Aurora

By AimeexLauren

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A/N: It's been 10 days since I last updates O__o I am soooooo sorry! Blame my coursework deadlines! I have updated Surviving Seventeen more recently and been working hard on my twilight website. Well here is the chappy and again I apologise. Reviews = Loveeee 3

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Points Of View (POV): Aurora

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Chapter Four - Maria

Aurora's POV

I sat there at the window staring into the rain and at that moment I realised just how much I missed the sunshine. It seamed that all Forks did was rain! I sighed as I pressed my forehead to the glass, my wet curls tumbled over my shoulders gently ending at the small of my back and I caught a small piece starting to twirl it with my finger.

"...once you have found yourself come back to me."

Aro's words spun around my head and I banged my forehead against the glass once exhaling heavily.

Immortalitly was confusing.

Confusing and complicated.

I groaned.

I didn't want to put ties down here but I really longed to be close to Jasper. I couldn't explain it, without Jasper I was a cold and heartless bitch but as I sat here my still heart ached for him, my heart was warming.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder...

I let out a small laugh even though there was no amusment in it. How true one small quote could be.

For the first time since becoming a vampire I was well and truely stuck between my heart and my head. It was like a conscience, annoying but as much as you push it away it was always there.

"Am I missing a private joke?" a musical voice asked and my head snapped around to see the bronze haired vampire standing in my doorway. My wet curls smacked against the glass as the room was silent.

Edward.

"Excuse me?" I asked raising my eyebrows, I was so caught up in my thoughts that I never heard him. I really need to stop doing that, I should be more aware of my surroundings.

"Sorry I didn't mean to intrude." he said sincerly, a crooked smile spread across his face and I turned back to stare out the window.

"No, there was no joke. My head is....full." I said hesitating as I tried to pick the right word with care. He couldn't read my thoughts due to Bella's shield that she never even realised she had.

Stupid human girl.

I could control it, shape it...use it.

I may have gained her shield but I also felt her love, the love she felt forr Edward.

I wanted it.

I wanted to be loved.

Edward let out a small laugh and ran a hand through his hair, he was totally oblivious to my continuous confusion.

"Thank-you." he whispered and I turned to look at him again, his eyes were burning. He was feeling guily and responsible as the desire to kill was looming behind his golden eyes. The feroscity of it could only relate back to one thing.

Bella.

Love gives people the power to break you...

"For what? Bella?" I said quietly and he nodded, I gave a small smile.

"No problem. No one deserves a fate like that." I said looking at my nails. Edward growled. "You love her?"

I was curious, self discipline so strong he can kiss her, hold her, touch her...

I winced.

You don't know love until you've been left heartbroken.

He didn't reply and I sighed.

"I didn't mean to intrude, I am honestly curious." I told him and he nodded.

"Can I come in?" he asked. I gave him a nod and my eyes never left his face as he sat on window seat next to me. "I love her alot. I'm hoping she doesn't have such a strong love for me too..." he trailed off.

I could read his fears. He didn't want to doom her to this life, wanting to protect her but too selfish to let her go. Little did he know she felt the same.

When I looked closely at their relationship "Selfish" suddenly seamed like the most beautiful word ever.

"Love's a bitch." I sighed and I turned to stare at the window again so that I could compose my face. Love was a touchy subject, I bit my lip and closed my eyes. Edward sighed.

"I agree."

My phone beeped.

I nodded opening my eyes, I turned to look at him and ran a hand through my hair. It was pretty obvious that Bella and Edward would remain together, I looked at the vision that Alice had of Bella and my brows furrowed.

"You going to answer that?" Edward asked pointing to my pocket.

I read the message on my phone.

'Keep a close eye on the Cullens, notes will do. Strength and ability. Aro.'

It wasn't nessacary, the Cullen's were good vampries, not a threat. They didn't deserve to be put under observation. I put the phone back into my pocket. I'd ring Aro later.

"Nothing of much importance." I said and Edward nodded. It was silent for a few moments.

