child made to feel inferior, and in servitude to their own family. Will the love of another help pull them out of their darkness.
PART III: Holiday Cheer
++o+ Age 19 +o++
"Shit! I am so late for practice," Jon mutters grumpily as he runs through Greenwich Village towards campus. His shift at the diner went long, they are understaffed during the summer before the fall semester starts. Many of the out of state students that work at the diner with Jon haven't returned to the city yet.
His large fencing bag thrown over his shoulder is not helping him navigate the streets of New York City. Feeling his cell phone vibrating in his pocket he pulls it out to read the incoming text. Smiling when he sees it is Arya. Since he moved out of Catelyn's home in upstate NY over a year ago he doesn't get to see Arya, Bran and Rickon as much as he would like. He's missed seeing Arya at all this summer since she is spending it in Chicago for her high school internship. Her internship at Targaryen Enterprises headquarters.
He's late, but he still stops on the sidewalk to read her text. Frowning as he reads, he immediately knows that he will not be doing what his sister asks. Arya's flight arrives late tonight, and she really wants him to come to family dinner tomorrow night. "Our flight lands at 10 PM, so too late to stop by tonight. Please come to dinner tomorrow."
The moment Jon read our flight, he knew that Dany would be flying with Arya. Which makes sense as Dany has been dating Robb for a few months now, and has been watching over Arya this summer.
Dany and Robb, the perfect couple. Jon rolls his eyes while texting Arya with a quick no and a lame excuse about having plans.
For a moment, when his guard is down he thinks about Dany. It's been over a year since he saw her at Robb's graduation party. He was so angry that day, and the weeks following. She wrote him twice that week, asking him to please just talk to her. He deleted the messages without answering. He just wasn't ready.
And then shortly after he found out that Robb and Dany had started dating that summer. According to Arya, both Catelyn and Mr. Targaryen had pushed the pair together.
Stop it, Jon. Forget her. She was never yours. Never. He scolds himself before thinking about something else.
Moments later when his phone buzzes again he knows it will most likely be a snide comment from Arya, she hates when he turns her down for family gatherings. Often telling him that she doesn't care what her mom thinks, he is her brother and he has every right to visit his family.
Surprised to see a text from his fencing coach, pointing out that Jon is already seven minutes late for warm up, but he will avoid running laps if he stops by Starbucks to bring him a strong coffee. Jon laughs, that would be a small price to pay to avoid extra running.
Ducking into the closest Starbucks he orders and then waits for his name to be called. Leaning against the counter and looking around he is surprised to see Robb walking out of the restroom and slipping into the back booth. Jon begins to walk over to say hello to his brother, he hasn't seen him often in the last year and neither one ever mentioned Dany to the other. Jon always wondering if she had told Robb anything about their past.
Just as Jon gets close enough to say hi he sees that Robb had his arms wrapped around some brunette as he sucks her face off while his hand is under her shirt. She whimpers his name.
Jon's stomach drops, how dare Robb disrespect Dany this way?! Cheating on her, with some tramp. Instantly seeing red Jon grabs Robb by the shoulder and pulls him out of the booth before yelling at him.
"What the hell, Robb? You are cheating on Daenerys! She is gone for the summer so you set up some chick on the side?!" Jon growls at his brother, furious he would hurt her this way.
The brunette in the booth gasps in shock, and then demands to know who the hell Daenerys is.
"Jeez, Jon! Just stop, you don't understand! Let me explain, I am not cheating on Daenerys! She is one of my closest friends, I'd never hurt her that way," Robb says calmly. "Just have a seat, I can explain."
Jon breathes in and out, listening to what Robb has to say and how calm he sounds. Jon slides into the both across from Robb and the brunette who seems upset as well.
"Jon this is my girlfriend, Talisa. Talisa this is my brother, Jon," Robb says as Jon and Talisa nod hello.
Turning to Talisa first, Robb assures her that he doesn't have some secret girlfriend. Jon shifts uncomfortably seeing how comfortable and intimate their body language is. It would be obvious to anyone that these two are madly in love with each other.
Turning to his brother with a confused look, "I always thought you and Daenerys were close friends? I just assumed she would have told you that our 'dating relationship' was just an act to get my mom and her father off our backs."
Jon's mouth falls open, all this time…he was agonizing over a fake relationship? Holy shit he scowls, he had no idea.
