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Fitz was still in Olivia's room, pacing, with no clue how to handle what Olivia was going through. He asked Olivia how to help her, but didn't get any response from her. Olivia just kept on chanting. He couldn't believe he slept with her knowing what she was trying to overcome.
Fitz thought long and hard and decided to call Cyrus' husband, Chao. He knew Cyrus was going to crucify him if he found out what he just did. He prayed Chao would be decreed enough not to tell Cyrus. He hated himself so much for being this selfish.
Chao and Cyrus were both researching how fast they could help Olivia. They decided to start from her upbringing, and her mom was the best person to start with. They made a call to the prison facility where Chao lastly saw Olivia's mom.
"Hello, how may I help you?" Someone in the prison facility asked.
"We want to know if Maya Pope is still in your system." Chao went directly to the point.
"I'll direct your call to the one in charge of such information. Hold up for a minute"
Cyrus and Chao waited patiently, and were connected after some seconds. "Hello, Please I'd like to find out if Maya Pope is still in your system. I saw her there two years go. I want to know if she's out and where to find her." Chao inquired.
"Maya Pope?"
"Yes. You know her?"
"Yes, she's still here. She has six years left."
"Six years?" Chao shouted out loud.
"What did she do? Six plus two makes eight years." Cyrus calculated from the time Chao saw her plus the additional six years left.
The person differentiated Chao's voice from Cyrus'. "Who is the other guy?"
"Sorry, you're on speaker. Hope this is not a problem?" Chao answered and asked.
"Eh, no it's not. Just wanted to make sure l wasn't making up stuff in my head." The person at the end of the line said.
"Yes. Eight years?" Chao went back to Cyrus' question.
The person chuckled. "She's doing a sixteen years' time. She has done ten already. So it's left with six. You stated you saw her two years ago, which means by then she must have spent eight years. Who are you to her if I may ask?"
Cyrus didn't have time for all that. "What did she do?" He asked instead.
"Murder." The person at the end of the line answered sharply, adding, "but if you ask me, I think the bastard deserved to die. She might be out this year for good conducts, so I heard." The person seemed to be a talker.
"Please, can we speak to her?" Chao requested.
"Sorry, inmates do not receives calls today. You can call back tomorrow. But if you can stay on the phone I can tell you anything you want to know about anyone here. I'm very good at my job. Today is a boring day and I have nothing to do." The person was definitely a talker and a gossiper too.
Chao and Cyrus looked at each other, Chao shook his head while Cyrus rolled his eyes. "Okay, but we just want to know only about Maya Pope. I am a psychologist. I'd like to…." Chao's phone rang before he could finish.
Fitz was at the other end of the line. "You have to get here now." Fitz said in desperation.
"Fitz, is everything OK? I'm busy at the moment."
Cyrus heard Chao mentioned Fitz's name. "Fitz? What does he want?" He asked his husband.
Fitz heard Cyrus' voice over the phone. "Is Cyrus there with you?" He nervously asked Chao.
"Yes."
"Please, give him an excuse and get to Olivia's room now. I don't want him to know about this. This is about Olivia, I slept with her and something is wrong."
"You what?" Chao shouted immediately before he tried to calm down his voice so Cyrus wouldn't be suspicious.
Fitz didn't have time to explain everything to him over the phone. "Please, just get here with your medical box, and without Cyrus."
Chao cut of the line. "Cy, Fitz said a patient needs me urgently. I think you can handle getting all the information we need about Olivia's mom, since our person at the prison facility is a talker."
Cyrus was already suspicious of Chao and Fitz discussion because of Chao's sudden nervousness. "They're many doctors at the center. He should get one of them. I thought you want to see how fast we could help your friend Olivia. We are in the middle of something here, or is there something I should know?"
"I have to go Cy." He rushed off and left Cyrus.
Cyrus thought for a while and was certain something wasn't right.
Chao arrived and met Fitz sitting next to Olivia with just a sheet over her body
"Fitz…" He called out.
Fitz went straight to the point. "I made love to her….and…"
"Are you sick in the head or something? Cyrus is going to kill you. What's wrong with her?" Chao asked, seeing how Olivia was coiled up, still chanting.
