Chapter 11
A/N: I don't own twilight SM does.
RPOV:
I'm frozen in my spot. I can't do anything but watch as he walks out the door and my life. I can't keep the tears back any longer and I let them fall freely now. How could I be so stupid? I should have just told him about Demetri but I wanted to keep it quite. I thought as soon as the papers were signed he would be out of my life and Jacob would be none the wiser. "Oh Rose." Esme says walking into my office. "Sweetie I'm so sorry. This is all my fault." She says and pulls me into a motherly hug. "It's not Esme. This is all me." I say feeling like my whole world just crumbled.
"Why don't you take the rest of the week off. I'll see you back here on Monday. Now don't give me that look. Go and get yourself together." She says going back into boss mode. "Ok." Is all I can say. "I'll send Angela home with you." She says so much like a mother. I nod my head and grab my jacket and purse. Angela follows close behind me but doesn't say a word. We reach our car and my cell goes off. I pull it out my purse and see that it's Jasper. "Hey Jas, I'm really not in the mood to chat right now." I say dejectedly. "What's wrong darlin'?" He asks sounding like my brother. "Nothing just boy trouble." I say sadly. "OH…well I got some news for you darlin'. It seems my contact in NYC found out why your friend Jacob Black left. He found out that Jacob's wife died while having their baby and he was so messed up he couldn't do anything in the kitchen. Not even boil water. That's how bad it was." Jasper says.
Oh god. How could I be so cruel to him when he lost so much? No wonder why he was so closed off to me. I'm such a bitch. "Oh…umm…thanks Jas I'll call you later." I say and hang up quickly. I start to cry again feeling so pathetic right now. How could I compare what I did to his situation? No wonder why he was so pissed at me. Angela drives me home and stays the night with me while I cry myself to sleep. I just hope that I can figure something out to make this better. Maybe if I give him some time to come to terms with everything we can be together again.
5 months later…
"I look fat in this." I say staring at myself in the mirror at the dress shop. "I think it looks great on you." She says. "I can't wear this. I'm already as big as a house." I say placing my hand on my small baby bump. "Rose you're only five and half months along and barely showing. Wait till your eight months and double the size you're now. Then you can complain." She says giving me a playful look. "So when are you going to tell him." She says handing me a pair of shoes to try on. "I don't know Ange. I know I have to tell him but every time I pick up the phone I just can't bring myself to dial his number."I say trying not to cry at the thought of Jacob.
I found out I was pregnant two months ago. I'm so happy about being a mom but I just wish I could tell Jacob. He hasn't tried to contact me and I don't just want put this all on him. I know it's kind of selfish of me but I want him to be with me because he loves me and not because of the baby. I just don't know how I can fix things between us before I get too far along in my pregnancy. I want my baby to know its dad and sister.
"You're not going to be able to keep this secret for long. He's going to be at my wedding setting up our wedding cake. He's going to end up seeing you. You should tell him before he sees you with a swollen belly." She says. "I know I will soon I promise." I say feeling the pang in my heart when I think of Jacob. I go to the dressing room and start to change when Angela tosses a dress over the side. "I want you to put this on." She says through the door. "Are you sure Angie? I really did like the last one you chose. This one doesn't really look like a bride's maid dress." I yell to her while looking at the dress.
It's really pretty but not very formal for a wedding. It's a royal blue knit dress with a crossover v-neck bodice and a black satin sash under the bust. The material flows over my small bump and it falls right above my knee. The material is flowy not clingy. All in all it's a pretty dress. I put it on and I like the way I look in it. "Here these will go perfectly with the dress." Angela says and tosses me a pair of black patent leather peep toe wedges. I come out of the dressing room and Angela is practically beaming at me.
"You look so beautiful." She coos at me. I had to admit I did look really good. I finally gotten over the morning sickness and this is the first in a long time I felt pretty. "Ok but why did you want me to dress up in this?" I ask still kind of confused at what is going on. "Your brother wants to have a nice dinner with us when we are finished up here. He wants us to meet him at Hutch's on Delaware st." She says. "Oh I love that place. The pasta there is amazing." I say my mouth watering at the thought of some really good food.
She put on a simple strapless knee length black dress and some strappy heels. She paid for our stuff saying that I should consider the dress as an early birthday present. We get into my car and drive to the restaurant. "Emmett will be there waiting for us." She says smiling when she says his name. With all the trouble they went through I'm happy that they are finally together. I park and we head to the restaurant. Angela talks to the hostess while I check my phone to see if maybe Jake decided to call me. I always check everyday hoping to hear from him. "Rose lets go to our table." Angela says.
I follow her and as we reach out table I don't see my brother. I see Jacob sitting there looking so good. "What the fuck is going on Ange?" I ask in hushed whisper. "Bella and I thought it was time the two of you cut the crap and talk to each other." She says. "I can't." I say hoping he hasn't noticed us yet. "Your brother and I will be only a few tables away. Just talk to the man. Tell him how you feel. Sometimes you have to take a leap of faith. Look at your brother and me. Sometimes love isn't worth it if you don't fight for it." She says and pushes me towards the table.
Before I can turn around he sees me. He looks even better than I remember. He's wearing a black dress shirt with the sleeves pushed up to his elbows and a pair of black dress pants and black dress shoes. His shaggy ebony hair falls playfully into his eye making me want to run my hands through it. "Rose." He says, my name sounding so good coming from his lips. I do the only thing I can think of. I run. I take off for the door and I know he's right behind me. I'm so gonna kill Angela for this.
"Rose wait. Talk to me." He says catching me by the elbow. I slowly turn to face him not wanting to look him in the eyes. "I've missed you. No matter how hard I try I can't get your face out of my mind. You're all I ever think about and fantasize about. I want you so much. I love you." He says in his husky deep voice. I look him in the eyes and I can see no mendacity in them. "I love you too." I say barely above a whisper. He cups my face in his large hands and kisses me softly on the lips.
I pull him closer frenziedly trying to deepen the kiss. It's so much better than any dream of him could be. He pulls me closer then suddenly jumps back. He looks at me questioningly and places a hand on my small bump. "You're pregnant." He says stunned. The tears start to form and all I can do is nod my head. "How….what I mean….is….umm….why didn't you tell me." He says sadly. "I'm so sorry it's just that with everything that happened I didn't know how to tell you. I was going to tell you soon I just needed to stop being a coward about it. I'm sorry." I say blubbering.
"Shh…it'll be alright. I'm here now and I'm not going anywhere. I was such a fool. I was too scared and I didn't think I was good enough for you. You deserve someone that's not so broken but I promise to be better. I want us to work. I want me, you, Nessa and now our little baby to be a family." He says sweetly and pulls me into a hug. I hold on to him as tight as I can. I'm afraid if I let go this will all disappear like an illusion. "Really? You really want us together." I say still not really believing what is happening. "Yes more than anything. How bout we head to my place. I think there is a really excited three year old that has been driving me crazy about seeing you." He says and I couldn't wait to see Nessa either.
We made it to his house just before Nessa's bedtime. Leah was babysitting and she still hasn't warmed up to me but I hope to win her over eventually. The rest of the night we spent curled up together on his large sofa talking about everything that has happened in the last five months. We both agreed that we both made some mistakes and decided to start fresh. I couldn't have been happier. I finally felt home for the first time in a long time. This is exactly where I should be.
A/N: I hope you like this chapter. Please review. Next up Jacob deals with a pregnant Rose. Demetri also comes back to start some trouble.
