[Mileven] Don't leave just yet...
Just laying in bed and thinking about yesterday makes me wonder..
"Don't follow me! Go away!"
Tears are streaming down El's face, eyes glaring into mine. Furious.
"El! What's wrong? Talk to me!"
She shakes her head, sobbing violently.
"No, you gotta leave me alone. Just leave, Mike.."
Why was El so upset with me? I haven't done anything to anger her, have I? My eyes are glued to the ceiling above me, my stomach turning in discomfort. Did someone make El upset? So many questions and I know they won't be answered. If only I could talk to El again.
"Knock, knock.." I hear. Nancy's voice could be heard right outside the door to my room, and I sigh in annoyance. She was the last person I wanted to see when upset or deep in thought.
"Who's there?.." I growl out in irritation. My eyes move towards the door, and stares at it. It took some time for Nancy to speak up again.
"Someone worried.." she says eventually. I roll my eyes.
"Someone worried who?" I answer in annoyance. She opens the door.
"Someone worried who wants you to cheer up this instant" she says seriously. I glare at her with clear annoyance, but it seemed to not be working. Usually she walks away after getting glared at.
"It wasn't even funny.." I whisper. Nancy sighs.
"No, I know.. but why are you sulking in here?" Nancy asks. She sits down on the edge of the bed I'm laying in and I furrow my brows slightly. I definitely didn't want to tell Nancy about my problems with El. Would she even understand?
"I got into a fight" I simply said. Leaving out all the other details Nancy might've wanted. Nancy is quite stubborn however, and starts to shake me side to side.
"More details dummy" she says. I try to get her to stop putting her nose into things that doesn't concern her, but I guess it never succeeds.
"El.. I went to see her yesterday because Lucas said she might need to see me.." I started, tired of her shaking me side to side only to get what she wants. Nancy stopped finally, and sat there. Listening to me trying to explain what happened yesterday.
"And?" Nancy asks. I sighed slightly, and changed my position so that I sat up next to Nancy, while staring down at my feet that were flat against the floor. Twiddling my thumbs.
"When I arrived at Hoppers place, Eleven was sitting on the floor crying. I went to approach her, to see if everything was okay. And suddenly, she lashed out on me. Asking me why I was there and why I cared to check up on her.. she made me confused, but I refused to walk away. Until she basically begged for me to leave. I don't know why. And now I'm scared I've done something bad.." I kept talking. My eyes still staring at the same spot between my bare feet while twiddling my thumbs still.
Nancy remained quiet for a good two minutes before speaking up.
"Maybe something was going on with her that moment? We girls are complicated when it comes to emotions sometimes.."
I look at my sister and then back down at the floor. I stop twiddling my thumbs and place both my hands down by my sides.
"I have no idea, Nance. She just lashed out on me, and now I'm scared of trying again.."
My words hurt to say, as it made my worry grow deeper. I hated this, the fact I was close to cry around my sister. But Nancy didn't mind my tears, and wrapped an arm around me. Pulling me towards her a little.
"You shouldn't be scared of it. El would never hurt you... you know that right? Girls usually realize what they've done after doing it, and tends to regret it more than anything.." Nancy speaks. I look at her a little, seeing her smile at me reassuringly. No matter how much it pained me to admit it, she did make me feel faithful again. I sat up slightly, sniffled and wiped my eyes. Stopping the streams of tears of coming down my cheeks and making them wet.
"You think I should try talk to her again?" I ask Nancy. Nance smiles and nods. Making me slightly calmer.
"You might not know, and she might not tell you it, but you're very important to her. You should go back" Nancy admitted. I look at my hands, and smile slightly.
"You're right, I better go back to make sure she's okay for real" I admitted. Nancy smiles, and ruffles my hair just to lighten the mood up a bit more. I utter an annoyed 'hey, stop that!', making her stop of course.
"You go and fix this" Nancy encouraged. I nod at her, stand up and starts running towards the stairs to downstairs. Before I rushed down the stairs and out the front door, I turn to Nancy who was still sitting on my bed's edge.
"Thank you"
Nancy smiles and nods, then shoo's me away.
After putting on shoes and a jacket, I was bicycling towards the shack out in the forest that El was living, together with Hopper. Hopper was working this time around however. All I hoped was that El was at home.
