Author's Note: Yes, I know I sucked and I have no excuse to bail myself out of this problem in publishing this chapter. My utmost apologies to those, hopefully still reading my story, that had waited long for the arrival chapter. In the coming future, I might take again some time as my public examinations are around the corner. And permission granted with whomever out there who wants to stab me or something else. Please take note that Train would be very angsty here. if you have any complaints and compliments, please review.

Chapter 26:

Sven looked at him with a serious look as Train was shocked.


"What are you talking about?"

Train looked at Sven as thought he had said something that was illogical. Sven had predicted Train's reaction and he was well prepared for it. If he was in Train's place, he would have been angry too.

"I was discussing about your past with my family, including the first two members of Chronos, Sephira and Belze.

"You mean Eve and Jenos also knew about it and never mentioned it?"

Train felt a bit annoyed.

"Please don't get upset. We have only place the missing pieces back together last night and I thought it would be better if I was the one who said it. This sudden information is too much for them to handle."

"You don't have the right to search or find out about my past, that includes the Chronos members."

Train spat.

"Yet, we have done it and gotten the answer that you may be interested, and please forgive us for trespassing at your privacy without your permission beforehand."

Train was speechless. Here, he has been trying to search for information about himself for the last ten years and just two years ago, he had completely given up of knowing who he really was. Yet, here was a completely stranger having all his answers. He felt ashamed and angry for he had to rely on someone else. Sven saw his look and smiled knowingly,

"Please don't blame yourself, but finding it was impossible without our family records so it is not your fault, Train, since only the nobles have this book."

Sven gently placed a thick, red and decorated with golden, book on the table and Train could tell that the book had just been recently touched and it was pretty old since the pages were yellowish in color. Train couldn't and didn't wanted to answer. He was suddenly given a chance in knowing who he really was but yet he felt like he didn't wanted to know. He was pretty much content with his life now, even thought Creed was bothering him but……he had freedom, something that was not easily given to nobles and royals yet easily to the commoners and easier to the low-life bandits. He felt more of a burden will be placed on him if his past unknowingly catches up onto him. Sven suddenly stood up and placed a hand on his shoulder, causing Train to flinch and he immediately removed his hand, feeling hurt.

"I will leave you here since you have a lot on your mind now, no doubt. Please stay in this room as long as you want, you may read through the book if you wish to but it is better if I told you everything myself. Perhaps you are not ready for the sudden new knowledge that I will pass to you. Search for me when you are ready. It does not need to be tonight. You may find me some other day when you are free so please take your time. Good night."

And Train was left alone. He studied the book and flipped through a few pages with a bored look. Of course he knew how to read at a young age. Hell, he could read better than most of the nobles here. But as soon as he saw 'Heartnet's History', he instsntly regretted learning how to read. In a second, the book had hit the wall with a loud 'thud'. Train nervously panted and quickly realized what he had done but he had no intention of being nice to the book or apologized to that thing by picking it up and brushing the imaginary dust off. He slumped heavily onto to the armchair and gently placed his hand over his eyes as thought the brightly-lit room was to bright for him. And for the second time in his entire life, he cried.


"Hey Jenos!"

Jenos turned away from his guests to faced Rin.

"What is it?"

"Oh, I was just wondering if you knew where Train is?"

"Oh yeah, he went to have a chat with my father. Though he should be done right now. It's been a while since he left me. See, my father is there talking to my mother."

They glanced towards the royal couple and true enough they were laughing and chatting. This little scene makes Jenos smile.

"You really love them don't you?"

He faced Rin.

"What? Who?"

"Your parents."

"Oh yeah. Eve and I think they are the best and it is natural for children to love and respect their parents, don't you think so?"

"I don't think so, not for everyone that is."

Jenos looked at the silent Rin. Suddenly, he heard some sobbing sounds. Was Rin crying?

"Rin! I'm sorry, please don't cry. I didn't think that your parents would do anything bad to you. I swear I won't leave you alone and unloved for your whole life, so please don't cry..."

A muffled voice was heard.

"Then you will stay here beside me forever?"

"If you say so, Rin. I will be with you forever."

"Forever and…"

"And?"

"Be my servant."

"Of course, I will be your servant………Wait a minute. BE YOUR SERVANT?!"

"Hah! Caught you! Damn Jenos, you pretty easy to cheat! Bad!"

Rin burst into laughter immediately. Eve returned to them after entertaining some guests and was in time to hear their 'interesting' conversation.

