Chapter 14
A/N: I don't own twilight SM does.
JPOV:
I'm enjoying Nessie's sundae with Nessa while I have some time before dinner service begins. I watch as my little girl colors a picture for her new brother or sister. Rose and I wanted to be surprised about the baby's sex. Just a few years ago I was a broken down mess but now my life is better than I could have ever expected. I never thought I would find love again but now that I have I'm not going to take it for granted. Rose is one of the best things to ever happen to me.
Leah burst through the kitchen doors bringing me from my thoughts. "Jake you have to go to the hospital now. Rose's water just broke." Leah says with a huge smile. Ever since she started dating Rose's co-worker Mike Newton Leah has been nicer and sweeter. Something I never thought I would see again. "Oh….umm…wow….already? I mean she still has two and half weeks left before her due date." I say panicking a little. "She's not too early. Don't worry every thing will be fine. Mike and I are gonna keep Nessa for you so go now. Get your ass over there." She says practically pushing me out the door.
I hop in my explorer and race to children's hospital. I'm not ready. We still had two weeks. Nessie was over due a week before Nessa came. I push thoughts of that day out my mind. Not wanting to relive all that hurt and pain. It was the best and worst day of my life. The best was because Nessa was finally here and the worst because Nessie was taken from me. I rush into the waiting room and I can see Angela and Emmett waiting for me. "She's in room 210. So far everything is going just fine." Angela says ushering me towards the room. I freeze in my tracks. I don't know if I can do this. Angela looks at me and gives me a small smile. "Jake Rose needs you right now." She says softly and I just nod my head. I take a deep breath and walk in the room.
I see Rose sitting in the bed while her mom rubs soothing circles on her back. I can hear the familiar hum and beeps of the machines monitoring her contractions and our baby's heart beat. Her face lights up in a beautiful smile when she sees me. I give her mom a quick hug then I walk over to Rose and kiss her softly on the lips. "Jake you're finally here." She says caressing my face with her tiny hand. "I wouldn't miss this for the world." I say kissing her again. "I'll head over to the waiting room and wait for your father to get here." Mrs. Hale says and leaves us alone.
The next couple of hours pass by slowly without much change. She's barely 3 centimeters dilated. Dr. Cullen comes in to check on Rose again. I just got her a cup of ice chips and she's getting more and more irritated as the night goes on. "I think it's time we use some petocin to speed up these contractions." Carlisle says checking over Rose's chart. "If that is what you think is best then ok." Rose says obviously ready for this to be over. "I think it will be. The sooner your baby is born the better. I don't want you to get anxious or scared but the baby's heart beat slowed just a little. I'll be monitoring you more closely but for now everything seems to be going just fine. Don't worry I'll be with you guys every step of the way." Carlisle says reassuringly. He leaves quickly and I can't help but feel my stomach turn at his words.
I put on my best smile so Rose won't get anymore nervous than she already is. "Jake I'm scared." She says rubbing her swollen belly. "Rose you heard Carlisle. Things are fine right now. Just stay calm and let him do what he does best." I say rubbing her back and kissing the top of her head softly. A few minutes later a pretty latina nurse walks in. "Hello, I'm Carmen and I'll be your nurse for the rest of the night. Carlisle wanted me to set up the petocin for you." She says with a slight accent. She quickly checks Rose's vitals and puts in an IV with a bag of clear liquid. After everything is set up she looks over the long strip of paper that shows Rose's contractions. "This here shows you how long and how strong each contraction is. As you can see there isn't much activity going on. The petocin should be kicking in very soon. If the pain becomes too much just hit the button and I'll send for the anesthesiologist. He can give you an epidural if you want one." She says sweetly then heads out the door.
"Oh I'm definitely getting some drugs." Rose says with a small laugh. I can't help but laugh with her. An hour passes and she is starting to feel her contractions. I wince as she grips my hand tighter and tighter. "I hate you." She sneers at me. All I do is just smile and nod. I called the nurse and she called the anesthesiologist but he still hasn't come. "You better find me some drugs now or I swear to god I will find away to kill you." She screams as another contraction comes. I just rub her back not wanting to say anything to set her off. Carlisle walks in and looks over her chart. "I see the petocin is working now. Dr. Gonzalez will be here soon to administer your epidural. I'm just going to exam you and see how far you have dilated." Carlisle says and proceeds to exam Rose.
"Well it seems we're going to have to forgo the epidural. You are at ten centimeters now Rose. The baby's heat rate is still a little low so I think it's best to start pushing." Carlisle says while calling for Carmen. Before I know what is happening Carmen is in the room and getting Rose situated and Carlisle has washed his hands and put gloves on. The bed has been changed and Carlisle is seated between Rose's legs. "Ok Jake I'm going to need you to help Rose sit up and then I want you to take her leg and help her bring it up so she can bear down. Carmen will do the same on the other side." I do as he says and I nervously wait for the next step.
"Ok Rose I need you to take a deep breath and push down the hardest you can for a ten count with your next contraction." Carlisle says. She nods her head and grips my hand tighter. "Alright get ready. Rose bear down for me I..2..3..4..5..6..7..thats good just keep going..8..9..10. Ok relax." Carlisle says. He has her do this several more times. "Good job Rose, just push a little harder." He says. Rose pushes harder and the tears start flowing. I wish I could take her pain away. As I wipe the sweat from her forehead I can see Carlisle give Carmen a strange look.
