'Wait, wait, wait. You want to come with me?'

Edward and Alice nodded. Jasper seemed to be able to feel my mood and choose not to respond. I shook my head. What happened to keeping a lid on my past.

'Look, I'm not even allowed in La Push. I don't think they'd like it if you came too.'

There, the expression that always seems to be plastered on everyone's face. Confusion. Lovely.

'Hello? Vampires. New breed of werewolves. Not very friendly. All the other's settled down to live the with their 'mates'. Exception of Jacob, Leah and Seth. Jacob of course won't age until that,' I glared at Amy, 'dies, which is improbable, and Seth and Leah never imprinted so are now there to advice the younger wolfs. And the younger wolfs do not like vampires. Hence La Push is off limits.'

'Oh.' Mumbled Alice.

'So again, Amy and I will go and tear Riley into teeny-tiny…'

'Izzy?'

'Yep.'

'Now that I think about it, maybe there's no need for a rash approach.'

'What?'

'Look I'll call Seth and tell him to bring Cassie here. Then you can sit down and calmly, and I mean calmly, talk to her. Right now she needs you.'

'And right now I need to attack something.' I muttered darkly.

A sudden realization hit me. Mm. It seems I've been a little preoccupied. I rubbed my throat and sat on the hood of the truck. I brought my knees up to my body and wrapped my arms around them. It had been a long time since I had my head was so fuddled.

'Izzy?' whispered Amy.

'Huh?'

'Oh! I see. Okay I'll call Seth then. See you later.'

Suddenly a smile grew across Alice's face. I knew that smile. That smile made me think: Shit.

'Bella…your going hunting, aren't you?'

'Yeah…'

'Well, Edward, Jasper and Emmett are going so why don't you go with them?'

Because I don't want to. Because I can't. Because the only emotion that pumps through my veins is anger. Because I'm so pissed at the outcome of my life that I can't stand living anymore.

'Alice…' I moaned.

Her smile changed into a sort of sad smile. Her beautiful golden eyes begged me. Dam.

'Fine!'

The next thing I knew I was in my truck, Edward in the passenger seat. Jasper was going to meet Emmett and then they meet us there. I glared to my right at Alice and Amy's smiling faces. Oh the horror of all the things they'd discuss. They looked like long lost twins. Oh great now there's two. I flashed a smile at them and started the truck. I didn't put my seatbelt on and neither did Edward. I pulled out and drove off trying to ignore the loud giggles. I rammed my foot down on accelerate allowing the truck to lurch forward with speed. Edward raised an eyebrow. I laughed a tinkling laugh before slapping my hand over my mouth. I swallowed a few times, trying to suppress the singsong voice. Silence filled the air, the only noise being the whooshing sound as I sped through town. I sighed and reached into the glove department. At the same time Edward moved his leg out.

'Sorry.'

I withdraw my hand as it brushed Edwards leg. This was getting too awkward.

'Umm… could you put a CD in, kinda hard to speed and concentrate when there's silence.'

'Sure… '

I glanced out the corner of my eye and saw the pink cover. Dam I forgot all my Cd's were in the Jeep. Before I could stop him, he inserted the disk and pressed play. The piano started to play. It was a haunting spine-chilling melody I knew to well.

'I never heard this song before…who's the composer?'

'Me.'

'What?'

'I wrote this song.'

'You…you can…'

'Yep, obviously that's also me playing the piano.'

He listened for a moment. I wanted nothing more than to rip the stereo out like I'd done with my other truck's stereo. Back then I gave up music. But after a few years I brought it back into my life. It was my release. Every song reflected my pain and suffering. But the songs had to be angry, and loud. It was a long time since I listened to my composed music.

'What's it called?'

'Hm?'

'This song, what's it called?'

'Disappearing heart.'

'Bella...'

'Don't! Please.'

'Bella, if I could only explain, if you'd only let me explain...'

'Edward...I know that now that I'm vampire, it's possible for us to be together. But I can't just forget everything.'

'Bella there's something you should know...'

'We're here.' his face fell and he turned to the window. 'Edward?'

'Yes...'

'Not now. My family comes first. I promise we'll talk.'

He nodded and we climbed out the truck. I don't know why but I just can't stay away from him. I knew we were perfect for each other, but he had left me. I didn't want to sit wondering what would happen if I hadn't changed. Neither did I want to know whether or not he wished I was still human. I was scared, for once I was scared of that might happen to me.

'Earth to Izzy?'