"She and I lost touch after high school, so no. I'm really sorry – I just saw you and thought you were screwing around behind her back," Jon apologizes, suddenly feeling really stupid.
"Yeah, I gathered that," Robb says as he and Talisa laugh, all of the tension forgotten.
"It was just easier for us to pretend to 'date' then to keep having our parents plan meetups for us. I know it helped me a lot to have Catelyn off my back. And being away at college, it was so easy to pretend," he explains to Jon and Talisa. "And then I met Talisa at the start of the summer, and I just couldn't pretend anymore. So Dany and I agreed to fake-breakup, but again not call attention to it."
Jon nods, his mind racing. He has so many questions he wants to ask, about Dany. But he knows he shouldn't. It is too late for them.
Besides, he is with Ygritte now. Jon has no right to ask about Dany.
That chapter in his life is over.
+++o+++
"Jon, put your books away! I am here, and your roommates are out," Ygritte demands while aggressively kissing his neck as he sits in front of his laptop. "I need you to fuck me, and now." She laughs.
"Ygritte, please. I told you that this paper is due tomorrow morning, I need to get it done," Jon sighs, frustrated already with the pressure of his school work.
"Ohhh, excuse me fancy college boy. I guess a simpleton like me wouldn't be able to understand how important your book report on…" Ygritte looks over his should to read his screen. "On Global and Urban Education. God, you are so boring Jon Snow. I can't believe you want to be a teacher."
Jon smiles at her, "Well, you always told me you hated school growing up. Maybe one day I will be the cool teacher that helps kids enjoy learning."
Ygritte rolls her eyes playfully and kisses him, slipping her hand around his body to rub his cock over his sweatpants. Jon closes his eyes to enjoy her hands on his dick.
Yes, Ygritte knows exactly how to touch him, how to lure him into bed. She is five years older than him, they met at his job during his freshman year. He is a server at the diner, she is one of the managers.
Never having gone to college, she is generally frustrated with all of the students that work for her. Ygritte seems to have a chip on her shoulder about it.
Jon gives in, he knows it will turn into a big fight if he doesn't give her what she wants. Of course he enjoys sex with his girlfriend, but sometimes the pressure of school, fencing and his part-time job stress him out. His course load sophomore year is pretty heavy.
After a very satisfying fuck, Ygritte's words, she slips her tank top on and falls asleep in his bed. Jon looks at his laptop across the room and knows he needs to get that paper done. Glancing at his cell phone he decides that he is better off sleeping for a couple of hours and then getting up early.
Setting his alarm for 4 AM while lying down, he feels a sadness wash over him. Even with Ygritte sleeping beside him, he feels alone.
+++o+++
"Daenerys, did you hear me? Please respond when I speak to you!" her father snapped, the stress in his voice was evident.
"Yes, father. I'm just in shock," Dany whispered, her mind reeling having just found out her brother, Viserys, had seriously overdosed while in Amsterdam on business.
"Damned it, pull it together. I already have one screw of up a child. I do not need two," Aerys snapped at his only daughter. Furious he has to deal with this. Of course he loves his only son, his heir. But at the same time, all this boy did was screw up after screw up.
This was the second overdose in two years, and Viserys had already done a stint in rehab recently.
"I know you have school, and you need to get your degree. But I have to fly to Amsterdam to clean up this mess! I need you to step up with the company. Do you understand?" he finishes, looking to his only daughter.
"Yes, father. Of course," she assures him.
"The most important thing, no one is to know about this. I already have a man out there that is paying off the local police to keep this under wraps," he scowls. "I still need to go out there and check him into rehab."
Dany has heard it all before. What a disgrace and financial hit to the family empire it would be if word got out that her brother was an addict.
Sometimes she wonders if things would have turned out differently if father hadn't sent his precious heir to boarding school at such a young age. What would it have been like to be raised side by side with her brother? Maybe we would have had what Arya has with Jon.
Forget it, stop thinking about Jon Snow. He stopped caring about you a long time ago.
As her father storms out, in a hurry to get the airport, she realizes he didn't even say goodbye. He only summoned her to bark orders at her while warning to keep her mouth shut.
Dany allows herself a few moments to feel sad and alone. And then she lets it go.
She has much to do.
++o+ Age 20 +o++
Christmas of Dany's sophomore year her father surprises her with a trip to Manhattan for the holidays. It is a four day trip full of spa time, shopping, the finest restaurants, and even a Broadway show. Aerys still has work to attend to, so Dany spends quite a bit of time alone. She is used to it.
