I do not own Edward, I do not own Jacob, I do not own Emmett, I do not own Jasper, I do not Carlisle, I do not own Seth, I do not own Twilight. My life sucks.

I realized that I haven't updated in . . . forever and I'm sorry, so very sorry. I promise to work on that. I got one review, I'm so happy! I reread the two chapters I've written so far and realized they are slightly OOC, and so is this chapter. On with the story!!!

I wasn't looking forward to getting up today, but I needed to and I could almost feel Edward getting impatient. I opened my eyes and looked at the clock. Ugh, it was half past one, I can't believe I slept that late. I felt horrible. I flipped over to my other side to look at Edward.

"Good afternoon, love."

I groaned. "Why didn't you wake me?"

"You looked so peaceful and I was thinking about something."

"Right, okay. I'm up." I got off the bed and grabbed my toiletries and walked to the bathroom. I brushed my teeth quickly. Rosalie immediately came to the front of my mind. Why shouldn't I do it? It was my life and it would finally prove to Edward that I could choose what was safe or right for me to do. It was a favour for a friend, kinda. Rosalie wasn't exactly a very close friend, but apparently if I said yes she'd be a very close friend, her friendship couldn't be above Alice's, but it would be nice since I'd be spending eternity with the Cullens, as a Cullen.

Which brings up another problem, my wedding. Not that I didn't want to postpone my wedding, I just didn't want to postpone what was going to happen after it, although Edward had made it quite clear in our meadow that day that we could do this however I wanted it to happen and I definitely wanted that to happen I just still wasn't sure of the order of how I wanted it to happen.

I went back to my room and sat down on the bed next to Edward.

"Hello again, Edward."

"Hello, love. Would you like to go to my house again today?"

"Umm," I f I went to the Cullen's house Rosalie might want an answer, although it's only been a day and I could tell her I still need to think about it. "Sure, why not?"

"Is that rhetorical? Because I could think of a few reasons." He leaned closer to me and kissed my forehead slowly kissing down my cheek he made it to the corner of my mouth before pulling back slightly. "Some very good reasons." His breath smelled so good but thinking that made me realise I could think. Screw you, Rosalie Hale. It's not that I didn't want to kiss Edward, I did, all the time. It's just I wanted that to be the only thing on my mind, not thinking about children or Rosalie. It sounded bad that I was thinking of Rosalie while kissing Edward. Although I'm sure Emmett would enjoy that, Edward would not. I love possessive Edward something about it made him even more hot, if that was possible, but I was not in the mood for him this morning. Although I could pretend that I had my mind on Edward. I've had a lot of practice with that.

I smiled and slowly brought my face forward to Edward's, if he could tease me I could do the same to him. I kissed the side of his mouth and moved slowly to lightly brush my lips over his cold ones. I moved up to kiss the tip of his nose, I kissed along the crescent of his cheek, until I came to his ear. I dragged my nose along the outer edge. I bit down on his earlobe. "I love you . . . my Edward." I almost laughed, he looked like he was falling apart.

"Isabella. Please, please, please tell me you changed your mind."

I decided to play innocent, as fun as this is it is not taking my mind off of Rosalie. "Changed my mind about what?"

"Tell me that you changed your mind and that I can have you as mine before the wedding. Please Bella, tell me now."

"Sorry, Edward. I didn't change my mind." I laughed quietly. Where'd this me come from? "Do you want me to? Do you want me?"

"Yes." He choked out.

Now I was starting to feel bad. "Your soul means too much to me to sacrifice."

"I don't care anymore, in fact I never cared, the only thing I care about is you and your soul."

"But I care."

He groaned into my shoulder.

"Let's go to your place, Edward."