He leant down and kissed me on the forehead, slowly stroking my hair away from my face and held onto my hand. He whispered "I love you so much, can you please stop scaring me like that. I don't know what I would do if I lost you." I looked back at him and with the hand that he was holding spelt out "I love you 2. I'm sorry."


When I arrived at the hospital they called for Dr Brodie, who ran some tests and sent me home the following day with. Sam picked us from the hospital while Dean and Bobby stayed at home with the twins. When we arrived home, Dean and Bobby met us at the door with Aidan and Cole. We moved into the living room and sat down, Dean handed Cole to me and Sam passed Aidan to Will and said "who wants a drink?" Dean and Sam took our drinks orders and went to the kitchen made the drinks and then came back 5 minutes later with them.

I looked around the men gathered around the room and started "Well I suppose you want to know what happened? To start off John was telling the truth. I thought that I had died and was being escorted to the great beyond when I was met by someone walking out of a bright light. As he approached I realised that it wasn't someone I recognised from family pictures or that I had met before. When he reached me he introduced himself as Ramiel."

When I mentioned the name Ramiel, Sam jumped in and said "Ramiel isn't he the angel of hope and responsible for divine visions, and guiding the souls of the faithful into heaven." Everyone looked at Sam and Dean said "Dude, I've said it before you're a walking encyclopedia of weirdness." Sam looked back at his brother and said "I know it's what comes of spending time in college and as the resident researcher for a family of hunters."

I coughed slightly and said "Is it ok if I continue my story, or do you two want to have a brotherly discussion on the merits of good research." Everyone looked at me as though I had two heads, normally I was fairly laid back and for me to comment like that meant that something was up. Sam and Dean both held their hands up in surrender and said in unison "Sorry, please continue."

I took a quick sip of my drink and continued with my tale. "As Sam stated Ramiel is indeed the angel of hope, and he's credited with two tasks: he's responsible for divine visions and guiding the souls of the faithful into heaven. At first I thought that this time it was finally my time and that he had come 'to take me home' as the saying goes. It turns out that there is more to Ramiel. Ramiel is the Winchester sire. You know that John told us about the fallen angels and the arch-angels. Ramiel is one of the arch-angels, he is the one responsible for all of the powers that we have." I continued to relate the story that Ramiel had told me to everyone.

When I looked around the room, I could tell that Sam was relaxing for the first time in a long time. It was as though he had finally accepted that the abilities he had were not born from something evil. That he was not destined to turn evil and that he could possibly have a 'normal' life. Dean seemed to be shocked that everything he believed was being turned on its head. Bobby sat there with the deep research look on his face and I could tell that he was itching to get his head into a book. Will walked up to me took me in his arms and said "I'm sorry that you went through all that and that you had to learn all that on your own. I think it's you should go and lay down; you did only get out of the hospital this morning. Head upstairs and I'll be up with the twins in a minute, and you can lie down together. I think that they need to spend some time with their mum and I think that the rest of us need to let this sink in."

I grabbed a glass of water from the kitchen on my way upstairs, and went into the master bedroom changed out of the clothes I'd been wearing for the last 48hrs and headed into the bathroom. I decided before I laid down for a rest I needed to clean up, shortly after I stepped into the shower I saw a shadow walk past the screen door. The door slid backwards and someone stepped in behind me. I turned around and gently hit Will as he reached towards me and pulled me towards him. "You nearly gave me a heart attack, do I need to remind you that I only got out of the hospital this morning." He learned down gently kissed me and answered "I'm sorry. It's just I love you and needed to spend some time with you alone, I had intended to come up here and lie down on the bed with you but then I heard the shower and decided that I'd join you." As he was talking to me he reached up and grabbed hold of the shampoo bottle and said "Lean your head back, I 'm going to give you a head massage to relax you and then you can go lie down and take a nap. While you're doing that I'm going to check in with Dean, Sam and Bobby." I looked at him with puppy eyes and said "So, you're not going to come and take a nap with me anymore than. A shower is all I get." He turned to me and said "We have guests; I know that they're family but I just want to check that they're ok and I'll be back up. I also need to get the boys their milk."

