Note 15

Mom,

I didn't want Padmé to hold my flag because…because some of those other people at the races are kind of rough. I didn't want anyone to touch her.

All right, fine. I'll drop the subject of my father.

Did Kitster help comfort you during the race? I asked him to.

And guess what!!!!!!!!!!! The race is now over!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I won!!!!!!!! It was the first time I have ever finished or won a race before!!! I won! I won! I won! Yes!!!!!!!

Mom, don't be afraid. I am fine. I'll be right here with you, always.

Mom, here is all the money we made from selling the pod. Can you believe it? I'll bring it to you in person as soon as Qui-Gon comes back…I don't know where he went. He said he had something to do.

Well, mom, it looks like you did not have to worry that I would win the race. I DID win it! You're right, I should never have been a slave, and neither should you have been.

God, put us through this situation.....because...I don't know...maybe to make us stronger. I've heard from lots of people that sometimes things happen to us that we don't understand, but that sometimes it's for things that we cannot foresee or understand. Haven't you heard that before? I've also heard that everything happens for a reason. Even Qui-Gon said that....nothing happens by accident.

Oh okay. Do you think that it was because I was meant to meet Qui-Gon, Padmé, and their friends? That I was meant to help them? Maybe that is true. Maybe that is why. I think I was meant to meet Padmé for sure.

I beat Greedo up because he said that I cheated. He's so stupid.

I love you so much, mom.

Yeah, a lot of the other racers smashed into rock formations, but not me. Did you see me through Beggar's Canyon? Did you see when Sabulba tried to force me up onto the service ramp....and I quickly used my controls to move up and over him, and then took the lead. I passed all the other racers in front of me, and then the evil dug tried to kill me...but he tangled his pod up with mine, and I finally was able to break away from him using those feelings....those instincts that I can't quite explain to get away. Sabulba then crashed, but didn't die. Oh, I bet he's mad! Ha ha! That serves him right.

Mom, I think...every bad situation can be turned into a good one, and yes, for me that has been the case so far.

Well, mom, I love to race! Flying across the sand is.....is so fun. I can't explain it. I wish you could enjoy it as much as I can...then you could fully share my joy in it.

And yeah, I'm the only human who can pod race! I did what Qui-Gon said at the beginning of the race, and I went off of my instincts and feelings....he told me to feel and not to think. I did that, and it was awesome. I just used that feeling....that feeling.....I concentrated on that feeling, and when I did that, I think I did better. Qui-Gon told me that feeling has something to do with the Force......and why I would make a good Jedi. Yes, mom, I am special....and....that makes me feel warm and fuzzy. Thanks for saying that, mom.

Yep…I really, really like Padmé, and I'm going to miss her. I know that they need to leave so that they can help the people on her planet and so they can get their Queen to talk to people on Coruscant…but….but…this means I have to say good-bye to Padmé. I'll probably never see her again. It's not fair….I want to marry her, and she doesn't think she'll ever come see me again…so if she doesn't want to come back, I won't.

Well the race is over, and I'm fine. I'm not hurt at all….and I won!!!!

Yeah…I don't know about the blood test thing. Oh well. Maybe Qui-Gon will tell me more about it.

Your son,
Anakin