He put his hand on my throat and started to feel for a pulse, he shouted to Will "we need to get Toni to the hospital, her pulse is way down I think that we are going to lose her…"
I watched Will grab the phone and dial 911, "I need an ambulance, my wife collapsed and she hasn't come around yet and now her blood pressure is now dropping." The operator replied "Ambulance is on its way and should be there in 10 minutes." Will turned to Sam and asked "Can you wait for the ambulance downstairs and show the paramedics up when they arrive; I can't leave." Sam said "No problem," and headed downstairs to wait.
Will sat next to me on the bed and whispered in my ear "Toni, you have to come back to me. You can't leave me alone, not now, I need you, and the twins need their mother. I can't raise them on my own. I don't know how to be a parent to two children let alone two special kids. I don't know how to teach them to use those abilities." My heart was breaking listening to him spill out everything he was feeling. All I wanted to do was hold him in my arms and tell him that it was going to be alright. That was hard as I wasn't convinced that it would be. John wouldn't have suddenly appeared without a reason, and I was starting to think that he maybe he was there to take me 'home' with him.
Aidan started to cry, and Cole started his mobile turning. I walked to the cots and stood between them, reached down and stroked their foreheads and said "It's alright boys. Daddy's just upset at the moment. Don't worry everything is going to be alright. I turned around and realized that John was standing behind me looking at the twins. "John, you didn't answer me. Now that Lilith is dead and the family is safe is it time for me to leave? Is that why you are here, to take me back with you?" John smiled at me and said "I'm not sure how this is going to turn out or what is going to happen. I'm here because when you banished Lilith and collapsed you called out to me and God let me come down here to be with you."
We smiled at each other, and I continued "John, I'd like you to your nephews, Cole Dean Matthew William Talbot born on 25th April and Aidan John Robert Samuel Talbot born on 26th April." John pulled me into a hug and said "Beanpole, they are beautiful children. I know that you will be an amazing mother; you were amazing with Dean and Sam when they were babies. I am surprised though as I thought that you would be the one to rebel and break the family tradition and not include a Sam in your child's name." I looked at him with a broad smile "Yes, I included Sam but about honoring your Sam and not keeping up the family tradition. We also included John, Dean, Matthew, Robert and William to honor all the important men in our lives."
Dean came in and picked up Aidan hoping that he could calm him down and then in turn calm his brother down. Dean sat down in the armchair and started humming "Ramblin' Man" to Aidan as in the past he had used this to calm him down. John watched him with Aidan and a look of pride came over his face, I turned to him and said "He is brilliant with his cousins. You should be very proud of them Sam and Dean are amazing men." John said "I am but I can't take the credit, I didn't really raise them. I was so caught up with chasing down the thing that took Mary from me I pretty much left Dean to raise himself and Sam. I regret that I never got to the chance to tell Sam, I did tell Dean but I think that it got lost when I told him that he may have to kill Sam." When I heard John say that I yelled at him "You told Dean what", reached over and thumped him. Aidan screamed suddenly and the mobile over Cole's bed went manic. I walked up behind Dean and learned down to Aidan and said "I'm sorry baby; Mummy was really mad at Uncle John but it's alright now. Can you calm down for her please?"
Sam came in followed by two paramedics, checked my vitals put me onto the stretcher, took me downstairs and out to the waiting ambulance. Will turned to Dean, Sam and Bobby (who had followed them upstairs) and said "can someone stay here with the boy, we can't take them to the hospital with us." Dean looked at Sam and then at the twins "I'll stay here," he said "and Sam and Bobby can with you, I'm sure you'll appreciate the support at the hospital and you'll need someone there to bring you home later." Again, I could feel the wave of pride coming from John. In spite of everything that Dean had seen, he was still a man who put the thought and feelings of others before himself. In that moment I knew that if Aidan and Cole turned out half as well as Dean I would be as proud a parent as John was. I was torn as I wanted to know what was happening to my body, but I also wanted to be at home with my boys. If this was going to be my last night on earth I didn't want to pass it separated from my boys. John looked at me and said "It's ok, I know what you are thinking but you can get back here at anytime go be with your body and see if that answers any questions."
Thirty minutes later I was lying on a gurney at the hospital. The doctor in charge of my treatment had ordered an MRI. Sam and Bobby arrived at the hospital about 10 minutes after Will and I. Sam volunteered to complete the medical forms for Will so that he could be with me. After the doctor completed the initial tests, Will sat beside me holding my hand and talking to me in the hope that he would get some response. He was still concerned that he had not been able to pick up any emotions from me. Sam and Bobby walked into the room and Will looked at Sam and said "Are you picking up anything, cos I still can't feel her." Sam shook his head and look deflated "I'm sorry Will, I can't feel anything either. The spirit board and the way that the twins were reacting lead me to believe that Toni's still around somewhere and we will get her back." Will looked at him and said "I hope so, I can't lose her. We can't lose her." Fifteen minutes later and they wheeled my body off to the MRI. Whilst my body was off having the scan I watched as Will, and Sam paced the room and Bobby sat in the corner of the room.