"I don't know, I think she's having a panic attack or something. I don't know what went wrong or how to help her."
"When did she get like this?"Chao asked Fitz.
Fitz couldn't voice out the exact words that triggered Olivia's reaction. "We were both really clos…. when she…."
"You can't even say it because you know how wrong that is" Chao gave Fitz a stern look.
Fitz ran his hand through his hair in frustration. "I accept every responsibility. But this is not about me now. We have to do something to calm her down."
Chao walked toward Olivia and tried to touch her, but she shifted away from his touch, a little scared. "Why is she scared? Hope you didn't force her." He looked at Fitz.
Fitz felt like punching Chao in the face. "Do you really think that low of me? I am not a rapist. Do you think I'd force her to do something she didn't want? Even when I was an addict I'd never force….."
Chao chuckled. "When you were an addict?" He mocked.
Fitz rolled his eyes. "She was going through a withdrawal. I was just trying to help."
"The fact that she was going through a withdrawal and you made that your justification to do what you did say so little of you, you are a professional for crying out loud."
Fitz sighed, knowing there was truth to what Chao said. "Let's stop arguing and see how to help her, please!"
"She should freshen up first, some sleeping pills would help for now, but she has to tell us what she's going through in order for us to prescribe the necessary antidepressant."
Fitz tried to carry Olivia to the bathroom to freshen her up, but Olivia pushed him away, not wanting him to touch her. Fitz and Chao decided to use their strength and sedated her with an injection.
Olivia fell asleep and Fitz carried her up. "Please arrange her bed. I'll clean her up." Fitz said to Chao and carried Olivia to the bathroom.
"Yes, while I take care of this mess here." Chao pointed at Olivia's bed, hating himself for cleaning up their mess.
After Fitz was done, he went through Olivia's stuff and found a PJ he was certain she would be comfortable in. He placed her on her bed and covered her with a sheet.
"Let's leave her room and sit somewhere for you to explain yourself." Chao suggested.
"I don't want to leave her."
Chao looked at Fitz like he was a little crazy. "Are you kidding me? What can you do for her while she is asleep?" He asked and showed Fitz the door for them to leave Olivia's room.
They stepped out and Fitz described everything that transpired between him and Olivia. Chao told Fitz he and Cyrus were searching for Olivia's mom to see how fast they could help her while Fitz was with Olivia being selfish.
Fitz overlooked his statement. "Any luck?" He asked, in regard to Olivia's mom.
"Somehow, but her mom is still in jail."
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Olivia slept for hours. When she got up the first person on her mind was Fitz. She could literally feel Fitz's kisses all over her body. Her lips felt swollen, she touched her lips and recalled how she enjoyed kissing Fitz and smiled at the memory. She vividly remembered every single details of their love making and her body warmed up from the images. "So that's what lovemaking feels like," she said that out loud and smiled again.
She then recalled her panic attack after Fitz asked her to wrap her legs around him and she was mortified at the memory. She covered her face with her pillow and tried to suffocate herself, but couldn't. She later on removed her face from her pillow searching for air to breathe.
She didn't remember Fitz leaving or she putting her PJ on, she was certain Fitz did. She was very ashamed and embarrassed. The shame was so unbearable that she was thinking whether she'd ever get over from it.
Everything that transpired between them just proved her point of never recovering from her addiction. She got up and started packing her things to leave. She didn't want to face Fitz ever again. She was now certain nothing and no one could help her illness, and she was destine to live like that.
Olivia was still packing when Cyrus came to check on her because of his suspicion about the phone call Fitz made to Chao. Cyrus saw her packing. "Olivia, what's going on?"
"I have to go. I won't be able to continue with the program. You guys can't help me, no one can." Olivia rushed through her words without a glance in Cyrus' direction.
Cyrus demanded to know why Olivia was leaving. Olivia didn't tell him she slept with Fitz, but told him she relapsed and didn't want to continue. Cyrus put two and two together and came to the conclusion Fitz has something to do with all this.
He demanded to know who she relapsed with since no sex worker was assigned to have sex with her. Olivia told him it didn't matter.
"Is it Fitz?" Cyrus asked through his teeth, already worked up.