"Danny, I know we have the Christmas Eve tradition of last minute shopping, but I have a couple of calls I need to take. Since we are in town, and the Stark family is celebrating Christmas in the city this year, why don't you accompany them for ice skating today?" her father asks, although he isn't really asking. He is telling her what he expects.
Normally Dany has no qualms about spending time with the Starks. Well, most of them. She still can't stand Catelyn Stark for the way she treated Jon all those years.
"Father, you know that Robb has a new girlfriend now," Dany says quietly as she catches Aerys rolling his eyes. "I just want to make sure you understand that Robb Stark and I are over, we both agree we are better off as friends."
"Yes, yes…that is fine. You can do whatever you want in the love department. I am late dear, I need to go. And remember, you will be having lunch with all of the Starks and then enjoying the day with them."
Danny nods, remembering her father's past obsession with her love life. He was so worried she would do something to embarrass him.
Her father has had nothing to worry about. Aside from her fake relationship with Robb Stark, there has been no special man in her life. Between her studies and getting more involved in her family's business she has lacked the time and desire to date anyone new.
+++o+++
Sitting at lunch later, Danny laughs as Arya and Sansa bicker about their short trip to California during winter break. When entering the restaurant, Dany had felt a huge sense of relief that Jon was not there. Immediately followed by sadness. It has been a little over a year and a half since she last saw Jon. Truth be told, she still missed him.
And if she is honest, she still loves him.
"Mother, was Jon invited today? I hope so, I don't want to be cross with you," Arya asks her mother from across the table.
Catelyn Start huffs at her youngest daughter, "Yes, I sent him an email. He isn't even in town this week."
Sansa and Robb laugh and smile at each other, Dany can't help but feel that she is missing the joke.
"Where is Jon? Out of town you said?" Dany finally asks, her curiosity getting the better of her.
"Oh yeah, our brother the lover-boy, drove to Pittsburgh to meet his girlfriend's family. Things are getting really serious between those two," Robb says absentmindedly while looking over the menu at the same time.
Dany feels as though she has been kicked in the stomach. She doesn't know why, did she think that Jon would be sitting in the NYU library pining for her?
Jon isn't a complete idiot like she is. Dany's face flushes, picturing a nervous Jon meeting his love's parents for the first time. He probably got the mother flowers, or something equally endearing.
"Well, if you ask me, I can only imagine what Ygritte's family is like. Since that woman seems to have been raised by wolves," Sansa snickers. "Or dogs may be a more accurate description!"
"Oh Dany, it was so funny. Jon actually brought Ygritte to dinner at the house. It was the same night that Robb invited Talisa. Mother was beside herself, two girlfriends to entertain," Arya could barely get the words out she was laughing so hard.
Dany politely nodded for her to continue with her story, as her heart was being stomped on.
Sansa takes over, Arya agreeing that she tells it better. "Let's just say Jon's girlfriend is really "interesting" - she is quite crass and foul mouthed. She didn't make it through the meal before Catelyn demanded that Jon get her out of the house."
The younger children laugh at Sansa's story, while Robb frowns at his sister.
"Sansa, that wasn't nice. I think Jon has really fallen in love with her. You need to try harder to like her," Robb says.
His words like a knife in Dany's heart. Jon is in love. With someone else.
And then she painfully remembers, he never once told her that he loved her.
Because he never did. Why would he love you? No one loves you.
A realization hits Dany, since the day Jon stormed off, unwilling to even listen to her try to explain, she has been pining for him. So many boys have asked her out, they have even asked Robb to set them up on a date with her.
She always said no. What a fool she is, waiting for some boy that obviously doesn't care about her at all.
Turning to Robb, "Hey, Drogo, the president of your fraternity, he's a senior right?" Dany asks. Drogo had tried to get Rob to set him up with her a couple of times. Dany had declined at the time.
"He sure is! He still has a crush on you by the way, he asks me about you all the time," Robb tells her. "Why do you ask?"
"Can you give him my cell number, I'd like to go on a date with Drogo and see where it goes," Dany says confidently.
She is done being a fool, while everyone else around her lives their lives.
After lunch she accompanies the Starks to the ice skating rink at Rockefeller Center. She is a really graceful skater and helps the three youngest with their technique. Arya takes the cutest picture with Dany while on the ice.