I rolled my eyes and hit Emmett's hand away. We hunted for an hour. They kept trying to get me to go for the deer, but I loved lions and bears too much. I chuckled as I watch Emmett wrestle a bear. Emmett had a brute force style to hunting, while Jasper and Edward were more agile and sleek. I stuck to my natural angelic charm. I would hover near the predator, peeking their curiosity. As they edged closer to my statuest figure I would pounce using my hands to restrain any claws and then gently sink my lips into their throat. I did the technique with a bear, bringing the grizzly to the ground as I lowered my lips and drank. My eyes flicked up and I noticed I had an audience. Emmett seemed to be shaking from silent laughter.

'What?' I asked, wiping the blood off my lips.

'Your supposed to hunt, not seduce the bear.' chuckled Emmett

'To each his, or should I say her, own.' I bit back.

'Temper, temper Bella.'

'You're all talk and no action, Emmett.'

'Oh really?' he retorted.

'I would wipe the floor with you.'

He stood up and started walking over to me. I did the same. Edward stood to stop us but then I shook my head.

'Don't worry, he's just a big teddy.'

I stood in front of Emmett. He towered over me, arms folded. I growled, as he crouched down. I relaxed and stood with my hands behind my back. I cocked my head to one side and smiled. He snarled and leapt at me. I saw the movement and moved out of the way. He sprung at me again and again and again but I just kept gliding out of the way. I was getting bored and Emmett anger seemed to be peeking. I smiled and leapt at him using my feet and my hands to push him down. He was caught off guard by my strength and with a thunderous bang, I pinned him down. He looked at me in shock. I winked and climbed off him. I felt him get up.

'Big teddy.' I laughed.

-xXx-

We arrived home three hours later. Emmett refused to even look at me. He demanded a rematch but I refused. I had things to do. Edward and I stepped inside the house while Jasper and Emmett went home. Just as I walked into the lounge I was suddenly encased in a pair of arms.

'Aunt Ella!'

'Hey Cassie, what did I tell you about hugging vampires?'

Cassie took a step back, folded her arms and scrutinized my eyes.

'Always check the eyes.' She noted.

'Exactly.'

'Well Amy already told me you'd been hunting.' She retorted.

I rolled my eyes. She took my hand and lead me to the armchair. Amy and Alice already occupied the loveseat. Cassie sat on the chair while I perched on the armrest. Edward leaned against the opposite wall. He was staring at Cassie. The likeness was uncanny. I never used to look at Cassie because it was like looking at my human self again. A torturous experience. But soon it was looking at what my daughter might look like. And with those green eyes she could have been our daughter. Edward's eyes flickered to mine and he smiled. A rare smile.

'So how did you meet him?' I asked, turning my attention to Cassie.

'In La Push, I was passing by when my car broke down. He came out of the forest and offered to help. He was really nice. Then I noticed his eyes and I knew he was a vampire. Which reminds me, you never told me a vampire could have red eyes?'

'That's because vampires have red eyes when the diet consists of humans. You're lucky he didn't kill you.'

'He would never. Aunt Ella, I swear, he does care for me. He spent everyday with me, only leaving while I was sleeping. I love him so much. And I think he loves me. Don't you understand?'

'I know Riley. Better than you.'

'No you don't.'

I grabbed her arm and she flinched. I frowned. It was hot outside, so hot even the sun was out. That's why we couldn't even go to school today. So why was Cassie wearing her jacket still.

'Cas, show me your arms.'

'No.'

'Cassandra.'

'No, please.'

'Cassie if you want me to trust you…'

'Fine.'

She pulled her jacket off and stood in front of me. I gasped, as did everyone around me. Her arms were covered with purple bruises. I pulled her carefully towards me and traced my hand along a few. At the top of her of arm there was one big bruise on either side of her arm. Both the shape of a hand.

'No…'

'Ella, it was an accident.'

'Cassie, what did he do?'

'He doesn't know his own strength. It wasn't painful, it was wonderful. You have to experience it to know. And he was so careful.'

'Stop. I can't believe you slept with him.'

'Ella…'

'That's it. I'm calling Hannah, you can stay with her.'

'Izzy wait, that's putting Hannh's life in danger.' Said Amy.

'Fine you can stay here, in my room.'

'Okay.'

'Why don't you go rest?' whispered Amy.

Cassie nodded and walked upstairs. I watched her go, as she vanished from my sight I sunk into the armchair.

'No, no, no!'

'Izzy this isn't your fault.'

'It's my fault Riley's here.'

'We can sort this out...'

'No, Amy. It's not we anymore. It's me. This is my burden.'

Amy nodded then clutched her head. When she looked at me, she looked horrified.

'What?'

'Riley's gone.'

-xXx-