Okay, so this is going well so far, even if I haven't gotten any reviews. Again, please review, because I have never posted my poetry anywhere, so I'm getting nervous and thinking it sucks now, so yeah… Either way, I haven't finished Tower of Dawn yet, so I won't be posting anything that I would know from reading that, just keep that in mind. So, for the important parts, this poem is about how broken Celaena/Aelin was after Nehemia's death, because I apparently enjoy crying. *Bitter laughing* Enjoy! (if you can).
All The Best Are Broken
It was silent
Everything was silent
Why shouldn't it be?
The woman who caused an uproar was gone
The sun scorched my back
The tiles I laid upon a brand on my back
It should have been you
They inscribed upon my bare skin
"I know"
I whisper into the silence
A pebble upsetting the ocean of pain
I let myself drown in that ocean
My liferaft the sun warmed wine I gulped down
I let it wash me away
It could have me
If it let me forget then it could have me
The wine ran out
Nehemias life ran out
What was the shade of her skin?
I couldn't remember
This was the gods laughing at me
I couldn't have a reprieve
It should have been you
But it wasn't
There was not enough fairness in the world
for it to have been me
But it should have been
I sat up, chucking the stale bread at nothing
A falcon cawed
It seemed to be mocking me
Worthless
Yes
Yes
Yes, it knew my dark secret
Nehemia wanted this silence to overwhelm me
She thought that it would make me great
She thought wrong
My incredible friend was wrong
All the silence has done is break me
I was broken
And I was better off that way
This was my penance for my crimes
I would be broken
I would put myself back together for her
But she wasn't here
She was broken too
Mutilated
Carved up
Broken
Just like Sam
I wished I had more wine
I was sinking deeper into that ocean
The complete silence and darkness at the bottom
Beckoning to me
It would be so easy to give in
No
No
No, I didn't deserve that easy end
I roared at the sky
"It should have been me!"
I climb down from the roof
I need to do something
Hurt something
Kill something
Make someone as broken as me
A woman in a door tells me to get lost
Broken and dirty it would seem
If only Nehemia and Sam could see their beloved now
They would not have gone to their deaths for this person
My life raft disappears with that
I am a stone, dropping to the bottom
Broken
Alone
It should have been you
A man walks down the alley to me
Fae
Another broken piece of me
The silence becomes a deafening roaring
The darkness covers my eyes
It can have me
But one two little sparks shine in the inky black
The man walking towards me
He represents future
And the guttering light Nehemia told me to never let go out
It represents the past
The light that can't go out
I deserve to be stuck with that light
The one that reminds me that I am stuck living
The Fae gets closer
My mask snaps down
He won't see me as broken
He will see me as I see myself
Worthless
It should've been you
Broken
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