Just hearing Fitz's name made Olivia's heart skipped a thousand times. "I said it doesn't matter."
"Olivia, this is my job and yes it does. This establishment is at risk here. Did you have sex with Fitz?" Cyrus asked angrily.
Olivia didn't answer. Cyrus dialed Fitz's number and demanded he come to Olivia's room at that instant.
The thought of seeing Fitz made her more than nervous. "Please no, he doesn't need to come here. I should just go. I don't want to cause any trouble." Olivia tried to leave
"You are not going anywhere." Cyrus told her, and added she has to go through the normal procedure of signing papers and filling out some documents which were required for anyone quitting.
"Can't I do that later?" She asked.
"No, we have to be prepared for your law suit. A counselor in my center slept with an addict, you. It's going to destroy everything I've worked for. I have to at least try to minimize the damages."
"I'm not suing anybody."
"For now, right?"
"No, forever."
Fitz entered Olivia's room and saw she was up. He rushed to her and tried to touch her but stopped halfway. "Are you OK?" He asked her, very concerned.
"I am fine." Olivia replied, but didn't look at him, she was soaking wet with embarrassment.
"Olivia is quitting and you know why?" Cyrus asked Fitz, sort of a rhetorical question, "because of you." He added.
Fitz walked toward Olivia, then stopped halfway after he saw Olivia shifting away from him. "No, please you can't quit…" He begged Olivia.
Olivia interrupted Fitz quickly, but giving her attention to Cyrus. "No, is not because of him. I just want to leave that's all."
Cyrus walked closer to Fitz with anger written all over his face. "You are suspended indefinitely. And as long as I live I'd make sure you never get to practice again. I want you to clear your office and leave immediate. You are not to be seen in this premise. The board is going to review your status here. "
Olivia rushed to Cyrus in shock. "No, you can't do that." Olivia said to Cyrus. "It was my fault. I forced him, I begged him to, and I'm leaving, you don't have to suspend him or anything."
"Leave now." Cyrus shouted at Fitz.
Fitz knew where Cyrus was coming from. He knew what he did was very unprofessional and if words got out, it was going to ruin the center's reputation. He sighed heavily. "I respect your decision. I am sorry." He said to Cyrus then turned to Olivia. "Please, can we talk later?"
Olivia didn't look at him, talk less of answering him. Fitz saw her reaction and left Olivia's room.
After Fitz left, Olivia held Cyrus' hand. "Please you can't fire or suspend him. I'm not going to sue anybody, I promise. Cyrus, please hear me out. I'd do anything you want me to do. Please don't take his job away from him." Olivia was virtually in tears, begging Cyrus not to fire Fitz.
Cyrus concealed a devilish smiled. "Did you say you'd do anything I want you to do?"
"Yes Cyrus, anything, I can't take being responsible for another misfortune of his. I made him relapsed not long ago, I can't take away his job too, Please!" Olivia cried out.
Cyrus thought for a while. "OK, you know Chao is my husband, and he's very worried about you."
"Fine, I forgive him. I'm going to talk to him. Please don't just fire Fitz, please!"
"Nope, that's not what I want. You have to give yourself another chance of recovery. You can't quit. You are to be committed 100% to this program. If you quit, Fitz goes too."
Olivia gave out a long breath of relieve, but felt like her situation has been exacerbated at the same time. "Agreed, I won't quit."
Fitz and Olivia haven't seen or spoken to each other for four days. Cyrus told Fitz he wasn't suspended, but would be evaluated, and was to stay away from Olivia unless it has to do with her treatment.
Fitz knew what he did was very unprofessional and wrong on all levels, no matter how he tried to rationalize it, it was plain wrong. Notwithstanding, Olivia's moaning and screaming during their lovemaking hasn't left his head.
The lovemaking felt too good, and truth be told even though what he did was wrong, minus her panic attack, he didn't regret it one bit. He wished no one else apart from him get to hear her screamed and moaned like that. A small part of him told him Olivia cares about him too due to the way Olivia reacted when Cyrus threatened to suspend him. He wanted to talk to her so badly about her panic attacked, but Chao, just like Cyrus advised him to stay away from her for a while too in order for her to regain herself.