Dany smiles at the end of the day, she actually had a really nice time with their family. She was also glad she didn't have to sit in an empty hotel room all day.
+++o+++
"Fuck, this is truly the worst Christmas ever," Jon groans while staring into the rearview mirror of his rental car. Jon is parked in a Pittsburg Walmart parking lot, alone, on Christmas Eve.
He can't believe Ygritte actually hit him this time. She technically hit him three times! He checks his swollen cheek, furious with her. But also furious with himself. He has been putting up with this toxic relationship for so long.
He doesn't even recognize himself.
They had another terrible fight, she actually believed that he was planning to propose to her this Christmas. She expected him to ask her father for his permission to ask her to marry him. Jon actually thought she was joking when she brought it up, and laughed.
She exploded. She is always threatening him with physical violence. Usually something to do with removal or injury to his balls.
This time she threatened to use her hunting arrows to castrate him! Jon had enough.
He broke up with her, on Christmas Eve. That did not go over well, and he has the swollen jaw and cheek to prove it.
Checking his cell phone to make sure his outgoing message went out, he gave the owner of the diner his notice. There is no way he could continue working there with Ygritte as his boss. No job was worth that torture.
It is then that he gets a Happy Christmas Eve email from Arya. She sent an email telling him that they all miss him and also attached some photos of Christmas Eve day in the city. Feeling a pang in his heart, Jon realizes how much he misses his family. All of them, even Sansa. Jon waits patiently as each photo attachment downloads, and then he sees it.
A photo of Dany with Arya, Bran and Rickon on the rink at Rockefeller Station. Dany looks so happy in the photo, with a huge smile and bright eyes filled with laughter. She is actually using her small frame to keep his younger brothers steady, who Jon knows are both terrible skaters.
From the end of her email, Arya explains that Dany joined the group for lunch and then skating while Mr. Targaryen was working. Arya also mentioning that Dany "finally" asked about him. Jon feels his stomach drop, even picturing her brings up emotions he doesn't know will ever go away. His sister didn't go into any more detail.
Which is probably for the best. It doesn't matter, Jon made his choices and has his own life. He can't turn back time and take back the way he treated her the day of Robb's graduation. He can't answer her emails that she sent just days later when he was still so upset with her.
As much as he wishes he could.
He made his choices and now he has to live with them.
Jon turns on the car and hopes he can find some kind of motel. He wants to get back to New York as soon as possible.
+++o+++
"Hey! It's me!" Jon announces letting himself into the Stark family home. Only because he knows that Catelyn went skiing in Colorado for the holiday. He would never enter without knocking if his stepmother was home.
Jon is excited to spend some time with his siblings without Catelyn around. Sansa is a senior in high school this year, and she is spending the night at her best friend that is having a New Year's Eve party. And then Robb and Jon were invited to a huge party at the country club that one of their old high school friends is hosting. Jon should say that Robb was invited, and asked if Jon could tag along with him and Talisa.
"Jon! You actually made it home, I missed you," Arya squealed while jumping into his arms.
"Of course, I mainly came to see all of you. I've missed you guys," Jon says while greeting each of his siblings.
It is only then he realizes there is a very tall, buff man in the room. For a moment Jon wonders if Sansa has a boyfriend he doesn't know about. Which freaks him out as this guy looks like he is in his twenties and Sansa only recently turned seventeen.
"Sorry, Jon, this is Drogo. Drogo, this is my brother Jon. Jon is a sophomore at NYU," Robb says as Jon and Drogo shake hands. Drogo towers over Jon. "And Drogo is a senior and president of my fraternity at Brown."
"Nice to meet you, so you are here for the party?" Jon asks while setting his bag on the floor before they all enter the kitchen.
"Yes and no," Drogo smiles confidently. "The party host is also one of our fraternity brothers, but the main reason I came out here is that the girl I just started dating is going to be at this party."
Drogo takes a drink from his beer. "The things we do for women, right?"
Jon smiles while pouring himself a glass of water.
"Crap! Jon, we set Drogo up in your bedroom and he's slept here the last week. Um, I can have you stay in my room and Talisa and I will crash in mom's room," Robb looks at the little kids and swears them to secrecy.
"Robb, I meant to tell you – I got a suite at the country club where the party is for tonight," Drogo says with a smirk.
