I apologize if there are any medical inaccuracies; I did my best at research on Google.

Two hours into the surgery, and things took a turn and the alarms on the monitors started bleeping madly. The surgeon shouted out, I need the paddles we are losing her…


The heart monitor was showing signs of 'Ventricular tachycardia', the heart rate was speeding up and irregular. The paddles were passed to the surgeon, who shouted "Stand clear" the surgeon released the charge. The lines on the monitors were slowing down and showing a more regular pattern. The surgeon said "we need to finish this off and get her out of the OR onto the ward as I'm not sure her heart can take much more stress."

Back in the nursery I was watching over my twin sons. In the corner of the room a brilliant light appeared and I felt a sudden rush of warmth and peace pass through me. I turned to John and said "is this it, is time to go now." John said "I don't know, that decision is down to you; the doorway is open but it is up to you whether or not you make that transition. As I said before whatever your decision I will be there with you."

I turned back to look at Dean holding Cole humming to him, I walked up behind him and leant down and whispered in Cole's ear "It's ok baby, Mummy's coming home, I just need to work out how to get here." At that Cole looked up and over Dean's shoulder and Dean looked at him and said "Hey, buddy, what's up. Can you see your mummy? Is she still here?" At that moment the phone rang, Dean reached over and picked it up "Hello, what's up." On the other end was Sam telling Dean what was happening "There has been a problem in the operating room, Toni's crashing and we don't know if she's going to make it." Dean responded "Sam, tell Will she's going to make it. She's here and has been talking to Cole." I walked across to the spirit board and started to move the table around; Cole cooed in Dean's arms and leaned towards the board which brought Dean's attention to it.

"Minnie says I Love you and that I'm not going anywhere, and I'll see you soon"

Dean said "Sam, I think I've got a message for Will from Toni." He gave Sam the message, Sam relayed the message to Will and in return said "That's great Dean, Will's smiling, it's the first time I've seen him smile in 5 hours and he is looking hopeful. Hold on a second the nurse has just come out of the operating room for our half hourly check." With Cole sat on his lap Dean thought that it was taking forever for Sam to come back and update him on what was happening, in reality it was just over a minute later. "Dean, they thought that they were going to lose her for a while but they managed to get her heart back into rhythm again.

Dean asked "So she's going to be alright then?" Sam replied "We should get a better idea of what is going to happen in an hour. They will have finished inserting the endovascular coil and she will be in recovery waiting to move into ICU." "Sam, ICU! Why is she going into ICU?" I could hear the near panic in his voice, and I walked across to the chair and gently stroked Cole's head to keep him calm, the last thing that Dean needed was two anxious babies and things flying around the nursery. On the other end of the phone Sam was saying "Dean calm down, it's standard procedure, it's so they can monitor her closely for the next 24hrs and then she'll be transferred into a private room. I know that you are really concerned about Toni, and that you are in your natural protective mode but you need to stay calm. Remember that Aidan can pick up on your emotions and transmit that to Cole." Dean nodded and said "I know Sammy it's just really hard being so far away and not being able to do anything. It reminds me of how I felt when you disappeared on me, and you've done that three times and look how well they all turned out." "I know Dean, but I'm safe now and so are you. We didn't really get a chance to think about this before everything happened but you're safe, really safe, Lilith and her hell-hounds are not going to drag you to hell anymore Dean. You get to live your life and we have a new family to go along with it. We have a clean page in the Winchester Journal."

Dean smiled and said "I know Sam, just get back here soon. I will need some help when Aidan wakes up so far Cole has been pretty quiet but with them both awake it could get noisy really fast. Every now and then, I swear Toni is talking to him and keeping him calm, I'm assuming that when her body heals her 'soul' will be dragged back to it. Mine did in South Dakota and once she has gone then the twins will only have my emotions to pick up on and you know that's probably not a good thing.." Sam laughed on the other end of the phone and said "As soon as Toni is out of surgery, I'll leave Bobby here with Will and come back."

Just over an hour later and Sam walked into the house, climbed the stairs to the nursery and saw Dean sitting in the chair with Cole resting against one arm and Aidan laying on his back staring up at his mobile in his crib. Sam looked at his older brother and his heart melted this was his Dean the big brother that he had wanted back for so many months, the brother he had begged to come back six months ago in that ramshackle motel room. Dean looked up and said "I'm glad you're back Aidan has just woken up and they both need to eat. With everything going on I didn't want to leave the nursery to go prepare something whilst Aidan was asleep and Cole was with me, I thought if he woke up and couldn't sense his brother in the room he might freak out." Sam nodded at his brother and disappeared downstairs to prepare two bottles for the boys.

