Hellooo, I'm baack x) So heres the 3rd chappy! I know some of you guys are reading this and im really happy too, but pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeease, can someone give a review? :P I know I little desperate xD but anyways, heres the 3rd chappy!

PS the things in bold/italics are a song :)


Troy's POV

I woke up from a nightmare, it was about Gabby dying, and somehow it was my fault. I shook the terrible feeling off and went downstairs for a drink. Then I came back to my room. I sighed then sat down on the edge of my bed and tried to relax but somehow I just couldn't. So then I went up a little further to where my pillows were, laid down and closed my eyes, trying to relax again. Once again, it didn't work. I glanced at my clock; it was 4 in the morning.

I tossed and turned until I finally gave up and went over to my computer. I sat in the chair and opened the monitor; I never close the PC. Anyways, so after checking my inbox which was empty - obviously since it wasn't even the crack of dawn and I checked it the night before - I looked around my room, hoping to find something to entertain me until I got tired.

Then there it was. I walked over to my shelf and grabbed a photo album. It was small and didn't have much pages, but still, it was special. This album was given to me by Gabby.

I turned it to the first page. It was a picture of just me and her, smiling. It was a close up of me and her, her head on my shoulder and me smiling like a goofball. Although it looked like nothing happened and we were as happy as can be, the truth behind the picture was that she stopped the threats of breaking up with me.

You warned me that

You were gonna leave

Never thought

You would really go

I was blind

But baby now I see

Broke your heart

Now I know

It basically went like this, I was really focused on my studies - and perhaps the girl that moved next door to me - and Gabby threatened that if I didn't get my mind straight, she'd leave me. Of course I realized that Gabs was the most important woman of my life so I got over the – other - girl. Of course I felt terrible when Gabs threatened she was leaving me, and for a moment there I believed it and thought I didn't deserve her. I still think I don't deserve her, but when she said she wasn't breaking up with me, I jumped around like an idiot.

That I was being such a fool

That I didn't deserve you

I wish that would happen again.

Underneath that picture was a picture of her sleeping, or half asleep that is, because she was smiling with eyelids closed on her bed. When I looked at the picture I thought, at least she could sleep, I can't sleep at all without missing her and without thinking about all the fucking stupid things I've done.

I don't wanna fall asleep

Cause I don't know if I'll get up

And I don't want to cause a scene

But I'm dying without your love

Begging to hear your voice

Tell me you love me too

Cause I'd rather just be alone

If I know that I can't have you

I sighed again, a tear in my eye this time. I wish she knew I still care for her, and the baby. I wish she knew that I want us to get back together. I wish she knew that I love still love her. But that's just it, all I'm doing is wishing. Still, I want us to laugh about the silliest things or maybe even argue. Argue about the baby's room colour, argue about the name of the baby or just maybe, even argue about us.

So tell me what we're fighting for

Cause you know that the truth means so much more

`Cuz you would if you could

Don't lie (don't lie)

`Cuz I'd give everything that I've got left

To show you I mean what I have said

I know I was such a fool

But I can't live without you

I flipped through more pages remembering the times we had together. The tears we each had. The giggles I heard when I started pouting because she thought it was cute. Then I turned the last page, with just a single picture. I thought that once I saw that picture I wouldn't sleep for the entire night.

Don't wanna fall asleep

Don't know if I'll get up

I don't want to cause a scene

But I'm dying without your love

Begging, to hear your voice

Tell me you love me too

Cause I'd rather just be alone

If I know that I can't have you

If you saw it, you'd think it was a simple picture with me and her sitting side by side looking into each other's eyes. To me, it's not just that, it's more. The tear in my eye now dropped onto the picture, along with a couple of other tears. I remembered that moment so well. When I gazed into her eyes in my mind I was screaming, GABRIELLA MONTEZ, I LOVE YOU, and just kept repeating it until she realized it. To this day, I believe she heard me... But now I don't know if she will again.

I put the album back in its place then grabbed my iPod and started listening to its music. After a couple of songs, amazingly, I fell asleep. Although I slept somewhat soundly, I had another nightmare about her getting with someone else, and that I killed myself because I know if that ever happened, there would be no reason for me to live...

Yeah

I don't wanna fall asleep

(Don't wanna fall asleep)

Cause I don't know if I'll get up

(Who knows if I'll get up)

And I don't want to cause a scene

`Cuz I'm dying without your love, yeah

Begging to hear your voice

(Let me hear your voice)

Tell me you love me too

(Tell me you love me too)

Cause I'd rather just be alone

Because I can't have her.

If I know that I can't have you


So yeeeeeahs! :P Tell me what you think of this chappy! :) Oh btw, the song in this one is "Can't Have You" by the Jonas Brothers :D

x o x o bjaarcy

PS if you noticed, I didn't use the entire song xD REVIEW PLEASE :D