"Damn you Rin! You are making a fool out of me, aren't you?! To think I got tricked by you! The shame! Oh I feel the shame!"

Eve smiled lightly but stopped when she spotted someone walking towards the balcony. Walking or rather dragging himself in a foul mood. It wasn't unusual to see him depressed but his golden eyes told her a different story. In short, he was lost and being very depressed about it. On the brighter side, while he was busy brooding and sulking, he looks absolutely adorable. She turned back only to find Rin and Jenos staring at Train too.

"What's with him? After the chat with Father, he looks downright depressed. Did something happen?"

"Maybe your Father knows something about Train. Perhaps you should go ask him?"

"Sure but later. I don't want to disturb my father in his fun now."

"Such a dutiful child! I feel so proud of you my dearest one!"

"Of course! Hey Eve, where are you going?"

Jenos and Rin had ended their conversation just in time to see Eve walking away. She just turned back and winked.

"Out."


Train Heartnet was and still is depressed. He hated being depressed. At times like this, he felt so heavy, like he was drowning in a lake and couldn't swim to the surface. He knew he was pathetic; after all, it was only his past, right? Wasn't he living perfectly well in the present without knowing who he really was with Rin, Jenos and Eve? It doesn't matter who he really was, does it? Train sighed heavily. He knew deep in his heart he wanted to know a least a bit about himself. Sad but true, he hated not knowing about himself. Was Train Heartnet even his name or did he took it from someone else in desperate of obtaining an identity? Maybe the King make a mistake, how could he, a low-class bandit suddenly upgrade to a high-class person, a royalty no less!

It wasn't like he didn't trust Creed; after all, he saved Train from his hateful parents, didn't he? Why would Creed lie to Train despite how obsessive he is? There was nothing Creed would gain by lying to Train. So why did Train felt suspicious when Creed and Echidna had appeared in a nick of time to save him? He didn't give much thought about that event but now that he thought about it, Creed and Echidna's timing was too prefect. How could they know that Train's house was burning and his parents had left him tied to a pillar and deserted Train in a burning house? Sure, accidentally stumbling onto a burning house in the middle of nowhere might be possible but it had happened at midnight, why would anyone stroll around that area at the dead of the cold winter night? Ignoring his throbbing head, he frowned and tried to recall that night. Whoever had decided that Train should know nothing about his past should be shot. Okay, so maybe Train was potentially dangerous but he hadn't done anything wrong at such a young age right? He didn't go berserk and killed his parents like some wacko criminals. Other than having emotional problems as Rin stated, he was as sane as any other person……right?

He hit the marble railings of the balcony with extreme force due to his anger and frustration. He was so tired of not knowing himself, tired of people showing pity to him when he couldn't remember when and where he was born, tired of killing and tired of looking at how horrible and pathetic he had become.

He heard a gasp and quickly turned around, hand poised at 'Hades', ready to attack the foolish person who had dared interrupted his train of thoughts but his body unconsciously relaxed at the sight of Eve.


Eve was very worried about Train, he look so lost and one could only pity him. Of course, Eve wouldn't let Train know that. He would have probably shot countless bullets at that person. Train was so deep in his thoughts that he didn't knew Eve was trailing right behind him all the way to the balcony. When Train had hit the railing with so much anger, she quickly retreated and accidentally let out a gasp. She knew Train would never harm her, so why was she still afraid of his eyes that marked murder the moment he turned around? Maybe it was because of the eyes that were looked so cold and dead. She let out a breath that she didn't know she was holding when Train's hand slowly left his gun.

"Forgive me for frightening you, Eve. I didn't mean to."

Train then gave her a slight bow and Eve was speechless.

"Please don't worry about it."

"How did you know I was here, Eve?"

"I just followed you all the way here; you just didn't notice me that's all."

Train fell into silence and Eve took this as a sign to continue.

"What were you thinking about?"

"Nothing."

Eve gave a skeptical look but didn't say anything. A comfortable silence over them for a period of time until Train whispered in a raspy voice,

"Your father…"

Eve turn to him, all ears. She was very curious at what her Father had said to make Train brood so much on.

"Reveal some disturbing news to me that I should know. You knew it all along, right? I'm the only clueless one here, right?"

"Train…"

Eve didn't know what to say. She was sure that Father had informed Train about their discoveries and wasn't surprise to see Train being upset about it.

"What do you think as yourself now, Train?"