"Oh, you did? Are you expecting a special evening," Robb teases while ushering the younger siblings, and even Sansa out of the kitchen.
"Hey, Daenerys and I have been on three dates already. I do think tonight will be the night. She seems down," Drogo says confidently. "You know that no woman can resist this hotness!"
Robb laughs while Drogo flexes his muscles, neither noticing the look of horror on Jon's face.
Jon confirms he can have his room back and goes upstairs to wash his sheets. He wonder if Drogo has had Dany over to the house this last week. Have they fooled around in his old room?
For fuck's sake. Jon just can't catch a break.
He also knows there is no way in hell he is going to that party now.
+++o+++
As Dany drinks her fourth glass of champagne she laughs loudly at Talisa's imitation of Catelyn Stark.
"I blame you, Daenerys! Since your fake-relationship with Robb, no one will ever compare to you!" Talisa scowls playfully as Dany bursts into a fit of giggles again.
Robb and Drogo are playing a drinking game with some of their other fraternity brothers that made the trip for the party.
"So, how are things going with Drogo? That is one sexy beast of a man, not that I would look at anyone other than Robb. Obviously," she laughs.
"Obviously," Dany smiles back. "I think well, when Robb texted him about me on Christmas Day, Drogo drove out here the very next morning and has been taking me out on dates all this week."
"And?" Talisa pushes.
Dany blushes, remembering some of their heavier make out sessions. Drogo is a very sensual and experienced man, that much is obvious.
"Well, he did get us a suite for tonight," Dany whispers so only Talisa can here. "I did tell him, I am just not sure of I am ready for sex."
"What's holding you back? If you don't mind me asking," Talisa says with curiosity.
"Honestly, I guess I'm nervous. I just always imagined my first time would be…different." Dany says sadly, Jon's face popping in her head. "I should say with someone that I love."
"I didn't know you were still a virgin. That is great Dany. You shouldn't rush," Talisa pauses to sip her champagne. "Even if a man gets a suite, doesn't mean you are obligated to screw him."
Robb stumbles over to steal a kiss from Talisa. Asking for his phone out of her purse and then scowling when he checks the messages.
"What a shock. Jon sent me a text. He decided to skip this party after all," Robb groans. "I wonder if he is planning to drive into the city to see Ygritte?"
"That's too bad! I was looking forward to getting to know your brother better at the party," Talisa frowns while rubbing Robb's back.
Dany's eyes widen, feeling conflicted. There is a part of her that is desperate to see Jon. And then a bigger part of her that knows seeing him will only bring her pain.
As the evening continues, Dany pushes all thoughts of Jon Snow away.
"Are you having a good time, gorgeous?" Drogo croons in her ear as his hand rests on her ass. "Can I get you anything?"
Dany smiles, and nods. She doesn't know what she wants, aside from another glass of champagne at the moment.
+++o+++
Dany makes a fist, digging her nails into the palm of her hands. She never imagined this would hurt so damned much. It is their second time that night and she is so sore.
"Drogo, please. Be gentle, I'm still sore from earlier," Dany reminds him, gasping sharply with each of his thrusts.
"Oh Fuck, I'm sorry. You are just driving me crazy, I've wanted you so badly and for so long," he moans while slowing his pace.
She lets out a sigh of relief as he slows down and is gentler.
She told him she was still a virgin, and after she convinced him that she was not kidding, Drogo was a man on a mission.
Before they had sex, both agreed to be in a committed relationship. Biting her lip as they have sex, she wonders if she will feel different tomorrow. Feel different now that she is no longer a virgin.
After he comes into the condom and they clean up, he promises her that once she gets used to it – it will be so good for her during intercourse.
Drogo was a courteous lover, getting Dany to climax with his talented fingers before they had sex.
Once Dany hears that Drogo is sound asleep she allows her mind to wander. Tears of sadness spring into her eyes. Dany hates herself for feeling this way. So pathetic.
Why can't she just be happy?
She sat up with her hair disheveled and the sheets tangled around her. Her new boyfriend slept beside her, yet she was alone.
+++o+ End of Part III of IV +o+++
Author's Note: The prompt for today's JONERYS APPRECIATION WEEK was ANGST. This was a hard chapter for me to write as I tend to lean towards happy and sappy. But I wanted to push myself. Tomorrow's prompt (day 5) is SMUT! Tomorrow's Part IV will deliver the jonerys we all want. Hang in there please! xoxo