More of the same Fitz's thoughts were going through Olivia's mind too. Olivia noticed she hasn't been able to take Fitz off her mind ever since she met him, and this was a new feeling for her. She felt seen and cherished by Fitz when they were making love, and she has never felt that way before. But she knew she'd never be able to look him in the eyes again after her panic attacked. What if Fitz wants to know more about what caused my reaction? She asked herself. I can't tell him I was raped, how is he going to look at me if he finds out the rape was pleasurable at the end. Is he going to understand me?
She was dreading all of Fitz's session she has attend, but it didn't stop her from fantasying about him. She couldn't believe it has been four days since she thought about sex with no one else but Fitz.
Today was field day, which meant every addict has to choose an art or hobby to develop. Olivia saw Jerry standing in front of a drawing board and decided to see what he was doing.
Jerry saw Olivia approaching him. "Hey Olivia, come and see what I drew." He had drawn a picture of Olivia.
"Wow, you are really good. But why did you draw me? That's a little creepy you know that, right?"
"Because you are the love of my life and one day you're going to love me too." Jerry teased her.
"Bye. I told you to stop saying such things." Olivia pretended as if she was walking away. She knew Jerry meant no harm and was just teasing her.
Jerry rushed in front of Olivia. "Please don't go. I was just kidding." He pushed Olivia playfully. "So, what hobby would you like to develop today?"
Olivia smiled at him. "I once love drawing and painting too, but not anymore."
Jerry gave Olivia a look.
"Long story kiddo." Olivia replied to his look with a tease. She knew Jerry hate being called kiddo.
"You said you won't call me that anymore."
"Just kidding too. You also said you won't flirt with me anymore, but you did earlier."
"OK, I promise if you draw something I'm never going to tease you with my flirting, ever again."
"Sorry, you can tease all you want, but that won't get me to draw."
"Pleaseeeee!" Jerry made his begging face.
"OK! stop with the face." Olivia surrendered.
The last time Olivia drew something was when she was sixteen and it was the day she got raped. She stood in front of Jerry's drawing board and closed her eyes. She placed her pencil on the board and her fingers began to shake. She was about giving up when the instructor spoke.
"Jerry, your dad is here to see you." The instructor said to Jerry. Olivia and Jerry spotted Fitz at the same time.
Olivia dropped her pencil due to a sudden anxiety. "Is that your dad?"
"Yes." Jerry answered her, and called his dad. "Dad, come meet my new friend, Olivia."
Fitz and Olivia haven't seen each other since the day they made love. Fitz approached Jerry and Olivia, he tried to smile at Olivia, but she wouldn't look at him.
Olivia was contemplating running out of there or hiding herself somewhere, as Fitz approached them, her nervousness grew. "Jerry, I have to go."
She was just about to bypass Fitz, when he grabbed her arm lightly. "Olivia, we have to talk."
Jerry walked up to them. "You know each other already?" He looked at his dad then Olivia and saw the way they were both in trance, staring at each other. "Hello!" Jerry brought them back from their spell.
"Yes." Fitz answered. "Jerry, let me talk to Olivia for some minutes, I'd be back shortly."
Jerry rolled his eyes. "I should've known you move fast." He said to his dad and went back to his drawing board.
Olivia tried to fake a smile. "You were coming to talk to Jerry, you should do that. We don't have anything to talk about." She said without looking at him.
"Olivia, after what happened four days ago I think we both deserves a talk or two, please." Fitz pleaded.
It took Olivia like ages before she gave in. Fitz took her to a quiet area where they could talk without any disturbances.
Olivia desperately wanted to be in control of the conversation they were about to have. "I am an addict, we had sex so what's the big deal?" She asked, trying to conceal her shame and embarrassment in anger.
"You scared the Hell out of me the other day you know." Fitz voiced out then saw how ashamed Olivia was to his statement and regretted saying that. "I'm sorry." He added.
There goes Olivia trying to be in control of their talk. She wanted to disappear at that very instant. She bowed down her head, ashamed and embarrassed. She struggled and voiced out the word sorry. "Sorry."
Fitz felt like hugging her tight for her to know there was nothing to be ashamed of. "Honey, you don't have to be sorry. You just need to tell us what you are going through so we can help you."
