I know the last chapter ended kind of badly, this chapter will make up for it. Promise. I still don't own Bleach, but maybe someday…. Enjoy. Warning: drama and confusion may occur upon reading.
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Rukia ran and ran as far as her gigai would let her. She cursed when she had to stop and take a breather. She leaned against the most convenient wall. As she slowed her breathing, she couldn't help but think about Ichigo.
Why, she thought to herself. Why did I have to fall for him? Because he looks like Kaien? Is that why?
Flashback:
Ichigo stood in front of her while she sat on the ground with her back against a pole.
"Then give me that blade, Soul Reaper," he said with a kind smile on his face as the Hollow approached them.
"My name is Rukia. Rukia Kuchiki," she said, looking warmly him.
"And my name is Ichigo Kurosaki." He plunged Rukia's sword into his torso.
End Of Flashback.
Rukia thought about it and didn't know. She thought that was it, but there was something else. Something that made her hand fly immediately to her lips. Even though they were not a real human's lips, they still felt Ichigo's lips against them. They still reacted of their own freewill when they moved against his lips.
I don't understand. I loved Kaien, but I never acted this way with him.
Why was Ichigo so different? Was it because something was wrong with her gigai? Or was it because Ichigo was still living and warm? OR, just maybe, she had finally found her soul mate in him?
She didn't want to consider the third for fear of knowing he didn't belong to, or with, her. She knew he belong with someone who was still alive, like Orihime. Orihime liked him, anyway; she'd be good for him.
But he wants you, not her. You want him just as bad, a part of Rukia's mind told her. Rukia was just as shocked by her mind's little outburst as she was by the wet droplet of rain the hit her head. She looked up just in time to see rain begin to pour down from the sky.
She was out of time; she could feel Ichigo's spiritual pressure coming toward her. She spent too much time thinking. Rukia wasn't going to be able to save him after all. So she decided to meet him halfway and started walking to where she could feel him.
When Ichigo saw her he kicked into forth gear, since he was already doing third. He didn't know if he wanted to yell at her the stunt she pulled or just kiss her again for still being here in his world.
Rukia stopped short of her planned destination when she actually saw Ichigo's face. There was so much indecisive emotions crossing his face. For the first time she felt afraid of him. Would he hate her for leaving or saying I love you to him?
Ichigo slowed his pace when Rukia stopped, but he kept walking to her. He decided not to yell at her, but to just wait for her when he reached her. After a few minutes of silencehe said, "Rukia…."
"Nothing changes, Ichigo. If I stay, nothing changes. No matter what." Rukia was sure he would agree, but he didn't.
"Now who's nuts? I don't think that's possible now, Rukia. Even if we wanted to, which I don't."
Rukia didn't know what to say to Ichigo after that, expect for one thing. "Ichigo, nothing can happen. Do you understand that? Nothing."
He looked at her, trying to understand what she meant. Then he finally said, "I don't get it. What do I need to understand?"
Rukia sighed, she was starting to get cold from the rain. "I mean you need to understand that there is nothing going on between us." Now she was just repeating herself, hoping Ichigo wouldn't catch on to that detail.
"Are you saying you don't want a relationship with me?" Ichigo asked, confused.
"Yes, that's what I mean. Other than the professional and friendship, I don't want any other relationship." She was lying to her and she knew it. Ichigo knew it, too.
"You lying so bad right now."
"I am not lying!" Yes, you are. Just admit it to yourself, Rukia.
"You're kissing back in my room says you're lying. You saying you love me says you're lying. Don't try lying now, Rukia."
Rukia felt a strange heat burn her cheeks. Blushing. She was blushing. "Maybe so, but there are things I won't lie about. Like the fact that I'm dead. You can't get around that one can you?"
And he couldn't. Not with logic. "So? And your point is?" He would do what he had to.
Rukia blinked. "M-my point is that there are boundaries against being with someone that's dead."
"And, so? I don't listen to you most of the time. Why should I listen to your boundaries?" Ichigo wasn't going to listen to her about this.
His not listening was making Rukia mad. "You idiot! Are you listening to yourself?! Things you're talking goes against all morals and nature."
He decided not to yell at her and he was going to stick to it. "Love doesn't exactly have any morals and it's as natural as breathing."
The rain on Rukia would have turned into steam if she got any madder. But then she blurted out something that threatened to her into a million pieces. "Is that right? Because the last man I loved I had to kill with my own hands. Now you tell what's so natural about that? Having to kill someone who you cared about and tried to save?"
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Hey people! O had meant for this chapter to be longer, but oh well. Please review. I really want to know what you guys and girls think. You can even email me if you want. More chapters will be coming out. Black Rose Jinx signing out.
