There it is, your promised Thursday's chapter of Raging Heart. I hope you like it :)
Chapter III
"Wakey wakey…", familiar sound reached Nasus' ears. Still half asleep he lazily opened one eye.
"Hmm Renekton...why are you waking me so early…", he replied. He noticed that everything around him was dark, so he assumed it was very early. Suddenly he felt someone crawl onto him. When he opened his eyes completely, he saw someone resembling a wolf. He realised it was Warwick.
"Warwick? What the hell are yo-mmph!", Nasus got silenced with Warwick's paw.
"Shh...we don't want to wake Renekton now, do we?", he asked. Nasus' questioning face forced him to talk. "You're probably thinking why I'm here. I just realised what you really wanted~", Warwick added seductively.
"Mhmmpf!", Nasus tried to tell something, but he couldn't speak a word. On top of that, his muscles refused to work under Warwick's pressure.
"Don't worry, you'll love it~", he spoke once again and kissed him deeply. Nasus widened his eyes in shock. "What the actual fuck?", he thought. His hand made its way under the quilt, towards his pants. He touched it gently, making Nasus moan nervously. He didn't know what to do, and even if he knew, he was unable for some reason. Warwick's hands were touching his chest and crotch, and his tongue was playing with his own. He felt familiar sensation between his legs, he was getting close.
Nasus woke up with a loud gasp, trying to catch a breath. He swept a sweat from his forehead, it was just a dream. He was thinking for a moment about what just happened. Then he felt something. He slowly uncovered himself and looked at his underwear. It was wet and a familiar scent reached his nose.
"What. The. Fuck…", he spoke quietly to himself. He realised that dreamt Warwick just made him cum. And even worse, he thought he might have enjoyed that. He spent a moment frozen in one position, trying to figure out what the hell was wrong with him. "But...I'm not gay. Am I?", he questioned himself. He had several partners before his ascension, but only females. He was sure that he was straight. He decided to put that aside for a moment and he took off his underwear and cleaned himself with a handkerchief. Then he took a fresh pair and slowly approached the door. He gently pushed the handle and after assuring himself that Renekton is still sleeping, he went to the bathroom. He washed his private parts, threw dirty pants into the laundry and wore a new pair. Then he returned to his room. He lay down in his bed, still strongly confused by what he just dreamt about and what it made him do.
"What in the world? Why did it- Why did I- Argh, I don't understand!", Nasus asked himself out loud. He couldn't understand himself. "He's just my friend.", he spoke to himself, "Just a friend, calm the heck down Nasus…". He laid his head on a pillow and tried not to think about it, but the harder he tried, the more pictures he recalled. He slapped himself, exhaled nervously and tried to fall asleep, which wasn't so hard, since it was 3 am.
He woke up again at 10 am. He looked at a clock, he couldn't believe that it was that late. He was rarely waking up after 9, but it was already 10 this time. He stood up and stretched a little. He wore something and left his room.
"Nasus, it's 10 am! What happened that you're up so late?", Renekton asked him from the kitchen. He was in a middle of eating.
"Uhh, I don't actually know. Maybe I was just too tired.", Nasus replied, but he knew what was the cause.
"Well, I guess I can't judge since I'm always late. I'm leaving in like 10 minutes, I have a match.", he added.
"Okay, I'm going to wash myself then. Good luck.", Nasus said and went to the bathroom. He stripped himself and entered the shower. He turned a knob and started washing himself. While doing so, he started thinking about his dream once again.
"It was just a dream, stop tormenting yourself.", Nasus said to himself. He chuckled slightly. "Yeah, in dreams everything can be twisted and unreal.", he thought. He decided to stop thinking about it. He continued washing, but then he felt something hard in his lower parts. He looked down, he had a boner. Nasus opened his mouth in shock and disbelief.
"Oh no, don't tell me that…", Nasus said, thinking that the thought of Warwick might have caused it. He sighed and continued washing in silence. When he left, Renekton was already gone. He ate one small sandwich, drank a cup of water and left for a walk.