Bobby got up and left the room, I watched him go and I was surprised that he would do that as Bobby had come to be with Will. Bobby was the closest thing to family that Will had and he wanted to be there for him. I followed him through the hospital until he reached Chapel, he entered and sat in the front pew. With everything that Bobby had dealt with in his life I hadn't realized that Bobby believed in a greater power so seeing him at that moment made my heart break. I sat next to him in the pew, put my hand on his shoulder hoping to give him some comfort as he started praying "God, this isn't something that I do very often, I know that I should show up more often. Please don't hold that against this family. I need you to bring Toni back, she's needed here. The family has had too much heart break in their life already; demons took Will's and both of Sam and Dean's parents. Demons have broken apart this family for over two decades and it has only just come back together again, please give them the opportunity to do that. I know that she has brought Will alive again. He was so lost after his parents' death and that when he met me he was out for vengeance and didn't see anything apart from getting back at what had taken them away from him. He met Toni and for the first time in a long time he saw that there was something else worth living for apart from revenge."
I suddenly felt a tug in my heart and found myself back beside my body in the room in the ER. I was watching as Will seemed to collapse in a heap on the floor and Sam leading him to one of the chairs. Sam turned to the doctor and said "A Cerebral Aneurysm. What do you have to do now?" The doctor said "We need to take her to surgery immediately where the neuro-surgeon will perform an endovascular coil. The surgeon will pass a catheter into the aneurysm, and release a series of platinum coils, the coils will initiate clotting and this should eliminate the aneurysm. Mr. Talbot, I need you to sign the surgery release form before we can proceed." Sam turned to Will "Will are you with us? You need to sign this so they can Toni to surgery and bring her back to us." Will stood up from the chair, walked up took the forms signed them and handed them back "How long will she be in surgery? When she comes back how long will she be unconscious for?" The doctor turned to Will and said "Let me get Mrs. Talbot into surgery and then I will come back and answer all your questions." The doctor left the room and Bobby walked back in and looked at Will and Sam and could tell something huge had happened. Both of them had had tears in their eyes. Will walked to the bed and started to stroke my head and said "Stay strong baby. We know what's wrong now. We'll get you back you just need to stay with us for a little while longer. OK, can you do that for me?" As he was talking to me, two orderlies came in to take me down to surgery, Will leaned over kissed my forehead and said "We'll see you in a couple of hours.." The doctor reappeared and said "Follow me I'll show you where you can wait for Mrs. Talbot to come out of surgery and answer any questions you have"
Sam turned to Will and said "I'm going to go and get some coffee and let Dean know what is going on? Who else wants a coffee? Bobby, you staying in the waiting room with Will?" Bobby replied "I'll take a coffee, and yes I'm going to stay with Will. I think that's where I'm needed now." Will looked up as though he had suddenly realized that a conversation was happening around him. "What's going on. Someone should let Dean know what's happening and that we won't back at the house tonight." Sam said "Yeah, I'm going to grab coffee and call Dean and let him know what's up. Do you want a coffee?" Will said "Yeah, that would be great. We'll meet you in the waiting room." Will and Bobby walked off towards the waiting room and Sam headed to the cafeteria to place the call and grab the coffees.
I felt myself being pulled again but this time it was back to the house and my twins. I was back in the nursery at home and saw Dean with Cole on his lap humming to him; Aidan was asleep in his cot. Shortly after I got back the phone rang and Dean got up walked into the bedroom picked up the phone and I heard his side of the conversation with Sam. Dean's face feel as Sam told him I was in surgery and was suffering from a burst brain aneurysm. I looked at John at this point and said "what happens now, do you know." John said "I'm sorry Beanpole; I really don't know what is going to happen. I will stay with you throughout though, you want be alone."
Back at the hospital Will, Bobby and Sam had been informed that the surgery would likely take 3 hours. They were passing the time by alternating between sitting placidly in the waiting room and pacing back and forth, occasionally someone made a run to the cafeteria for coffee. Nurses had been coming in to the room every 30 minutes to keep us updated, the Winchester name and the donations to the hospital went someway to the preferred treatment. Two hours into the surgery, and things took a turn and the alarms on the monitors started bleeping madly. The surgeon shouted out, I need the paddles we are losing her…