It took some time, but I finally arrived by the door after avoiding the front trap. I took a deep breath, and raised my hand. However, before I managed to even place my palm onto the surface of the door, it swung open and El stood by the other side of the door. Her eyes widened in surprise, and I started getting nervous. I slowly let my palm sink down.
"Didn't I tell you yesterday..?" She whispered. Way softer this time around, compared to yesterday.
"You did.." I whisper back. Her angry expression slowly returned, but I took a deep breath and spoke up before she exploded on me.
"I am legit worried about you.. you're acting weird and you've never ever lashed out at me like that before. If you think you can get me to avoid you, then let me just tell you that it's impossible for you to get me to avoid you" I spoke, rambling on and on. Her expression was mildly irritated, but the anger had washed away a bit. Suddenly, El grabs my shirt and pulls me in inside the house. She shuts the door with her mind, and looks at me. I look around before meeting with her glare.
"I don't want you to avoid me. I just want you to leave me be" El speaks up. I was still confused by what she was trying to say.
"Why should I leave you be? Is someone being mean to you?" I asked. It caused El to pause for quite some time before faltering away from my eyes. That confirmed it for me, and my brows furrowed. My feet moved automatically, and walked up to El. I was now close to her, and I grabbed her shoulders gently.
"El.. you can tell me about these things.."
"No.." she whispered. Her voice had now pure fear, and not anger or irritation. She wraps her arms around me, and I get startled by the sudden movement. It even caused me to loose my balance and I fell backwards onto the hard wooden floor. But her arms were still around me. My arms automatically wrapping around her during the fall.
"El?" I asked, confused.
"Jerks.. they're jerks, and I can't let them see me with you.. they will target you too" Eleven finally opened up. I paused for a while before talking.
"Is it Troy?"
She shakes her head.
"Then who is it?" I asked, curious and angry at whoever was making El this upset.
"A group of girls.." she whispers. I blink and pushed myself up, pushing El up with me. She was still hugging me, shaking slightly. She was really scared.
"What do they say?" I ask. I was now genuinely hugging her back, patting her back in comfort and reassurance. El took her time to answer, which was completely okay to me as long as I found out just how rude they're being.
"I.. it's hard to say.." She whispers. I look at her by parting the hug a little, and her eyes was leaking of tears. I move my hand to wipe the tears away and returns to looking her straight into her eyes.
"Tell me.. please"
El swallowed nervously, but ended up telling me in the end, thankfully.
"They say I'm ugly.. and a creep. They say that I don't deserve to be with friends, or have a crush.. which I have" El speaks up. I look at her the entire time, and was surprised to hear that she had a crush. It caused me to look to the side for a short second.. but my eyes returned to hers.
"All of that is bullshit. You're extremely pretty, and you're not a creep in any way. You deserve to be friends and have a crush!" I say seriously. El looks at me, shocked and slightly surprised. Her cheeks was a little bit darker red, making me smile.
"You're perfect as you are El. Just ignore those mouth breathers and keep being you" I kept saying. El just stared at me, and so did I. A silence erupted and we both were just sitting there. Just looking into her eyes, I could see how my words meant to her. They were glistening, and just - beautiful.
"I never wanted you to leave yesterday..." El whispers. I look into her eyes as I listened to her speaking.
"I'm sorry.." she continued. I put my hand by her forehead and moved some curls out of her view, and putting it behind her ear.
"Don't apologize.. it's hard to talk about feelings like this. I'm proud of you for telling me however, El. Really proud.." I spoke. El smiles, which makes my heart skip a beat. My expression turns into one of admiration and awe, as I kept staring into her eyes. She did the same, and I felt how my heart beat faster and faster. Somehow, it felt just right, sitting here with her.
"Who's your crush?" I ask softly. El's cheeks darkened, and she smiles warmly. Soon, she closed the gap between us by placing her lips onto mine. I felt how my heart skipped the beat twice at that, and I kissed her back softly. She parts, and I part as well. Now both of our eyes were glistening.
"Does that answer your question?" She asks, smirking gently. I chuckle, and I place my lips back onto hers, for a good minute. Then parted, and smiled widely at El. Placing my forehead against hers.
"It does.. Very well"