"Can I say something?" I asked and he nodded. I took a deep breath.

"I am honestly trying not to be rude but you love her, she loves you. You are both too selfish to let the other go. You belong together." I said seriously. Edward looked away and there was a knock on the door.

Was this room the local stop by? I kept my eyes on Edward.

"Aurora?" his voice made my head snap towards him. As I stared at his angelic face I stopped breathing. Jasper stood there water glistening like diamonds in his hair.

"Yes Jasper?" I asked quietly. I turned to look out of the window, I didn't want to fall back furthur in love with him.

That would keep me here.

That would lead to a fight.

I could feel Edward's eyes on my face. He got up and left as he passed by Jasper he spoke.

"I don't want to make her a monster." he said and with that he left. I closed my eyes and banged my head against the glass again.

My eyes opened when I felt his hand on my shoulder, I quickly shoved it off and I sensed the hurt coming off him. So could he sense the love and pain coming off me?

Yes he could.

I bit my lip.

"Aurora?"

"Yes." I hissed and I heard him sit down. I sighed.

"I'm glad you stayed..." I could feel my cold heart fighting to stay cold, to ignore the comment to brush them off, to stop the heartbreak. I didn't want it to learn to love again.

"Tell me." I whispered.

"Tell you what?"

"How you stopped being Jasper Whitlock and became Jasper Hale." I said quietly. He hesitated but when I turned to look at him he took a steady breath and started his story.

"While on duty I was evacutating women and children. I came across three beautiful women and dismounted to offer my help. Their names were Nettie, Lucy and Maria. Maria turned me, they wanted to take back terriotries. I was turned to join their army..."

I watched the scene in his head and when he saw Maria, I stopped breathing and my hand gripped the seat. Jasper stopped and looked at me, my fist slapped down against the seat splinting the wood and Jasper hands wrapped around my wrists to restrain me.

I started to sob.

I hadn't sobbed in so long that I couldn't stop...

"What's wrong?" Jasper begged, my heart breaking. Maria -- my sister turned Jasper, the same as she'd saved me. She was the reason he never came back.

"My family made you like this." I sobbed out and I felt his arms embrace me. I had always blamed Jasper for the reason I become a vampire but to know it was actually my sister...

I was glad she was dead.

"Excuse me?" he asked, his voice was pained. His hand rubbed circles in my back comforting.

"My sister turned you." I whispered, the sobbing was coming to an end but my head was still pressed against his chest.

"Sister? Daisy?" he asked. I shook my head violently.

"No, my sister that dissappeared when I was little. Remember? Maria?" I said again and he gasped. I stared at the cresent shaped scars that were criss-crossed on his muscular arms and followed them with my hand.

I'm so sorry Jasper.

I'm so sorry.

The room was silent, I tried to gather my thoughts but as I read through his memories one question popped out of my mouth uncontrolably.

"You were in her army when she changed me, how come you didn't go with her that night?" I asked confused, from Jasper's memories he never left Maria's side.

"She'd go off to change newborns and i'd train them." he replied softly.

"Her and newborns, that's the reason she's dead..." I scoffed, I tried to regain composure.

"Dead?!" Jasper interrupted shocked, he pulled away.

"Yes, about four years ago she waged a war against the Volturi..." I said trailing off, I winced at the memory. He kissed my head softly and I gripped the collar on his shirt, I looked up into his eyes and leaned in to kiss him. I heard Alice's approach and turned my head at the last minute to touch the glass. I still gripped onto Jasper's shirt

Stupid, perfect timing, stepford wife, furture seeing pixie!

"Jaz we are going hunting now, Aurora do you want to come?" Alice sang. I released my grip and turned to look at her. I shook my head staying silent. Jasper got up slowly and walked towards the door. I layed down on the window seat my forehead pressed up against the glass.

"What's her problem?" I heard Alice ask Jasper and then the door closed. I exhaled loudly and closed me eyes, I bit down on my lip and felt the phone in my pocket vibrate again.

Go away Aro! I want to be left alone...