Back at the hospital I had been moved into the ICU and Will was sitting beside the bed, stroking my hand and talking to me. He had been told that he would have to leave the room in just over an hour as visiting time was over at 9pm. As much as Will wanted to stay with me he knew that he had to listen to the advice of the hospital and he needed to get back and see his boys. He leant in kissed me and said "don't you ever do that to me again. The thought of losing you was killing me. I should be used to it with you working for the FBI but until now it was never something that had crossed my mind as a reality. I'm going to go home and check on the twins but before I do could you please open your eyes just to let me know your ok." He was stroking my hand and I could feel it, which was something that I hadn't done since I had been disconnected from my body.

I was becoming more and more aware of my surroundings and could feel his hand move up and down my arm. As I became more aware of my surroundings my hand twitched underneath Will's hand, he reached up to my face and stroked down the side of it "Toni, are you there? Can you hear me?" While he was reaching up to my face he also pressed the alarm button for the nurses' station. One of the nurses appeared at the door looked at Will and said "You buzzed." Will said "Yes, I think that my wife is coming around. She just moved her hand." As he finished the sentence, my hand moved on the side of the bed coming up towards my nose, I had a horrendous itch that I needed to scratch. "Did you see that" he said to the nurse, "yes" she said, "I'll get the neuro-surgeon."

Shortly after the nurse left, my eyelids started to flutter and I slowly opened my eyes and turned my head and looked at Will. I attempted to say something but my throat was dry and as Will was about to pass me a drink the neuro-surgeon walked in. "Wait a minute Mr. Talbot, Mrs. Talbot can have a small sip of water and then I want to check her over." Will passed me a glass of water with a straw, so that I could take a couple of small sips. The neuro-surgeon walked towards me and he said "Mrs. Talbot, do you know where you are?" I attempted to speak and let her know that I wasn't sure as the last thing I remembered I was at home in my study. All that came out was a deep rasp, Will looked at me and said "it's ok, take it slowly and have another sip of water." The surgeon looked back at me and said "Mrs. Talbot, my name is Dr Jamie Brodie I'm a neuro-surgeon here at Georgetown University Hospital. You were brought in 7 hours ago with a Cerebral Aneurysm; we took you into surgery to insert an endovascular coil. We are going to keep you in ICU for the next 24 hours to monitor your condition and then we will move you into a private room. We have you on Do you have any other questions?" I looked at Dr Brodie and said gruffly "No, that's fine. I don't have any questions at the moment, but if I think of anything I will ask one of the nurses or speak to you before I'm moved." Dr Brodie turned to the nurse that had followed her into the room and said "Check blood pressure and temperature every ten minutes and let me know if there are any changes." Dr Brodie left the room and said "Mrs. Talbot, I'll see you tomorrow. Mr. Talbot you have thirty minutes and then you have to leave, Mrs. Talbot needs her rest."

I looked at Will and motioned for another sip of water and took a couple of sips handed Will back the glass. He sat on the edge of the bed, grabbed my hand and said "Hey there beautiful, welcome back" Will said "you really had me and everyone worried." I said in no more than a whisper "I'm sorry I worried you. What happened? Why am I in the hospital? If you're here, who's with the twins? Are they safe? The doctor said something about a Cerebral Aneurysm but the last thing I remember is preparing to trap Lilith. Did we get her? Is she gone? Is Dean safe?" Will looked up at me and said "Toni, please calm down. I'll answer your questions but you need to calm down or you're going to send your blood pressure up again. First things first, the twins are fine Dean and Sam are looking after them. Dean has been with them since we brought you into the hospital and Sam went home when you came out of surgery." I looked up at him and he said "Bobby is downstairs in the waiting room. You're only allowed one visitor at a time. Lilith is gone, the twins and Dean are safe. We'll talk about how reckless you were when you're out of ICU and at home." I looked at him sheepishly, and said "I'm sorry you know that I love you don't you?" My eyes were getting heavy and I really wanted to sleep again, Will looked at me and said "Sleep, you need your rest and I need to get home and see the boys. I will be back first thing in the morning." He then left me to my sleep and went back home to our family.