"I am fine." Olivia said, with her head still down, like an embarrassed kid.
"Olivia, we both know you're not fine." Fitz tried to touch her.
Olivia's embarrassment and shame turned into anger. "because we have sex you think you know me?"
"C'mon Olivia, you know I didn't mean it like that."
"Then what did you mean. Yes, we had sex and it's was just like the hundred guys I've had sex with, hello I am a sex addict. Don't think you're special or anything. You were just my sex buddy for that day, and tomorrow it's going to be someone else."
What Olivia just said hit a nerve on Fitz because he never wanted to be one of her random sex buddies. And the fact that she said tomorrow was going to be someone else, hurt a lot, but he decided to fire back at her. "Oh, that was more than sex and you know it. You hated being kissed, but I kissed you and you more than liked it. Don't forget you said you've never felt like that before."
It was now a firing match going on. Olivia fired back at him too. "Oh, don't flatter yourself. I pretended to like it just so you could take care of the itch between my …"
She didn't finish her sentence because Fitz crushed his mouth to hers and she didn't even hesitate but kiss him back. Olivia kissed him back with the same force and urgency. She sucked passionately on Fitz's tongue, moaning and groaning. She didn't want to let go of him.
Fitz broke off the kiss with his hands still on both side of Olivia's head, "are you still pretending now?" He asked.
Olivia opened her eyes and found him smiling sweetly at her, she pushed him away. Seconds later, Cyrus and Chao appeared on the scene.
"I thought I told you guys never to be alone with each other." Cyrus accused them.
Fitz was so over Cyrus. "Cyrus, it has been four days and I haven't spoken or seen her, if you want to report me to the board go ahead and do it."
Cyrus was about to fired back when Chao interrupted him. "Olivia, we are here because we got in touched with your mother."
Olivia was taken aback. "Who asked you to do that? I didn't ask you to get in touch with her." She accused them angrily, walking away from them.
"Olivia, there are things about her you need to know." Cyrus called behind her.
Olivia turned back and faced them. "I don't want to know anything about her. Keep it to yourselves."
"Yes, you do. She is in jail." Chao said to her.
"Good, that's where she belongs." Olivia turned around, walking away again.
"She's there because he killed the guy who raped you at sixteen." Cyrus shouted behind her.
Olivia stopped walking.
Fitz was taken aback by Cyrus' statement.
Chao shouted at Cyrus for throwing a delicate matter in such a manner.
Olivia felt like she was about to have another panic attack but decided to run out of their presence. Chao asked Fitz to go after her.
Olivia kept running into the center forest landscape until she didn't know where she was. She then stopped and started crying heavily. She didn't know Fitz was following her until he held her. She broke down and cried some more. She cried until she didn't want to cry anymore. She started kissing Fitz all over.
Fitz tried to stop her. "Olivia stop, I know sex is the easiest way to deal with this."
But Olivia didn't listen. "So?" She asked him angrily and kept kissing and touching him all over.
Fitz held her hands and shouted at her. "Olivia, I said stop."
Olivia turned into a maniac, she pushed Fitz on the ground and tore off his clothe. Fitz gave up trying to stop her and allowed her to do what she wanted. Olivia slapped him in the face multiple times. Fitz didn't move or tried to stop her. He just lay there on the ground, taking every punch she was throwing at him. Olivia was struggling with his belt before he decided to intervene.
"Olivia, please stop. Not like this." Fitz cried out.
But Olivia was determined to take all her anger and frustration on Fitz. "Not like what?" Olivia slapped him again on the face, then finally took off his belt. She went down on his body and took his penis into her mouth and started nipping at it.
"OH MY GOD," Fitz voiced out. The shockwave that took over his body wasn't in his control.
After Olivia thought she has punished Fitz enough with her mouth, she then positioned herself on top of him and rode the Hell out of him.
Fitz couldn't help himself, but held Olivia's ass. "Yes, baby, just like that." And they both came.
Olivia collapsed on top of Fitz. She was quiet like for eternity. "Was that rape?" She asked him.
Fitz thought for a while. "I don't know." He thought again, "sorta." And finally, concluding "yes, it was."
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