The halls were almost empty, even though it was almost noon. He sat down on his favourite bench and started pondering. Suddenly someone sat beside him.
"You really like this bench.", Rengar spoke to him. Nasus looked at him, he didn't even realise when he appeared.
"Oh, hi Rengar. Yeah, I can't deny that.", he replied and chuckled. Rengar noticed small shadows under his eyes.
"I guess you didn't sleep well today.", he said.
"Ah, yeah, woke up very late and had some difficulties with sleep.", Nasus replied. "Do I look that bad?".
"Nay, just a little off.". Then Nasus realised that Rengar might be able to help him with his little issue, but he also didn't want him to know about it.
"So...would you mind if I ask you about something...personal?". Rengar looked at him weirdly.
"Well, it depends. Ask me and I'll decide.". Nasus thought of what kind of question would help him and at the same time not expose him.
"I was wondering, how did you know that, you know, were in love with Kha'Zix?". Rengar definitely wasn't expecting that kind of question.
"Well...tough question.", Rengar scratched his forehead, "As you probably remember we wanted to kill each other at the beginning. But later on when we realised our mistakes we somewhat befriended ourselves, mostly thanks to Renekton.", he chuckled.
"Right, he wouldn't let you keep arguing, not on his watch.", Nasus added with a smile.
"Yep. So after that I just...well, this is where it becomes complicated. Quite honestly, I wasn't sure that I love him.", Rengar admitted. Nasus raised his head.
"Wait, you didn't? Then how…".
"I'm gonna get into that. The first thing for sure was the fact that we weren't holding back when talking, fighting, etc. We were always honest to each other. For some reason I was feeling weird around him, especially when he was showing emotions. Don't know why, but when he was happy, I felt a slight joy, too. When sad, I felt sorrow. Then I just...well, it just happened.". Nasus listened carefully to every word Rengar spoke, but still he wasn't sure about himself.
"And...how did you know you are gay?", he asked very politely.
"Uhh...well, I got a boner from looking at a guy, so…", Rengar replied with a smirk. Nasus laughed quietly. "But why are you asking me those kind of questions anyway?", he added.
"Well I just...I have never actually asked you about it. Curiosity took over and I just couldn't stop myself from asking. Sorry.", he chuckled at the end. Rengar looked at him as if he was trying to figure something out, Nasus was looking kind of tense, but tried to hide it. "What are you doing?", Nasus asked him after a short moment of silence, but Rengar didn't reply. Instead, after a moment he smiled widely.
"Don't tell me…", Rengar spoke slowly, not believing his thoughts. He leaned closer. "You think you're ga-".
"No! That's not what I-", Nasus started, but his wiggling tail betrayed him once again. He just sighed in defeat. "Alright...you got me…". He looked at the floor, waiting for any response from Rengar.
"So...who's the lucky one?", he asked.
He sighed, "It's Warwick. Even though I thought I considered him a friend, this night I had a pretty...weird dream featuring him.", Nasus spoke, surprisingly calm, despite having been caught.
"Hey, it's just a dream, they can be pretty fucked up.", Rengar said.
"Yeah, but today morning I got hard under a shower from thinking about it.", Nasus replied, slightly embarrassed.
"Oh...that changes a lot.", Rengar admitted. He noticed that Nasus was slightly upset, it was probably a hard moment for him. "Hey, I know that it is very, well, unusual for you. When I discovered that I'm gay, I wasn't particularly happy about it. I was slightly scared and confused, too. But with time I just accepted it.", he spoke to comfort him. "But the most important question is, are you okay with it?". Nasus placed his head on a fist.
"That's what's been bothering me this whole time. I don't know.", Nasus spoke. He didn't know what he actually wanted. It was new to him and he was afraid of it.
