Jeff didn't say much the entire trip to Tampa to meet back up with Jay and Matt. He didn't feel like talking about what happened with Randy to Adam because he wasn't sure how he felt about the whole thing. Now it wasn't that he actually regretted giving Randy a dose of his own medicine; he knew damn well Randy hadn't regretted raping him so he didn't see a reason why he should regret what he did. But he was almost afraid to find out what Jay was going to do when he found out. He had always deeply cared about Jay, and even though they hadn't done much besides some kissing (they hadn't even had the discussion about them being a couple), it had almost felt like he had been cheating on the older blonde. And that did not sit well with Jeff at all.
Yeah, but there's a whole other issue that you still haven't dealt with, a voice in the back of his head told him as Adam drove them to Jay's house. You actually kind of liked dominating Randy like that, didn't you? Once you were inside of him, it became less and less about teaching him a lesson and more and more about the enjoyment of hearing him scream. You LIKED hurting him.
Shut up, he told the voice. You shut up right this second.
Why? You know you liked it. You know part of you wants to do it again.
No, never again. Not unless he fucking rapes me again, and only if I have permission from Jay, he insisted. He almost said that aloud, but he managed to cover it up with a cough. He really couldn't deny that he had felt some sort of sick and demented pleasure from the whole raping Randy thing, but it was something he didn't want to have again. He knew he could never trust Orton after everything he had done, and every relationship in his life had been about trust. Even the guys he had only been seeing for sex could be trusted more than Randy could. So no matter how good it may have felt physically, he had to leave it at the point and move on. No good would come from pursuing it more.
Matt was waiting for them on the porch when they got there. Jeff took one look at his brother's face and groaned. "Did Jay tell you?"
"Why couldn't you tell me?" Matt demanded. He stormed down the porch steps and grabbed Jeff so he could shake him with his good hand. "I am your older brother and you need to tell me these things! Now I have to hunt the bastard down and kill him with my bare hands--"
Jeff sighed. "Matt--"
"Well, bare HAND as it would be because the mother fucker rebroke my already broken one--"
"Matt--"
"But I'll do it! I swear to God I will take that bastard and--"
"MATT!" Jeff screamed at the top of his lungs.
Matt stopped and looked confused. "What? What did I say?"
Jeff rolled his eyes. "Adam and I took care of Randy, okay? He'd be stupid to mess with us again."
"He IS stupid enough to mess with you again," Matt pointed out. "So unless you did something drastic--"
"We did go the drastic route," Jeff said. He made Matt let go of him and went inside the house. He figured Adam could just tell Matt what happened. Right now, he just wanted to see Jay.
Jay was in the living room, trying his hardest to glue broken pieces of glass back together. "I did not mean to tell him," he said as soon as he saw Jeff. "It just slipped out and then he went nuts and now all my vases are broken…"
Jeff nodded. "It's okay. I should have known he was going to find out sooner or later." He sat down next to Jay and looked at the damage Matt had done. "I think you'd be better off just throwing all that out and cutting your losses. When Matt smashes things, he does it better than anyone else."
"Yeah, I guess you're right," Jay agreed. He put the pieces he was trying to fix back down on the coffee table. "I'll do that later. Right now, I want to do this…" He turned and captured Jeff's lips into a kiss. Jeff mewled and kissed back, hoping Adam and Matt stayed out of the room and not interrupt them.
Of course that meant Adam walked in at that moment. "Ew, get a room," he complained as he plopped down on the other couch.
Jay and Jeff broke the kiss and glared at the Rated R Superstar. "We are in a room," Jay pointed out. "And this is my house!"
Adam shrugged. "Yeah, but the living room is public ground. That means you need to find different room."
Jeff rolled his eyes and grabbed Jay by the hand. "Come on, let's go to your room."
"But this is my house!" Jay pointed out yet again. "Damn it, I can't let him win!"
"I always win Reso!" Adam called after them. "And don't you forget it!"
Jeff stopped Jay from going back to kick Adam's ass by pulling him into his bedroom. "We need to talk about something," he said as he shut the door behind them.
"Okay," Jay said. He jumped down on the bed and looked up at Jeff expectedly.
Jeff sighed. "It's about what I did to Randy."
