Okay, so this is going well so far, even if I haven't gotten any reviews. Again, please review, because I have never posted my poetry anywhere, so I'm getting nervous and thinking it sucks now, so yeah… Either way, I haven't finished Tower of Dawn yet, so I won't be posting anything that I would know from reading that, just keep that in mind. So, for the important parts, this poem is about how broken Celaena/Aelin was after Nehemia's death, because I apparently enjoy crying. *Bitter laughing* Enjoy! (if you can).

All The Best Are Broken

It was silent

Everything was silent

Why shouldn't it be?

The woman who caused an uproar was gone

The sun scorched my back

The tiles I laid upon a brand on my back

It should have been you

They inscribed upon my bare skin

"I know"

I whisper into the silence

A pebble upsetting the ocean of pain

I let myself drown in that ocean

My liferaft the sun warmed wine I gulped down

I let it wash me away

It could have me

If it let me forget then it could have me

The wine ran out

Nehemias life ran out

What was the shade of her skin?

I couldn't remember

This was the gods laughing at me

I couldn't have a reprieve

It should have been you

But it wasn't

There was not enough fairness in the world

for it to have been me

But it should have been

I sat up, chucking the stale bread at nothing

A falcon cawed

It seemed to be mocking me

Worthless

Yes

Yes

Yes, it knew my dark secret

Nehemia wanted this silence to overwhelm me

She thought that it would make me great

She thought wrong

My incredible friend was wrong

All the silence has done is break me

I was broken

And I was better off that way

This was my penance for my crimes

I would be broken

I would put myself back together for her

But she wasn't here

She was broken too

Mutilated

Carved up

Broken

Just like Sam

I wished I had more wine

I was sinking deeper into that ocean

The complete silence and darkness at the bottom

Beckoning to me

It would be so easy to give in

No

No

No, I didn't deserve that easy end

I roared at the sky

"It should have been me!"

I climb down from the roof

I need to do something

Hurt something

Kill something

Make someone as broken as me

A woman in a door tells me to get lost

Broken and dirty it would seem

If only Nehemia and Sam could see their beloved now

They would not have gone to their deaths for this person

My life raft disappears with that

I am a stone, dropping to the bottom

Broken

Alone

It should have been you

A man walks down the alley to me

Fae

Another broken piece of me

The silence becomes a deafening roaring

The darkness covers my eyes

It can have me

But one two little sparks shine in the inky black

The man walking towards me

He represents future

And the guttering light Nehemia told me to never let go out

It represents the past

The light that can't go out

I deserve to be stuck with that light

The one that reminds me that I am stuck living

The Fae gets closer

My mask snaps down

He won't see me as broken

He will see me as I see myself

Worthless

It should've been you

Broken

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