"Well, the only thing I can tell you is that you should take some time and honestly answer yourself that one question. Do you love him?". Nasus' eyes widened a little and he looked away. He felt a little blush on his face. Someone else saying that sounded very weird to him. Rengar just chuckled. "You already asked yourself it I suppose.", he said and stood up. "I'll be going now, don't worry, I'll keep it for myself. Take your time and think about it. That would be funny if you two became a thing.", he added and waved. When Rengar went, Nasus sighed and started thinking about what he just heard. Taking into account his words, Nasus was most likely in love with Warwick, but he just couldn't believe it. When he thought about it, he actually knew him for two days.
"It just doesn't make any sense…", Nasus spoke to himself. Being honest, he wasn't scared of being gay, he was scared of potential loss of a friend. "What if he ever finds out?", he thought. His heart started aching a little. He shook his head and put that thought aside. He went back to his room and this time he prepared himself proper breakfast.
Nasus managed to kill some time by listening to radio, reading and chit-chatting with Renekton. Around 16 o'clock he left and went to visit Warwick. On his way he tried not to think about him in any weird way. He knocked gently, as usual.
"Come in!", Nasus heard faintly from behind the door. He stepped in, Warwick was under shower. "Sorry, but I just had to wash myself. I was so sweaty, my fur was almost dripping.", Warwick explained through the door.
"Sure, I don't mind. I'd probably do it too in your place.", Nasus replied.
"Make yourself comfortable, I'm leaving in like 5 minutes.", he said and returned to washing. As told, Nasus headed towards the kitchen and started boiling water for a tea. He took two cups, for him and Warwick, and waited. Then he heard the door opening. When Warwick left the bathroom and came closer, Nasus' heart skipped a bit. All he was wearing was a towel around him. Because his thick fur was still slightly wet it was easy to notice his muscles and he was quite good looking, despite some tubes filled with green fluid. Nasus felt a slight blush coming on his face.
"Phew, that was good. Oh, thanks for a tea.", Warwick replied. He was feeling good around Nasus, he didn't require much time to consider him a good friend.
"Oh, yeah, it's nothing.", he replied, scratching his head.
"I still didn't get a new dryer, so I will have to stay like that for a while.", Warwick chuckled. Yeah, he definitely was feeling comfortable around Nasus.
Water in kettle was almost boiling, so Nasus turned around and poured it into the cups. Pleasant smell of tea herbs filled the room. "I gotta admit, you have amazingly smelling teas.".
"Yep, but it's only to kill the odour of blood that might come from outside. Even if someone cuts himself elsewhere, I still might be able to smell it. The herbs are a good protection.", Warwick explained. Nasus was impressed, he thought of everything to keep himself calm. They both sat down in chairs at a table and started talking, sipping their teas.
"How was your match?", Nasus asked him.
"The first one was quite easy, but the second one, ughh.", Warwick sighed. "It was at least 2 hours long. We won in the end, but it wasn't fun.".
"Oh I know. I had a match like this, too.", he said. They were talking a lot, about various subjects. The world, literature, magic. Eventually they were talking about relationships here in League.
"What do you think of Xayah and Rakan? I honestly feel disgusted by their overly shown relationship.", Warwick admitted.
"Yeah, they can get pretty...weird sometimes. But I think this how love works now.", Nasus said.
"It was always like that, but maybe not in public.", Warwick laughed. "Have you ever been with somebody?", he asked.
"I...well, before my ascension, maybe twice, but it hasn't lasted long.".
"But...have you gotten laid?", he asked, curious. Nasus was surprised by this kind of question. He would never expect Warwick to ask such thing.
"Heh, yeah, I have…", he spoke nervously. He wasn't good at lying, not only because he couldn't keep a straight face, but also because his tail would always expose him. This time was the same.
"You're so old and still a virgin?", Warwick spoke, he was actually surprised.
"Yeah, yeah, laugh at me…", Nasus mumbled, slightly annoyed and embarrassed.