"You didn't actually kill him, did you? I mean, I know he deserves it, but it's really hard to get away with murder in this day and age and I don't want you going away to jail for the rest of your life. I actually like being with you."
"No, I didn't kill him," Jeff assured him. "I just…I don't know how to tell you this."
"You could start by trying to just say it," Jay suggested.
Jeff gulped. He was afraid that he was going to regret this later, but he couldn't keep this a secret. "I raped him."
Jay just sat there and stared at Jeff for two very long minutes. Then he closed his eyes and scrunched up his face.
"What?" Jeff asked in a worried tone. He could feel his heart start to beat very fast.
"That's just…wow. I'm not sure if I should be turned on by the thought of you being dominant or worried about you wanting to top me now. I don't like bottoming all that much."
Jeff stared at Jay in shock. That hadn't been what he had been expecting to hear. "You aren't disgusted by what I did?"
"Disgusted?" Jay repeated in disbelief. "Jeff, after everything he's done to all of us, that fucking punk deserved it! Besides, I love you, and I've waited too damn long to have you to give you up just because you gave Orton a dose of his own medicine."
Jeff sighed in relief. He had wanted this to go that easily, but he hadn't expected it to. "You have no idea how relieved I am right now," he said as he sat down next to Jay.
Jay grinned. "I'm glad I can help." He moved a strand of hair out of Jeff's face. "You know, Matt and Adam will probably entertain themselves. "We could--"
Jeff interrupted Jay with a kiss. Jay responded just as eagerly and soon they were laying back on the bed, their hands awkwardly taking each others clothes off because they were trying to go too fast at the same time. "Damn it to hell, why does your shirt have so many buttons?" Jeff asked.
Jay shrugged and started trying to help Jeff. "I don't know. You should ask my mother that question. She bought it for me."
Jeff finally managed to get Jay shirtless and then he flipped them over so he was on top. "I want to taste you," he said as he slipped Jay's pants and boxers off.
Jay moaned and grabbed Jeff's hair as Jeff's mouth slid around his cock. Jeff began sucking Jay for all he was worth, forgetting about Randy completely for the first time since the entire mess had started. Right now, it was about him and Jay, which was what he had wanted in the first fucking place.
"Jeff…hold on," Jay panted.
Jeff removed his mouth and looked up at Jay. "What?"
Jay swallowed heavily. "Do you trust me?"
Jeff sensed the question that Jay was really trying to ask. "You want to fuck me?"
Jay nodded. "Only if you want to."
Jeff thought about it--for two seconds that is. "Okay," he agreed. He kissed Jay on the lips before rolling them over so the older man was on top of him. "I trust you."
Jay grinned a little before kissing him. Jeff got so lost in the kiss that he didn't notice Jay grabbing his lube until he felt himself being prepped. "Mmmm…hurry up," he pleaded. "I need more than your fingers."
"Hold on love," Jay said as he continued to work his fingers in and out of Jeff's body while scissoring them.
Jeff whined and pouted his lips. "Don't want to hang on. I want you now."
That request was too much for Jay to resist. He removed his fingers and rubbed some lube on to his dick before pushing into Jeff gently. Jeff moaned and wrapped his arms around Jay's neck and his legs around his waist. After everything he had been through with Randy, one would think he would be nervous about being in this position, but he knew he didn't need to feel that way with Jay. Jay wasn't going to hurt him. Jay actually cared about him and didn't need to hurt him to make himself feel like a man.
"Jeff," Jay groaned. "So tight…"
"Jay," Jeff gasped as he clawed at the blonde's back. "Oh fuck…oh baby…" Jay felt so damn good inside of him that he couldn't think of any words to describe it.
They continued moving in synch with each other, not giving a damn about whether Matt and Adam hearing them. Jeff could feel himself quickly approaching the edge and he could tell Jay was just as close as he was. "Jay!" he cried out as he came, closing his eyes as he felt Jay filling him with his cum.
Jay closed his eyes and rested his head on Jeff's shoulder. He was panting for breath now. "Love you Jeff," he said quietly.
Jeff grinned. "Love you too babe."
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A/N: Aw, how sweet…I felt like we all needed a break from the forced sex. But just how long is that break going to last? Hmmm…*laughs evilly and thinks about what the hell Randy must be thinking at this point*