"I don't know...I really don't know. I knew something terrible had happened when I was young but I have put it into the past and kept it locked and buried deep in my lost memories but I had no idea that it would turn out this way. I have always believe that my memories were gone forever, never to be reveal to me, that I will live and die as a person who knows naught about his origins. Everything that once seems so clear, looks so fuzzy now. I'm confuse, Eve, so very confuse. I don't know who and what to trust anymore…"

Train trailed off. No matter how strong he is, the truth had stung him and now he wanted to do nothing but buried himself in darkness. But that would be running away from his problems and forsaken his duty as a man, that would definitely be a big blow to his pride. A tense silence fell on them. Train spoke again in a clearer voice,

"Did you know…"

Eve looked up when Train stopped mid-sentence. Another sigh was given and Train continued,

"Did you know that my gun was named after the God of Underworld and Dead in Ancient Greek?"

Eve knew about it but didn't voice her questions as she thought it was merely a coincidence, apparently not.

"When I asked my leader about it, he had laughed at my childish question, according to him, with an answer that seems logical at that time but now that I thought about it, the answer felt so wrong."

"What was the….answer…your leader had given you?"

"In his eyes, I am the ruler of the underworld because of the killings I had done and therefore my weapon had no reason not to be named after the God of Dead as I am one myself. Therefore, to him, I am known as the Death Eater who brings a sweet and seductive yet poisonous death to my victims. I wonder if it was the right thing to do when I let you live when you had seen my face that night for no outsiders live to see the next day when they had been so unfortunate to meet Death himself.

Eve was pained to hear this confession from Train. Yes, she was pained that Train had really wanted to pull the trigger that night and silence her forever but the thing that makes her grief is the fact that Train was hopelessly lost in his own darkness where he had send so many people there, regardless innocent or guilty. He knows how heavy his sin is and how much he had to bear it but Train had remain as strong and steady as a pillar each day. And many people had seen the steadfast pillar and depended on it, including herself, Jenos and Rin. So is she going to be a witness in seeing the strong pillar crumble and collapse in a broken way? She absolutely hope not, for everyone and Train's sake.

The moon was high in the sky, that means Rin and Train had to get home soon. How time flies! Train shuffled in his pockets and took out the wood he had been carving for the past few days and handed to Eve who took with a questioning glance.

"You fancied my harmonica's playing, yes?"

Eve nodded dumbfounded.

"Well, this I'm sure you can tell is a flute use in the olden days to produce music to bring joy and relaxation to the tired minds. In addition, this is my gift to you as a token of gratitude in inviting us here to the party. Please be happy with this gift if not for my sake that for Rin's sake."

And it was time for Eve to be speechless. She didn't think Train had bother remembering that small fact. She gracefully played the flute and was thoroughly delighted at the sound produced.

"I am pleased in receiving this gift."

"I am glad to hear it. A very good night to you, Eve and excuse me as I need to find Rin and bring her home."

Eve gave a big smile in which Train acknowledge with a nod and walked off in search of Rin. Eve's smile broke off when she couldn't see Train's shadow anymore. Sometimes the smiles she gives Train is just to assure him that everything will somehow be alright. She felt a cool breeze and played the flute slowly to appreciate each sound that was produced.


Train had no difficulty in finding Rin as he entered the hall. He was immediately greeted with a happy Jenos jumping around and a blushing Rin. According to some other guests, Rin had kissed Jenos fully on the lips in thanks of inviting them to the dance. And Train had to drag Rin away from Jenos who sadly bid goodbye to them at the main entrance.

He was in a better mood, even if Rin was chatting away. However, he was getting worried, trouble is heading his way and he could sense it when they reached the headquarters. He was glad that Rin did not notice the eerie silence in the halls or else Train couldn't ensure the safety of his loyal junior. And once he sure that Rin was tucked safely in bed, he hastily took off and threw the Chrono uniform into his dresser. He had still no idea why the King had wanted him to wear this beautiful coat, he knew he didn't deserve this, so what then?

Armed with his gun, he stalked off into the hall where he knew someone was waiting for him and Train wasn't happy with that fact. Within seconds, he was at the main entrance at the hall and he stood there pondering what Rin, Charden or even Kyoko would say if they knew anything about this. He breathe in deeply and pushed open the doors with all his might in one swish motion. He was greeted with words that laced trouble,

"Train my dearest, you do know and understand the punishment that I am going to inflict upon you?"

Train nodded slowly.

-End-of Chapter-

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