Will very carefully massaged my head as he washed my hair and we both then got out of the shower. He very gently wrapped my robe around me and I headed towards the nursery to look in on Aidan and Cole. I sat in the rocking chair in the corner with Aidan and Cole in each arm and started to hum 'Hallelujah' to them at which point the music system in the corner turned on and started to play 'Something inside so strong'. I looked at my boys and said "OK, so Mummy doesn't hum very well." Aidan turned in my arms towards the bedroom door and 'Father and Son' started to play instead. From this I knew that Aidan had seen his father in the doorway and that Cole through his link with his brother was aware of him to. Shortly after my first incident we noticed that particular pieces of music would play when certain people were around them. For me it was 'The River' by Garth Brooks, for Will it was 'Father and Son' by Yusuf Islam, for Bobby it was 'Luckenbach, Texas' by Waylon Jennings , for Sam it was 'What a wonderful world ' by Sam Cooke and for Dean it was 'Ramblin On' by Led Zepplin. This had changed over time as at one point whenever Dean was near the boys in the nursery you could hear 'Some kind of monster' by Metallicar. This was the song that Dean had hummed to Cole when I was in the hospital the first time.

I looked up at Will and smiled and he walked into the room. I asked "Is everything ok downstairs?" He smiled back at me and said "Yes, Toni everything is fine. Sam and Bobby are in heavy research mode and Dean is cleaning his guns. You know that's what they do when they are concerned about anything." He picked up Cole and walked to the other chair in the nursery sat down in it and handed me one of the bottles he was holding. We started to feed Aidan and Cole and then put them down for a nap, after which we walked into the bedroom, changed into t-shirts and sweats, and lay down on the bed next to each other and took a nap.

We were awoken a couple of hours later when the stereo in the boys room started to play 'Knocking on Heavens Door'. We got up, went into the bedroom and went downstairs to meet with Sam, Dean and Bobby to try and find out what had set the twins off. When we got downstairs, we were met in the hallway by Dean and his friends from college Roger, and Erica. Dean looked at me and said "With everything that's been going I didn't get a chance to run this past you. Is it alright if Roger, Erica and I spend some time in the solarium as we have some a paper due for Calculus and Analytical Geometry, as Math's has always been my strong suit I said that I'd help the others out?" At this both Roger and Erica looked at him, and Erica said "hey, we're not stupid you know just out of practice." Dean leant down to Erica and said "I know that you're not stupid, I didn't mean it like that." As Dean was defending himself I could see the look on her face and knew that she was playing with him and that he hadn't picked up on it yet. Roger was standing in the background laughing at the pair of them. Dean turned to him and said "What you laughing at?" Roger replied "She is pulling your leg and you fall for it every time."

I coughed gently trying not to interrupt them too much and said "of course it's not a problem, you should know by now that I want you to feel at home here. I understand the need to do college work and the tight deadlines that you have. I'm sure that Sam and Bobby have got everything else under control. You know where everything is? Will and I are going to take the boys for a walk, I need to get some fresh air and it will be good for Aidan and Cole as well."

Dean said "Great, we'll see you when you get back. Don't stay out too long; don't forget that you only got out of the hospital this morning." As Dean was saying this Sam and Bobby stepped out from the study and Sam said "Why, what's going on." I turned to him and said "It's ok, Dean is going to study with Erica and Roger in the solarium, and they've got a calculus paper due and they going to help each other with it. Will and I are going for a walk with Aidan and Cole" as Sam stepped forward as though he was going to go with us, I put my hand to his chest and said "Sam, its ok. Will and I are going to take the boys for a walk around the block everything is going to be alright. You stay here and help Bobby with the search for Samael and Ramiel in our family tree."

Erica and Roger turned to Dean and said "your researching Samael, isn't the name of the mate of the first demon that Lucifer turned." As a group we all turned and looked at them and said "You know about demons and Lucifer. How do you know about these things and why aren't you wigging out right now."

What do Roger and Erica know about Demons, and can they help the Winchesters in their upcoming battle