She leaves Rose's side and looks at what he is showing her. "Is everything all right Doc?" I ask nervously. Just as he's about to answer me the monitor for our baby's heart beat goes off with a series of loud beeps. "What's going on?" Rose asks the fear clear in her voice. No one says anything. Carmen races out of the room. "Rose just stays calm. The baby's heart rate is dropping faster then I would like. It's seems the baby is in the brich position which is causing some distress for him." He says as Carmen and a few others come racing in the door. "What does that mean?" I ask getting more and more scared by the second. "We're going to have to perform an emergency c-section to get the baby out." He says his face a blank doctor's mask.
As he explains the procedure to me I watch as they transfer Rose to a gurney. The anesthesiologist gets ready to put Rose under. I rush over to her side not wanting to let her out of my sight. "Babe you need to be calm. Let me do all the worrying. You have to be strong for our baby." I say wiping the tears from her face. I kiss her softly and hold her hand as Dr. Gonzalez administers her general anesthesia. I watch as her eyes flutter shut and when I know she is completely out I let the tears fall. I didn't want her to see me break down. I want to be strong for her.
I watch as the nurses' rush around unhooking her IV and monitors. They rush her towards the OR and I go to follow. Carlisle stops me. "You can't go in there Jake. I promise to take care of both of them." He says with that same dam blank look. The same look I got that day. "I don't fucking think so. I have to be in there. They need me." I say my voice rising with my anger. "Jake I can't let you." He says trying to hold me back. "Get your fucking hands off of me. I need to be in there. I have to know that she's going to be alright." I say the angry tears spilling from my eyes.
"You have to calm down. I can't stand here and argue with you. I have to go and try to save both of them. The longer I'm out here the more of a chance things can go wrong." He says and starts to walk away. I try to follow him but two wannabe cops try restraining me. I fight for a few moments before completely breaking down. Bella rushes to me and I hold tight to her. She strokes my hair soothingly like I'm a child. "Shh….Jake everything is going to be just fine." She says trying to make me feel better. I hold onto her tighter. "That's what you said the last time and it wasn't." I say the bitterness seeping into all my words. I feel like I'm cursed. I manage to kill the women I love the most. "Jake this isn't like last time. Rose is strong. She'll get through this." She says cupping my face in her small hands. "You're right. It's not the same its worse. I could lose both of them." I say and pull away from her.
I'm so frustrated that I pound the wall with my fist till I can feel the blood run down my hand. I slump down on the ground not caring that everyone is looking at me like I just lost my mind. I bow my head and I can't help but let the memories of what happened that night flood my mind.
Three years earlier….
"Ok Nessie just one more big push and your little girl will be here." Dr. Smith says. Nessie gives me a sweet smile then bears down as hard as she can with her next contraction. I can see her face getting red as she pushes with all her might. "Good, that's good Nessie." Dr. Smith encourages. A few seconds later the room fills with a loud cry. Wow my baby girl has a set of lungs on her. "Cut the cord Dad." The doctor says and I do as he says. The nurse cleans her up quickly and places my daughter in my arms. "She looks just like you." I say walking over to Nessie. She smiles weakly at me then holds her arms out for our baby girl.
She holds her close and kisses her softly. As the nurse is cleaning Nessie up her eyes flutter shut and her arms slacken around our daughter. I grab our baby and try to wake Nessie. "Nessie, Nessie open your eyes sweetie." I say starting to worry. "Nurse something's wrong. She wont' open her eyes." I say frantically. The nurse looks over Nessie and pushes a button. She takes my daughter from me as a bunch of doctors rush in the room. "Mr. Black we need you to wait in the hall." One says to me while pushing me out the door. "What….wait…what's going on?" I yell at the door but no one will tell me anything.
I'm left pacing in the waiting room with Bella and Edward. After what seems like an eternity Dr. Smith walks towards us with a blank look on his face. "We did everything we could. This was just something we were not expecting, especially from someone so young. It appears your wife had an aneurysm which erupted because of the stress of the labor." He says flatly. All I can concentrate on was his use of past tense words. Did, had. I knew then she was gone. "I'm so sorry Mr. Black but Vanessa didn't make it."He says and walks away. I'm numb I just stand there. I can hear Bella sobbing softly behind me and I just drop to the ground on all fours. It's so painful, like someone just ripped apart of my being from me.
Bella tries to comfort me but all I can do is cry. I cry until there is nothing left from me to cry. "I'll go and sit with the baby. She needs to have someone that is family near." Edward says trying to hold back his tears. He loved his cousin like a sister. They were so close. "I'll go with you." I say hoarsely. The three of us walk solemnly to the nursery. I look through the window at my little girl and I can feel my heart break even more. She looks so much like my Nessie. "Do you want to hold her?" The young nurse asks me. The tears begin to form again and I just can't bring myself to touch her. "I'm sorry I can't do this." I say running out the door and out the hospital. I run and run till my body is numb and my legs can't go any further. It would be months before I could bring myself to hold my daughter.
Present day…
"Jake the doctor wants to speak with you." Bella says bringing me from my thoughts of the past. I walk slowly towards that little room they take you in to give you privacy. I sit with Emmett and his parents. I watch as Carlisle walks in the room. He still has that fucking blank look. I swear they have a class in med school teaching doctors that very look. The silence is deafening and I feel like I'm going to snap. "Don't beat around the bush Doc. Just tell me how they are." I say with my head in my hands. I can't bear to see that blank look again. Carlisle lets out a small sigh and says…..
A/N: I hope you liked this chapter. Please Review. Next up the news about Rose and the baby.
