Yo, this is not a drill, it's a fanfic. LOL. Enjoy, from the girl who doesn't own Bleach.
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Ichigo was at a lose for words. He hadn't known and he remembered saying something so cruel to her at his mother's grave. About not knowing how it felt, when all along she knew just as well as he did. Probably better, considering she was older than him and she probably had to carry that burden around for so much longer than him.
He couldn't take that pain in her eyes any longer. So he stepped closer and hugged her, seeing as how she needed it bad. She sobbed into his chest while he held her. She hated feeling weak, but she couldn't seem to stop.
"I'm so very sorry. If I had known…." Icihgo felt so useless and stupid. But he concentrate on those feelings because some new feeling overshadowed them.
His shirt had gotten soaked by the rain and he was pressing Rukia to his body. If that wasn't bad enough Rukia's clothes were soaked, too. He could feel her body perfectly against his own. He tried very hard not to let it ruin the moment, it being his arousal. So when that did work he went to Plan B.
"Rukia, let's go home before we're completely soaked." He suggested and she nodded silently. The rain was only making her feel worst; it reminded her of how Kaien died in her arms and how it started to rain then.
After a silent walk home, they went straight to Ichigo's room and dried off . Rukia had finally calmed down and went to the closet to change when Ichigo said, "Just change out here. I'm going to the bathroom, anyway. I don't want you to feel boxed in."
"I'm fine now. I'm fine with it." She was trying not to think about it. The day had not gone the way she planned, and she was still sleeping in the room with the guy she loved. She kind of felt uncomfortable about that last part.
"I'll be back in five minutes," Ichigo said, ignoring her. Then he left the room before she could argue.
Rukia let out a sigh as opened the closet and grabbed her(Yuzu's) pajamas. She put them on in a sluggish kind of way. Her hair was still a little dap from the rain so she decided to shake it dry. And with it, her worries. She was still shaking her head when Ichigo came back in the room.
"Jeez, Rukia. You don't have to get me wet again." He said, getting wet by the small amount if water that was coming off of Rukia's hair.
She stopped and said, "Maybe you should tell someone when you're coming in the room." She made no eye contact once so ever. She hoped they could just forget the day ever happened.
But the day still wasn't over yet. You can't forget a day ever happened if the day isn't over with yet.
"Rukia," Ichigo began, "could we talk? About everything?"
She should have saw that coming. "There's really nothing to talk about. So let's just forget any of this ever happened and go back to how things were, okay?"
That's when he lost his control. "Rukia, I cannot just forget about what happened today. Nor will I go back to how things were. Got that?"
"You stupid, stupid idiot." Oh, here comes another fight. "You don't seem to understand, do you? After I already went through this. What makes you so difficult to grasp this concept?"
"Testosterone."
"What the hell is that? Some moronic disease?"
"Maybe." He said, thinking about earlier. "I can't just go back to how things were. You told me you love me. There's no getting around that."
"Yes, there is. Forget about it. I don't want you falling in love with me." Stop lying to yourself, Rukia.
"It's too late for that." He said, and Rukia finally made eye contact. "I love you, Rukia Kuchiki. Not even you are going to change that."
Rukia's resolve was shattered in that instant. He loves her. Not that she didn't already know it, a part of her did. The part she had been fighting with. But to have him say those words made her forget about wanting to leave, to her worries, and her doubts. He left her speechless, but her mind just wouldn't shut up.
Just why can't you be happy? He says he love you, so what is your problem?
'Because I can't make him happy. I've tried. Besides, it's just crush to him, he doesn't mean what he's saying.'
You can make him happy. You haven't really tried to before. And he does love you.
'I'll wind up hurting him. It's the only thing I'm good for. You know that.'
It's different this time. You'vebeen given a second chance, Rukia, take it. Take him.
Ichigo watched her as she fought with herself. He felt so much closer to her than he had anyone. Even his own mother. He wondered if it was possible to get any closer to her. His cheeks flushed a bright red when he thought of an idea.
"What's wrong with you? You're grinning like an idiot for what reason exactly?" Rukia was the first to come out of her thoughts. She decided what she was going to do, but only after she could confirm herself wrong.
"Huh? No, I was just thinking about something." Ichigo quickly wiped off the grin that had appeared while he was thinking. "So, are you going to at least try and stay for me?"
"Do you really love me? Or was it a last resort thing?" She needed to get this last doubt out of her mind.
Ichigo blinked, thinking she was joking. But he knew she was very serious when she narrowed her eyes at him. God, did he love her eyes, it's a wonder that he never thought about it before.
"Well? Which is it?" She didn't know how to feel about the way he was looking at her.
After Ichigo got out of his trance, he said, "Of course I really love you. What's not to love about you?"
Only Rukia could think of about a thousand answers to that one question, but she kept her mouth closed. She also thought of one other thing. How is this going to work?
Ichigo couldn't take Rukia's quiet thinking session anymore, so he kissed her again. It worked, she stopped thinking about….Oh hell, what was she thinking about? She couldn't remember.
Ichigo was just as lost in that kiss. Then he couldn't help himself when his hands cupped the small of Rukia's back and the back of her head. He lost his cool when Rukia pressed herself against him. It was getting way too hot in there for Ichigo, he was starting think some clothes needed to come off when Rukia pulled away and back up all the way to Ichigo's bed. She sat down on it with a thud.
"It's okay, I promise." He said as he walked over and sat on the bed beside her. "We don't have to do anything tonight, I can control myself. We have time."
But you might be gone, Rukia. This could be your one chance. Rukia knew that there was still a chance that something might go wrong, so she would enjoy this night while last.
"No, that's not it. I'm not use to these feelings. Teach me how they work," she said.
"What do you mean teach you? It's not exactly something you can just learn or teach." He said, thinking of how cute she is when she doesn't know something.
"Kiss me then. And let's see where it goes from there." She was trying to be subtle about it.
"Really?" Ichigo sounded too happy, so he toned it down. "I mean, are you sure? That this is what you want?" She nodded and he kissed her with a passion he didn't know he had.
Things, then, started to get intense. The kiss became something that should have been rated X. They moved from their mouths to their necks and then back to their lips. Ichigo gently pushed Rukia to the bed and climbed over top of her. He didn't do anything but stare into her violet eyes.
So beautiful. God, do I love those eyes, he thought. If only I could just jump into those beautiful eyes of hers.
Rukia saw his distraction and put a hand on his cheek to claim his attention. He leaned, so effortlessly, into that hand.
"You're distracted, why?" Rukia asked.
"I was just thinking about how beautiful your eyes are. I should've realized that before now."
"Yeah, you should have," she agreed. "I should have been more observant, too."
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Sorry I had to cut this short and right before the lemon. I just wanted to give y'all this chapter as soon as possible, but was being retarded. If you liked this chapter and want to read more, send me ten dollars. Kidding! No, but seriously review, please. You know you want to. And if you want to be friends, drop me a message. BRJ is out and will be back with more. And next chapter I'll give you a preview of my own special story that I'm working on.