"No, actually I'm impressed. It's rare nowadays, and definitely nothing to be ashamed of.", he explained. Nasus was amused. That was exactly what he was thinking. He didn't want to force things. For him, giving a body was a sign of absolute trust and love. He could never understand how couples could do it after a month or even weeks.
"And...how about you?", he asked.
"Well, when I was still in my human body, I had someone...pretty close to me.", Warwick started. "Zaun is a very dangerous place, so I would go check on her every night.". He just said "her", Nasus noticed. That would make him straight, he thought. "And one day, she got killed by bandits. I couldn't protect her…", he spoke and remained silent for a moment. "But let's not destroy the mood, it was a long time ago. Since then I was alone.".
"And are you a virgin?", Nasus asked, feeling that he might know the answer.
"I knew you would ask me.", Warwick chuckled. "Yes, I am.". Nasus felt happy hearing that, but he couldn't explain why. He assumed he felt that way, because he admitted it himself earlier.
"So what about the rest?", Nasus asked.
"Hmm...Lux and Ezreal, I think they are matching, but I can't stand that he looks like a girl. I even called him a lady once when he was facing the other way.". Nasus laughed when he heard that.
"Yeah, you're not the only one thinking like that.", he said. "But how about…", Nasus spoke. Then, out of curiosity, he asked, "What do you think of Rengar and Kha'Zix?". He wanted to know his thoughts.
"Well...at first I was slightly confused, but then I realised that they are normal. Like, you know, not those weird looking guys in tight clothes, acting like a girl. I honestly think that it doesn't matter if you're gay or straight, but if you're a man then act like a goddamn man.", he explained. Nasus was impressed once more by Warwick today. He was so broad-minded and wise, it was hard to believe.
"I feel the same actually, it shouldn't matter as long as you're not a walking banner saying "I'm gay, tolerate me".". They both chuckled.
"Okay, I think I'm dry, I'll go wear something.", Warwick spoke. Unfortunately, when he was standing up, a splinter standing out of a table hooked his towel and it fell down when he fully stood up. When Nasus saw him fully naked, his heart started beating like crazy and his face was crimson red. Warwick, surprised by sudden change of temperature in his lower parts, looked down. Raised his brow, smiled slightly and while scratching his head, he spoke.
"Oops, clumsy me.", he chuckled. He quickly picked his towel up and wrapped himself around. "Sorry for that, are you okay?", he asked Nasus when he saw him. His eyes were wide open, shock on his face.
"Uhh...yeah, I just...didn't expect that.", he spoke and tried to calm down. But that sight couldn't allow him. Surprisingly, Warwick was pretty curvy, a lot of girls could be jealous of his butt. He didn't see his genitalia well, but he could swear that his penis was definitely longer than average.
"Okay, so wait here.", Warwick said and disappeared in his room.
"Damn, he looks good…", Nasus spoke quietly to himself, but then he scolded himself in mind. Why would he think like that? He couldn't explain his weird behaviour. He looked down, not knowing what to do, and then he realised he had a boner. Nasus opened his mouth in shock, it was happening again. He quickly hid it by placing his standing member between his lower belly and the belt of his pants. He was lucky, because a couple of second later Warwick returned, wearing his usual pants. Warwick wasn't wearing shirts not because he didn't want to, but because it was impossible. Fortunately talking with Warwick about books and other stuff allowed him to forget about it.
Nasus was lying in his bed, trying to explain why he was behaving like that. He didn't consider himself gay, yet his body and mind would say otherwise. Also, when Warwick's body got uncovered, he was so nonchalant about it. He thought that he might be just feeling comfortable around him or just doesn't care if someone sees him. He wouldn't be surprised though, he is quite gifted. Neverending flood of unanswered questions forced Nasus to fall asleep.
I'm surprised that I managed to break a 3k-words barrier, I thought it would be shorter, but oh well, I don't really mind, I'm actually happy about it. The next one will be on Sunday and then again one chapter per week. See you :)
